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    “I’m going to kiss you now.”

    Cas pauses, giving Dean a chance to back out, but Dean just licks his lips and waits.

    Cas’s mouth is up against Dean’s for a couple seconds before Dean responds, and then it’s Cas that’s being kissed senseless, because kissing is definitely not something Dean does tentatively. Dean reaches up to cup Cas’s jaw in his hand, tilting his head for a better angle, mouth plush, tasting like whiskey.

    Cas tries to remember what it was like the first time he kissed a man. All-encompassing, the world jerking off its axis, the feel of stubble under his fingers intense in a way it never really is with women, as much as he loves them.

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    This is the second installment in my Hearts Universe. If you have not read The Heart of Everything, I recommend you do so before beginning this work.

    For over half of his life, Castiel has been kept imprisoned and tortured by his eldest brothers. Denied the throne he was born to hold and beaten into submission, Castiel had never dreamed he would escape. Until he did with help from an unexpected source. He quickly met Dean, and together they set out to discover a better life and escape the dreary existence they had both been surviving. In The Heart of Everything, they discovered who Castiel truly is and his importance to the people who would call him their Prince while building their relationship and learning just how important they are to each other.

    Now, they face new challenges. While preparing for war and seeking allies, Sam has gone missing and fallen into the hands of the last person any of them would dare to face. Along the way they discover their entire cause may be in danger and those close to them scramble to pick up the pieces before Michael and Lucifer close in on Dean and Castiel.

    This is a work in progress that will be updated weekly.

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    Dean and Sam's points of views on their relationships and lives throughout the years. John Winchester is more harmful than good, especially to Dean. Sam struggles with the guilt of what his brother's given up for him over the years. Dean suffers from abuse, low esteem. TRIGGER WARNING for eating disorders/abuse. Pre-series. UPDATED: Periodic point of views from John and Bobby as well. John is a real SOB.

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    The Mark of Cain has taken Dean, and he rules, in Hell, with Castiel, Fallen, beside him.

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    “She's got eyes of the bluest skies
    As if they thought of rain
    I hate to look into those eyes
    And see an ounce of pain”
    I hum quietly. This part reminds me of Castiel.
    He’s got the bluest eyes that are like an endless sky, I can get lost in them. But when he’s sad, it’s almost if they are like rainy days.

    But why doesn't Castiel remember me? And where is Sam?

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    Kiedy Sam i Castiel zostali parą i postanowili porzucić styl życia łowcy, Dean również zdecydował się zmienić swoje życie. Przeszedł przez piekło, nie tylko w przenośni, a teraz chciał znaleźć swoje miejsce na ziemi i swoje szczęście, a przy odrobinie szczęścia też miłość. Dlatego wyrzucił inhibitory blokujące jego instynkty do kosza i wyjechał na urlop — prosto do Crowleya. Jedynej osoby, której ufał na tyle, by przy niej nauczyć się na nowo bycia omegą i poznać samego siebie.

    Wtedy jeszcze nie wiedział, że urlop zmieni się w emeryturę, a odwyk od branych przez dwadzieścia lat silnych hormonów skończy się kilkukrotnym pobytem w szpitalu. Że rozdrapie stare ran, przywoła najgorsze wspomnienia i skłóci się z bratem. Nie spodziewał się klątw, tortur i kolejnego bliskiego spotkania ze śmiercią.

    Ale przede wszystkim nie spodziewał się, że w domu Króla Piekła odnajdzie swoje miejsce, swoje szczęście i swoją miłość.


    Czyli:

    Historia demona i łowcy, którzy pokochali się pomimo tego, że pod każdym względem wydawało się to niemożliwe.

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    Sam, Dean, and Cas run into some trouble fighting a witch. She separates them and injects Dean with a truth serum, causing him to speak whatever comes to mind. The serum will only wear off if Dean spills his deepest fear. Turns out he’s got a lot of abandonment and inadequacy issues and Sam and Cas desperately try to tape him back together in the aftermath.

