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    In a world where soulmates are determined by a Soul Mark tattoo, having a Mark doesn’t magically make someone a good person. No one knows this better than Dean Winchester, whose soulmate is more than a little abusive.

    Not that Dean would ever admit that, of course. Between Michael and his own insecurities, he’s convinced he’s broken on the inside, stuck fearing the person who’s supposed to love him more than anything. Worse, instead of loving the man he’s destined to spend the rest of his life with, he finds himself pining for his gentle, kind, slightly-odd best friend.

    Castiel Krushnic also happens to be his college roommate, because everything in Dean’s life just has to be that easy.

    He is so screwed.

    (Updates Wednesdays and Saturdays!)

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    while on a hunt, Dean is trapped in a djinn-dream, and it is up to Sam to rescue him. However, when Sam dream-walks and finds Castiel alive, Dean refuses to wake up. What must Sam say in order to rescue Dean? And how will Dean cope when he learns the truth?

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    please be mindful of the tags!

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    Two months after Dean is dragged to Hell, he crawls out of his own grave with a mysterious handprint branded to his shoulder. A strange being named Castiel claims that he pulled Dean early to stop the literal Apocalypse.

    Now Dean must figure out a way to derail the divine destines of him and his brother. They must find a way to stop Lilith without killing her, while all of Heaven and Hell want Dean back in the basement so The Plan can continue.

    The only one in his corner is Castiel, but can this stupidly handsome stranger be trusted? After all, no one else but Dean can even see or hear him...

    [AKA A S4 AU retelling with healthy brotherly bonding, tons of TFW feels, a very sweet slow burn, and Cas in a waistcoat!]

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    Surprise surprise, Cas is back from the Empty, and chaos ensues inside of Dean's heart (obviously). The gang is back together, Chuck's gone forever, there's a baby who should be sitting atop Heaven's Throne but prefers to eat cereal sitting on his highchair, Claire and Kaia are an established couple, Jody and Donna as well, Eileen and Sam are going strong, Dean is... Alive. And very trans (this is relevant to the plot I promise). TFW 2.0 hasn't retired yet, so they decide to take on a random case, not expecting too much trouble. Not-spoiler alert: it doth not go as planned.

    “I was singing this refrain
    In nineteen three, not knowing my
    Love and phoenix were the same
    And if they fled the evening sky
    They were reborn when morning came

    One night of London fog and flame
    A ne’er do well resembling my
    Love was passing: up he came
    And showed me such a knowing eye
    It made me lower mine in shame

    With that young tough I had to go
    Who hands in pockets took his ways
    Whistling through the parted row
    Of tenements as Red Sea waves
    He the Hebrews, I Pharaoh […]”

    “La Chanson du mal-aimé", Alcools, Apollinaire 1913

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    Sam and Dean Winchester haven't spoken for nearly two years since that fateful night when Sam left for Stanford. In the early hours of the morning, Dean gets a call from his younger brother that he and his girlfriend Jessica have been in a bad car accident, who has been left braindead from her injuries, asking Dean to come to California. It isn't until he arrives at the hospital that Dean realizes the full impact of this family tragedy when it becomes known that Jessica is pregnant with her and Sam's child. Difficult decisions need to be made on what to do to save the future of the Winchester family and what the potential fallout will be.

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    Dean doesn't know what to do when Cas gets taken. He has tried threatening every being that could possibly enter the Empty but nothing seems to stick. Not even Jack seems to know what to do... until one day when the young God appears with the missing angel completely out of the blue.

    Cas' unexpected resurrection gives Dean a chance at exploring his relationship with the angel on a level he has never tried before, but his stupid, whiskey-dependent ass has no idea how to navigate it.

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    two nightmares, a panic attack, and two brothers who don't like asking for help.

    OR:

    author is coping <3 (and sucks at summaries)

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    Cowboys from all over the American West travel to Abilene, Texas, just to get a taste of Dean Winchester, one of the only—and best—male prostitutes out there, and he makes good money from them, too. Unfortunately, most of that money goes toward his family, who he’s not even allowed to see on account of his no-good piece of shit daddy who kicked him out.

    When tenderfoot cowboy Castiel rides into town, Dean starts to crave something he hasn’t had in a long while— a real home.

    Together, Dean and Castiel have to navigate the inhospitable world of the American West, and discover for themselves what family means, when family pushes you away.

    **Previously titled "A Boy Whore From Abilene"**

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    Dean ropes Gabriel into raiding the Empty.

    Unfortunately, the problems don't really arise until he and Cas are back on the same plane and have to find a way to use their words.

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    Dean crawls his way out of Hell and finds his voice out of commision

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    "Don't say something you might regret."

    Castiel Novak is a single father with two children struggling to make ends meet after his ex-wife takes off and refuses to pay Child Support.

