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  1. I feel like I have a lot of feelings about this fic.

    A metric fuck load of feelings.

    First of all, the writing is solid. Your Stiles voice was amazingly subtle but still had the energy that I associate with Stiles' POV. Your dialogue had me smiling but always crying like a CHILD because god, Stiles' dialogue while he was taking care of Derek was tearing me to pieces. I feel like you've bridged this gap in canon, from Stiles' aloof and slightly malicious feelings toward Derek and a place that I'd like them to be, friends and looking at becoming more. You've done that here. You've put Derek in a position to wake-the-fuck-up and you've let Stiles become unafraid. What's so great about Stiles is that he's always afraid but he's fucking doing it all anyway and here, you've allowed him to not only be afraid but overcome fear that I think Stiles could definitely associate with Derek. So, this story really bridged this gap in their canon relationship (lol. I first wrote "this gay" and giggled a lot when I fixed it).

    The way Stiles just fucking stands his ground and tries made me well up and generally have a lot of feelings about Stilinski men. I keep thinking about the passing of Stiles' mom and all the hurt/comfort years those two men have been through and for Stiles to just own up to Derek and be like NO. I'LL DO THIS. I'LL MAKE HIM COME BACK, was just something that had me clutching my chest. It's fantastic characterization, super raw and genuine. I think paired with the feralness of Derek, this sort of base instinct, it really brought them to a place that I love and I loved the fucking journey to get there. I rarely read things without sex because I love a good payoff but this, wow, this was a pay off. Derek's anger at the end and Stiles' confusion and frustration: it felt like climbing out of a hole, you know? It felt like such a payoff, like they had actually grew in a logical way by the end of the story. And I was so proud of them! Admittedly, I cried when Derek said Stiles' name and the whole face biting thing had me drawing hearts all over their faces, but whatever.

    Anyway, the longing in the rest of the pack made me feel SO MUCH BETTER because I do love the way they are sort of becoming a thing, even if it's a really rough journey. So I delighted in the pack-scenes and the conversations between Stiles and the pack.

    This fic just was so amazing and hit all the buttons that I needed it to, without even knowing I needed them to be pushed. Thank you. This was lovely.

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    1. Thank you so much for your amazing comment!

      I had a lot of fun with Stiles's voice in this, and the way he related to everyone, so I'm really happy you thought it worked, that means a lot to me. I definitely think they aren't quite there in canon yet, grudging friends at best, on the same team but not quite close enough to hang around yet, and I really wanted to start there, where everything is a little grudging, and see if I could work them all the way up to something more. I love the way Stiles, even when he's afraid, will do what has to be done, he will just get on with things and break later if he has to. He's so solid, and I think Derek knows that. I wanted to write them a journey so I'm really happy you enjoyed reading it.

      I love adding in the rest of the pack, all those awkward teenagers trying to work around the fact that they're suddenly werewolves, and none of them are safe, while still trying to be awkward teenagers at the same time, hormones all over the place, and Derek unprepared and in-over-his-head and in charge of them all. I liked tipping that on its head here, that was a lot of fun.

      Thank you very much for reading and commenting.

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