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    The life he had before being The Winter Soldier had been forcefully taken from him. The memories extinguished... until he finds out that he had been trying to assassinate his best friend and his best girl. After the events at the Triskelion, Bucky Barnes tries to remember the man he was before, and contend with the scars left by the man HYDRA made him into. Fortunately, he has some help along the way from a woman he'd all but forgotten.

    All chapters edited as of 4/14/2018. :) No major changes, just tweaked a few things I was unhappy with. Just here for smut? ;P Chapters 8, 14 and likely a few more when posted.

    Non-canon possible sequence of events between The Winter Soldier through the start of Civil War. Will be part of a 2 part series, first part covering The Winter Soldier to beginning of Civil War. Second part will cover from Civil War on.

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    In the aftermath of Civil War, Steve and Bucky and the other fugitive Avengers face a painful past and an uncertain future, while T'Challa assumes the throne of Wakanda and decides his country's place and his own place in the Avengers' world. Ch. 23: The shock waves spread from the arrest of Peggy's murderer, hitting Steve and Tony hardest of all. Then Tony finds himself confronting more of the past - namely, Bucky Barnes - and considering the other events leading up to the Civil War in a new light.

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    Loki used to smile.
    Really smile, the kind of smile that made his whole face light up with joy.
    At least, that's what Thor said.
    Tony wasn't sure he believed it.

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    Bucky Barnes knows what he is capable of, even if no one else sees it. He feels the ripple of instinct that takes over and drives him toward action. He still feels the bite of cold that lingers in his bones. Most of all, he feels afraid of what he might do and who he might hurt.

    T'Challa, Aneka, and Shuri won't see the danger. They're too focused on seeing Bucky whole again.

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    “I can’t ask you to go alone,” Bucky had said, trying to get out of bed even as his body was still in shreds from the bomb, his mind even worse from the torture.

    “I won’t be alone,” Steve had replied, purple still dark under his eyes from the lack of sleep, still rimmed with pink from the crying, “I’ll be with Tony.”

    “Oh, yeah, great, even better,” Bucky had mumbled, but at least he’d laid back down.

    “I managed two years without you,” Steve reminds him gently, “I can handle another night.” There’s no bitterness or spite behind his words, but Bucky flinches a little anyway. “And anyway, this is the only chance for who knows how long babe. With how much help this could be to you, I can’t pass it up.”

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    The credits to The Bourne Identity rolled. "That's me," the stranger said.

    "You're the hero?" Titus asked skeptically as he got up to rewind the tape. He looked nothing like Matt Damon. His jawline was superior, to start with.

    “No, I mean how the rogue agent knows things but doesn't know why he knows. Difference is I know I can fly a helicopter, build a bomb out of household chemicals, and field-strip an antimateriel rifle, and I got a good idea why, but I get blindsided by the normal shit I can do, like load an icebox so the meat don't get dripped on, or boil a shirt.”

    “Far be it from me to judge what is and is not normal,” Titus said, “but normal people don't boil shirts.”

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    After Bride of Frankestein y Bridges of Memory, Los Avengers habían logrado estar estables y felices.

    Lo que les duró dos meses.

    Cuando una gema del Infinito juega al Exorcista, antiguos errores y un terrorista, veteranos de guerra explosivos, HYDRA, un asesino legendario, piratas africanos y una Convergencia Cósmica se le ocurren caerle encima a los Avengers en *exactamente* la misma semana, no sólo todo el mundo se pregunta porqué los demás no contestan el teléfono, sino si el Universo realmente los odia tanto.

    Y si va a quedar alguien de pie para recogerlos luego con palita, y eso si no se matan entre ellos antes.

    ( Entronca con Thor: The Dark World, Iron Man 3 y Captain America: Winter Soldier)
    Please review!

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    Bucky remembers all the worst things in the morning

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    A year has passed since Bucky came out of cryostasis in Wakanda. The trigger words are neutralized thanks to Mother, the Black Widow operative that planted them nearly seventy years earlier. His self-imposed mission of atonement stumbles forward wrapped in a host of PTSD symptoms, a seizure disorder compliments of Hydra’s mind wipes and a Voice in his head that he has come to tolerate, for the most part.
    Steve and Bucky have moved from friends to lovers but the relationship faces mounting pressure from medication side effects, Bucky's feelings of guilt, and ill-timed late-night calls from Tony Stark. Bucky finally breaks and heads to Russia on a quest for redemption that brings him face-to-face with his own violent past. Steve is a hot three seconds behind him.

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    NOTE: read Prizrak first, or you'll be pretty lost with this one.

