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    In which Dean is a subby masochist but Cas is vanilla as fuck so they have Problems ™. And Dean being as good at communicating as frogs are at brain surgery, well that isn't helping either. Bonus: Sam banging his head against the wall in frustration because he has to witness the #drama.

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    When Cas almost died the day Jack was born and Dean was forced to retire, Dean thought his life was over. Being forced to slowly rebuild it on an unexpected path and trying to be a normal human with his best friend and a newborn has been rough but it may just be the very thing he was looking for.

    Sam thought he knew what was happening in Dean’s life pretty well. They talk regularly but when he visits the house that Dean, Cas, and now toddler Jack have been living in for over two years, Sam wonders if things are what he thought during his weeklong vacation with Eileen. Sam thought it was just two best friends raising a kid but now...

    Maybe these two brothers can discover what happiness for the older Winchester brother and the fallen angel is through the highs and lows of this new, ordinary life. Hopefully, they all figure it out together through small deeds and acts of kindness and love.

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    Cas pours both their drinks and watches Dean as he downs it immediately. Cas is still watching when Dean licks his lips, unaware of Dean's eyes locked on his reaction. 

    When he looks up, their eyes lock. It's intense until Dean frowns and looks away.

    "Cas..." He murmurs. "I-" He clears his throat. "You know why we can't, right?"

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    Dean thinks of how easily a man is reduced to nothing, when there’s no love left for him. Thinks of standing vigil for Dad until all that remained were his bones. Dean looks up in the mirror at himself again. How much of what he sees is him? How much is Dad? Who is he when he’s not following Dad? Is he his father’s son, doomed to make all of Dad’s mistakes? Is that Dean’s lot in life?

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    After the end of the world that wasn't, Dean struggles to find his place in a life that no longer fits him. The people he loves are growing and changing while Dean clings to the identity he was told to have. He fears being obsolete, but the unknown of what he could become is terrifying in it's possibility. Dean has to decide who he is: the boy his father raised? A killer? A lover? What kind of man does he want to be?

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    A lot of things went wrong that day, and, I guess, not a lot of things have gone right since that day. It was the beginning of the end for me. A part of me died that night and the rest felt like it died in the weeks and months that followed  

     
    Dean Winchester doesn't remember the week before he woke up in a hospital with a tube down his throat. He doesn't know what happened and no one will tell him. The doctor, instead, insists that he needs time to remember, insists that healing shouldn't be rushed. And, insists that this needs to be done somewhere that isn't at home.

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    Psychiatric Facility AU, where Cas and Dean help each other heal and remember what it means to really live.
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    To be honest, I think I just so desperately needed them to go to therapy that I wrote it myself.

    Updates: Weekly, on a Sunday

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    what happens when a tired lone hunter meets a fake psychic detective? .... they start dating and slowly fall in love, of course!

    random moments of dean and shawn's lives spent together.

    co-written in different time-zones and zero sleep between the two of us.

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    "The only measure of your worth and your deeds will be the love you leave behind when you're gone." -- Singer Songwriter, Fred Small

    All Dean's life he just wanted to do the right thing, to make his dad proud, to keep his little brother safe, to save the world. But no matter how hard he tried, Dean always seems to screw up. Well, at least Dean can take his punishment like a Winchester. That's all he's good for after all.

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    Dean woke up mated and pregnant after his heat was triggered by a strange alpha. The alpha, Castiel, takes Dean home with him, away from the sex club where he lived and worked, to be his new mate. They each come from two different worlds and it becomes painfully obvious that Dean is in over his head. Castiel is an alpha of the elite, rich beyond imagination and used to being in complete control while getting his way. Dean is a destitute, orphaned omega selling his body to be able to eat. Will Dean and Cas be able to find a way to make their mating work or will the pressure of both of their past and the scrutiny of the media prevent them from their happily ever after?

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    After the dust settles, and Chuck is finally defeated, and Jack just leaves them after getting the job done, Dean is stuck with the revelation that he's all alone and that he was a massive asshole to everyone in his life who was just doing their best to help him.

    Cue Dean aggressively trying to make up for his actions and doing whatever he can to try to be the selfless person Cas thought he was, even though he knows that he wasn't. These attempts at becoming the kind of person Cas would be proud of include becoming a mechanic, quitting hunting, taking good care of his dog, volunteering at the homeless shelter, and even, god forbid, quitting alcohol. The one thing Dean just can't seem to quit is his weird inability to move on from Cas, even though Cas probably would've wanted him to do that too.

