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    A lot of things went wrong that day, and, I guess, not a lot of things have gone right since that day. It was the beginning of the end for me. A part of me died that night and the rest felt like it died in the weeks and months that followed  

     
    Dean Winchester doesn't remember the week before he woke up in a hospital with a tube down his throat. He doesn't know what happened and no one will tell him. The doctor, instead, insists that he needs time to remember, insists that healing shouldn't be rushed. And, insists that this needs to be done somewhere that isn't at home.

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    Psychiatric Facility AU, where Cas and Dean help each other heal and remember what it means to really live.
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    To be honest, I think I just so desperately needed them to go to therapy that I wrote it myself.

    Updates: Weekly, on a Sunday

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    Inspired by this tumblr post: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/aheartofgold/657419478776283136

    A reverse 15*18 where Dean confesses first in the Dungeon, and the empty takes Cas before he can respond, leaving Dean to wonder why.

    Dean mourns Cas, and Jack tells him about the deal with the Empty. Realizing what that means, as soon as Jack ascends, Dean rushes to the Bunker to embrace his love.

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    Jack bit his lip, looking every bit the young man he’d been on earth, about to tell his father something he really didn’t know how to say.

    “You should head down to Ohio. There’s a barn just east of Canton, two miles outside the town limits. Sam and Dean were on a hunt, and… well, I think Dean needs your help.”

    “Jack—” Cas started, but Jack interrupted, “I’d hurry, if you’re gonna go.”

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    In which Dean Winchester survives, and Castiel learns how to live.

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    Some time around the end of December, 2005 Sam and Dean agreed one day, no new Jobs ahead for the week, that they needed a small break. Sam was the one that came with this idea, obviously, and Dean at first wasn't very enthusiastic about it -even though he needed it-. Eventually he agreed and that same night Dean left the hotel they were staying at and took the impala for a ride. Dean went to a bar and to a movie theater, he saw a recently released movie about cowboys: Brokeback Mountain.

     

    Or Dean has internalized biphobia, watches Brokeback Mountain and sees himself in Ennis del Mar, the end of the movie breaks him and later the events of that unfortunate November 5th leaves him lost. When he gets his angel back and seems to have found the words to express how he feels, dean struggles to feel ready and has a nightmare.

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    After seeing Metatron in 11x06 Cas starts to act differently. Sam and Dean finally find out what really happened when Cas lost his grace.

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    As he begins to move around the kitchen and gather all the ingredients and utensils he’ll need to begin his bake, he pulls out his phone and hooks it up to the surround-sound speaker system he has wired throughout the bakery, letting his “Sunday Kind Of” playlist ring out. So he’s feeling sappy, sue him. Today’s the best day of his life, he will slow dance around his bakery by himself if he wants to.

    Banner created by @locallysourcedstardust on Instagram.

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    From the moment he left Kansas to enlist until the day he left the Navy, Dean wrote Cas letters. From the shores of Lake Michigan to the waves of California, sitting outside his shed in Afghanistan or on the bench of a C-17 flying home from a mission in the Middle East, Dean put pen to paper and wrote about loss and grief and how to make it through a decade without knowing if the man you still love so deeply is doing okay.

    These are the letters that didn't make it into Patient Love with the 17 others, but that are still inherently important to Dean’s journey as a character pre and during Patient Love.

    ~ pre-Patient Love

    [this will be updated on a semi regular-basis]

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    Jack has restored the world, and Dean finally gets to speak his truth to Cas. They find happiness in just being; in the little things in life. Dean struggles with letting go of the need to be a hero. He finds out the hard way that he and Sam are more vulnerable than they used to be, and makes a deeper connection with Cas in the process.

    By opening up to Cas about his self-doubts, Dean begins to heal from his trauma and repression, and Cas nurtures in Dean a better sense of self-worth. It must be working, because Dean goes out of his way to attend a festival dedicated to one of his favorite things in the world, besides Cas that is.

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    Dean needs to get out of the bunker.
    He needs to talk to someone who can understand.
    So he packs a bag and goes to Jody's.
    He remembers that he's not the only one mourning.

