Derealization
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No Weapon But Hate by Carmarthen
Fandoms: Les Misérables - Victor Hugo, Les Misérables - All Media Types
23 Mar 2013
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Jean Valjean realizes that there is yet more that Toulon could take from him.
Note: This story contains some offscreen rape of OCs, perceived sexual threat from someone in authority, a brief mention of suicide, internalized homophobia, and the main character spends much of his time dissociated from his surroundings. There is no graphic onscreen rape.
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And I saw the multitude of faces, honest, rich and clean. | He knows the difference between alive and dead. He knows it very well.
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Patriotic by E14
Fandoms: Les Misérables - All Media Types, Les Misérables (2012), Les Misérables - Victor Hugo, Les Misérables - Schönberg/Boublil
30 Oct 2014
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A new member joins Les Amis, and he seems to be the perfect revolutionary; even Enjolras is impressed with him. Grantaire, however, is cautious and is later forced to make an ultimate sacrifice for the sake of the Revolution.
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- Part 2 of The Price We Pay
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we, in the eye of the storm by weatheredlaw
Fandoms: Marvel (Comics), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (2012)
24 Jul 2013
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"If we don't end war, war will end us." -- H.G. Wells
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//Well, okay, here’s the thing - they say they know it’s not real, but sometimes they’re lying in bed and they feel like they can’t move and they feel empty and they don’t feel like a solid being and they don’t know what being dead feels like and they don’t know what not being real feels like but they’re pretty sure if either of those things even had a feeling, it would be this.//
Newt doesn't ever tell anyone, but they're pretty sure they're not real.
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there's a song we sing together by weatheredlaw
Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types, Thor (Movies)
28 Aug 2013
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He might be a screw up, and he might never be totally okay, but Clint does know one thing.
He knows what's keeping him going. And he's pretty sure he knows what saved him.
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I will write one piece every day for the entire year. Please be careful of warnings for each chapter.
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Fred is gone and coping is far beyond their reach.
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Matthew helps Will through the day he found out Beverly died.
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It's lonely out there, and it's hard to get through the night when you only have good memories of someone to sleep through it with.
(a two part poetry fic from both Cecil and Carlos' point of view.)
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The division is clear, between harriers and hunted. And he's on the wrong side of it.
Negatoys.
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So here you are, in the future. The rest is more complicated.
OR: Bucky Barnes learns how to be angry again.
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"Don't fall in love. Because if you do, your existence will fade from the world. This is a warning for your personal rapture."
Haruka thinks about this for a moment, before shrugging it off altogether. In the face of starless skies and impending doom, the solution, to him, is simple.
"Well...I guess I won't fall in love, then."
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hang your hat at somebody else's house by orphan_account for singingtomysoul
Fandoms: It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia
13 Nov 2014
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Something is deeply wrong with the world and it’s making Dennis very sick.
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- Part 1 of Checking In
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Second collection of stuff I written on/for tumblr. Some funny, some sexy, some violent, some kinky, and one Very-Bad-On-Purpose.
Follow me on tumblr: FuckYeahFightLock.tumblr.com
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Captain America: Before the Storm (Scenes) by ilgaksu
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Captain America - All Media Types
02 Mar 2015
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"Bucky? You all good?"
A collection of scenes from Captain America: Before the Storm, a precis script for a Brooklyn-era prequel film.
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A Faded Kind of Blue by pocket_cheese
Fandoms: DRAMAtical Murder - All Media Types, DRAMAtical Murder (Visual Novel)
27 Apr 2015
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Boketto (ボケット, ぼけっと) - To gaze vacantly into the distance, without thinking
...but Sly Blue can't stop thinking
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“Sometimes…sometimes I don’t feel like I’m human anymore. Sometimes I lose control of my body. I look at myself in the mirror and I don’t recognize the person staring back. Because I’m not a person. I’m a monster."
Or the one where Harry finds Niall when he's dissociating.
Trigger warnings for self harm, borderline personality disorder, dissociation, depersonalization, derealization, blood, and probably some other things that I can't think of at the moment. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF THIS MIGHT IN ANY WAY HARM YOU!!!!!!
