Chapter 1: Chapter One
Leila makes a bet with herself on how long it will take Coulson to embarrass himself in front of Captain America.
Now Cinderella, don't you go to sleep
It's such a bitter form of refuge
Don't you know the kingdom's under siege
And everybody needs you?
-- A Dustland Fairytale // The Killers
Rogers isn't home. It's late (and not raining, incidentally) when she gets to New York, so it could be that he's just sleeping and that's why he doesn't answer when she knocks, but she doubts it.
She knocks twice-protocol says she should knock three times, but she's tired and is fairly confident that he's not going to answer anyway-before pulling out the gadget SHIELD gave her. Leila knows how to pick a lock, but the tool they gave her is quicker.
Nothing. Leila knows how to listen for signs of life. Footsteps. Movements. Breathing. People are never silent, not really. They think they are, though, and if you listen closely, you can get a bead on what they're doing before they know that you know that they're there. And that extra second of reaction time can be crucial. It's saved her life more than once.
That's another thing she'd already learned on her own before SHIELD picked her up, long before. Years and years. Probably she was doing that analysis longer than she remembers; she's just better at it now.
She doesn't bother to turn the lights on, so she doesn't see much of the apartment-just that it's small and threadbare. The latter is understandable, given that its sole inhabitant has had only nine days to decorate. Leila's neighbors take longer than that to take their decorations down after Christmas, and to Leila's knowledge they don't have the excuse of having been unconscious for the better part of a century.
(The former is less justifiable. If SHIELD is loaded enough to buy and maintain the helicarrier, surely they could at least afford to set their namesake up somewhere with a view.)
Leila leaves, re-locking the door behind her. The file Fury gave her mentioned a second address, just two blocks away, some gym that Rogers frequents, so she heads there next.
Gleason’s Gym is old and run-down, with a World War II aesthetic, which is fitting, she supposes. The sign says closed, but there’s at least one light on inside. The door is locked, but she figures that if she were a gym owner, and Captain America asked her for a personal key, she might be inclined to say yes. Either way she uses the same tool as before and is inside in seconds.
The floor is huge and Captain Rogers is in the middle of it, pummelling the hell out of a white punching bag. A dozen or so matching bags are lying on the floor next to him. The corners of the room are dim; she can make out a few benches here and there, and a boxing ring in the corner. Rogers is standing directly under the light, in the brightest spot, like some kind of Messianic figure, but the lightbulbs are fluorescent, dim and flickering, and they seem to desaturate the entire room.
The whole thing makes Captain America look sort of like an old movie, or maybe an oil painting come to life. Unreal. Maybe that’s appropriate.
Maybe that’s how the rest of the world looks to him.
Leila watches him for a long moment from the shadows, and then Rogers punches a hole through the canvas of the bag. Sand spills out, the chain breaks, the bag goes flying, and Rogers picks up one of the other bags and starts to hang it up.
Leila decides to make her introduction now, and pushes herself off the beam she’s been leaning against. Her heels click on the old tile floor. “Oh Captain, my Captain.”
He looks over at her, breathing hard from exertion, and reaches up to finish hanging the bag before sitting down on the bench. “The door was locked,” he says, unwrapping his hands. It’s not an accusation so much as a question.
“Oh, honey, you’ll have to do a lot better than that to keep me away.” She smirks. “I’m agent Leila Whittaker. I’m with Shield. The people who pulled you out of the ice?”
“Right. Shield.” He studies her for a moment, sizing her up. “You here with a mission, ma’am?”
Leila can’t decide how she feels about being called “ma’am”-part of her bristles, part of her finds it inexplicably endearing-but either way, now’s not the time to catch Rogers up on popular lexicon, so she ignores it. “You catch on quick,” she says, and hands him the manila file folder. A different one than the one they gave her, because it’s need to know and he doesn’t need to know as much as she does.
She pulls up a chair that was leaning against the wall and sits across from him as he starts to flip through it. “Trying to get me back into the world?” he asks, glancing up at her.
My guy, I could literally not care less how well-adjusted you are or are not. That’s not how to make friends and influence people, though, so she smiles charmingly. “Nope. That’s just icing.” She leans forward, propping her head on her hands, with her elbows on her knees. “I’m not here because you need a babysitter, Captain. I’m here because we need a super-soldier.”
Rogers shoots another appraising glance at her, but says nothing before turning back to the file. She can see a photo of the tesseract pinned to the page he’s on. “Hydra’s secret weapon,” he mutters, more to himself than to her.
She answers anyway. “After your crash, your buddy Howard Stark went looking for you. He found that instead.” She reaches over and taps the picture once. “Shield’s been poking at it ever since. Trying to unlock clean energy, which is one of the sexier capital-i Issues at the moment.”
She doesn’t choose that phrasing specifically to throw him off, but she is surprised when it doesn’t. He is from the 1940s-but then again, he’s also a military man. He’s heard worse.
Rogers looks up, finally. “What happened to it?”
“Guy named Loki took it. Weird guy. If you’re in, I can tell you more about it. If not, I won’t waste either of our time.” For a moment, she thinks of Clint-where he is, if he’s okay, what he was thinking before he-
She pushes the thought away. “It’s kind of time sensitive.”
Steve glances back at the file once, and then stands up. She notices then the way he moves-heavily, like there’s some physical burden on him. As if he’s carrying the heavens on his shoulders like Atlas of old. Maybe he thinks he is.
He goes over to pick up the broken punching bag, hefts it onto his shoulder effortlessly. The heavens can’t be too heavy for him, then. “When do we start?”
She smiles. “Our ride’s going to pick us up on the corner in ten minutes. That’s how long you have to pack a go-bag.” She stands up to leave. “By the way, can I ask?”
He turns to her, raising a brow.
“How many other innocent punching bags have died at your hand? Assuming that’s not the first one,” she says, gesturing to the one he’s holding.
“You monster.” She smirks, pausing at the door. “I’ll be waiting.”
And maybe it’s the light, but she could swear he’s smiling when she leaves.
“You’re late.” This is what she tells Coulson by way of greeting when he finally picks them up. He’s seven minutes late and she’s never been more annoyed with him. She considers writing in an official complaint. Please instruct Agent Coulson to not leave me alone with historical figures for longer periods of time than I was led to expect.
Steve is a nice enough guy; apparently she looked cold, because he offered to give her his jacket, which she would have a lot more mixed feelings about if he were not as old as he is. It’s a nice gesture, okay, but he’s obviously got a lot going on in his head when he meets her at the corner. He’s giving off Vibes and she knows she’s supposed to ask if he’s okay but honestly, she wouldn’t touch that question with a ten foot pole. If Steve Rogers can carry a punching bag one-handed, he can carry his own baggage without her help.
(If she asked, he would probably say that he is fine, thanks for asking, but it’s still not a dice she wants to roll. Besides, he might say “I’m fine” and then ask if she’s okay, which is almost worse.)
And that is how Leila spent seven minutes in silence with Captain America, making awkward small talk at two minute increments.
Honestly, Steve seems as relieved as she is when the car pulls up.
Leila immediately goes for the backseat. “You can sit up front,” Steve offers, but Leila shakes her head. “I like the back seat. I get more space to myself.”
Steve shrugs, and puts his bag in the trunk while Leila slips into the car, and then shoots her best serial killer stare at the rearview window, and hisses “ You’re late .”
Coulson is unruffled, which would be normal for him, if Steve Rogers were not climbing into his car now. Leila makes a bet with herself over how long it will take him to crack.
“I was dropping Pepper Potts at the airport,” Coulson explains.
“So you talked to Stark, then?”
Steve’s head perks up at the name Stark-probably reflexively-before looking down again, and Leila feels kind of bad for him.
“He’s going over the files I gave him. He’ll be joining us tomorrow.”
“Great.” Leila has never met Tony Stark. She knows from his file that he’s narcissistic, egotistic, and doesn’t play well with others. He knows from Natasha that he’s a пизда, which is a Russian insult that Natasha never felt the need to teach Leila until it came to describing Tony Stark. And she knows from the media that he’s a bon vivant with very precise facial hair. That’s about it.