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    a collection of ficlets written for angst prompts

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    It starts with a gladiolus plant that Dean brings back to the bunker from the grocery store. His shopping list sure doesn’t have flowers on it, but when his gut says to grab it, he does.

    Now, his hands are sweating as he carries it inside, balancing it in one hand and the shopping bags in the other as he struggles through the door. The action – gifting Cas a flower – becomes a bigger deal in his mind with each step he takes.

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    The trouble with becoming accustomed to constant prayer is that it becomes a second nature stream of consciousness directed at an angel. This doesn’t pose a problem when the angel in question is presumably dead, lost to the dark. When the angel in question is dead, it seems romantic (not that it would occur to Dean to call himself romantic) to direct every intensely felt longing and unsaid “I love you” to him even when logic says that those prayers will remain unheard.

    What happens when the angel in question comes back to the world of the living to a cacophony of prayer?

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    In this human AU, Professor Castiel Novak has it bad for his best friend, Dean Winchester, and maybe he's a little jealous of Dean's friend Benny Lafitte, especially when he realizes that Benny's flirting with Dean. Well, it doesn't matter anyway, though. Dean's straight, right? Castiel's not quite sure how it happened. One second he's drinking and commiserating with Benny about Dean "no homo" Winchester, and the next? He's got himself a hot bear for a fuck buddy.

    Meanwhile, Dean's not sure what's going on with his two best friends, but he's definitely sure that he doesn't like it, even if he can't quite figure out why.

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    He’s not sure what’s different about tonight, but he knows that tonight is the night. Hell, maybe even The Night, with a capital T and N.

    So when Dean leans over to Sam while in the line to the Ferris wheel and mutters, “Distract Cas for me real quick,” even his brother knows what’s going on.

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    Prompt: They are on a ferris wheel, and everything is going great - until it gets stuck at the very top. For thirty whole minutes.

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    Dean pressed down on his phone and it started to ring.

    Ring, ring ring. Ring, ring, ring. Ring, ring, ring.

    “This is my voicemail. Make your voice… a mail.”

    Beep.

    Dean let out a breath he didn’t know he had been holding. As he let it out, the tears began to fall once again. He doesn’t even notice when they start or when they stop anymore, everything is a blur.

     
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    After Cas was taken to the Empty, Dean was lost, he was broken, he felt guilty and he didn’t know what to do. He sought comfort in any piece of Cas that was left behind, which just so happened to include his voicemail. Dean just needed to hear his voice, just one more time...

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    Ever since he’d dragged Cas out of the Empty, Dean had been making a point of being more open with Cas about his thoughts and feelings. Even if it took him a while to get there sometimes, he’d still try. All that Cas had to do in return was give Dean the time he needed to do it on his own terms

    And it was looking like something was bothering Dean right now, and Dean was ready to talk about it right now

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    Before he knew it, Dean was standing in front of a two-story lake house, keys cold in his pocket, Cas warm next him, and arms occupied with an infant who had briefly been the most powerful being on the planet.

    18k of a lakehouse, a baby jack, and forcing Dean and Cas to talk to each other. 

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    After a long hunt, Dean and Sam head to a local bar to celebrate.

    Except, Dean wakes up cursed with a truth spell, a headache from hell, and all sorts of confusing feelings.

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    Welcome to the Glass City.

    Its citizens live perfect, orderly lives. Controlled by the barcodes upon their arms, they are quietly assigned jobs, spouses, accommodations… whole lives. Some families rank above others, but that is just the way it is. The way the Council demands it to be.

    Lieutenant Colonel Castiel Novak is the shining star of the Glass City’s Academy, mere weeks away from graduating and being titled Commander of his own ship, his own crew.

    Castiel is very good at obeying.

    Until he meets a man with green eyes, a cocky smile, and no barcode.

    [Podfic] [Original written by MalMuses]

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    He’s back, god he’s back, and Dean can’t even believe it.

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    Prompt: Forehead touching. Forehead kisses.

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