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Rhys is lost, and found again.
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Don’t worry about Lydia, Scott said, because he probably wants to keep her away from him. Except she's calling him back now, and it coaxes a painful lump to his throat, because of course she’s calling now. Of course she is. (Post 5x09)
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googling derealization (hating what you find) by rukiabraus
Fandoms: Euphoria (TV 2019), Euphoria (TV 2019) RPF
12 Apr 2022
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Hey, what can you say? We were overdue
But it'll be over soon, you wait...
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Fez pulls his girl back when she disassociates.
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Cloud, as a result of the trauma he has experienced, lives in a constant state of dissociation. He is unwilling to reach out for help, but luckily doesn’t have to—Tifa’s new bartender Genesis luckily has some experience with trauma.
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20 Feb 2022
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Most of all, he hated the word that came with ‘dissociation’: derealization . Because that, too, described an experience with unpleasant accuracy.
Cloud had noticed the way things sometimes get unreal to him—of course he had. But it had been happening for so long . Since Nibelheim. He hadn’t registered that as a problem to be fixed —he thought that was just how things were. A hold over from the mako, maybe.
But it had grown in consistency with the dissociation. Most of the time, now, Cloud was left in a strange haze of things not quite feeling real. He knew, objectively and logically, that they must be. They had to be. Everyone else was very convinced this was all real, after all, and he trusted his friends more than he trusted his own head. So if things didn’t quite feel real—like a dream, or like he was in a coma again, or maybe some sort of fever—it was usually negligible enough that he could ignore it. It was a gut instinct feeling, that none of this was actually happening, but he humored its legitimacy, because he trusted his friends.
That was only most of the time, however. Sometimes, it tore him under like a rip current, and it wasn’t something he could ignore anymore. Sometimes it was cloying, the fact that what he was experiencing was not real. It was inescapable, a palpable truth, that none of this mattered because none of it was truly happening. In those moments, he wondered why he was bothering. Why was he polite, when these people weren’t real? Why did he do his job, if this wasn’t the real world? Why did he care if he was rude to his friends, if he ate or didn’t, if he answered his PHS, when none of this was actually happening?
In those moments, where everything felt so undeniably fake to him—thin and tinny and stretched wrong—Cloud had to carefully remind himself of what he accepted as truth. That he trusted his friends, and his friends said this was real. That even if it didn’t feel real, he had to pretend that it was. Because, what was the other option? Throw caution to the wind, do whatever he wanted, and bank entirely on this all being false, and that there wouldn’t be consequences? What if he hurt someone like that? Would it be so bad to follow along, to play pretend, just in case? It was better to err on the side of caution, to act like this was real, because if he didn’t, and it was, he could do so much damage so fast. He didn’t want to become Sephiroth.
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TommyInnit's unbeatable method of avoiding sudden death by eneliii
Fandoms: Video Blogging RPF, Minecraft (Video Game)
25 Jul 2021
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“I uh,” Tommy starts, not knowing how to break this to the hero lightly. He hates to be the bearer of bad news. “I think your powers are broken? It’s not a bad thing of course, but like, I swear you tried to mind control me and it like, totally failed. Which is fine, honestly, don’t feel insecure. Everyone’s power stop working sometimes… I think.”
Sheesh, this is very awkward. Why is no one else talking? Why is Philza looking at him like he grew three heads? Why is the Blade staring at him so intensely? Why is Willow still frozen?
“Did I, did I hit a nerve? Yikes,” Tommy hisses, “Well um,” He steps back, bracing his legs and bending his knees, “This was like super fun, but I’m - I’mma head out.”
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in which Tommy manages to annoy the hell out of Phil, Techno and Wilbur by being both impossible to catch and irritatingly endearing.
or or,
a crack fic where Tommy is a vigilante and Phil, Techno and Wilbur are the heroes hunting him down.