“That reminds me,” Coulson adds. “We have to catch Rogers up to speed.” He doesn’t look at Steve while he speaks, but she can see him glance at him just slightly. “There’s a tablet in the pocket behind my seat.”
She pulls it out, turns it on, and hands it to Steve, who looks does not look confused so much as curious, and determined. He studies it for a second.
“You hit the-”
He figures it out himself. She raises an eyebrow, impressed. “There you go.”
Leila hates planes. She always has. She can handle it-she has to, in order to function in her job-but there is not a moment that she spends in the air that she is not thinking, on some level, about how much she cannot wait until they land.
Steve is still using the tablet to catch up on the Weekly Weird News, as Clint likes to call it. She watches him so she has something else to focus on.
Steve doesn’t notice until Coulson hisses at her to stop staring, and then he looks up inquisitively.
“Sorry,” she says. “You just. You’re good with the technology. You don’t act like what...a lot of people thought someone from the ‘40s would act like.”
“Well, maybe a lot of people don’t know the ‘40s like they think they do.” He’s not just glancing at her now; his attention is on her. He’s smiling-sort of sullen, but genuinely, like the way you smile when you joke at a funeral.
“And how well do you know the 2010s? Not counting that,” she waves a hand at the tablet.
“Hey, I’ve been here for two weeks. How long have you had to open a textbook?”
He’s still teasing her, but his words make something freeze inside her all the same, because the question he thinks he’s asking is not the question he’s asking, and she knows if she says Well, my parents thought women who could read were witches, so I’m a little behind, it’ll make things weird AND give Rogers leverage against her, should things go south.
Things go south a lot for Leila, so she keeps the words to herself, and digs her nails into her thighs instead, looking away.
“You win,” she mutters.
She can feel Steve staring at her, probably wondering why she suddenly turned to stone, but he doesn’t ask about it, and a second later she can hear another video starting on the screen.
“We’re about forty minutes out from base, sir,” she hears the pilot say, and her fingers relax a little.
“So,” Steve says, and it takes her a moment to realize he’s talking to Coulson, not her. “This Doctor Banner was trying to replicate the serum that was used on me?”
Coulson takes the three steps from his seat to Steve’s. “A lot of people were. You were the world’s first superhero. Banner thought gamma radiation might hold the key to unlocking Erskine’s original formula.”
The hulk in the video roars.
“...Didn’t really go his way, did it?”
Leila’s lip twitch in a smile. Now that she’s starting to relax, she feels a little bad for shutting down on Rogers earlier, if only because she was enjoying the conversation. She sits up again, facing forward. She’s not participating, but at least she’s not actively ignoring anyone now.
“Not so much,” Coulson tells him. “When he’s not that thing though, the guys like a Stephen Hawking.”
Steve looks up, bewildered.
“He’s like a genius,” Leila says tentatively. Steve glances at her, and sort of nods. He’s not sure where he stands with her now, she realizes.
Well. Maybe that’s for the best.
“I gotta say, it’s an honor to meet you, officially.”
Steve smiles. Maybe Coulson will keep it together.
“I sort of met you. I mean, I watched you while you were sleeping.”
Steve is not smiling. Coulson did not keep it together. Leila checks her watch. As per her earlier self-wager, she now owes herself twelve gummy bears. Nice.
She leans her head back against the cold hull of the jet. Almost there.
Coulson tries to double back. “I mean, I was present while you were unconscious from the ice. You know, it’s really, it’s just a, just a huge honor to have you on board.”
“I just hope I’m the man for the job,” Steve says, sounding sincere. Leila frowns.
“Oh, you are. Absolutely.” Leila would not call Coulson unbiased in this assessment, but he’s probably still right incidentally. “Uh...we’ve made some modifications to the uniform. I had a little design input-”
“The uniform?” Steve asks, and by his tone, she can imagine his brow furrowing in surprise. “Aren’t the stars and stripes a little old fashioned?”
“So are you, but we kept you around,” Leila quips. She doesn’t look up, but she glances over out of the corner of an eye. Steve looks like he’s trying not to smile. Coulson looks like he’s trying not to kill her.
She closes her eyes just as Coulson finally stops glaring daggers at her long enough to answer Steve’s question.
“With everything that’s happening,” he says, “the things that are about to come to light...people might just need a old-fashioned.”
Leila bites the inside of her cheek. The words make something twist in her gut. The things that are about to come to light. And she hopes like Hell that she’s not one of those things, that she can stay wrapped in her shadows. She's not sure if she knows how to survive outside of them anymore.
Chapter 2: Chapter Two
Leila makes good on her bet, and breaks a vending machine in the process.
As much as she hates planes, Leila makes a point of getting off the plane after Coulson and Steve. Getting off the plane first probably wouldn’t inherently read as a fear of planes, but she likes to be cautious.
Natasha is waiting for them on the runway. Leila feels vaguely relieved at seeing her-she’s sure if Nat had been “compromised” she’d have heard about it by now, but it’s good to see her in the flesh anyway, to know that she’s here and solid, hasn’t slipped away into the realm of vague spy terms and classified files that Clint has.
She doesn’t say any of that, though. Just nods at Nat, smiling a little, who nods back. Truth be told, Leila’s not used to being so attached to people, to caring whether someone else lives or dies on a personal level. Before Strike Team Delta, she hadn’t felt that way in years. It’s unsettling.
Coulson introduces her to Steve, who also nods. “Ma’am.”
“Hi.” Natasha smiles, and then turns to Coulson. “They need you at the bridge,” she says. “Face time.”
“See you there,” Coulson replies, and heads off.
“I’m gonna go too,” Leila says. “I owe myself some gummy bears.”
“Coulson?” Natasha asks, glancing pointedly at Steve.
“Yeah.” They exchange smirks. Steve looks vaguely perplexed, glancing between them, before apparently deciding not to ask. Instead, he extends a hand to Leila. She takes it.
“It was nice meeting you,” he says genuinely.
“My pleasure, Captain,” she says, a playful half-smile tugging at her lips. She glances at Natasha. “Take good care of him,” she says, tongue-in-cheek as always, and then turns on her heel to leave.
“No promises,” Natasha replies after her.
Leila wasn’t trying to break the vending machine. She just wanted her gummy bears.
She’s already payed for them, the machine starts to turn, but then it stops and the candy is still hanging there, unattainable. The cartoon bear smiles up at her from within the brightly lit machine, like it’s mocking her.
She’s not trying to break it when she kicks it. She just wants to jostle it, to make it give her the candy that she has-again- already paid for . And it works, kind of; she hears them hit the bottom of the take-out port just as the light in the machine flickers off.
Leila glances around-no one else is there, thankfully-and then reaches through the slot to check. Her gummy bears are there, so there’s that. She grabs them, and then straightens up, and presses a few buttons on the machine to see if it’s working. Maybe it’s just the light that’s broken.
Nope. Totally unresponsive.
Leila shrugs, tears the bag open, and walks away. She’s popping a gummy bear into her mouth when she wanders onto the bridge, where Fury is talking to someone Leila recognizes as Bruce Banner.
“Thank you for coming,” Fury tells him.
“Thank you for asking nicely.”
“Yeah, that’s why we sent Romanoff. Our only other available agent with the necessary clearance is Whittaker-”
Leila perks up at the sound of her name-
”and she can be...prickly,” Fury finishes.
Leila’s already stepping forward. “I have no idea what he’s talking about, never in my life have I been anything other than a delight.” She extends her free hand. “Doctor Banner.”
He takes her hand. “Nice to meet you,” he says. He hardly sounds genuine, but she decides not to hold it against him. He’s obviously focused on more important things. His body language is squirrelly, hunching over just slightly, like he’s trying to make himself smaller than he is. Which is understandable, under the circumstances.
“You too,” she says, and turns to Fury. “By the way, the vending machine in the hallway is broken.” Vending machines are probably below Fury’s pay-grade, but she feels like she should tell someone .
Fury shoots her an unamused look. In response, she holds out the bag of candy to both men. “Gummy bear?”
