19 Works in Depressed Brian May

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    "The heart monitors practically trumpeted in his ears as he descended into the room, Roger was sleeping with his head lazily slack to the side but he didn't look peaceful. The sight of the man who used to be so close to him was shocking, and nearly brought tears to his eyes. Roger was thin and pale, dark circles consuming his eyes cruelly. His body was covered in deep purple and green bruises along with fresh blood-soaked bandages cloaking his arms and torso. The young man had discarded his gown earlier in the visit, which exposed his damaged body further."

     

    It's been nearly five years since Brian and Roger have seen each other but when Roger jumps from a bridge, Brian rushes to his side to be his support. When Roger moves in with Brian and his roommates Freddie and John, Brian realizes it's not nearly as easy as he thought to take care of someone who needs it most.

    Or, Brian and Roger learn to love each other again and Roger learns how to live

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    When Roger is away with Freddie in Japan for a month, Brian slips into one of his depressive episodes. When John finds him unbathed and skinnier than normal he calls Roger home to help his boyfriend.

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    Drabbles every day for the month of October. Completed!

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    "Once I could see the good in me, the black and the white distinctively coloring; holding the world inside. Now all the world is grey to me, nobody can see-- you gotta believe it" - Brian May, 'The Night Comes Down'

     

    Things are tough sometimes. But when you care about someone, you do what you can when they're hurting. You do what you can all the time, but especially when they're hurting. And when you've got a giant friend you've known long enough to be able to tell when he needs you to be close, well. You're going to bloody be there.

    (Or, Roger can tell when Brian is struggling, and he is not going to let his friend face life alone.)

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    Brian should have listened to his friends. Instead, he's beaten and kidnapped and fighting to keep his will to live

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    An au where Freddie, Brian, Roger and John are all brothers.
    Gets pretty sad

    WARNING: If you are triggered by mentions of self-harm or suicide or anything like that, please don't read, it comes up quite a bit.

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    Brian is depressed and Freddie is his delivery boy. That's it.

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    “Are you saying just now that you don’t need me?”

    John recognizes the anger – of all times, this moment he can recognize an emotion – and scowls. “Yes, Brian, because this track needs a different kind of guitar sound so I’m putting my touch on it! I don’t understand why you’re so upset about this!”

    Brian doesn’t think when the words tumble out, “Of course you don’t understand! You would if you actually had a heart!”

    (Or, an alexithymic John navigates his way through the Hot Space era.)

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    It’s an agreement that Brian made with his therapist. They have a plan in place for those nights he leaves feeling worse than usual— for when he’s feeling lost in that dark place and he’s not quite sure if he trusts himself to be alone.

    *

    Or, Brian has a bad night. Roger does what he can.

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    It’s pretty basic but it’s my first. Basically it’s about the boys journeys to fall in love and it’s all a mess (why wouldn’t it be they gotta be extra) but cute and I love it. Hopefully I’ll have something unique.
    ~☺️✌🏻~
    Hey! This is my first fanfic ever so everything here is a first so please be nice and critical or I may cry cause I am a fragile bean. Follow me on insta if you want it’s @retro_deacon just don’t say yup came from here nothing against it but the children already know I read it they don’t need to know I write it.thank you so much love y’all enjoy!-deacon🧡

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    Brian wants to think that he noticed before it happened.

    He didn't.

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    “... Human ...?” Roger’s eyes widened. The arms wrapped around him suddenly felt more like being captured instead of comforting like it had been seconds ago. Forcefully pushing his body away and wincing when he felt the cuts on his tail ache.

    Except it wasn’t his tail.

    He had legs.

    {The mermaid AU no one wanted but I wrote }

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    Wearing lingerie has always helped boost Brian's mood, but it's a secret he's kept hidden from Freddie, until now.

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    Queen guitarist Brian May has recently admitted that he never quite liked the Musicland Studios; where the band produced their tenth studio album, 'Hot Space'.

    "It's a depressing place, in an even more depressing building," he explained, "It has no windows, and the only thing that seems to come in from outside are torrents, upon torrents of foehn winds."

    Foehn winds, according to common lore, causes people to go crazy, and even commit suicide.

    — Paul Rodd, Music Today Magazine

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    Where Freddie was, the sand was warmer. When he planted his bottom down, he was greeted by a rush of warm, easing his goosebumps. The sun helped too, melting the ice on his joints, frozen by what seemed like months of disuse.

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    The emptiness had never spilled over. Brian had been keeping it in check, keeping himself busy by volunteering at the animal shelter or studying physics way above of his level or playing the guitar until his fingers looked like a mess of bruises and torn cuticles. Sometimes, he would keep himself busy watching Roger bring home girl after girl while he himself sat on the sofa, bitterly drinking a beer and listening to Jimi Hendrix in an attempt to drown out the moans and the bang of the headboard against the wall. He had been keeping the emptiness in check. It had never spilled over. Not until this day.

    In which Brian is sad and deep in the closet.

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    Throughout the years, Brian May has had highs and many lows, but once he finds Roger Taylor, the lows don't seem so low anymore. As Roger comforts him through the years, Brian's feelings for him only grow stronger. Will he ever confess and risk losing the only light in his life?
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    Roger is has brightened Brian's life, and he helps that sad boy through some shit, so of course, he falls for him

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    "We were worried you had done something stupid," Roger whispered, then pressed a kiss to his temple, "the bartender overheard your conversation with Daniel and decided to tell us."

    There is a second of silence, and then a sob escapes Roger, "God fucking damn it, we were so scared, Brimi. We thought we had lost you."

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    “You know, we should actually have the colours reversed,” he mused.

    Freddie seemed confused.

    “What do you mean?”

    Then he followed Brian’s look and inspected his nails before shooting Brian a questioning glance. Brian hesitated, but maybe this was the best way to explain his feelings.

    *********************

    Brian is struggling with episodes of depression and reluctantly confides in Freddie.

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