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- Part 1 of vigilante tommy go brrrr
- Part 8 of ecu - eneli cinematic universe
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Bookmarked by PJforever
29 Aug 2021
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Crack fic until chapter 24ish
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oh baby, isnt life so fucking inconsistent by petrichorvibes
Fandoms: Minecraft (Video Game), Dream SMP
01 Jul 2022
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TommyInnit changed soot’s nickname to BALD
BALD: why
TommyInnit changed their nickname to WIFE HAVER
WIFE HAVER: UR JST IN DENIAL WILBRU
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welcome to yet another dream smp-inspired chatfic. it is no longer sbi-centric, i have accepted my bench trio brainrot. we got friendly rivalries, minecraft people, and of course, an upcoming festival. what could go wrong?
rated teen for swearing (as u could probably tell by the title)
if any of the content creators express discomfort with this fic or fanfiction in general they will be edited out/this will be taken down :]
updates come out when they come out (aka probably often)Bookmarked by summer164
19 Jun 2021
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On ch 11
Ch 2 crowfather: i babysat them when i was in middle school
the grind: i am literally one year below you
crowfather: shush child
the grind: ok boomer
resident simp: ...im just gonna add the people i could get
Ch 4murderer: do you take us for people who actually have any life skills or just skills in general
resident simp: im sure there are someon amazon or something
Ch 9 HAVER: wheres ur dad???
BEE BOY: hes the silhouetre ar thw bortom og the brachjes
BEE BOY: hea reallu stirggling to try and guide me safely downt he tree rm
BEE BOY: he was sezrchinf for me for likw 3 houes apparentlu
BEE BOY: i donr want him to come up tho bc idj if tje tree will suppoet borh of us
Ch a0 Relaity breaks for a moment
Wait. Why did he feel like there was something else was in his arms?Looking down at Tubbo, the blond froze, staring at the thorny red vines now wrapping themselves around his arms, his torso, reaching for his face. Blood dripped down his sleeves, stained his vision red, and the brunette in his arms seemed to be absolutely drenched in the same hot substance. They stared at each other, red eyes meeting his own, face completely void of any emotion.
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Taming of the Blood by Anarchy_and_Piglins
Fandoms: Minecraft (Video Game), Video Blogging RPF
04 May 2021
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There were different methods for a newcomer to assert their place on a server: make a grand entrance, come out guns blazing to wreak havoc, or flaunt their wealth. But none of those were as amusing as the challenge presented by wanting to put a collar on the Blood God himself.
Or: Technoblade catches the eye of a stranger and bad things unfold.
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- Part 1 of We Are Born to Break (But Built to Mend)
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Bookmarked by The__animefan
09 May 2021
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FINISHED THIS AMAZING FIC!! THERE WILL BE A SEQUEL FULL OF FLUFF
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There are two very important facts:
1) Aziraphale is dead.
2) None of this is real.-----
Crowley’s throat tightens. “My angel,” he says. “My best friend. He’s dead, you know.”
Aziraphale blinks and then blood drains from his face. “No, no. Crowley. No. I’m here. I’m right in front of you.”
“I know,” Crowley says. “Isn’t it amazing, what a dream can do?”
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Sakura has died, and ended up in...here. She's still not sure where here is, but she's definitely here and she's going to make sure nothing happens to her precious people even if she has to die (again) to keep them safe.
Eventual Itachi/Sakura pairing.
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the still point of the turning world by fruitygoblin
Fandoms: Good Omens - Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett, Good Omens (TV)
08 Jun 2019
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"They’d been scheduled to meet on Tuesday, but Crowley hadn’t shown. He’d left a message, short and to the point, explaining that he’d had some things to do, and at any other time Aziraphale might have been offended at being stood up. But he wasn’t. Instead, he found himself worrying. He couldn’t name it, but things – in a general sense – weren’t as they should be. It was like looking at a design with the wrong dimensions, or an equation missing a crucial integer.
Something about the way he'd looked...
“Oh, honestly,” Aziraphale said to the empty room, and he reached up for his coat.
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Crowley has an existential crisis. Aziraphale attempts to pick up the pieces.
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Bookmarked by ant_for_smt
02 Aug 2019
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crowley has a post-apocalyptic nervous breakdown