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    Steve had hoped that his first Christmas in the 21st century would be one of the things that could remind him of home. He was desperately searching for something that hadn't changed, for something to feel familiar in this strange new world he found himself stranded in. So finding himself alone on Christmas Eve was not what he had hoped for, but he couldn't say he was surprised.

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    Starts sad but ends well.

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    When Steve is hurt, Thor takes care of him. Steve realizes that he's in love with the thundergod, but will he be able to tell him? Read and find out. WIP

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    “It’s not exactly up to regulation, but what do you think?”

    Bucky is standing in front of him, looking expectantly at him. His arms are outstretched to show off his new dark blue peacoat.

    What does Steve think?


    Bucky looks really good in his new coat and Steve becomes attached. Even after Bucky...

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    Throughout Steve and Bucky’s lives there was always one particular tree in central park that they would sit beneath. Whether to shield them from the blaring sun or the unrelenting rain, it didn’t matter. Through time their hearts would end up bound to this place somehow, the tree intwining itself into the very fabric of their relationship like the interwoven twisting branches of it's canopy.

    Or the story of Steve and Bucky, as told by snippets of time in their favourite place.

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    They tell him he was a soldier, a leader—a hero.

    He doesn’t know if he believes them.

    Fresh out of the ice with no recollection of his past, Steve Rogers strikes out on his own and tries to cobble together a life worthy of the clean slate he’s been given.

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    “Thank you.”

    Steve’s voice breaks as he accepts the shield, a fragment of a broken memory from his past, with its familiar weight grounding his floating mind.

    His two realities are converging in a spectacular explosion, and as they crash together, he can barely keep his hands from shaking. Bucky held this shield mere moments before he plummeted to his death.

    Steve pushes the leather casing aside to run his fingers over the smooth metal, and he can almost feel the ghost of Bucky’s touch lingering there. Wind whips his face, a metallic screech assaults his ears, and a bone-chilling cry of desperation makes his stomach churn.

    He's going to be sick.

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    Steve Rogers, having previously carried the title of 'Captain America' during WWII, settles down in the twenty-first century and becomes an agent of S.H.I.E.L.D. focused on removing any last head of HYDRA that might have lingered in the shadows.

    The Winter Soldier, HYDRA's most reliable asset, is tasked with kidnapping an uncomfortably familiar blond man with a smile like sunshine.

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    “I’m so tired, Buck.”

    There was a picture on the wall this time, not one of the drawings Steve had looked at for years, aching to see his other half once more. An actual, real life picture. Maybe it hurt more to see Bucky’s radiant smile captured by the camera, his gaze light and fond as he looked at Steve the night of their wedding celebration in Wakanda. When Steve had finally gathered the courage to ask the question he had promised Bucky he’d make years ago, when they were just naive teenagers in Brooklyn.

    It was nothing like what they had dreamed of as boys, but it didn’t matter. It was a promise, a celebration, a forever. It was all they needed.

    Steve twisted the ring on his finger and swallowed the ache in his throat, his mind lingering on the ashes floating through the air, the hand reaching out, just a little too late…

    “I’m so tired, Buck.”

    How many times did he have to lose Bucky? How long would he be forced to fight wars he didn’t choose?

    “I miss you.”

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    Seven hundred and sixty-nine days. That is how long Steve Rogers has been imprisoned on the Raft.
    Only he wasn’t placed in the ordinary cells his teammates were when they had been arrested for helping him and Bucky after the signing of the Accords. Instead, on that fateful day, Ross told the former Captain with a gleeful smile on his face that he would be receiving a brand-new cell made especially for him.
    The soldier was held in place with arm and leg shackles chained to a metal collar around his neck and surrounded by six heavily armed guards ordered to use severe force in the event that Steve were to move. Between the heads of the guards in front of him, the super-soldier could see the wall ahead of them slide open like a door to reveal his new home.

