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    Daniel Howell, nineteen-year-old award-winning pianist, is thrown into stardom after being titled Young Musician of the Year. He catches not only the attention of adoring fans, but also journalists looking to make easy money from his name.

    With all this newfound confusion in his life, there's only one thing he knows for sure: journalists are the worst.

    Things change when he meets Phil Lester, a twenty-four-year-old university graduate assigned to write an article about Dan's life in the limelight.

    As he navigates his unfortunate hatred for attention, a new city, and a demanding career, Dan finds comfort in the most unexpected of places -- but will he ever be truly happy?

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    Dan hasn't played the piano in years not since his mother died leaving him and his younger brother alone with their abusive father
    Phil hasn't been honest with anyone in years not since his father died and his brother left him causing his mother to turn to drugs
    Of course, Dan has his boyfriend Marcas (if you can even call him that) and Phil has his crew of followers and packs of cigarettes (that aren't very good to cuddle with at night)
    What happens when Phil's mother meets Dan's father and they fall in love?
    Will Phil save Dan from his boyfriend?
    Will Dan let him?

    Who knows man I'm making it up as I go!

    Also yes I named this after an RM song...

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    6/?
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    An aesthetic, 80's, Phan alternate universe. Dan is narrating his last summer before going off to college, which he's spending with long time friend Phil Lester. Ok, well maybe they're a little bit more than friends. Friends who make out sometimes. And, to Dan, a friend that he's sort of fallen in love with.
    Dan struggles with coming to terms with his sexuality and being an overly emotional "blue boy" in America in the 80's. He has enough heart ache and angst to fill the world.

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    23/?
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    "dan?"

    "yes?"

    "i'm scared."

    "i know. i am, too."

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    15/?
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    Dan wakes up and knows it will be a bad day. Despite that, he resists Phil's attempts to help him because today will be different. Today, Dan will care for Phil, even if that means just making him a cup of coffee.

    Songfic based on "Coffee" by beabadoobee

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    The emergency team was on their way, the sun was rising, and Phil Lester was on his bathroom floor in a puddle of blood and water sploshed from the dirty tub he’d dragged Dan out from.

    Or, Dan leaves in the middle of the night.

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    In which Dan has a dark day and Phil is there to hold him up. It starts with toast and ends with a bubble bath.

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    It's breakfast time and Dan is hungry.
    But things are not how they seem to be and suddenly his whole world turns upside down.

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    12/?
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    After getting into a fight, Dan gets hurt. They will have to work through their problems whether they like it or not.
    AKA-Phil is dumb, then Dan is dumb. Phil then has to take care of a depressed and, literally, broken Dan.
    Not good at summaries. It's better than you think... I hope.

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    5/?
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    10
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    42
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    Dan's childhood best friend unexpectedly passes away, after returning home from the funeral, everything seems different. Is it just Dan's mind playing a devious trick on him or is his world truly falling apart?

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    1/1
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    "...Seus olhos eram castanhos. Seus cabelos, de um castanho acobreado, às vezes loiro, às vezes ruivo, uma juba à luz do sol.
    Seu coração era de ouro, tão bondoso e gentil quanto possível..."

     

    Anos atrás, Dan Howell acidentalmente havia engravidado de seu ídolo e melhor amigo, Phil Lester, mas não resistira a pressão e a dificuldade de se tornar pai aos 19. Agora, Dan finalmente se viu pronto para tentar se reaproximar, algo que pode mudar a vida dele, de Phil e da criança para sempre.

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    Português brasileiro
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    Chapters:
    3/?
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    What would Dan's and Phil's lives be without each other? What would happen if they never became friends?

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    1/1
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    Dan wasn’t supposed to make it past age 18. The only reason he’s still here is because of Phil Lester, the only guiding light, the only true heart of gold. Sometimes he starts to question if he even deserves Phil at all.

    Depression is a monster. It feeds off of fear and sucks the light out of eyes once bright with wonder. Phil’s willing to fight the war on love for the two of them, he just wished he didn’t have to.

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    Despite the fact that Dan's mental health is better than it once was, he still has Bad Days from time to time. Luckily, he has Phil to help him through them. Involves a chilly day in October, a few simple gestures, and a lot of love. Inspired by a small moment in the pumpkin carving video.

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    1/1
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    3
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    108
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    3
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    1202
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    Daniel Howell is a shy incoming Year 10 student to his town's secondary school, his mother is a single alcoholic who is verbally and physically abusive to her son. To Dan school is his escape, but starting a new secondary school is most definitely a scary prospect, but he hopes he can make the best of it and to hopefully make a friend.

    Phil Lester is a very attractive Year 13 student who hates the attention he gets from all the girls at his school.

    When Dan realizes he has the locker right next to the most attractive guy at school, and Phil sees the beautiful, shy Dan walking towards him, who knows what could happen.

    Follow these two as they battle through the ups and downs of school together.

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    20/?
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    102
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    243
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    16
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    Written for the Bingo Fic Fest for the prompts "2012" and "Canon with a Twist" and for World Mental Health Day.

    Dan can't do it anymore.

    Series
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    1/1
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    13
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    351
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    Emotes are no less human than the Norms. But they were a bit different.

    Emotes have a single emotion they feel constantly, being near them or coming into physical contact temporarily spreads the emotion to others. Usually, the emotion is a positive one: Energized, comfortable, happiness...but one Emote got the short end of the stick. One person got the only negative emote in known history. That person, is Daniel Howell and his emote...is depression.

    More than anything, he wishes he could feel NORMAL.

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    English
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    2/?
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    "I love you Dan," He had said, "but I can't watch you destroy yourself."

    This piece of fiction contains self-harm, suicidal thoughts and various other mental health issues. For more detail, look at the tags. Please be wary of reading this fiction, as it may have triggering effects for some people.

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    English
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    20,628
    Chapters:
    11/?
    Comments:
    44
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    Dan has been depressed for a while now but he has been hiding it. One day Phil finds out and it goes downhill.

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    English
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    Chapters:
    4/5
    Comments:
    6
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    61
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    2063

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