Walking on Ice
Bucky is a tough person. Yet, even the toughest of people have that one weakness, that breaking point.
At first, Bucky gives in to Zola's torture hoping he would just die of starvation and dehydration, not wanting to become what he secretly knows they're doing to him. Steve wouldn't want him to be like that, of course.
The second time he's caught, he knows Steve's out there somewhere. Steve strong. Steve will win the war and he'll be free, even if Steve isn't the one to save him the second time around. He knows he can't be /that/ lucky, at the very least. Oh, Steve won the war, but the moment that soldier walks in and tells him the very person he's tried so hard for is dead...
Then there's nothing left to live for, is there?
The only thing he has left in the world, is that stupid Blond Shadow that keeps him alive, even when he doesn't know the face or name anymore.
- Part 1 of Walking on Ice