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    Commander Cullen Rutherford is a rational, logical military man. Fen'an Lavellan is a spit fire mage with no patience for former Templars. Especially not ones that look like Ferelden Princes. Forced to serve the budding Inquisition Fen'an is faced with political machinations, the constant threat of death, and lots of unwanted feelings for her stubborn, former-Templar Commander.

    A novelization of Dragon Age Inquisition.

    Canon Compliant (for the most part). Lots of Dalish lore and smut.

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    No one can take away Cullen's burdens for good. But for a night at a time, to help him rest, The Iron Bull has a way to help.

    Update: kudos bot found this, smh. It was at 15 or so before the swarm.

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    Picking up right where we left off in He Can Be Strong For Someone Else - Act 2.

    Kirkwall is as hard to stomach as ever even though things have calmed down some.
    All Cullen can do is the best he can. Try to uphold his duty and his conscience and straddle the gap between the two.
    The thing is...lines are beginning to blur. All kinds of lines, not just between mages and templars or demons and magic.
    He's still possessed, he still has nightmares, he still can't sleep. But maybe he's learning from all of this.

    Once again I state that I am being very fast and loose with the timeline here, so things can move and shift a bit to match up with the course of events for the story. Nothing is concrete except the scenes that have been detailed and if I come up with more scenes to add, they’ll come as new posts outside of each Act. I have thought of a few already.
    (This story has taken on a life of its own - which forced a slight change to the title of this act.)

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    Ellana and her older brother Mahanon are stuck working with the Inquisition, though one of them is more pleased by this than the other. Fencing, fighting, torture, revenge, giants, monsters, chases, escapes, true love, and miracles are all included in this brother-sister duo adventure.

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    It's a daily struggle, a grind toward salvation.
    Right now it feels impossible, there's no resolution and no end in sight, but at least Cullen is staying busy.
    He has remembered what it is to try to be proactive. Or as proactive as one can be while insomnia and depression and anger and trauma all push and pull in every direction at once.

    But Cullen is trying his best. Thankfully, his best is pretty damn good.
    Especially in the face of adversity.

    Plus, he's realizing...things that he accepted as truth... It really isn't. And these mages have a really shit time in Kirkwall. Even he has to admit that.

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    Cullen is pretty sure he likes men and women. But it doesn't feel right, exploring those feelings with the people he works with and fights alongside. Hawke's arrival at Skyhold gives him an opportunity to mend old wounds and discover new sentiments.

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    All his personal crap aside, Cullen is still the knight-captain, even if it is a sham. Since when has he ever shirked his duty?
    He'll be the best damn knight-captain that he can manage with the tools that he has available.

    To do list :
    Make nice with Alrik.
    Get his circle under control. Thrask in, predatory templars out.
    Pretend he's not a filthy traitor.
    Control his Nightmares. Why is everything so Red suddenly?
    Qunari...? No, that is not on the list. Get that crap out of here!
    Did he always shout this much? Or is this new?

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    Cullen survived his run in with Anders. He has revealed his true identity and with that, he has had to decide what side he is on. Well, maybe that is being too generous. He's chosen a new loyalty and it honestly has nothing to do with sides, it has to do with hope for his soul and his survival. He has made a new oath and a new promise and he intends to keep them even if they are the only ones that he does. A drowning man will grasp at whatever is in reach.
    Also, Anders has no idea what to make of this yet. It has him thinking about things he's not comfortable with.

    You can probably see the direction that this story is heading now.

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    Knight Captain Rutherford has gone to Darktown to confront the healer about the massacre that happened in the chantry.

    He's not thinking clearly.

    He's on the edge.

    His demon is being oddly quiet.

    What will happen when Rage crosses Justice? Or is it Wrath crossing Vengeance?

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    There's an attack on the Chantry in the middle of the night. Captain Rutherford has to deal with the fallout, mostly his own. But it allows him to realize there is a snake in his among his trusted companions. He's about to lose it for real.

    Also, the infamous talk with Hawke and Keran happens. From Cullen’s perspective. More deception. And a blow to everything he has been working toward this whole last year.

