There were not enough people in Lex's life that loved him.
At least not people that did not have some ulterior motive.
His father didn't count because he treated Lex more like a possession than a son.
Lionel's love, if you could even call it that, for his son was dependent on Lex falling
in line and following his father into the family business. When Lex had rebelled
against that, wanting to be his own man, Lionel had banished him to Smallville
without even consenting Lex. Maybe Lionel was incapable of love or maybe he was
just incapable of loving Lex. Either way he did not love his son.
Lex had been married twice now too. Two women that had been different in so many
ways but the same in the most important one. Neither had accepted Lex for who he
was. First there was Desiree, who for all her sexuality and sensuality, had only really
wanted Lex's money. Then there was Helen. Dr Helen Bryce, the woman that Lex
had thought would be in his life forever, the woman that reminded him enough of his
mother that he thought he had finally found the one. She was the woman that had hurt
him the most because she had loved him, in her own way, but it was not the way that
Lex deserved. Helen put conditions on her love, and when Lex did not live up to the
high expectations she had, she not only revoked that love but tried to kill Lex.
In fact he could count on one hand those that had loved him unconditionally.
There was his mother Lillian who, despite the Luthor name, had been an angel that
was sent back to heaven too soon. Lillian was the only reason that there was any
humanity in Lex at all and was the first person to love him.
Then there was Pamela, his mother's best friend, who had fought his father to see him
and had come back to him at the end. She had never meant to hurt him and Lex had
forgiven her because right up to the end she had loved him as if he were her own.
The only other person that had loved him had been too young to know any different.
Julian who had looked to Lex with the large and curious eyes of childhood and seen
nothing but the big brother that loved him. Julian, who had been ripped from their
lives too soon, but had still made enough of an impact on Lex's life to ensure that he
would never grow into his father.
Up to now they had been the only people in Lex's life to love him.
That was until he met Clark.
Clark saw none of the money or notoriety that came with being a Luthor. It was
reflected in his eyes when he looked at Lex that all Clark saw was a friend. Someone
that would do anything for him and that in return he would do anything for.
Lex had only known love like that a few times in his life.
He had been scared when Clark first kissed him, scared that he would lose Clark in
the same way that he had lost all of the others but when Clark looked at him with love
in his eyes Lex forgot to be scared. When their souls touched as their lips met Lex
forgot everything. He only knew that he was loved.
There were not a lot of people that loved Lex in his life but that didn't matter
Lex had Clark and that was more than enough for him.