Fury doesn’t respond, just gives her that same look.
Banner, on the other hand, shakes his head. “Uh, no-no thank you,” he says, and turns back to Fury. “So how long am I staying?”
“Once we get our hands on the tesseract, you’re in the clear.”
“Where are you with that?”
Fury calls on Coulson to explain, and Leila backs away from the conversation before it can devolve into boring science shit. She’s tried learning, but even the rapid learning can’t make up for her tiny attention span, and frankly, it’s not interesting enough to make the exhaustion she experiences after using that particular ability worth it.
She’s leaning against the conference table on the bridge when she glances over and sees Nat peering over some techie’s shoulder, at a picture of Clint on a screen. She feels the urge to ask if there’s any word on Clint, but that would imply that she cares-and anyway, Natasha’s body language reads as a resounding “no.”
Leila’s not good at comforting, but she likes Natasha and she feels compelled to put at least minimal effort into doing so, so when Natasha straightens up and steps back, Leila steps forward, taking the spot by her side.
She holds out the bag, for the second time that day. “Gummy bear?”
Nat glances at her and then, to Leila’s surprise, takes a gummy bear from the bag and pops it into her mouth.
“So, what’d Coulson do?” Nat asks, words slightly muffled around the candy she’s chewing.
“He actually kept it together longer than I thought. We were almost here when he dropped ‘I watched you when you were sleeping.’”
Natasha snorts. Before she can respond, however, Fury calls her.
“Agent Romanoff, would you show Doctor Banner to his laboratory please?”
Natasha nods, grabbing an extra handful of candy as she leaves. “You’re gonna love it, Doc. It’s got all the toys.”
Leila’s in the on-call room of the helicarrier, drifting in and out of sleep-she hasn’t slept in almost a day, and while she’s used to that, she figures if she’s going to go up against an alien-slash-god she should probably rest while she can-when Natasha wakes her up.
She knocks once as a warning, but immediately comes in anyway. “Time to suit up,” she says, but Leila figured that was the case. People know better than to wake her up for something trivial. Not that Natasha, personally, is afraid to wake her up-but then, if it wasn’t important, they wouldn’t have sent Nat anyway.
So she sits up, dragging a hand through her hair.
“Fury wants to talk to you before we take off,” Natasha adds. “I’d hurry.”
Leila glares at her.
Ten minutes later, Leila’s more or less ready, tugging her gloves on as she reaches the bridge. Fury’s got his back to her, overseeing the command center.
“Romanoff said you wanted to see me?” she says by way of greeting.
“That’s right.” Fury, as usual, doesn’t miss a beat-doesn’t hesitate, isn’t surprised. He turns to face her. “Nat will be running comms from the jet. I want you on the ground with Rogers.”
“I assumed as much, Director.”
“That’s nice,” Fury says, his words laden with sarcasm. He turns halfway back to the command center, and when he speaks, his voice is softer, and he’s barely moving his mouth. “I want you to make a point of taking Loki’s powers. Or copying them, at least. I wanna know what this guy’s capable of. That’s your priority. We clear?”
“Clear as Cristal, Director.”
“Good. Head to hangar 3.”
There’s a very sudden increase in sound when she enters the hangar, with the open air whipping around her, brushing stray strands of her into and out of her face. (She’s used to that; there is no rubber band on earth that can keep all of her hair in one place at a time. There’s too much of it. She’s made her peace with that.)
Under that, though, she can still hear the steady hum of the quinjet’s engine. The jet is all ready to go, except that the back door is open, and she could swear there’s a note of disapproval in the sound it’s making, as if the machine itself is judging her for her lateness.
Maybe it’s mad because of the whole vending machine thing, she thinks as she hops in. She doesn’t notice that Steve is holding out a hand to help her until she’s already in. It’s a bummer, because it would’ve gone with her whole image perfectly. Princesses always have footmen to help them into carriages. Instead, she’s forced to offer an awkward “thanks” as he drops his hand.
“Anytime,” he says, sounding just as awkward, and sits back down. Leila sits across from him.
“Nice of you to join us,” Natasha says from the cockpit, taking the brief opportunity left by the back door sliding back up into place to turn to face her teammate.
Leila shrugs and gestures to herself. “This doesn’t just happen.”
Natasha rolls her eyes and turns back to the controls, and the jet takes off moments later. It’s quieter now without the open air, just the sound of the machinery, which doesn’t seem nearly so judgmental as it did before. Apparently the machines have forgiven her for now.
“So what’d Fury want with you?” Natasha asks.
“He just wanted to make sure his very favorite agent stayed safe and hydrated while in the field.”
“That’s sweet, but he could’ve told me directly.”
Leila takes off one of her gloves and throws it at the back of Nat’s chair in response. Nat doesn’t say anything back, but Leila is pretty sure she’s smiling anyway. Steve is; he has his head ducked, smirking, the way you do when you’re trying not to laugh.
He seems to shake it off though, reaching for the glove before Leila can-although he’s still smiling when he hands it back.
She smirks back and takes it. “Thanks.”
He nods in response, and she pulls the glove back on. It’s silent until she snaps it closed around her wrist.
“Hey,” Steve says, and Leila looks up. “I just wanted to say sorry. If I offended you earlier, on the way here.”
Leila’s not sure anyone’s ever apologized to her for putting her on edge. At least, no one who wasn’t afraid of her, anyway.
She smiles. “No worries. I don’t know if you’ve heard this about me, but I can be prickly.”
His lips turn up into that amused smile again. “Good to know.”
Anyways as always I’d love to know what you guys think of this chapter and the story in general!!! And don’t forget to tune in next time to watch the author fumble their way through a fight scene.
Chapter 3: Chapter Three
Steve tries to get a read on Leila. Leila demonstrates her powers. It doesn't actually help.
It doesn’t take long to get to Stuttgart, and the flight is spent mostly in silence, the hum of the engines serving as white noise. Steve toys with the idea of striking up a conversation, but decides against it. This decision is made in part because if he says something, he’s not sure which version of Leila is going to answer him-if he’s going to get the funny, enigmatic woman he met at the gym, or the unsettlingly cold one from the jet. Steve is adaptable, but as it is, he’s got a tenuous grasp on interacting with people in general. Leila seems to working with a different set of rules, and he hasn’t learned them yet.
(He hopes that Leila was telling the truth, that she’s just “prickly.” That it’s just a quirk of hers, and not a 21st century thing.)
Ultimately it’s a moot point, because Leila’s the one who ends up addressing him first, although an argument can be made for Romanoff starting it; she’s the one who calls “We’re four minutes out. You gonna fill him in, Princess?” from the front seat. That’s when Leila shifts to face him. He raises an eyebrow, his curiosity piqued.
“So you saw my file, right? On the way to the helicarrier?”
“Right,” he replies. Leila can duplicate the other people’s superpowers. Because other people have superpowers, apparently--enough of them that Leila has run into them enough times to establish such a pattern. The prevalence of superpowered people was news to him, but, again--he’s adaptable.
“Okay. Good,” she says, and the corners of her lips turn up in a faint smirk. “Then don’t freak out.”
She closes her eyes. When she opens them, the whites of her eyes have overtaken everything else, her iris and pupil disappeared. It lasts a split second, and then her eyes fade back to normal.
He takes that split second to take on a more neutral expression, trying not to look as surprised as he is. He’s gotten good at covering up surprise over the past few weeks. Or 84 years. Or whatever. Most times it doesn’t even show, he’s pretty sure. He hopes.
He’s not sure if it works; he doesn’t know if the white had impaired her vision or not. If she saw that moment of open astonishment, she doesn’t address it. Just studies him. Maybe waiting for the reaction he’s so carefully tried to suppress.
Finally, he says “So...that’s one of your powers? Glowing eyes?”
She laughs. “No. That’s what happens when I let go of dead weight. Too many abilities I’m not using can slow me down in the field. Make it hard to focus”
“Wait, you’re on the ground? With me?”
She raises a brow. “Yes? Where else would I be.”
