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    With this, he could keep his pain to himself, bleed it out all over his body, and no one would ever have to know.

     

    Written for Whumptober Day 21 - Bleeding through the bandages

    Specific warnings can be found in my author's note! Please keep yourselves safe. <3

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    Alec struggles with self-harm even after he has everything he ever wanted, even after he managed to change the world and marry the love of his life. Some conflicts don't go away with time or the right person. Some conflicts are forever.

     

    Whumptober Day 16 - Scars

    Specific warnings can be found in my author's note! Please keep yourselves safe. <3

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    Alec is given a choice by his father: step down as Head of the Institute or break up with the man who saved his life.

    Instead, Alec decides to tell the world who he is. Once and for all.

     

    Whumptober Day 14 - alternate prompt, trapped

    Specific warnings can be found in my author's note! Please keep yourselves safe. <3

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    It's not a problem, not really; Alec has it under control. Alec always has it under control. Except when he doesn't.

     

    Written for Whumptober Day 13 - Burns

    Specific warnings can be found in my author's note! Please keep yourselves safe. <3

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    But listen, love, Love is not some kind of victory march.

    It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah.

    Maryse lost the privilege of holding Alec while his world is falling apart around him a long time ago.

     

    Whumptober Day 12 - Begging

    Specific warnings can be found in my author's note! Please keep yourselves safe. <3

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    Some nights, Alec needs to chase away what he experiences during the day with something more tangible, something real. Some nights, it's all he can do to keep himself afloat. Or, Alec does what he does to survive.

     

    Written for Whumptober Day 7: Numbness

    Specific warnings in my author's note! Please keep yourselves safe. <3

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    The sharp sense of expression, a feeling Alec was severely unused to, rang in his head, beating against his skull as he circled the punching bag, wound too tightly like a spring about to explode. Every nerve ending was on fire, and it was the most alive he had felt in months.

    Warnings for self-harm, hurt no comfort, and no happy ending. Please keep yourselves safe! <3

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    5 times Alec obeyed his parents' orders, and one time he defied them. A story of healing, hope, and finding your forever person, the one that makes it all worth it.

     

    Warnings for child abuse/manipulation, a bit of cruel and unusual punishment (Alec is humiliated in front of other Shadowhunters), implied/referenced self-harm, and a bit of low self-worth/feelings about oneself (Alec) within. Please keep yourselves safe! <3

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    Alec is in recovery for self-harm, and he needs support to keep himself safe. For one of the first times in his life, he reaches out to ask for it.

     

    Warnings for intrusive thoughts (thoughts of self-harm), general mental health issues, and recovery from self-harm. Please keep yourselves safe! <3

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    Behind every beautiful thing, there is some kind of pain. ~ Bob Dylan

    Alec is in charge of a mission that goes wrong, and Jace inadvertently makes the situation worse. Alec just wants to be normal, but he's not and he never has been.
     

    Febuwhump Day 16 - Broken bones

    Warnings for canon-typical violence, internalized homophobia, and self-harm. Please keep yourselves safe! <3

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    Alec usually likes silence. He never has all that much to say, anyway. But sometimes silence can be stifling. Sometimes silence is laden with secrets and ghosts that haunt him no matter what he does, and sometimes silence means not that he doesn't have anything to say, but that he's too trapped to know the right words.

     

    Febuwhump Day 10 - "I'm sorry, I didn't know"

    Please note the archive warning above. Other warnings are: child abuse/molestation (Robert rapes Alec), PTSD and flashbacks, implied/referenced self-harm, mentions of underage drinking, and no happy ending. Please, please keep yourselves safe and don't read if this is too heavy or triggering for you. <3

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    When Alec and Jace are being held hostage and tortured by the Circle, they receive help from two unlikely sources.

    Shadowhunters and Leverage crossover.

     

    Febuwhump Day 9 - alternate prompt, hostage situation

    Warnings for blood and violence, mentions of past torture and illusions to torture, imprisonment, and a hostage situation. Not necessarily too emotionally heavy, but the topics are dark. Please keep yourselves safe! <3

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    After Max's death, Alec retreats to a nearby hill and prays to the Angel to bring his brother back. Magnus makes sure he understands that he doesn't need to hide how he feels, and that he's never alone as long as Magnus is around.

     

    Febuwhump Day 5 - "Take me instead"

    Warnings for canon character death (Max Lightwood) and mentions of grief/mourning. Please keep yourselves safe! <3

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    Instead of breaking up with Magnus in 3x18, Alec makes a different deal with Asmodeus - a deal that garners life-changing results.

     

    Warnings for memory loss and implied/referenced alcohol abuse. Please keep yourselves safe <3 Eventual happy ending!!

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    event horizon (n): a theoretical boundary around a black hole beyond which no light or other radiation can escape; a point of no return.

    Five times Alec finds himself on a bridge with death on his mind, and one time he finds something to live for.

     

    Happy ending after a lot of angst!! Please see my author's note for a complete list of warnings. <3

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    Under pressure from his father and battling with feelings of inferiority, Alec turns to the training room and pain to cope. That is, until his little sister and his parabatai remind him that, even when he feels like he isn't good at anything else, he's always good at being the best big brother in the entire world.

     

    Warnings for emotional/psychological child abuse & self-harm within! Please keep yourselves safe. <3

    Hopeful/happy ending!

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    The suicide attempt from 2x08 told from Alec's point of view.

     

    Whumptober 2020 prompt fic - alt. prompt, falling

    Hopeful ending!!

    Warnings for 2x08 spoilers, hallucinations, spell, minor character death, and suicide attempt. Please keep yourselves safe! <3

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    After a bad day leads Alec to the training room, he spirals further and accepts a mission with a group of other Shadowhunters. When the mission goes terribly wrong, Alec is faced with a choice that will affect the rest of the Shadow World forever.

     

    Whumptober 2020 prompt fic - Struggling

    No happy ending.

    Warnings for major character death, self-harm, blood, injury, violence, and suicide. Please, please keep yourselves safe and don't read if any of these could be triggering to you!! <3

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    After Maryse dies, Alec struggles to reconcile all of the abuse he suffered at her hands. Magnus is there to help him work through it.
     

    Whumptober 2020 prompt fic - Blood loss

    Warnings for self-harm, child abuse (emotional/psychological), and minor character death that is Maryse Lightwood. Please, please keep yourselves safe! <3

    Hopeful/happy ending.

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    Alec wasn't sure when his dream had turned into a nightmare.

     

    Whumptober 2020 prompt fic - "Stop, please!"

    No happy ending.

    WARNING FOR RAPE/NON-CON. More warnings to be found within. Please see my tags or author's note for a complete list.

    Magnus is the bad guy in this fic. Please be aware of that. I urge you to keep yourselves as safe as possible and please, please don't read this fic if you find this offensive or triggering. <3

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