    Life’s been good to the Avengers & Co. recently. Maybe ‘peace in our time’ wasn’t so far off, after all. Just don’t tell Tony that. He’ll either gloat or twitch. Maybe both.

    Mickey is slowly but surely getting back on her feet. Bucky’s cadets are shaping up to be an effective team. The Avengers have things pretty well under control, with a comfortably large roster and a dedicated training facility. Steve is finally starting to really feel like he has a place in this brave new world.

    This is, naturally, when they’re all reminded rather emphatically that ‘SNAFU’ still contains the word ‘normal.’

    Trapped in another timeline, another world, Bucky, Mickey, and Tripod are forced to fight for their survival. Their best chance is to stay under the radar until they find the device that can send them home - and a way to fix it. So, teaming up with the Invaders is an excellent idea, right?

    Trigger warnings in the tags, will tag chapters/sections when appropriate. Smut-free.

    Updates every two weeks on Saturdays.

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    When Bucky signs him up for Tinder, Steve doesn't really think the whole internet-app-dating -thing is for him. But then he stumbles upon the profile of a woman named Natasha and thinks maybe it's worth a shot

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    The Avengers' Civil War has ripped apart Steve Rogers' life. Now he not only has to salvage his friendships with the other Avengers, but he has to help Bucky, his best friend and ex-lover, rediscover his own life. Between battles with the US government and Tony Stark, Steve does his best to do right by everyone, even if it means he suffers in the long haul.

    Our Now: Part Three of Four

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    Bucky wakes up.

    It's 1943. It's 1991. It's 2018.
    It's Austria. It's New York. It's Wakanda.
    It's not real. It's not real. It's not real.

    Time stretches, then compresses, then breaks like an old rubber band put under too much stress.

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    Ann Carver was just an engineer, a glorified mechanic, curse SHIELD and their... whatever that had caused this to happen to her.

    She just didn’t have enough energy/working brain cells to worry over her sometimes (always) idiotic life choices. She didn’t want to say she dreaded it, she was just reacting in the way normal human beings did in the case of inviting a man with a metal arm and a gun into her apartment and saying to them, ‘make yourself at home.’

    Yeah, she really was itching to open the bottles of scotch and pretend the last 12 hours hadn’t just happened.

    Rated teen and up for language and, sort of, graphic violence.

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    Coffee.

    As simple as it was, Bucky was beginning to think it was maybe the last thing to remain the same in this new, fast, terrifying world. No matter what, he knew he could get a medium hot black coffee – he knew he could settle at the counter, put cream in his cup and enjoy it.

    (No sugar, Bucky doesn’t like his coffee sweet. It’s bitter, like him.)

    He likes you though. And you're awfully sweet.

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    Darcy or Darlene, she wasn't sure anymore. It all felt the same. It just meant catching up on some things she might have missed in the meantime. And deciding how she was going to date two men at the same time.

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    When Bucky is woken up from Cryo freeze in Wakanda, it is evident there is only so much they will be capable of helping Bucky through. With his PTSD, and nightmares getting increasingly worse, Shuri and T'Challa call Steve, in hopes his presence will help heal a part of Bucky that Vibranium technology can't.

    (Potential mature content in later chapters.)

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    ”Do you remember them?”

     

    I remember all of them.

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    Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes come from two completely different worlds. Whether you’d define them as 'The Haves' and 'The Have Nots' or 'The Jocks' and 'The Weirdos', it was never pretty when the two sides mixed. Steve is 'The King of the Jocks': superstar athlete, insanely rich, wildly popular, and friends with every asshole that Bucky despised. On the other side of Eaton Academy's social hierarchy, you have Bucky Barnes: 'The King of the Misfits'. Bucky is wickedly funny, firmly middle class, out and proud, and doesn't give a shit what the spawn of Manhattan's elite think about him. If he wants to rock a ‘My Little Pony’ t-shirts and black combat boots with pink laces, he's gonna do it with a big grin and an even bigger middle finger up in the air. Most of the kids are jerks to Bucky because he dares to be different, but Steve has never figured out what it is about Bucky Barnes that drives him crazy, or to be honest, makes him nervous as hell. Something about Bucky is an unsolved puzzle in Steve's mind (one that he's been avoiding since ninth grade), so, when their worlds collide, Steve is forced to figure shit out real quick; and what he discovers is not at all what he'd been expecting.

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    December 16th comes around, and Tony finds himself doing something unexpected.
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    Tony came to a startling realisation. December 16th had never been easy for him, but he wasn't the only one in the compound who had bad memories of this day. Living seventy years without guilt or remorse, it must be overwhelming to remember killing the great Howard Stark and Maria Stark (and nearly killing their son last year, but that's another matter).

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