     

    “I’m afraid you’ll leave me. I’m afraid I can’t protect you. I’m afraid…I’m afraid you’re going to leave when you realize I’m too weak and I'm scared I’m going to end up all alone because I failed to keep you two safe.”
    Well, shit.

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    After all the angels fell (Supernatural Season 8 finale) and an inconclusive NASA investigation into the global meteor shower, a secret US task force came to the conclusion that angels walk among us. The task force determined they are powerful and therefore dangerous, a threat to the United States. Thus was born the American Council on Angel Affairs. Kept secret for four years, unknown even to the president, the ACAA devoted all their resources to finding out precisely how to control angels. They succeed, though not without casualties.

    In the aftermath of the 2017 U.S. Presidential inauguration, after running on an anti-immigrant, anti-angel platform and winning the presidency, the new president has now made it law that all angels in human vessels must display their wings at all times or risk public execution. The public is rewarded handsomely for turning in suspected angels, and they do so love a bloody execution.

    Although he'd successfully hidden again for years, Gabriel is captured, imprisoned, and sentenced to death. His only hope is Castiel, who would need to risk his own capture, along with two hunters, one of whom would like nothing more than to see Gabriel dead.

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    Dean gets a birthday gift he didn't expect. He kinda likes it.

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    Pieces for the Wincestmas gift exchange on Tumblr.

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    Spoilers: The Foundry. Season 12 Episode 3 Coda

     Please don't read if haven't seen the episode as it contains some spoilers of the episode.

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    Prompt : tell me you need me

    Sam been gone for one year, and it's been 9 months since they talked.

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    While rummaging around the artifacts in the Men of Letters bunker, Dean finds a pair of what he thinks are Hellhound glasses...except it turns out they let the wearer see angel wings as well.

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    While rummaging around the artifacts in the Men of Letters bunker, Dean finds a pair of what he thinks are Hellhound glasses...except it turns out they let the wearer see angel wings as well.

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    Two years after Jessica Moore's death, she's still a factor in their lives. Dean's feelings are boiling over and driving him slightly up a wall. Sam has probably suspected for a while. Jessica Moore wants out of the spirit world if it means being with her boys. And Bobby Singer is confused and pretty pissed off.

    (In which Dean has every conceivable ability to know what people are thinking, but he really tries not to assume, especially if it's good things about him.)
    Reconcilliation 'verse book 3.

    Book 1: Definition of Hearts (complete) - Sam POV
    Book 2: Family Is (complete) - Jess POV
    Book 3: How Hard It Rains (complete) - Dean POV
    Book 4: Holding the Moon in Their Hands - Sam POV (in progress)

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    If there’s one thing Dean's good at it’s killing, and now, with the Mark of Cain hungry on his forearm, the First Blade in his hand, and no qualms when it comes to the intricacies of right and wrong, he can showcase his talents as much as he wants. And he wants.

    Crowley is quick to sink in his hooks and get a Winchester on his side. Sam is determined to get his brother back, to save him no matter the cost, but Castiel isn't sure Dean wants to be saved.

    Weakened by failing grace and running out of time, Castiel has to make the hard choice: kill the man he’s given everything for, or sacrifice everything he stands for to bring him back. [DCBB17]

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    Castiel Novak finds himself kidnapped on New Year’s Day by someone from the peripheral of his life. Dean assures him that he doesn’t want to hurt Cas in any way, and in fact is… Expecting Cas to escape?

    “You’ll get out of here, Cas. You’re miles smarter than me.”

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    Dean would always remember the first time

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    Sam finds Cas drunk early in the morning and tries to help. Cas confesses the reason why he's drinking and Dean overheard.

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    Dean knew he didn't look like other Omegas. But when Castiel Novak walked into his life, the gorgeous Alpha showed him that one man's "abnormality" is another man's fantasy.

    Or: Dean thinks he's way too hairy for an Omega; Cas thinks he can't wait to take the gorgeous Omega to his favorite waxing salon.

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