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    His image has long become something that was no longer his, something that wasn't his to control, something that didn't belong to him... not anymore.

    And he's starting to think there wasn't anything he could do about that.

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    “You look so much older,” Bucky rasps, and the soft tone clenches something in Steve’s gut.

    “I know.” Steve swallows and fits his thumbs against the hinge of Bucky’s jaw. “I’m so sorry, Buck.” His voice cracks halfway through, all but mouthing the words as the sound dissipates in the space between them, but he thinks Bucky knows what he’s trying to say anyway.

    Bucky always knows.

    Steve makes it to the other side, back where he started—New York’s just the way it was. It’s his job to make sure that this time, it doesn’t turn to ash.

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    "And Steve, ever the savior, the perfect man, came right up to the soldier- no, bucky, and said that it was ok, and it wasn’t his fault, and that it’ll be ok, and that he’s not leaving, and so many other useless promises that the fractured mind he spoke to shut down into itself, curling up into a tight ball and shutting down."

     

    How Steve and Bucky put themselves back together. Set after catws, Bucky's recovery and Steve's role.

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    Steve clears his throat, curling his hands into fists to hide them. “Alright, say I believe you. Hell, you’re here. So what?”

    Scott pins him with an unshakable stare, alive and unyielding. He never realized Scott could be so intense. Sam was the one who knew Scott better, but then again, Sam was always the better one of the two of them. “Look, the place I was in—the quantum realm—it messes with time, it lets you go back.”

    Steve wants to throw him out.

    Scott brings the Pym Particles to the only man he trusts: Steve Rogers.

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    He stared into the mirror. It wasn't Bucky Barnes, suave 40s, heart throb looking back at him. Maybe it had been once, but all that was left was a revenant of that man now.

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    Steve should be happy. He has Bucky back. They're together, but right now Steve just feels alone. And from the loneliness springs guilt, because he has Bucky, so he shouldn't feel alone.

    Bucky thinks that's bullshit.

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    Steve didn’t know when it started. Maybe it was always there. He thought he was too high to crash, or that he was so low that it couldn’t get worse than that.

    Maybe it started with his first fight. Maybe it was the fights that came after that. Maybe it was his mother’s death. Maybe it was the war. Maybe it was Bucky’s fall. Maybe it was the plane crash. Maybe it was the aliens. Maybe it was the recovery.

    Maybe it was him.

    But it started all the same.

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    When Tony Stark starts getting letters from a dead man, his comfortable life as a billionaire playboy begins to fall to pieces. But his life is not the only one coming undone. Steve Rogers is a starving artist in Brooklyn, trying to scrape by as best he can in a time when being homosexual was illegal. As time is running out, with war and death looming on the horizon, they fall in love… but for how long?

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    Two weeks after his mother's funeral, Steve isn't doing well.

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    Steve Rogers set out to find the man he loves, who is now an assassin who might not even remember him. He didn't expect to find a Norse God in the form of a teenage girl sleeping on the hood of the car he stole. Somewhere along the way his search mission turned into a road trip. But maybe that's okay.

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    Steve doesn’t move for a long time.

    He stares at the words of the page in front of him until they become blurry, until the letters just blend together into meaningless nonsense. It’s as if the whole page becomes just one big word, sticking out furiously. Divorce. He can’t take his eyes off it.

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    Steve had suffered many losses in his life. He had started to believe himself to be particularly resilient. Maybe his sin had been pride.

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    An explanation of why Steve had to (temporarily) leave at the end of Endgame, from his point of view - taking him from Bucky's fall in Captain America: The First Avenger up until the victory at the end of Avengers: Endgame.

     

    Five years. For five years, he went to sleep each night with the desperate emptiness of Bucky - and Sam, too, now - being dead, with the guilt and shame and pain of being unable to save them, and every day he woke with the dread of living for another day in a world that no longer held them.

    He didn’t think he’d ever recover from being this tired.

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