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    Miya Atsumu was perfectly fine, thank you very much.
    He was doing great actually.
    He was a rising star in the volleyball world, had great friends, and the best brother he could ask for.
    His life was amazing!
    So why does he always feel like he isn’t good enough?
    Why does he always feel not ok?
    Why does he feel like everyone in his life hates him and why does he feel like he can’t do anything right?
    He doesn’t know.
    He can’t figure it out.
    But maybe Sakusa Kiyoomi can offer him some assistance.

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    Sometime in the night, a boy muffles his groan of pain into his blanket.

    He doesn't know what day it is, or when he'd last gotten out of bed. All he knows is that he is no longer anything of value.

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    3/?
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    127
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    Despite what many may say, Miya Atsumu wasn’t an idiot.

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    22/26
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    Freedom…

    After so many years, neither Atsumu nor Osamu know if they want it. It means losing their routines, their senses of self. For the past eighteen years, the twins made a home for themselves in Ashiya. Leaving all of that behind is going to be the biggest change of their life.

    Running in the woods after school, Atsumu spending hours in the piano room with Ji, Osamu cooking countless recipes with Aka-oba, both playing volleyball with
    Aran-kun...were the boys really going to give all of that up? Was going to Tokyo even worth that much?

    Sure, Chuo was one of the best schools in all of Japan....but still.

    What do they do? Do they just accept the way things are now, that they’re alone? Or do they go to Tokyo, away from their home, just for a new family?

    Atsumu doesn’t know. Neither does Osamu.

    “But at least we gotta try,”

    written for Inarizaki Big Bang 2021!

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    5/5
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    10
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    1
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    Miya Atsumu getting bullied because of their looks and slowly becoming unable to keep food down.
    let's just say, he never woke up since...

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    1/1
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    56
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    One day, Hinata gets bored and makes a group chat. This is the chaos that ensues.

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    16/?
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    For as long as Atsumu had remembered, he's always had to hide. From feeling sick to being gay to starving himself, hiding is all he's done. Even his twin, Osamu, who he'd been attached to since before he was even born, knew less about him than he thought.

    TW for mild self-harm, mild anorexia, low self-esteem and bullying.

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    2/2
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    391
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    Atsumu reflects on fatherhood and his relationship with his son, Hiroaki.

    Happy Father's Day!

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    1/1
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    4
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    11
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    i’m sorry you have to be reading this letter. i didn't want it to come to this. i'm sorry, omi. i love you omi. you found this for a reason, i’m so so so sorry omi. i know it hurts but you’ll be ok soon. trust me. i’m gonna tell you all the the times i knew i was in love with you so please just listen and remember for me ok?

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    1/1
    Comments:
    3
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    31
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    Atsumu had a good life. Everything was okay. He had people to love and those people loved him back. His career was taking off and he was in a stable relationship. So why did he want to end it all?

     

    or: Atsumu has an existential crisis and suffers alone

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    Being born identical twins aren’t as fun as people make it out to be, Atsumu found.

    Constantly getting compared to his younger sibling, Osamu, was tiring and degrading as people always made sure to point out how bad Atsumu was, as they compared him with Osamu.

    They expected Atsumu to act as some deviant, a rebel or delinquent half the time, it was frustrating to the older sibling, so damn frustrating. Other times, they expected him to act just like Osamu, as much as Osamu looks bored and deadpanned all the time, he did have a kind heart and was straightforward in the nicest way possible.

    An angel, they’d say. While Atsumu was the devil. The problem child. The dumb one. Osamu’s brother.

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    Ever since y/n came into their life, his and Sakusa's relationship was never the same, the sex was rougher, he was neglected, no more cuddles or kisses. Atsumu never imagined he'd feel this lonely..Atsumu wanted to get away, he needed to get away, away from him

     

    Or, I saw a oneshot on Wattpad, and it was an april fools prank, but I got inspired so here we go!
    Here's the link to the Wattpad oneshot book

    alternatively titled "But I Watch Your Eye's As They Walk By" "I'm Tired Sakusa"

    Preview in chapter 2!

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    Chapters:
    2/3
    Comments:
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    52
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    3
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    Between the two of them, Osamu had always been more liked.

    Well, maybe not when it came to Sakusa, but in every other aspect.