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    Cullen goes down to Darktown to search out this apostate healer he has heard rumors about. First, no one can find the entrance unless they are in need. Second, this healer is far more familiar than he ever expected. He has choices to make now.

    And Wilmod showed back up and left again. Knight Captain Cullen can't let this go. When the recruit leads him to the Wounded Coast he realizes that something else is up. Something more than just wayward recruits screwing around when they should be training.

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    Cullen is trying to settle into his new role as knight-captain and he knows he's in over his head. As always, he's doing the best he can. If he doesn't make time for some of his personal projects, then he never will. Now is the time. One of those things on his personal agenda is Raleigh Samson. Last seen in a gutter in Lowtown. He has to do something.

    Plus, Meredith is his new neighbor as well as his direct boss. Is she a good one? Or not? Or is it maybe a mixed bag? What happens when one of his noisy nightmares drags her from her slumber?

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    Oh, Cullen, look at you go. Getting so much done. Making so many good decisions. He's doing his very best, just like always. He's a Force Multiplier. It gets him a promotion. Nothing sinister about that, just good hard work.

    There's certainly nothing odd about his rage demon caressing his face and allowing him a good nights sleep for once. There's nothing to see here. You should move on.

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    The worst thing that can happen when someone goes through a severely traumatic experience and is in recovery from it......is to backslide right back into a new break. It's an all too common experience among those with Battle Sickness.

    Unfortunately, Cullen is no common soldier and what he suffers from...well...it's certainly not common Battle Sickness.

    On top of all his other shit......it's just another straw on the mabari's back. He's trying so hard not to break.
    But there's only so much he can do on his own.

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    Cullen is beginning to come into his own at Kirkwall. He has an encouraging boss and a good friend to talk to and meaningful work to stay busy with. Only...maybe...maybe he really doesn't have all those things. Maybe he's just too suspicious for his own good. If he just closed his eyes and did what he was told, it would all be better... Wouldn't it?
    Cullen is beginning to question everything...including his commanding officers... But he has more important things to occupy him, like those tunnels under The Gallows. He goes on an expedition of his own and rescues an escaped mage. A mage that knows too much for her own good or his. He did a good thing, right?

    All implied non-con occurs in the final nightmare at the very end and can be skipped without missing any real storyline.

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    Cullen finally feels seen. He feels cared for. He's got a duties that keep him busy. He might have a glimpse of hope.

    Oh...and his parents died.

    How's that for a kick in the pants?

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    Cullen was just settling into his new home. He's three months into his stay at Kirkwall. Then a new upset occurs with an unpleasant arrival that brings out the worst in him and pushes him out on that razer edge of sanity. Who else should reel him back in and give him direction and focus in his shattered life? It's Knight Commander Meredith to the rescue, of course. Along with Otto Alrik. With lifelines like these, who needs demons whispering in your ear?

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    It's been four years since the Fifth Blight and the ensuing incident at Kinloch Hold. Cullen Rutherford is now a private templar on special assignment. Hired by Thedas's wealthy and powerful, these templars provide discreet protection for their charges. Even so, the Templar Order has its own agenda, and Cullen has sworn to follow orders.

    House Trevelyan is the latest of many who desire this service. Their youngest daughter, Thalia, is a mage who has never seen the inside of a Circle. Willful and headstrong, Thalia chafes against the confines of her new personal guard.

    Naturally, complications arise.

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    Early in Cullen's tenure with the Kirkwall Templars, he and Samson are tasked with tracking down a runaway mage.

    Things go awry.

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    Plagued by lyrium pains, emotional outbursts, and an incurable immunity to magic, Cullen planned to spend the last of his days serving his Inquisition until he was no longer able. He had set it on a path towards reason, order, and protection, even as the lyrium wreaked havoc on his body. That is, until a cunning magister with some secret plan had weaseled his way into Lavellan's inner circle. Cullen is the only one who knows of his treachery, but can he save his Inquisition in time?

    A retelling of Dragon Age: Inquisition to be a bit more radical.

     

    updates erratically :/

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