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    Where does an Angel of the Lord go during a pandemic?
    He stays next to the Righteous Man.
    Like always.

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    Castiel doesn’t know where the runaway in Dean has gone, but he’s not sure that man exists anymore. The omega in his backseat has been badly broken. He hasn’t said a word to Castiel; hasn’t protested aside from flinching, hasn’t even pleaded to be spared. He’s just… empty. Tired. Castiel can smell layers of fear, sour and old on the omega’s skin, an emotion so often felt that it’s now a permanent stain on his scent. He can only begin to imagine what Dean has been through to put him in this state of apathy.
     
     
    At sixteen years old, Dean Winchester signed away his life in order to protect what he loves most. He's spent the last eleven years as the property of various alphas, each crueler than the last. Purchased by a new master that promises him nothing but safety, his life is about to dramatically change - and with any luck, it will be for the better.

    Updates once a week!

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    Whatever rock song was playing, Dean wasn’t paying too much attention, faded out and the soft notes of some stupid feel-good song began.

    “La la la laaa”, Dean mocked, but the cynical smile was soon knocked off his face when the lyrics set in. 

    “I couldn’t utter my love when it counted, ah but I’m singing like a bird ‘bout it now. I couldn’t whisper when you needed it shouted, ah but I’m singing like a bird ‘bout it now”

    Dean frowned and turned off the volume. His own fault, really, for listening to some radio station instead of his trusted mixtapes. Except, it wasn’t like he could listen to those either, they reminded him too much of Cas. Dean spent a lot of time thinking about Cas; but doing so while driving really wasn’t the best of ideas. So, radio stations it was. But now even those weren’t safe anymore. And driving without music, in this instance, entirely defeated the purpose of driving in the first place.

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    After the events of 15x18 Dean mourns Cas. He reflects on their relationship over the years and decides he has to save the angel.

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    “What is it, Dean?”

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    Dean Winchester can't figure out if he has commitment issues or if he's aromantic and starts to spiral because of it. Luckily, he has a pretty good support team at his back.

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    "Because I'm in love with you.”

    Dean's eyes widen, struggling to blink back stinging tears that cling to their sides. He knows he doesn't deserve this. That he shouldn't be allowed to hold someone’s, certainly not someone as beautiful as Cas, affections. But he can't help but want. To cling to those words echoing in his skull, bouncing around. I'm in love with you, love love love.

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    Dean doesn't think he's worthy of love and Cas is determined to do everything in his power to prove to Dean that is capable and deserving of love.

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    Castiel owns The Garrison, a popular club in a midsized Midwest town. He also has a dark past he can’t quite get away from and a darkness within, a dark, oily sludge, he's never quite been able to rid himself of.

    Dean is in yet another new town, his brother just left for college on the other side of the country and his dad just up and vanished in the middle of the night without warning. He’s alone, angry, and bristling with a recklessness that mimics the untamed inferno raging behind his ribcage, something he’s fought to tame his entire life.

    Does darkness always equate to evil? Does light always allude to purity?

    Or do both extremes consume entirely, simply in different ways?

    Can Castiel and Dean help contain the others demons before they become too much?

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    In the warmth and safety of their bed, tucked against the far wall of their bedroom in their small two-story, blue-shingled house, Cas sleeps.

    or: a handful of mornings (and two nights) with cas, dean, and jack.

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    The year is 2003, and Castiel has completed his undergraduate degree, quit his job at the gas station, and decided to follow his boyfriend across the continental United States to become a hunter.

    Whether that bodes well for his career plan is tough to say, but he’s excited to see where the road takes him. Still, as he should know by now, life is rarely that simple, and certainly not when it comes to Dean Winchester.

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    There's always been something different about Sam. There are things that he knows and sees, things that he can do, that aren't normal. Sometimes they feel like magic, or power, but most of the time...he knows they're a curse. He learns quickly that these are things that he's not allowed to do. And there are things that he wants, beautiful things, that are sometimes right in front of him, but always out of his reach. And he's always known that these are things that he's not allowed to have.

    Sam's just never fit, not even in a world of nomadic monster hunters who are forced to live outside the borders of the normal world. And worse, even within his own damaged, tightly-bound family—which itself is strange enough to be kept to the fringes of the hunting world—he's still an outsider.

    There's only one person who doesn't keep him out, who seems to think he belongs. His perfect, beautiful big brother, Dean.

    And that's the problem, really...because Dean is one of those things that Sam's not supposed to want.

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    A love story, that is probably overdone about two people who have met online and live far away from each other but still love each other.

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