“I thought you were on comms with Romanoff.” He pauses, realizing how he sounds. “I mean-I didn’t think-just because you recruited me, not because you’re…”
Leila glances around in mock suspicion, and then leans forward. “A woman?” she whispers conspiratorially. She smirks and sits up. “At ease, soldier. It’s a fair assumption to have made. But no. I’m on the ground with you.”
He relaxes. “Good. Didn’t wanna make you mad at me twice in one day.”
She almost grins. “Oh, yeah. I was lenient the first time, but cross me again, Rogers…” She takes on a faux-menacing tone.
He nods, ducking his head to hide his grin. “Anything else?”
“Yes, actually. You seem like the martyr type, so look: if you see me get hurt, no matter how bad, don’t worry. Don’t do anything. I can’t die. Or get hurt.”
He ignores the martyr comment for now. “Yeah, a lotta guys think that.”
“Sorry, was that skepticism, Soldier Boy?” She smirks again, and pulls out one of what he is assuming is multiple knives she has on her, this one strapped to her thigh. Before he can stop her, she slices her own palm open, and then holds it out for him to see.
His instinct is to reach out for it and inspect the wound, but before he can, he sees it start to heal on it’s own. It’s like watching a laceration in reverse-the blood that’s still within the cut recedes, the skin knits itself back together, leaving only the blood that had spilled out onto her palm. She wipes it clean on her leg.
He just stares at her. “Helpful,” he says finally.
Romanoff’s voice feels very sudden when she calls out “We’re here. You’re up, guys.”
Leila’s feeling confident as she stands-not that she isn’t always, but you know. Moreso than usual. More than she thought she’d be, going into the field with a semi-stranger.
As much as she prefers to stay distant in her personal life, having a rapport with someone when you’re in the field is helpful. It’s easier to trust someone--inasmuch as Leila trusts anyone--to watch your back. Too much doubt, too much suspicion is a distraction. If you can’t take your eyes off your partner lest they stab you in the back, you end up getting stabbed in the front by someone else.
(Of course, getting too comfortable has it’s downsides, too. It’s a hard line to walk. As of yet, Steve is likeable, but not too intimate--a good person to work with.)
And knowing someone lets you communicate more easily, somehow. Sometimes with Natasha and Clint, all it takes is a glance to tell them what she’s about to do, a nod in return to let her know they understand. The more you talk to someone, the more things can go unsaid. Even now, she and Steve stand in unison, a rhythm already established. Not too close. Not too far.
(Besides which, talking about her powers always puts her in a lighter mood. She doesn’t talk about them much-for some reason, it doesn’t come up much in casual conversation-but she likes demonstrating them. It might be one of the few things she likes about herself. There’s other things she’s proud of, but “escaped a cult” and “single-handedly took over a crime ring” aren’t really things you brag about.)
The quinjet’s ramp begins its descent. Leila tucks her knife back into its pocket.
What happens next happens very fast. Leila starts to turn, and glances down at the street just in time to see what Steve’s seeing: Loki, standing amidst a crowd on their knees, pointing a scepter at an elderly man, who among the kneeling crowd is very literally the only one standing up to Loki. It’s the same scepter from the fight at the research facility, if she’s remembering right, and she probably is; she went through those pictures, looking for any clue as to Clint’s well-being or lack thereof, more times than she’d like to admit.
She feels an arm around her waist at the same time she hears Steve say “Need a lift?” And she doesn’t, not really, but it’s easier to adapt, so she leans into him anyway as he pulls her towards him and then out of the quinjet, his shield lowered to cover their faces.
They land, and the fact that Steve is intentionally trying to take the brunt of the impact does not escape her notice. And she doesn’t know if it’s instinct that makes him do what he does, or if he’s just still not sold on the idea that she requires no special handling. Either way, the effect is the same: the rhythm between them breaks.
Hey everyone!!! So I know it’s been an unholy length of time since I updated but in my defense, in the time since my last update I have moved not once, but twice, AND I’m now moving again. So it’s been hard to focus on anything right now. I’m so sorry for the wait and I hope that I’ll be able to update more quickly, especially once we get settled into our new house (from which I will not have to, nor be able to, move for awhile.) I hope this chapter is enjoyable enough that you will forgive my tardiness.
Also, as you may have noticed: no fight scene yet. I swear to GOD that is not an intentional cop-out I just. Started writing and the pre-fight stuff ended up being about as long as my (short ass) chapters usually are. You WILL see me struggle my way through a fight scene. That’s what I promised and it is what I will deliver.
In the meantime, I’d love to hear what you thought of this chapter. What did you think of Steve’s POV? How do you feel about his dynamic with Leila so far? Any predictions? Theories? Concrit? I’d love to hear any feedback you have!
Also, shout-out to chasinghorizons and suethor for beta-ing this chapter for me! Both of them gave invaluable feedback, and not to pull a Kellyanne but both of them have their own Marvel OC fics that you should totally check out.
Chapter 4: Chapter Four
Steve and Leila fight Loki. Leila's mood shifts. Again.
If you pick up on the Loki/Leila vibes in this, I am sorry. If there are no such vibes to speak of and it's just me, then I am even more sorry.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
As soon as her boots hit the ground, Leila hears something ping off Steve’s shield--presumably the energy blast from Loki’s scepter. Before Steve can straighten up and reveal her presence, she falls into a back roll, deftly landing among the civilians--the movements made easier by the dais she just rolled off. Thanks for the drama factor, old man , she thinks, and softly shushes the people around her.
She shoots a glance at the old man in question, the one who refused to kneel. Steve is standing now, and she uses that to her advantage, letting Loki focus his attention on Steve while she moves through the crowd.
Frankly, it would have been easier for she and Steve to jump separately if they wanted to get on either side of Loki. That said, it’s hardly Steve’s fault, however reluctantly she admits it to herself. They would’ve had to take two jets for that, or else timed their respective jumps down to the millisecond, and it’s not like they knew what the scene at Stuttgart would look like before they got there.
Steve begins to approach Loki, who is getting to his feet--she assumes the energy blast must have backfired on him in the literal sense as well as figurative.
“You know,” Steve says, “the last time I was in Germany, and saw a man standing above everybody else, we ended up disagreeing.”
This feels a little long for a one-liner, in her opinion, but the premise of it is solid.
“The soldier,” Loki says, sounding amused. “The man out of time.”
“I’m not the one who’s out of time,” Steve replies. Much better, in terms of comebacks.
She hears Natasha’s voice, slightly altered by the speaker from the jet: “Loki, stand down.”
Loki pauses, making a show of actually considering it, before shooting another energy blast at the jet. The jet pivots sharply to avoid being hit, and the crowd around Loki scatters in fear. It’s almost perfect timing, because she’s almost directly across from Steve now, with Loki in the middle--exactly where she wants to be.
Steve throws his shield, which bounces off Loki’s armor; he catches it like a boomerang and moves in closer. Meanwhile, Leila pulls out her throwing knives and directs them at Loki--one going for the chest, one for the neck. They’re sharp, but not sharp enough to break through skull. Spine, though...maybe. Definitely if he were human, but she can’t be sure. Of all the things they taught her at SHIELD’s illustrious Academy of Operations, Alien God Physiology 101 was not one of them.
Frankly, hitting him at this range is a longshot, because despite watching and rewatching footage of his attacks on Earth, putting her rapid learning ability into overdrive, she doesn’t have a tight enough grasp on his fighting style to predict where he’ll be by the time the knives even reach him. He’s too inconsistent, too erratic.
Long shot or not, though, Steve’s surprised glance at her from over Loki’s shoulder--apparently he didn’t know where she was?--reduces that 10% chance to 0%, and it does not endear him to her.
Loki follows Steve’s eyeline, knocks him back several feet when he gets close, then pivots and knocks Leila’s knives aside in one fluid motion. He doesn’t look remotely surprised to see her, just annoyed, so she can assume he knew that she was here, just wasn’t expecting her to join the fight. Maybe he thought she was working a civilian perimeter. If he did, he has either vastly underestimated the extent to which SHIELD wants the tesseract back, or vastly overestimated the extent to which she cares about preventing civilian casualties.
