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    Finding one's way back home is never easy- especially not after having to literally uproot one's entire life to do so. It had been 7 long years since Dean had stepped foot in Massachusetts. While not a native it had been more of a home than Kansas ever was to him and his family when they moved there his senior year of high school. And Dean had to admit being home wasn't as bad as he remembered. Going to get coffee (a normal morning routine for himself) ended up turning into one of the most confusing and draining experiences of his life.

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    Benny never thought that he would see Dean again- let alone be in the same space as him. But when the bell over the door rang signaling his first costumer of the day Benny was ready with a warm smile which was quickly replaced with a look of shock. Standing in front of the door was Dean- the man he had driven away- who was looking back at him with equal puzzlement.

    "Benny?"

    "Hey there, Cher."

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    Castiel Shurley, pen name Castiel Novak, was once a confessional poetry wunderkind. Now, though, he’s 34 and hasn’t published a new collection in almost seven years. He can bemoan the vagaries of writer’s block and the challenges of parenting a teenage son while teaching full-time all he wants, but excuses aren’t going to impress his agent, his publisher, or his tenure committee. He’s in serious danger of becoming a washed-up literary fluke before even seeing middle age.

    At the end of his rope, Castiel repairs to his sister Anna’s vacation home on Lake Pend Oreille, hoping a change of scenery will ungum his creative works. On one of their first trips into town, Jack strikes up a conversation in the parking lot of the local grocery store with the most beautiful man Castiel has ever seen, and that’s when Castiel feels it: his muse coming back after a half-decade of dormancy.

    No matter what, he has to see this man again somehow. Too bad he has no idea who he is.

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    Dean winchester, freshly twenty years old, just won custody of his fifteen year old brother and has to build a life for themselves. They encounter many obstacles, including a specific neighbor Dean is convinced is the prettiest man he'd ever saw.

    **UPDATES EVERY WEDNESDAY!!**

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    After 15 years, a wedding in Vegas 12 years ago, and half a dozen impulsive decisions (including a matching tattoo they still see daily), Dean and Castiel are getting a divorce.

    It's been six months since they've separated, and Dean is still in denial, back in his childhood bedroom at Bobby and Ellen's. On the other side of town, Cas is playing the dangerous games of how-many-shifts-in-the-ED-can-I-pick-up-before-collapsing and will-my-liver-survive-to-see-another-day.

    Then Dean gets called in the middle of the night by Sioux Falls General Hospital, telling him his husband’s life is hanging by a thread after getting hit by a car on his way back home.

    A coma, serious injuries and several surgeries later, Cas is back home with mandatory presence required to help him with reeducation and monitoring his progress. And against all odds, Dean is the one staying around to help.

    Dean and Cas’ respective worlds get thrown for another ride, shifting perspectives again.

    What if things between them were salvageable? What if everything wasn’t the way they thought it was in the first place? Is it worth trying to glue the pieces back together?

    An exercise in healing and second chances.

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    Dean doesn’t know what to do. Dean wants to say stay with me, stay with me and never leave. Dean wants to apologize. Dean wants to set his mouth at the hollow of Cas’s throat as gently as he’s ever done anything, feel the beat of Cas’s heart beneath his lips. Dean is so lonely, and he’s missed him so much.

    *

    A year and a half after Cas is saved from the Empty, Dean is living out his days alone on a piece of farmland in rural Kansas. One day, Cas shows up on his porch.

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    At his local BDSM club, Dean is well-known for being a bit of brat. Unfortunately for him, that means most of the regulars try to stay far away, leaving only the cruelest or most desperate Doms to consider scening with Dean.

    On Friday nights, though, sometimes there are new people. Sometimes there are Doms who haven't been around before, who are more willing to give Dean a chance to be good.

    And this time... This time, there's a blue-eyed Dom that Dean's never seen before and is more than happy to scene with. He expects the guy to eventually get frustrated with him and leave, like all the others, but Castiel has some tricks up his sleeve and an unshakeable patience that might just lead to an interesting night after all...

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    Dean fucked up. He shoplifted some food and got caught, which landed Sam and him in the back seat of a social worker's car. Will john find them? Does Dean even want him to? Why can't he keep his eyes off the cute Catholic boy who showed him around?

    So basically, that one episode where Dean got caught stealing as a kid except CPS's actual steps forward... monsters may or may not exist......but yeah, a werewolf didn't leave those marks, Dean.

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    Everything inside was lost in silhouette.
    You’re lost in silhouette.

    //

    Post Flagstaff, Dean spirals. When Sam disappears again, he's sent over the edge.

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    After the dust settles, and Chuck is finally defeated, and Jack just leaves them after getting the job done, Dean is stuck with the revelation that he's all alone and that he was kind of a massive asshole to almost everyone in his life who was just doing their best to help him.

    Cue Dean aggressively trying to make up for his actions and doing whatever he can to try to be the selfless person Cas thought he was. These attempts at becoming the kind of person Cas would be proud of include becoming a mechanic, quitting hunting, taking good care of his dog, volunteering at the homeless shelter, and even, god forbid, quitting alcohol. The one thing Dean just can't seem to quit is his weird inability to move on from Cas, even though Cas probably would've wanted him to do that too.

