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    Professor Widogast, as he’s still getting used to being called, is sitting in his office preparing his lesson plans for the upcoming school year when he gets the news that his partner has been sentenced to death.

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    Caleb has plans to take down his old coaches. Essek has secrets. They climb rocks, make new friends, explore professional boundaries, learn about consequences, and maybe even fall in love. It’s the Shadowgast climbing AU.

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    After Aeor, Caleb buys a house in Rexxentrum with Beau and Yasha. For the first time in more than seventeen years, he has some semblance of stability. Caleb is not sure he's ready to handle it, but he's trying, and his friends are eager to see him live a good life, by force if necessary.

    And then Soltryce Academy approaches him with a job offer, which could give Caleb the chance to protect the next generation of wizards the way he had needed at their age. Caleb's goal of preventing what happened to him from happening to anyone else, however, takes a far more personal turn than even he could have anticipated.

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    The Somnovem have been defeated, and Trent Ikithon will rot in a cell for the rest of his days. Caleb, however, is struggling with seeing his old teacher at the trial. Memories come bubbling up as he finds himself on Essek's doorstep, desperate to get away from the past.

    The wizards delve together into the Aeorian ruins to study the ancient magocracy and learn about themselves and what it means to heal.

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    "He wanted to focus, on something. To clear his head. His forearms had gotten rather chafed in the past few days, and Jester had given him very stern warnings about not bothering them anymore. Everything was too messy, in his head. His temporary bedroom was small, just an old bed that he hadn't made that morning (atrocious, he knew better, what would his mother say), a small table beside the bed with a few drawers (was he supposed to unpack into them? he wasn't sure how long they'd stay), and a rickety wooden chair in the corner (it creaked too loud, so he didn't sit there after the first time).
    He could smell the smoke of the Clay house, older, but still there."
    or, after a long day of Beau's interviews and reliving trauma in the Blooming Grove, Caleb tries to unwind (tries, and struggles)

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    “Hey, can we get this?” Caleb froze at the sight of Jester waving around a bound spell scroll. The sensation of a cane landing on his back and shameful pleasure filled his mind for a moment before he managed to blink it away.
    “Aw, yeah! It’d be handy to have a charm spell on hand when shit hits the fan.” Beau added.
    “Cayleb, can you spare any gold right now?” Jester had pleaded. The wizard choked over his words for a moment.
    “I’d… Rather not support… Makers of those kinds of scrolls.” He managed.
    “Really, why?” Beau, ever inquisitive.
    “They’re… Made kind of… Unethically, you know?”

    ~ O ~

    In which Trent Ikkythong taught his students that charm spell scrolls require certain ritual preparation, Caleb Widogast goes a good thirty-plus years without realising he was sexually abused, and I ask myself why the hell I want to hurt my comfort characters so bad.
    Serious hurt, with endgame positive ending.
    Seriously y’all, read them tags and take care of yourselves.

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    Failure has never been an option for Caleb, nor has it been for Essek. When the past comes back to haunt the Mighty Nein’s wizard, he finds comfort in knowing he’s not alone.
     
    “I wasn’t allowed to fail, either, with Master Ikithon.” His eyes fixed on his companion again.
    Essek turned his head to face him, giving Caleb a sorrowful look. “I’m sorry to hear that. Failure is, after all, a part of the natural learning process.”
    Caleb’s brow furrowed and he turned, eyes finding the drow’s. “Then why will you not let yourself fail?”

    Written for Shadowgast Week 2021.

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    Running away from home may not be the most practical way to deal with your problems, but it sure is effective.
    or
    Essek Thelyss did not commit treason today.

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    Caleb is not okay. Yasha sees this clearly.

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    When Caleb stays in the on-campus apartments, he expects to be alone for winter break. He doesn't expect to run into Essek Thelyss in the laundry room.

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    Caleb gets overwhelmed and begins to panic, Fjord is there to pull him back.

    Prompt "Tears stuck to their sweaty cheeks, hot, wet, and seemingly unable to stop. Everything hurt, and there was no end in sight." by whoopitswhump on Tumblr.

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    It's just a few little lacerations to his palm. He can manage that. There's nothing to be troubled with. The others don't need to know. It'll end soon, and Caleb will forget all about it.

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    Caleb is hit with a spell that causes the affected individual an overwhelming urge to inflict pain, and the only individuals around are his family and himself.

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    In the early days of the virus, Caleb finds himself all alone at home and struggling to cope.

    Set during the early days of the Covid-19 lockdowns.

    Written for the Whumptober 2020 prompt "isolation".

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    Mollymauk knew something was wrong. It wasn’t that Caleb was acting all that different- he was always aloof. Always preferring the comfort of a room by himself in the lodging while the rest of the group sat at the bar drinking and laughing- a sour attempt of trying to hide the horrors of each of their pasts and nightmares they witnessed earlier that day.
    Maybe Molly’s suspicion rose from the fact he seemed a little more quieter than usual, clinging onto his jacket as if it was a safety jacket keeping him afloat in the middle of the sea. Or maybe it was that he seemed to have eaten just a little bit less than normal. It could have even possibly been that his hands seemed to shake just a little bit more than usual, threatening to topple liquids from his cup every time he went to take a drink.
    No matter the reason, Molly knew something was wrong. He could feel his heart aching for Caleb, and he couldn’t quite pinpoint why.

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    The team gets curious about Caleb's room at the tower and take things into their own hands. Their investigation leads to an upsetting but necessary discovery.

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    Seeing Nott burning in lava was painful, too painful. Caleb needs to fuck her to take his mind off of it.

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    The shock of someone grabbing his wrists rushed through him like a lightning bolt.

    Caleb shuddered, chest heaving with shallow pants. From what he could see through his unfocused gaze, the hands holding his still were spattered with drying blood and blue-skinned. He blinked rapidly and rasped, "Jester?"

    "Hi, Caleb," she whispered. "Can you stop, please?"

    Caleb kills a Scourger, but he isn't prepared to see refined residuum in the ashes.

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    “Sometimes things have to burn in order to live,” Caduceus says, very quietly.

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    Cowards and traitors are one and the same.

    You must be a coward to betray the empire, you must be a fool.

    [ Spoilers for C2E18 ]

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    At precisely thirty-eight minutes past two in the morning, Caleb jolts awake, sitting up in bed and heaving for air as if his life depends on it, chest rising and falling at an unnaturally fast pace.

    At precisely thirty-nine minutes past two in the morning, he has to bite down hard on his own tongue to keep himself from vomiting, feeling so sick with himself that bile begins to rise in his throat.

    He blinks two, three times, trying to stop the hot angry tears that are pooling in the corners of his eyes, threatening to spill and run down his cheeks at any second. His hands go to his head, pressing at his ears to try and stop the ringing, to block out the screams that still haunt and follow him, even now that he’s awoken from his nightmare.

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    Caleb awakens from a nightmare. Molly is already awake, and helps him out of it.

    [ Spoilers for C2E18 ]

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