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    The humid, almost-summer wind hangs heavy in the Impala. Soon, this empty lot will be swarming with parents and kids, packed into the drive-in for the double-feature.

    “I guess we’ll have to find a new spot,” Dean says weakly.

    Cas doesn’t respond at once. “Dean,” he starts, and Dean’s heart sinks in his chest at the way Cas says his name. “I don’t think we should.”

    Even though he’d been expecting it, the words land like a physical blow to his sternum.

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    Castiel doesn’t know where the runaway in Dean has gone, but he’s not sure that man exists anymore. The omega in his backseat has been badly broken. He hasn’t said a word to Castiel; hasn’t protested aside from flinching, hasn’t even pleaded to be spared. He’s just… empty. Tired. Castiel can smell layers of fear, sour and old on the omega’s skin, an emotion so often felt that it’s now a permanent stain on his scent. He can only begin to imagine what Dean has been through to put him in this state of apathy.

     

    At sixteen years old, Dean Winchester signed away his life in order to protect what he loves most. He's spent the last eleven years as the property of various alphas, each crueler than the last. Purchased by a new alpha that promises him nothing but safety, his life is about to dramatically change - and with any luck, it will be for the better.

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    Cas offers a newly-human Dean pie.

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    Dean dies and gets sent back to hell. There he comes across familiar faces that might just drive him mad and on top of that more people have taken an interest in him.
    Can his friends and family save him or will he end up giving them the answer they want.

    Takes place around season 5, so Sam hasn't been to hell.

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    “Dad, I can’t believe it!” Sam said as he grabbed John in a hug. John hugged him back but over Sam’s shoulder was watching with narrowed eyes as Dean faltered in his shock and wobbled but found himself caught by Cas who wrapped an arm around Dean’s waist from behind to steady him and give him comfort.

    Sam pulled away and Dean stepped forward unsure what to do. Did he hug his dad? Play it cool?

    Run for his life?

    John comes back to life just as Dean and Cas admit their feelings and agree to try a relationship. Forces try to drive them apart as new and old enemies come after Dean. Will Dean finally be able to stand up to his father and stop the abuse? Will he and Cas be able to salvage their relationship with others trying to tear them apart?

    Timeline for this is a sort of mashup between season 8 and season 9 (purgatory, Abaddon, MOC). The angels did not fall, the trials and Gadreel never happened but Crowley and Abaddon are still in competition for hell.

    Tags and characters to be added. Like most of my stories, this is a dark fic with a very dark John and Dean suffers. Underage is for references to past abuse.

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    The Winchesters and Cas retire, settle down. They're well established in a happy, suburban life when disaster strikes, leaving Dean unable to cope.

    Or: There's a mass shooting that claims the lives of Sam, Sam's wife, and Cas. Dean doesn't want to live without them.

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    READ THE NOTES AT THE BEGINNING OF THE STORY
    "His life always seemed quite normal. There never was anything happening that people would describe as exciting or something close. He was a stoner and friends with a punk but that didn’t change the fact that his life always had something boring to it. And there were days he wished something exiting would happen, no matter what but at the same time he hoped for his life to stay the way it was because it seemed quite perfect.
    What didn’t fit his life where the sounds and smells of the emergency room of the hospital he was currently in."

    [They more or less were like on of the typical gay couples you could see in college. The ones that didn't follow clichès but nevertheless still did. Life seemed perfect until one action and it's resulting phone call took all of it away with one sentence, "Cas, he attempted suicide."]

    The title is from the song "I Miss you" by "Blink-182":
    ""I Miss You” is one of Blink-182’s most iconic tracks, it serves as a haunting depiction of the effect depression can have on a relationship and its subsequent fallout."

    ((slow updates cause I'll uploade every chapter right after writing. Byt writing takes its time))

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    au verse - bits and pieces of dean winchester's crazy life.

    the day older brother sam winchester left for school, he left behind a broken, 15 year old selective mute little brother with a father who couldve cared less. just when dean was living the worst time in his life, john decided he had to leave dean behind too.

    it still blew dean's mind, in just four years, how life had changed. from crappy motels, drunken asshole family members, yelling, fighting and beatings, to warm houses, nightly hugs and kisses, cooking dinners, researching hunts for fun, art supplies by the bundles, crazy family friends and movie nights ...

    yeah, life was pretty good. and he loved it.