    Where Atsumu was sassy and arrogant, he was mature and calmer.
    Where Atsumu was known for being a self-entitled asshole, Osamu got popular for his quiet yet kind nature.

     

    And where Atsumu got insecure, hiding it with layers upon layers of masks and always got in trouble with his mother, Osamu didn't notice.
    And neither did the team.

    It seemed as if he was caught in a ticking time bomb, and the situation was just waiting for the right moment to explode in order to create more damage, both to himself and everyone around him.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
    Collections:
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    Comments:
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    1521
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    278
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    Atsumu's head doesn't give him a break and Sakusa and Osamu want to help.

     

    This is a song fic i wrote while listening to Lover is a day by Cuco.

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    4
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    Omega Atsumu is given abnormally strong pheromones with a side of pain and suffering.

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    1/1
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    “…Do you want to talk about it?” he says. “I’m not the best at comforting people, but I can listen, if you want.”

    “Ya’d do that for a total stranger?” Atsumu replies mirthlessly, hunching his shoulders so that he appears smaller. “Even if I’m…“ He trails off, unable to give voice to the thought that he’s a worthless, unlovable piece of shit who doesn’t deserve to be happy.

    Sakusa bumps his knee against Atsumu’s, jolting him out of his spiral. “I may not know what’s going on in your head or in your life, but I do know from personal experience that it helps to get the emotions out instead of bottling them up inside of you. No matter what the issue is, I promise not to judge you.”

    After Atsumu gets dumped at the altar, he tries to drown himself in despair. A passing stranger saves him and offers to listen to him, and in the end, Atsumu comes out with a new friend and maybe something more.

    For SakuAtsu Angst Week 2021 - day 1: post-breakup | goodbye

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    6,053
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    18
    Kudos:
    645
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    77
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    4997
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    "Lasciò andare il telefono quando decise che era abbastanza, gli occhi lucidi mentre si girava su un fianco e stringeva quasi con disperazione Sakusa.
    -Mh?- questo mormorò svegliandosi un po' –Atsumu? Stai bene?- domandò con voce assonnata, il biondo lo teneva stretto in modo che il volto fosse ancora nascosto nel suo petto per impedirgli di notare i suoi occhi lucidi.
    -Ti amo- sussurrò Atsumu."

    Language:
    Italiano
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    Chapters:
    2/2
    Kudos:
    29
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    268
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    "I'm Sakusa Kiyoomi, I have obsessive compulsive disorder, and my main outlet is volleyball, I s'pose. I play for MSBY."

    It was Atsumu's turn, then, and he hurriedly rose to his feet, knocking his chair back a couple inches in the process. "My name is Miya Atsumu, accordin' to the paperwork I have bipolar depression. Uh, my outlet is also volleyball. I also play for MSBY."
    --
    Or: Appearances are everything, too bad Atsumu's was ruined with the one person it mattered most the second Osamu brought that damn pamphlet home.

    Loosely inspired by the song Agoraphobia by Autoheart.

    Language:
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    3/6
    Comments:
    26
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    237
    Bookmarks:
    30
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    3054
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    Kiyoomi knows that something must be wrong when Miya texts him.
    Miya Atsumu never apologizes.
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    Atsumu finds himself standing at the edge of a rooftop.
    The voices tell him to jump.

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    2,610
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    418
    Bookmarks:
    29
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    3828
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    [11:05 PM]

    With alcohol running through his veins and hate in his mind, Sakusa breathed in the salty ocean air, letting the oxygen plant itself in his lungs. But it did nothing to quell his toxic thoughts. It failed to calm the raging sea in him.

    This was the point of no return for Sakusa Kiyoomi.

    Finally giving in, he dropped to sit on the curb, a clear view of the night sky reflecting off the dark ocean waters, one chuckled stumbled out his mouth, then another, and then a couple more—until he was full on laughing like a mad man without any humor, he was laughing like his whole life was the joke, like he was the joke. All alone, clothes ruined, tears running down his face, lips dry and chapped. He was a mess. He was a glass bottle hanging by a thread and the last thing keeping him above water was gone and he dropped to the floor with the loudest silent crash. He was shards on the concrete floor, one wrong move and you’d get cut by his edges.

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    5,481
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    107
    Bookmarks:
    9
    Hits:
    1031

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