Leila can feel the wheels in the back of her mind spinning wildly, filing Loki’s every move away as a reference to what he might do next; she did that before the rapid learning, but sometimes the abilities take on a life of their own, and feel like separate entities. It’s like having a machine in her mind.
“The atoner,” he says. “The criminal who calls herself royalty.”
She smirks. “Well, I guess we have something in common.”
She gets the desired response, or at least as close to it as can be expected. Loki doesn’t respond verbally, but the smile slips off his face, and she can see him tense up with anger. She pulls out her ring daggers (bad for throwing because of the uneven weight, great for close combat due to being so easy to hang on to) and runs at him.
One hand goes for the neck, the other goes for the gut. Loki dodges the former by leaning back, and blocks the latter with his scepter--but then, instead of pulling back, he locks, and Leila pulls her other dagger back up to cross with the first, pushing back against the scepter. She’s grateful, not for the first time, for SHIELD’s enhanced weaponry; the scepter is strong, and the man (or god, or whatever) inching it towards her forehead is even stronger.
“Kneel,” he hisses.
“Only if you buy me dinner first,” she replies, and kicks him in the shin.
It doesn’t have the same effect it would on a human, but it does break up his rhythm as he shifts his weight to his unkicked leg.
She takes this brief moment of distraction to glance, without moving her head, over his shoulder, and sees that Steve is about to throw his shield. A good move for the moment--hit him while he’s off-center--but Loki could easily duck it and let it hit her instead.
She hits the ground before that can happen, and propels herself forward using the butt of her daggers as oars. The impact between the knives and the ground throws faint sparks into the air as she slides between Loki’s legs like a swing dancer, but self-propelled and with significantly less jazz music.
She actually sees the underside of Steve’s shield as it flies towards Loki; she waits until she hears an impact (another clink; he must have knocked it aside) before getting up. Steve abandons his shield and runs at Loki, and she joins him as she gets up.
Steve throws a punch; Loki dodges. Leila lets the boys have at it and half-circles them until she’s behind Loki, and then piggybacks him. She crosses her daggers in front of the scepter and uses it to try to wrestle it out of Loki’s hands, or at least direct it away from Steve.
She’s effective at the second objective, at least. There’s a split-second where she realizes her mistake, thinks that she’s never seen anything so blue, and then she takes the energy blast straight to the forehead.
She’s stunned enough that she doesn’t actually feel herself flying through the air, or hitting the concrete, or cracking her head open. She doesn’t even really see it, either. Leila doesn’t feel pain the way most people do, but this time she doesn’t feel it at all--it’s like her mind is somewhere separate from her body. It’s not her usual dissociation. This feels...otherworldly. Cosmic.
And then, all at once, with an almost physical vacuuming sensation, she’s pulled back into her body, and looks up.
It can’t have been as long as it felt since Loki hit her, because Steve is still staring at her in horror, and although she wouldn’t put past him--were he left to his own devices--to just stand there in stunned silence for an hour, she knows that Loki wouldn’t let him do so.
Sure enough, Loki takes advantage of Steve’s distraction to land a punch to his gut, before knocking Steve to his knees with the scepter.
“Kneel,” Loki says.
“Not today,” Steve replies, and it’s the first time Leila’s heard him sound genuinely angry.
Leila has to assume that Loki knows she’s going to get back up. He might be an asshole, but he’s not an idiot; getting Clint to tell Loki all of SHIELD’s dirty secrets is probably the first thing he did once they were safe. He called her “the atoner,” so he knows at least as much as Clint does about her past. When Loki asked Clint about her, there’s no way he didn’t lead with the whole “can’t die” thing. Strengths and weaknesses are the first thing Loki would’ve wanted to know about a prospective enemy.
This being the case, Leila doesn’t bother with the element of surprise that she does not have. She struggles to her feet--she’s survived worse injuries than cracking her head open, and she’s always moved past it faster than this. Something about his scepter either adds to the injury or weakens her abilities, because she feels like she’s just had the wind knocked out of her, like there’s a physical weight on her chest. It’s a sensation she hasn’t felt since acquiring her healing.
She’s still in the process of standing up when Steve lands in a heap next to her, knocked back by Loki’s scepter. He jumps to his feet instantly and holds out a hand to Leila, who is on her knees now. The aching from the impact is mostly gone now; it’s more the shock that’s keeping her down. She steadfastly ignores his hand and gets to her feet on her own, and suddenly the sound of AC/DC is surrounding her.
For a split second, she thinks she might be hallucinating, but no; Loki and Steve are both looking in the same direction she is, so she has to assume that they are also seeing the same thing she is: Iron Man.
He lands several yards in front of Steve and Leila, and aims his blasters or whatever at Loki, knocking him back several feet. Tony doesn’t lower his weapons.
“Make your move, Reindeer Games.” Stark’s voice sounds slightly scrambled, no doubt because he’s speaking through machinery.
Loki raises his hand in surrender, his helmet disappearing. Leila heads over to stand next to Stark, and Steve follows, standing on his other side.
Stark’s weapons slide back into the various parts of his suit they were hiding in. “Good move.”
“Mr. Stark,” Steve greets.
“Cap’n. Princess.” The faceplate of Stark’s suit slides open. “Thought you could use a hand.”
“We appreciate it,” Steve says, nodding stiffly. Then he turns to Leila, and it kills her a little, the way his eyes soften. “You okay?”
And she almost feels bad about walking away without a word.
Here is the fight scene that was promised! Mad s/o to burnsbright who made this coherent.
Also, you might notice that some things about this story are different...namely, the name. And the first two chapters are gone, and the tags and shit. Basically I decided to make this story a series instead of a single long fic with spin-offs. Each plotline gets its own entry. This makes it easier for me to keep track of, and will make it easier to write when different plotlines overlap (EG: both Leila and Alex, an OC who was going to get a spin-off, play a role in Age of Ultron, and it'll be easier to have those in the same entry instead of trying to carry on the same plotline in two separate fics.)
I hope that doesn't inconvenience you guys too much. I'm hoping this new organization method will make it easier for me to write faster. You can find the first two chapters here, or by clicking any of the "series this work belongs to" links on this page. Let me know if you have any questions!
(I also changed the name "Garey Lennox" in chapter two to the name "Seth Lennox," which seems small but it will be important later, so jot that down.)
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Chapter 5: Chapter Five
Leila fights with Steve and debates getting to second base with a god.
As soon as Loki is restrained, Leila takes the opportunity to pull Steve aside. Granted, maybe “aside” is a stretch; there’s no real privacy in the back of the quinjet, so she keeps her voice low and hopes that Stark has the good sense to mind his own goddamn business.
“What the hell was that?” Leila hisses.
“I told you I can’t die. Literally immediately before we landed. You said you understood.”
Steve squares his shoulders, clearly defensive now, which only serves to make her angrier. “Yeah, and I did,” he says. “Something told me you’d never been up against...whatever that was.” He gestures in Loki’s direction.
He’s not wrong; she’s still a little unsettled by how strongly Loki’s scepter affected her, like her molecules haven’t quite stopped vibrating from the impact yet. Still, though.
“You let him get the drop on you,” she says. “You could have been compromised. If Stark hadn’t shown up--”
“I recovered,” he says. He’s a lot better at covering his anger than she is. His tone is a sort of strained calm, anger under a shiny veneer of 1940’s gentility. It just annoys her more.
“Okay, so what about before then? When we landed? Do you think I didn’t notice how you took the brunt of the impact?”
“Yeah, let’s talk about that. Let’s talk about how you let me take on Loki while you hid in the crowd.”
“Oh, I’m sorry, did the super-soldier feel scared fighting all alone?”
“You could have gotten people killed,” he hisses through his teeth. “Who’s to say Loki wouldn’t have seen you? Who’s to say he wouldn’t have aimed into the crowd? You put civilians at risk.”
He’s well and truly angry now--this, apparently, is the hill he wants to die on--and it’s vaguely satisfying and yet infuriating all at once. “I was trying to get my best chance of taking him down,” she says, a little more calmly than before (if only to annoy him), “because if we didn’t? If he got away? We’d be dealing with a lot more than a few civilian casualties.”