    (requests open)

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    Charming Acres: Where Everybody’s Happy!

    Dean isn’t unhappy living in Charming Acres, but serving coffee at the diner isn’t fulfilling him in quite the ways he needs. Luckily, an hour's drive takes him to Little Rock, a much bigger city that’s more suited to his special tastes. After being rejected by a handsome newcomer to town, Dean decides to blow off a little steam.

    Castiel can already tell that Charming Acres will be a frustrating place to live—there’s a beautiful barista at the diner, but what are the chances that anyone in this odd, time-warp town would be a good match for him? Luckily, his lonely existence is somewhat improved by an exclusive BDSM club in a city an hour away. Just what he needs to put a certain green-eyed diner employee out of his mind.

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    Destiel AU.
    Cas plans a proposal. Dean has a bad day. Things do not go as planned. Angst ensues.

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    The year is 2004, somewhere in the States.
    Dean Winchester is set on a solo hunt that doesn't look like the regular monster.
    Castiel, an Angel of the Lord, is also in that same small town, on a mission from Heaven.
    Seems easy enough, isn't it?

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    A follow-on story to Amnesia. Kind of a prequel. Set during the years of College where Dean and Castiel fell in love, long before Castiel lost his memory. You don't have to have read Amnesia for this to make sense (you really don't, actually), but I don't know, if I were to do it in any order, I would read Amnesia first. Anyway.

    Castiel has avoided humans his entire life. After too many bad experiences with them - along with the whole systematic racism thing; it's just the best way he can think of to avoid a. harm, b. upset, and c. complaints of "reverse racism". And Dean has avoided getting close - at least, for the past year or so - to anyone. But especially guys he finds himself inexplicably attracted to. And he, too, has some pretty damn justified reasons for this. So naturally, when the two meet, a great deal of sparks - along with confusion and glares - fly.

    But ever so slowly, Castiel finds himself falling in love with a human, while Dean finds himself falling in love. It's hard to say who is more horrified by the circumstances.

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    Season 15 spoilers!!!!!!

    Post 15.3 with some sad and Dean abandonment issues and self esteem issues

    Then

    Post 15.9 when they make up and talk

    Oof, sucky summary oh well you get the gist

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    When Sam Winchester is Chosen, his brother Dean knows he needs to keep an eye on him from the adjacent Artificers Collegium. But when he saves Sam from a training accident, Dean ends up not only with a Companion and powers he never wanted but also a lifebond that challenges everything he knows about himself.

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    Dean and Castiel go undercover as a couple going through therapy, in order to catch a monster that specifically targets couples dealing with issues, feeding on their distress, anger, and pain.

    They end up going through a lot more than a case, unfolding feelings left untold for so long, discovering parts of each other they never intended to uncover.

    But will the feelings raging inside them be enough to bring their walls down?

    This work is titled after lyrics from the song "Graveyard" by Halsey [x]

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    Friendly reminder that English is not my native language, so there's likely going to be mistakes! Please bear with my french ass :)

    [Started as part of the SPN Stay at Home Challenge, still going because I have no self-control.]

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    Surfing the internet, Cas discovers a little thing called Kinktober and decides to convince Dean to play along. Who is Dean to say no to anything Cas wants? Unless of course, Cas wants to talk about these things in front of Sam. Because, no, that would not be cool.

    Check the chapter titles and beginning notes of each chapter for the kinks contained within that particular chapter and any applicable warnings. Tags will be updated as I go since this is not entirely written yet and I'm not 100% where the boys will want to take this. If you think I've missed a tag, please please please please tell me so I can fix it.

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    Castiel and Dean first met in a barn. At least, that's the first time Dean remembers meeting Cas.

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    what happens when a tired lone hunter meets a fake psychic detective? .... they start dating and slowly fall in love, of course!

    random moments of dean and shawn's lives spent together.

    co-written in different time-zones and zero sleep between the two of us.

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    There are a couple of things Dean knows.
    1) He’s not gonna die pretty
    2) Never mess with an angry Russian
    3) And … what the hell? Sam?!

    Or in other words:

    The one where Dean is down on his luck until he meets the Russian angel and he somehow joins the Russian Mafia as a bride to be and Sam is relevant.

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    Dean and Cas watch the sunset.

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