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    And you're the only one who can help me,
    but you never look long enough to see,
    that I'm floundering here in this never ending sea,
    not of water but the blood dripping out of me,
    I never meant for you to see,
    but now I need you, because dammit I can't breathe

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    Love is my Religion.
    I could die for that.
    I could die for you.

    John Keats

    It had always been black and white for Dean. Save people. Hunt things. Family. And then there had been an angel in a trench coat, and suddenly, things weren't so simple any more

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    There was a post on the Destiel Port FB group about voices or noise in your own head that made it hard to complete a thought or sentence. This made me think of my own issues with noise that buzzes in my head that causes my depression/anxiety to cave in on me and leads me into a dark place or toward a panic attack or other pattern of self-deprecation or harm. This train of thought brought to mind Dean Winchester (my spirit animal ♡)
    ☆ Dean has untapped artistic abilities that are uncovered while he is in an inpatient care unit for depression/anxiety/self-harm. Castiel is an artist who volunteers at the care unit.

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    Twenty-three years of head-over-heels, devastating devotion and love, love, love for the man with bright eyes and dark hair. Fourteen years of friends, best friends, of always together. One moment of rejection.

    Nine years of apart. Nine years of heartbreak, nine years of continents away, of not speaking, of no acknowledgement, no interaction, no closure, no peace. No happiness. Nine years of Dean’s life entering motions, going through them, constant, cold and mechanic, like clockwork. Nine years of alone.

    God. Nine years. A lot has changed. And yet Dean still loves Cas just the same. Even if his heart hurts all kinds of different.

     

    On the day of Jimmy Novak's funeral, Dean sees Cas for the first time in nine years. He adored Castiel the moment he met him, at only four years old. But after fourteen years of friendship destroyed by one moment of heartbreak, and after nine years of silence, Dean is convinced Cas will want nothing to do with him. And it's killing him.

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    Somewhere along the way they had become best friends. After a lesson, walking out of the classroom, one of the football jocks had grabbed Castiel’s notebook and tossed it up in the air, spreading a hundred paper sheets across the floor. Everyone had just walked by, ignoring it. Everyone but Jo.
    “Do you have hand spasms?” she’d said to the jock, quite composed, getting a sly smile in response.
    “What?”
    “I asked you if you have FUCKING HAND SPASMS?” (not quite as composed).
    “Uh, no-“
    “Then get on the floor and pick up those papers!” Her raised voice had attracted a little crowd, and soon a teacher came along.
    “What’s going on?”
    “We just ruled out that Michael the Jock here doesn’t have Parkinson’s,” Jo explained to the teacher, a few chuckles spreading around the crowd.
    “None of that nonsense now, Joanna.”
    “NONSENSE? He’s learning some fucking common decency!”
    To sum it up, she’d ended up in detention, Michael the Jock had been allowed to leave, and Castiel had ended up with a friend.

    (A Destiel fic, don't worry)

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    The world changed after the battle on Halloween, humanity stricken with fear, and a traumatized Dean and Castiel are left trying to pick up the pieces. With Sam now ruling Hell they'll stop at nothing to end his reign and bring him home, but Sam has plans of his own and his family are at the center of it all.

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    Dean has had an extremely shitty day, and somehow he manages to make it even worse by getting into a fight with his best friend, roommate, and secret crush Benny. Luckily, Benny is a forgiving dude.

    SPN Kink Bingo square: First Kiss
    SPN ABO Bingo square: Roommates

    + Prompt: “I wish I could hate you.”

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    Dean spirals into a deep depression after casting Michael out and ends up isolating himself. But Castiel WILL NOT let him spend his favorite holiday alone.

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    Dean can’t look at Cas without seeing Jimmy Novak.

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    Because of some time travel weirdness, John and Mary get transported to a time where their children are adults.

    In my mind, Dean is like 25 and Sam is 21. I know it doesn't fit in with the time John died in the series but in this version, he´s been dead for a couple of years.

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    Dean is disturbingly depressed and starts on a long and painful journey to healing himself.

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    She’d always known, somewhere in the back of her mind, that he was going to leave her. She’d known it, known it from the moment he fell through that same door and into her arms. Oh, she’d told herself, that second year when everything seemed to be settling down, that they had something good, something that no one could walk away from. She’d told herself that no one would leave this kind of life, but she’d known.
    She’d always known.

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    Gabriel was just scouting another location for an expansion of Morningstar when he happened upon Dean Winchester in the shittiest BDSM club he'd been to in a long while. From the second he saw those haunted green eyes, he felt an indescribable connection. The problem - Dean Winchester had been beaten and abused beyond anything Gabriel had ever seen. He prayed he had the strength to put him back together because there was little doubt, Dean was a legendary Omega - something he'd never actually believed was real.

    Another two chapters up. ;-D.

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    Dean has lost Sam (and everyone else). He's not handling it too well. Not that anyone can blame him.

    -
    Or: This is what happens when you give a country-girl the prompt 'Whiskey'

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    Sam left, Dad left. It had an effect of Dean, and effect that Sam will find out almost too late. And it's partially his fault, whether or not he meant to or not.

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    “Everyone has issues, sweetheart. Get over it.”

    Sometimes, people aren’t thankful for being saved. Have you ever wondered why?

    NOTE: THIS IS NOT THE ACTUAL STORY! This is where I map out my ideas of where I want this story to go, which is why it is suckish and rushed. I am only leaving this up until I have posted the first (completed and edited) chapters of the story. Thanks!

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    Sam and Dean haven't seen Cas in a year. Dean is severly depressed and doesn't want to do much of anything. But when Cas turns up, Dean gives him a piece of his mind. He won't get off THAT easy... or maybe he will.

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    Officer Castiel has a “Secret” crush on a well known, straight, bad boy-Dean Winchester. His Fellow officers are appalled by his “blasphemy” and then he's being told that Dean Winchester would move in with him instead of going to Jail, Cas’s life quickly turns upside down.

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    One by one you raise me,
    one by one you leave me,
    you return and depart,
    return and depart.

     

    I can take no more,
    you've completely torn me apart,
    it's my turn now, see
    I can leave instead, finally

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    Set in season 13, There is a lot of tension in the bunker after Cas "died." Sam and Dean are constantly fighting. Dean is NO fan of Jack! You, as always, are playing the role of "Switzerland" between Sam and Dean when things got rough. This time would be no different.

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