“So that’s it. That’s how it works? The ends justify the means?”
“I’m not a soldier, Captain . I’m a spy. I’m not in this for the heroics. I go in and I get the job done. You get on board with that, or you get out.”
She storms away before he can answer--inasmuch as she can “storm” anywhere. Loki is only a few steps away, and she pauses in front of him.
He smiles serenely up at her. “Trouble in paradise?” he asks.
“If this is paradise, I’d love to know what hell looks like to you,” she says.
He just smiles. She rolls her eyes and mumbles “Hold still.”
She leans forward, bracing a palm against the wall behind him, and reaches out with her other hand to touch his face.
Taking abilities works best when she’s touching an area with the most blood flow--the heart or the head. The heart is better, and in a lab setting she’d prefer it, given the unknown nature of Loki’s abilities, and how they’ll react with her own. But they’re not in a lab--they’re in a jet, and she can hardly ask him to take what has to be like 20 layers of clothes off just so she can feel him up For Science. So, the head it is.
She lets her eyes slip shut, and hears Stark’s voice a moment later. “Is she touching everyone’s face? Because I didn’t get the chance to shave.”
“No,” she replies, eyes still closed. “I charge extra for groups.”
She hears him snort.
It’s funny; she expects Loki to fight back in some way. To turn his head, to keep talking to distract her, but he doesn’t. He stays still, and it’s honestly more distracting than any deflection would be. Which is probably his intention. The fact that it works just irritates her even more.
She slams the door on those emotions and lets her mind latch onto his powers instead.
It’s hard to describe what taking abilities feels like; it’s like trying to explain sound to a lifelong deaf person, or sight to someone who was born blind. It’s a perception that exists beyond the five senses.
Loki’s powers, if she had to describe them, feel...vast, and constantly moving and shifting, twisting around each other, and they sound like the loudest silence, that high-pitched whine you pick up on when it’s quiet for long enough.
She knows, somehow, that she won’t be able to take them; they’re too deeply embedded in him, inextricable. But she can duplicate them. She can feel her very DNA shift as her cells change to more closely mirror his. The sound of Steve and Stark bickering starts to come back into focus. Loki is listening intently.
“What’s the matter? Scared of a little lightning?” someone--Steve, she thinks--asks. She tries to tune him out again.
“I’m not overly fond of what follows,” Loki replies.
Before she can snap at him to hold still, there’s a metallic screeching sound, and she looks up just in time to see an enormous guy in a red cape land in the quinjet. She knows him from the newsreels and SHIELD’s files. Thor.
Frankly, she doesn’t much consider her next move; being interrupted while that deep into a duplication--especially one so complex, one that she’s now realizing took exceptionally long--never does sit well with her. She’s got a blinding migraine suddenly, and she scrambles out of Thor’s way.
Thor grabs Loki by the throat, tears him from his restraints, and flies off. She rubs her temples. She’s vaguely aware of a hand in front of her, and she’s in too much pain to proud or petty about it, so she takes it, and lets it help her onto the seat behind her. She realizes a split second later that it has to be Steve’s, since Stark’s still got his stupid robot costume on. There’s a streak of annoyance there, and a mild sense of guilt, and it actually helps her focus a little. The pain is assuaged, just a little.
She decides to keep focusing on that. Feelings. This is why she hates being interrupted; the only thing that helps her cope with the resulting migraines are focusing on human emotion, which she tries to do as little as possible.
She chooses an easy one: how much she hates Loki just then. In the past hour, she’s displayed two weaknesses--one of which she didn’t even know she had (fuck that scepter too, while she’s at it)--in front of two men she barely knows, assuming Stark saw her get knocked on her ass earlier along with Steve. That green alien bastard didn’t even give her the chance to establish herself as someone who definitely could and would kill them if she felt like it before putting her weak points on display. Fuck that guy.
He also took Clint , she remembers. God. She doesn’t even know if Clint is alive. For a split second, she allows herself to acknowledge that it matters to her if he is. Whatever. It’s not like she’s ready to lay down her life for him or some shit. She just has a mild preference towards him being alive over him being dead. She also has a preference towards Mexican food over Sushi but she’s not gonna die if someone hands her a California Roll.
She’s losing track of her train of thought. She needs to get it toge-- ow. She remembers the headache now, but it’s mild enough that she can open her eyes. She does.
The quinjet is empty, aside from Natasha in the pilot’s seat. She takes a long, deep breath. The back of the jet is still broken and wide open.
“Might wanna put your seatbelt on, Princess,” she hears Nat say from up front.
“Don’t tell me what to do, Romanoff,” she replies, before doing exactly what Nat told her to do. It’s good advice, okay? Whatever.
She can’t see Nat’s expression, but she can almost hear her smiling. “You okay?”
Natasha’s seen this happen once before. It wasn’t nearly as bad that time; that was a routine power extraction of a human gifted. This is something else, and Leila’s vaguely unsettled by it. She did not sign up for S.H.I.E.L.D. just to get her ass kicked by Alien-slash-Gods who won’t play by the rules. Granted, she didn’t have that much of a choice in signing up, but she might have tried harder to find an out if she’d known this was going to happen.
No, she wouldn’t have. Whatever else it may entail, S.H.I.E.L.D. is still her best shot at finding who she’s looking for.
She’s still pissed, though.
“I assume the boys are on the ground fighting over their toy?”
“Yeah. You plan on joining them?”
“You know what? I’m gonna go ahead and let them handle it.” If Loki does get away, she’s probably going to get disciplined for it, but she can’t bring herself to care just then. And as much as she hates to admit it, she’d probably be more of a hindrance than a help, given her migraine. Her eyesight is still fuzzy.
“Rogers asked if you were okay,” Nat says out of nowhere. Leila glances in her direction. “Before he jumped.”
“And that means I owe him?”
“No,” Nat says. “But you could be a little nicer to him.”
A few one-liners come to her--”I’ve never been nice in my life,” “He’s a big boy, he can handle it,” “Why, because it’s important to respect our elders?”
But she doesn’t really have the energy to fine-tune any of them right now, so she just gives a flat “No.”
Natasha snorts, and tells her to think about it. And she doesn’t answer, but she keeps thinking about when she was half-blind and his hand hovered in front of her. It’s not even a huge thing to do; it was probably just instinct, nice soldier boy manners or whatever. But it does make it harder to imagine being mean to him in the future. At least, not unless he gives her a reason to.
Frankly, she just feels empty, and continuing to resent him sounds exhausting.
“No promises,” she says quietly. And again, she can’t see for sure, but she knows this time that Nat is smiling.
S/O to burnsbright, an amazing beta and a poetic and noble land-mermaid.
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Chapter 6: Chapter Six
Leila compares her body count to Loki's, and then has a panic attack at the prospect of Stark finding out about said body count.
When they arrive back at the helicarrier, an unofficial Loki-based summit is formed on the platform behind the bridge. Leila’s not sure how Stark and Rogers convinced Thor to work with them; she assumes it involved some level of violence, if only because Steve was out-numbered two-to-one by men who seem to shoot first and ask questions later, but she doesn’t care enough to ask.
Mostly, Leila would really rather just get to work on copying Loki’s powers. Between what he did with the scepter and how hard it was to copy the first time, not knowing what he’s capable of is making her anxious. Especially given that he’s on the helicarrier with them. Staring at them, even. Through a camera, but still.
He’s talking to Fury, technically, but he’s clearly directing his Shakespearean monologue to them. Loki wouldn’t be roasting Banner like that if he didn’t know Banner was listening. The mindless beast, makes play he’s still a man. Jesus.
Finally, Fury leaves Loki to his solitude. The God or whatever continues to smirk at them through the screen, but at least he’s shutting up for the moment.
The room is quiet for a moment, and she glances at Banner. Please don’t be sad please don’t have feelings please—
“He really grows on you, doesn’t he?”
Thank you. She silently moves Bruce Banner into the “tolerable” folder in her brain. Then she glances at Steve pointedly, as if to say See? This guy gets it.
