18 Works in Connor Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen) Has BPD

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    Summary

    A Connor Lives au, set to the same story we've all cried over.

    Evan Hansen believes that nothing he does will ever be remembered and that he will be forgotten. During a confrontation his world gets flipped upside down, causing him to get everything he wanted. All he has to do is pretend to be friends with a fellow classmate that tried to kill himself.

    This is a Connor Lives au.

    EDIT 9/8/19: I'm currently at college, and need to focus on that. So, TLG is being put on hold. I'm still writing as I go on!! Thank you all for understanding!

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    29,802
    Chapters:
    8/?
    Comments:
    46
    Kudos:
    59
    Bookmarks:
    8
    Hits:
    1012
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    Connor reads the entire letter just after he leaves the library and his decision to do so is going to have lasting repercussions on not only his life, but also the lives of the author of the letter in his hands and those who know both of them.

    Or

    Connor is A Very Angry Boy and Evan is A Very Anxious Boy and neither have any idea what they’re getting themselves into.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    129,851
    Chapters:
    37/37
    Comments:
    250
    Kudos:
    689
    Bookmarks:
    124
    Hits:
    7592
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    Connor Murphy wants to die. His hands tremble as he grabs the bottle on the bathroom counter. What could stop him?

    Oneshots of Connor attempting (and sometimes succeeding) to kill himself.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,223
    Chapters:
    2/?
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    8
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    131
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    Connor has an episode and Jared tries his damn best to help.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    963
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    21
    Hits:
    234
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    Evan Hansen confessed his sins and then welcomed death.
    Instead, he woke up on the other side of a car crash looking in the eyes of Connor Murphy, in a world where all his lies are actually true.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    10,439
    Chapters:
    4/?
    Comments:
    47
    Kudos:
    236
    Bookmarks:
    52
    Hits:
    1555
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    Evan and Connor used to be best friends. As thick as thieves. And then, they weren't. Fast forward to senior year when Evan finds Connor close to passing out in a park, maybe things can go back to how they used to be?

    -

    aka Evan and Connor were childhood friends and when Connor attempts Evan finds him in the park

    Language:
    English
    Words:
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    Chapters:
    6/?
    Comments:
    16
    Kudos:
    68
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    783
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    When five teens (three Greeks, two Romans) are sent out with a nothing but a prophecy and a vague quest, they have to work together or be torn apart by each other. Evan just hopes everything works out, when all the answers are just being found out, from the past of the Murphy siblings, to his own feelings.

    Language:
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    Words:
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    Chapters:
    25/33
    Comments:
    27
    Kudos:
    96
    Bookmarks:
    12
    Hits:
    1318
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    When the Kleinmann's won a competition to spend the summer at Paradise Falls, a luxury camping experience, they insisted that Heidi and Evan Hansen joined them.

    Cynthia Murphy had read that spending a summer away somewhere camping was meant to help families get along and get past difficulties and trauma.

    Evan and Connor weren't expecting to find a friend when they went away, but the world is full of surprises.

    (AKA I watched a vlog about centre parcs and now I have to write this. You're welcome)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    11,055
    Chapters:
    4/?
    Comments:
    10
    Kudos:
    86
    Bookmarks:
    9
    Hits:
    734
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    With shaking hands, Connor drew back the sleeves of his hoodie, something deep within his gut telling him that he shouldn't do it - he should quit now, while he was ahead. He'd been clean for two weeks, the longest he'd gone in quite a while, and to mess it up would be a mistake. It would show that he was the mistake.

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    Explicit self-harm. Please do not read if this could trigger you. There is some comfort at the end, but not anything compared to the beginning.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,356
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    43
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    560
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    A simple flier set the whole thing in motion. A national competition to raise mental health awareness turns into a student-made musical where the gangs converge with the intent to win. Friendships form, some relationships too, and, of course, problems arise. But what else would you expect? This is high school, after all.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,748
    Chapters:
    3/?
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    34
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    346
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    Connor's having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day, and Evan is there to make him feel better.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,503
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    33
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    778
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    Jared has been dealing to Connor since they were both freshmen. Somewhere around sophomore year, it became a little bit more than just dealing drugs, and neither of them have any complaint with it.

    Just one of their typical interactions.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    7
    Kudos:
    55
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    1132
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    Connor Murphy has been made fun of and suffered mental health issues for years. His father has never been supportive, usually only making things worse, and when he confronts Connor, telling him he's making everything up for attention, that's kind of the last thing Connor really needed.

    Evan can help, sure, but Connor is a lot more fragile than he knows.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,372
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    82
    Bookmarks:
    7
    Hits:
    788
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    Connor had one rule when it came to having sex: he would not take his clothes off. And generally speaking, Evan respected this rule, even if it made him upset at times. But he knew why Connor set the rule, and he didn't want to upset his boyfriend.

    But curiosity gets the better all of us, including Evan Hansen.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,703
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    11
    Kudos:
    171
    Bookmarks:
    16
    Hits:
    2373
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    Connor Murphy runs off the walls. He's impulsive and aggressive and most everyone is scared of him.

    Evan Hansen blends into the walls. He's quiet and passive and is scared of mostly everyone.

    But for some reason, not Connor Murphy. And Connor can't figure out why, but he kind of likes it.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    33,869
    Chapters:
    21/21
    Comments:
    256
    Kudos:
    1353
    Bookmarks:
    160
    Hits:
    18014
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    the insanely cool jared kleinman:

    fine but don't make this weird.

    connor:

    oh it will be

     

    or; a gay connor/jared fic because it needs love??

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    5,508
    Chapters:
    9/?
    Comments:
    18
    Kudos:
    133
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    1041
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    The thing was… her dad was icing her out lately.

    Zoe liked to pretend she didn’t understand why, but. She knew. She’d always known. There were sides in this house, in this family. If you switched sides… well. The thing was that you weren’t allowed to switch sides. There was no going back once you chose a side. And Zoe had just spit in the face of all of those rules.

    Following the rules might have meant losing Connor for good, and since the fall that. It wasn’t an option. She wasn’t willing to let that happen. She didn’t even totally understand why. He was still an asshole.But she didn’t want him dead and for Zoe that was reason enough to bail on the Zoe and Larry vs Connor vs Cynthia cage match that had been their lives since she was in middle school.

    Zoe and her dad, well. They had been close. For years they had been close. They did stuff together. And now he spoke to her in short bursts and never met her eye. Zoe hated it.

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    The Desperate Type Universe, set in the Spring Epilogue

    Series
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    English
    Words:
    8,369
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    28
    Kudos:
    160
    Bookmarks:
    7
    Hits:
    1852
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    Evan just wanted a book.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    22,553
    Chapters:
    1/3
    Comments:
    96
    Kudos:
    442
    Bookmarks:
    76
    Hits:
    8049

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