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    A collection of unrelated one-shots for Whumptober 2021! All of these will be Dean-centric bc he's my weak spot. Chapters will be posted pretty much as they are finished. There's no way I'm finishing in time, but I plan to post to completion! Enjoy!

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    It was the Apocalypse. Dean was in heat. Alcohol was involved. Their instincts insisted. Those were among the many excuses the omega came up with to explain why he and Cas had had sex (because there was no way his crush on the angel was requited, cuz he was a freaking angel). And when Dean showed up on Lisa's doorstep, he already knew he was pregnant. But Cas had left after the portal to Hell closed back up again, and Dean really didn't think he'd ever come back. No reason to, now that the Not-pocalypse was over, right?

    Being with Lisa helped Dean deal with some of the grief, even if their relationship wasn't really too much past platonic yet. Trying to move on hurt, but Lisa was awesome. Especially with her being so understanding about everything, even Dean's reluctance to take things any faster than a snail's pace.

    Only, Cas never really left, and he always made sure to check up on Dean whenever he could. His alpha instincts would've never let him do otherwise, even if they'd never actually mated. Or worked through any of the fifty fucktons of miscommunications from that one night.

    Idiots in love being idiots, with season 6 still on its way... Oh boy...

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    And finally, Dean thought about Cas.

    What it would all mean to have Cas in his entirety, in every way imaginable. To have him sleep caressed and sun-kissed beneath early morning sheets, the weight of his fingers tracing Dean’s palm down peaceful corridors, his scent cloaked in Dean’s very bones. To have his warmth as comfort and his hands as a guide that slid over Dean’s skin with familiarity. No more tentativeness, no more skimming the edges and tracing the seams of their story.

    Peace. He wanted peace. But with Cas back from the Empty with his memories shredded, and Jack nowhere to be seen, what would peace even look like? And, after everything, was it something Dean deserved?

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    Sam leaves for Stanford. Dean tries to deal with it.

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    Dean is just trying to do what he can to stave off a medical emergency, that's all. He's definitely not planning on acting on any submissive urges more than he absolutely has to to stay alert and alive.

    When he meets Castiel, all bets are off.

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    Por una cacería, después de ser abandonado por su madre, Dean regresa a un lugar de su infancia que le hace recordar lo solo que siempre estuvo y siempre estará porque es inútil, Castiel le quiere demostrar todo lo contrario.

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    A snippet where Dean's drunk, and it makes him braver than he can handle.

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    Dean is convinced that Cas' dying confession wasn't a confession at all. How could it be? Clearly, his best friend had meant it in a general, heavenly sense of the word -- in the way angels must! Or, at least that's what he tells himself until someone else takes interest in Castiel and the angel sure seems to be entertaining that shit...

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    Cas was resurrected. Dean told Cas that he loves him, that he can have everything he wanted, but Cas has to stay with him. Cas promised that he would. The thing is, he didn’t realize how literal Dean was being.

    Now, Cas works on rebuilding Heaven with the angels, while he builds a new life with Dean. Neither of those things are as easy as Cas would have liked.

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    “Angels have been interfering for too long,” Jack insists. “Humanity deserves some peace, and I intend to give it to them.”

    “Then why did Cas go back?” Anna demands.

    “That doesn’t matter,” Cas says, willing Anna to just let it go.

    “Yes it does!” she argues instead.

    “And Heaven deserves some peace too!” Jack continues, raising his voice. “That won’t happen if we’re getting into conflicts on Earth.”

    “Then why does Cas get to go back and I don’t?”

    “That’s different,” Jack says. Cas cringes.

    “Why, because it’s the Winchesters?” Anna asks. “The old God is dead, why are they still the centre of the universe?”

    “Because it’s Dean,” Cas says.

    “And?!”

    “And I love him!”

    "It's still not fair. You can't set up rules and exceptions and call Heaven free."

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    THIS STORY IS COMPLETE

    Castiel Krushnic is the weirdest guy in the 11th grade. Hell, he’s the weirdest guy in the whole damn school. His stark good looks against the all black clothes, his thick-soled stomping boots, and the fact that he almost never speaks to anyone except his girlfriend Meg makes him an enigma. It seems like every time Dean turns around, the guy is there—looking at him or doing something bizarre. Dean shouldn’t care, but he can’t get Castiel out of his head.

    As spring comes to Sioux Falls and the days get longer, 17-year-old Dean Winchester has more time to spend with his semi-girlfriend Lisa and collection of delinquent friends. Between working at his Uncle Bobby’s garage and shuttling his little brother around in his prized possession, his father’s Impala, time alone is a rare luxury. When he treks out to an abandoned trainyard alone and ends up seriously injured, it shouldn’t be a surprise that Castiel is there to save him.

    Now, Dean has one more weird thing about Castiel Krushnic he can’t explain and a gnawing need to know more.

    AUTHORS NOTE: Special thanks to the_communist_unicorn, WingsUnbound, and Masonic-You know what you did

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