Steve isn’t looking at her, though. “Loki’s gonna drag this out,” he says. “Thor, what’s his play?”
The other God-or-Whatever seems distracted, upset even. A far cry, she thinks, from the guy who tore up a plane, stole an entire person, and peaced out less than six hours ago. It’s probably connected to Loki’s theatrics, but she doesn’t have enough context vis-a-vis their relationship to figure out the exact A-to-B causation between said theatrics and Thor’s current expression. She files the observation away for future reference.
“He has an army called the Chitauri.”
“Chitauri,” Leila repeats. That sounds fake.
“Yes. What about the Chitauri?”
“It sounds fake.”
“I can assure you, they’re very real.” Thor sounds annoyed at her skepticism, which is generally a red flag for her, but maybe it’s just the general situation that has him on edge, so she lets it go for now. “And they’re not of Asgard, or any world known. He means to lead them against your people. They will win him the Earth. In exchange, I suspect, for the tesseract.”
There’s a beat. Then: “I’ll take your word for it.” She smiles innocently under Thor’s annoyed gaze.
Steve holds up a hand. “Wait, go back. You said an army? From outer space?” There’s a very clear note of seriously?? in his voice. Steve Rogers did not wake up from a 70-year nap only to find out aliens exist and are about to invade the Earth, Leila is pretty sure of that.
“So he’s building another portal,” Banner says. “That’s what he needs Erik Selvig for.”
“Selvig?” Thor perks up at the name.
“He’s an astrophysicist,” says Banner.
“He’s a friend.” For some reason, Thor hadn’t struck Leila as the type of person to have friends. Maybe that’s because all she’s really seen of him is from when he--again--tore a plane open and stole a man from inside it.
“Loki has him under some kind of spell,” Natasha interjects. “Along with one of ours.”
She and Leila share a glance. One of ours. It’s been harder to almost-kind-of-forget about Clint since she admitted to herself that she wants him to be alive, so she’s probably never doing that again.
“I wanna know why Loki let us take him,” Steve says. “He’s not leading an army from here.”
Leila points at him in agreement. May as well get a headstart with the whole “be nicer to Rogers” thing at this moment, when he happens to be right about something. “I’ve met low-level gifteds with more fight in them. He shouldn’t have gone down so easy.”
“I don’t think we should be focusing on Loki. That guy’s brain is a bag of cats. You could smell the crazy on him.”
“If anything, being criminally insane just makes whatever hellish powers he has even more dangerous,” Leila snaps.
For the briefest of seconds, she expects Clint to chime in with some dumb comment about how maybe they shouldn’t trust Leila either. She even feels her arm muscles tense so she can reach over and punch his shoulder, before realizing he didn’t say it, because he isn’t there. She bites the inside of her cheek.
Nope. Definitely not caring about whether someone dies, ever again.
“Have care how you speak,” Thor says. “Loki is beyond reason, but he is of Asgard, and my brother.”
“He killed 80 people in 2 days,” Natasha points out.
Leila has to restrain herself from rolling her eyes. Forty people in two days? Weak . Before SHIELD, Leila once killed a good 200 people in a single night. Granted, she had some minimal help, but then, so did Loki.
Her parents, she muses, would probably have wanted to distance themselves from her too after that, if they hadn’t been two of the people she killed. Then again, it’s hard to imagine how much more distant they could have gotten from her, compared to how they were before then.
Banner draws the conversation back to the science shit. “Iridium, what did they need the iridium for?”
“It’s a stabilizing agent.” The five of them--six of them if you include Maria Hill, who’s been silent so far, if attentive--look over in unison at the sound of Stark’s voice to find him walking in with Coulson. He’d been escorted off upon their arrival so he could take his armor off somewhere. Frankly, it took longer than she’d expected.
Tony says something inaudible to Coulson before splitting ways with him as Coulson goes to supervise the bridge, and Tony approaches the table.
“Means the portal won’t collapse on himself like it did at SHIELD.” He turns his attention to Thor--”No hard feelings, Point Break; you’ve got a mean swing”--and then pivots back to the iridium. “Also, it means the portal can open as wide, and stay open as long as Loki wants.”
Next, Tony turns to the crew. “Uh, raise the mid-mast, ship the topsails…” Leila watches his antics with a smirk. He’s funny, she’ll give him that, although she’s not sure the rest of their little board meeting agrees.
He turns back to the table after a monologue of smartassery and dives back into the science debate with no preamble. “The rest of the raw materials…”
Leila does her best to follow it, so when she feels she has enough of a layman’s grasp on the situation, she stands up.
“Okay, so I’m done with this conversation,” she says, cutting into the middle of Tony’s sentence.
“Nobody’s keeping you here,” Tony shoots in her direction. “Just make sure to tell Principal Fury you’re dropping out.”
She ignores him. “Hill, did you get something from Loki that I can use?”
“We have hair strands and a small blood sample,” Hill says. “We didn’t want to risk a full biopsy; we just wanted him secured as quickly as possible.”
That’s fair. More than she was expecting, really. “I need someplace quiet.” Sometimes when there’s a lot going on, the helicarrier gets busy. Loud. Like when they’re holding a God prisoner, for example. And she’d really like to get this done without interruption. One skull-splitting migraine is enough for the day, she thinks.
“You could use the lab,” Banner suggests. “I won’t be in for a bit, and I don’t make much noise, believe it or not.”
Leila glances at him. Definitely tolerable. “I’ll hold you to that,” she says, and follows Agent Hill out of the room.
To his credit, Banner is quiet. If it had just been the two of them, things probably would have been fine. Just beeping machinery, quiet footsteps. White noise.
Unfortunately, Stark--who has apparently been asked to stay on for the time being by Fury--has no such reservations.
Sure, at first it’s okay. They talk to each other about more science shit she neither understands nor cares about. Easy to tune out, even if Stark’s voice is louder than she’d prefer. Frankly, if she wasn’t trying to focus on Loki’s powers, she probably wouldn’t mind at all. There are very few people Leila finds actively enjoyable to be around, but honestly, she gets a kick out of Stark. He’s funny, and she enjoys watching someone give exactly as few fucks about SHIELD as she would like to. At any other moment, she probably wouldn’t be annoyed, or at least less annoyed than her baseline level of annoyance. Timing really is everything.
“Keep it down,” Leila says, too focused on the blood container in her hand to be snarky about it.
“Oh, sorry. I can see you’re doing very important, world-changing science there, princess,” Tony says in a stage whisper.
“Tony,” Banner says, a gentle reprimand. Another point in his favor.
“I need to focus,” she says.
“Is that what the bad guys do in the field? Just wait for you to genetically strip-search them?” Interestingly, he doesn’t actually sound like he’s mocking her this time—at least, not completely. He seems to actually be looking for an answer. He’s curious.
She looks up despite herself. “With most gifteds, no. It usually only takes a second or two.”
“Sorry, ‘gifteds’? Is that what they’re calling people like you?” At her affirmative facial expression, he adds “That’s a stupid name.”
“That’s what I said!” She sits up, feeling vindicated. “Thank you!”
“So Loki…” Bruce says, presumably before she and Tony can start brainstorming better names for people with superpowers, which is, frankly, a reasonable concern.
“Loki is...different. You know that theory about how our brains are like supercomputers?”
“You mean that pop-biology shit from daytime talk shows?” Tony asks. “I’ve heard of it, yeah.”
“Great. Pretend it’s true. Some powers take up more space than others. Bigger files take longer to transfer.”
“And that’s a big file,” Tony says, gesturing to the serum bottle in her hand.
She holds it up. “I don’t even know if it’ll fit.”
“Well, you know, they make exercises for that.”
Better than ‘that’s what she said,’ at least. Props for that. “I can’t imagine that information would ever have been relevant to you, Stark.”
Stark just smirks, looking vaguely impressed, and turns back to Banner. Leila turns back to the vial, letting the conversation turn into background noise.
“You know, you should come by...”
“Thanks, but last time...”
“Well, I promise a stress-free environment...”
There’s a tiny zapping sound, and then footsteps, and then “Ow!” Leila looks up, annoyed. Stark’s studying Banner curiously. “Nothing?”