    After being losing his job and being evicted from his home, Cas's older brother Gabriel offers to let them live with him. There, Cas meets Gabriels' infamous coffee wizard (and part-time drunk), Dean Winchester.

    His world gets turned upside-down in a swirl of hazelnut lattes, sickly-sweet lollipops and maybe-kind-of-dates.

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    Welcome to Stars Hollow, Connecticut.

    at age sixteen lorelai gilmore gave birth to twin girls. now, sixteen years later, the oldest twin - rory is accepted into the private school, while dean - the taller and younger of the two is left to deal with a new crush and a new way of life. small town life isn't all that it's cracked up to be. but he's trying the best he can.

    (a complete re-write of season one of the tv series Gilmore Girls, with my own personal twist)

    named after the album of the same name by Sam Phillips.

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    Everyone has a guardian angel, but people never get to see them. Angels protect the person they are responsible for from far away, only intervening when it is absolutely necessary. But after years of watching Dean live an increasingly dangerous life, his guardian angel has had enough and has decided to physically be there for Dean. But by doing this, rules that have been around for thousands of years are broken and, literally, hell breaks out.

    So now, Dean has to deal with not only the usual creatures he’s used to facing but now demons that want to take over the world and an angel that constantly gets in the way and changes his baby’s radio station.

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    He smiled to Castiel as he had discovered him on the bed, just as he had left him.

    Then he closed the door and turned his back on him.

    "So, I figured we should talk some things out", Castiel heard him say and honestly, it felt like a destiny that Dean had come to him right now, because his mind was in the exactly same place as Dean's.

    Castiel felt himself nodding: "I agree. Let's talk."

     

    Notification!!! (Added 12.7)

    I'm rewriting this story a bit. Sorry for those who liked the original story better.

    This is just if you wonder about the deleted chapters from the end. I'm doing this again, because I wasn't content with this story anymore and I kind of lost the plot for it. Now, I hope, it will be better.

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    Sometimes Dean has panic attacks, some worse than others, some delayed.
    Dean is reminded of the night the Empty took Cas, what Billie used against him, and it causes a delayed panic attack. Cas helps him through it.

    This is more Destiel heavy, in this case, they are pre-established, however, it's not the main focus of the story.

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    It’s the school’s first event of the new school year and Emma and her dad, dad’s boyfriend, and her super tall uncle, are attending. Afterwards the eight year old will be going to a sleepover and Sam, on a date and possible sleepover of his own. It’s just Dean and Cas in the house for the night. Sadly, their plans of enjoying it are changed. It still turns out to be a good night after all.

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    Cas convinced him to do this. It was Sam’s idea, but Cas convinced him. Spray paint his hair in blue, purple, and pink. Wear the blue, pink, and white flag that usually hung over their bed on his shoulders.

    “Dean, it’s called pride for a reason,” Cas had said, kissing the spot on his tummy that had recently begun to grow soft. “I want you to show your pride. Dean, I want you to be proud of yourself. Nevertheless, it’ll be fun. You never get to see the nocturnal animals during the day. Jack’ll love it.”

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    Sequel to my 15.19 fix-it fic. 6 months after Cas's return, the four of them are enjoying living together. There are still cases, however, and Dean and Cas are sent to deal with a witch.

    Things go awry as Dean is cursed to speak in gibberish and Cas doesn't realize it because he thinks Dean is just being more dense than usual.

    Dean has to let others help him, and has to learn to deal with his current inner demons.

    (Softer than it sounds, I promise?

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    “Pull my finger,”  Cas says simply.

    Dean does.

    Two doors down, three lightbulbs explode with a brilliant pop.

    A chuckle erupts from Dean’s throat, bubbling through his lips.

    Cas looks pleased.  

    “You’re like a..a..”  Dean racks his brain for the term.  “Firefly! No, wait.  That’s a bug.”

    “Firecracker?”  Cas suggests helpfully.  

    “Yeah!”  Dean smiles at him.  His lips quickly tug back down.  “Why can’t I remember, Cas?”

    Cas tucks his knees up to his chest, circling his arms around them.  “I’m not sure.  But I think I envy you.”  His voice is wistful.

    Dean looks at him, brows knitting together.  “You’re jealous of a brain that’s basically cheesecloth?”

    Cas gives him a small smile.  “The memories I have right now, I would be happier forgetting.”  A shadow drifts over his face.  

    “Is it really so bad, Dean?  To not remember things?”

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    Everyone has a guardian angel, but people never get to see them. Angels protect the person they are responsible for from far away, only intervening when it is absolutely necessary. But after years of watching Dean live an increasingly dangerous life, his guardian angel has had enough and has decided to physically be there for Dean. But by doing this, rules that have been around for thousands of years are broken and, literally, hell breaks out.
    So now, Dean has to deal with not only the usual creatures he’s used to facing but now demons that want to take over the world and an angel that constantly gets in the way and changes his baby’s radio station.

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