“Hey!” The three of them turn their heads in unison to find Rogers standing in the doorway. “Are you nuts?”
Leila gets asked that question enough that for a moment, she assumes he’s talking to her. There's a split second during which she tries to figure out what could have triggered it this time before realizing it was directed at Stark, who is now steadfastly ignoring Rogers in favor of interrogating Bruce about his coping mechanisms.
“Mellow jazz? Bongo drums? Huge bag of weed?”
Frankly, she hates every single one of those things, and yet any or all of them would be welcome at this moment if it would help her focus on Loki’s powers and not the dick-measuring contest that she can feel brewing between Stark and Rogers. She’d leave the room herself, but Steve is blocking the door, and while it’s not like she has qualms about pushing him out of her way (verbally or otherwise), he looks ready to kill, and she feels like drawing his attention is a good way to get dragged even deeper into the situation than she already is. So she stays. She can feel a headache coming on from her attention being split, and stops trying, rolling the bottle between her fingers as she tries to tune out the conversation.
And maybe it’s good that she isn’t entirely successful, because it means she picks up Stark’s confession:
“I should probably look into that once my decryption programmer finishes breaking into all of SHIELD’s secure files.”
It’s like a record scratching in her head, and she snaps back to attention, saying “What?” at the same time Steve goes “I’m sorry, did you say…?”
Stark glances at her, and he seems mildly surprised, which is both reasonable and horrible. She hardly gives off the stickler-for-the-rules vibe that good Captain does, which means it’s obvious that her concern is not the same as his. Tony’s a smart guy; he’s going to put it together long before his program his program gets back to him. Hell, he's probably already put it together just in the last two seconds. Leila doesn’t care about him finding out SHIELD’s secrets. She cares about him finding out hers.
And if Stark is anything like Natasha told her he is, the fact that she doesn’t want him to know something is only going to make him want to know it more. That’s why he went after SHIELD’s files to begin with, right? Because he knew they were hiding something.
Leila’s not sure if any of this is written on her face as Stark looks at her. Her mind is short-circuiting; she’s lost the ability to regulate her body language for the moment. She has no idea what he sees, and he doesn’t tell her. He breaks eye contact after just a moment and turns back to Steve.
She runs through possibilities as they argue, keeping an ear open to get a bead on Tony’s intentions in hacking SHIELD. He mostly seems interested in what SHIELD is hiding from him, specifically, regarding the tesseract, specifically. Her own history falls firmly outside that purview, and he’s smart enough that his algorithm shouldn’t pick up any irrelevancies. The only way he finds her past is if he’s looking for it, and she doesn’t know why he would, but giving people the benefit of the doubt has never worked out particularly well for her in the past.
She doesn’t look up until she’s called to do so.
“Whittaker, what do you think?”
She looks up to see Tony and Steve looking at her expectantly. Bruce mostly looks glad he’s not the one being pulled into it anymore.
As a SHIELD agent, she has a responsibility to tell a superior about this conversation. But that’s not the vibe she gives off either, and it would only make her look more suspicious--to Stark and, on the other side, maybe even to Fury himself, which would be another problem on her already heavy plate for the day. And she doubts anything can be done in time to prevent Stark from getting his stupid eyes on the files anyway.
“I don’t care,” she says sharply. “Just leave me out of it.”
Steve studies her for a moment, then turns back to Stark. “Just find the cube,” he says, and stalks off.
Leila stands up to do the same--maybe she can find somewhere quieter to actually do her job--and she’s at the doorway when Tony calls her back.
She turns, crossing her arms.
“Don’t worry. I’m only interested in what SHIELD’s hiding. Any dirty little secrets of yours that I come across are safe with me. Scout’s honor.”
This could mean any number of things--a joke at her expense, a threat, a genuine reassurance--but whatever the intent behind it, it does let her shoulders relax a little. At least she knows what’s going on in Stark’s mind now. At least she doesn’t have to wonder about that particular puzzle piece. It’s enough to let her joke about it, anyway.
She smiles. “I have no idea what you’re talking about, Stark. I’m an open book. Ask anyone.”
She walks away before he can say anything, but not before she sees him smirk in response, Bruce still looking flustered behind him.
So I know this chapter kind of has the "more or less canon scene but with OC added" element to it, but I promise it's important, and I tried to make it as distinct as possible.
Thank you to everyone who's given me feedback, it motivates the shit outta me, and if anyone wants to tell me what they think of this chapter too, I would love you forever.
Also yes, I am slightly manic right now, sorry.
Chapter 7: Chapter Seven
Leila copies Loki's powers and then bullies a nerd into helping her understand them.
The on-call room is a lot quieter than the lab, which she did not anticipate. Prior experience would indicate that it should be busy. It had seemed counter-intuitive to her when she’d first joined SHIELD, but when there’s a lot going on in the helicarrier, the on-call room is usually packed, the door revolving, carrying agents in and out as people work in rapid-cycling shifts, trying to get whatever rest they can in between.
Today, though, it’s relatively quiet. There are a few nameless techs lounging around in the corner, playing some kind of card game, but that’s it. Maybe it’s because, despite the novelty of Loki’s arrival, there’s not actually much that can be done about the situation. Leila shoots a sharp glare at the other agents to warn them against bothering her before tucking herself into a chair in the opposite corner and tuning everything out.
She pulls the bottle out of her pocket and examines it warily, holding it at eye level for a brief moment. It feels like holding a bottle of cough medicine, somehow--it’s something she knows she has to consume in some way, but very emphatically does not want to. No, that’s too mundane. This is like….like being a puzzle piece and having someone try to force you to fit another one. It just feels strange and viscerally violating and wrong wrong wrong --
She slams her eyes shut and connects, once again, to Loki’s powers.
It takes a moment to get through her own barriers. The last few times she tried to get in touch with these abilities, it resulted in stress and headaches and anger, and her mind has apparently decided that the correlation is causation and is making the executive decision to lock out the abilities themselves.
But there’s another subconscious, natural force at play. Leila’s abilities always seem to be drawn to others’. Once she gets close enough, it’s hard to stop the two from connecting, much like how magnets--once they reach a certain point of closeness--move towards each other of their own accord. Taking abilities takes focus, but copying them...it’s almost too easy. That’s how she discovered her powers—when she realized she’d accidentally picked up a handful of other people’s.
This isn’t exactly the same—she can’t just mindlessly duplicate these abilities like she did then. They’re too vast, too complicated, and different than anything she’s seen before. But that magnetic feeling, drawing her mind towards Loki’s powers, is still very much there. She leans into that, and soon enough, her powers collide with his.
She recognizes the feeling from the quinjet: vast and slippery, constantly moving. But that’s all she recognizes. Usually taking powers takes a moment of connection and then she’s let go, back to herself, changed but with her feet on the ground.
Not now. Not with this. This one doesn’t set her back on her feet. It doesn’t even hold her hand, like she expected, knowing it would take longer than usual. These abilities seem to pull her in--
In where? She doesn’t know. She doesn’t feel like she’s in any one place. She has the vague sense that she’s still physically on the helicarrier, but her mind, her soul if she has one, are not present. It’s like she’s been sucked into the powers themselves, and that twisting feeling she sensed is now surrounding her, like being trapped in a nest of snakes, like being drowned, wave after wave crashing over her, every time she thinks she can breathe it buries her again, like quicksand, like being pulled into the vacuum of space, unable to breathe, unable to think, blood boiling and freezing at the same time, surrounded by this vast, white smothering emptiness, filling her lungs, clouding her sight--
Her eyes snap open, and suddenly she’s back in the helicarrier. She has no idea how long she’s been stuck in...whatever the actual fuck that was. Was it seconds? Minutes? That feels right...no. Hours? Days? Also both right and wrong. Leila’s always been good at gauging time, a benign knack she’s held since long before she discovered her powers, and the sudden lack of that ability to center herself is...well, it’s one of the least disconcerting things about the entire situation, but maybe that’s why she focuses on it, why suddenly it’s all she can think about, figuring out what time it is--
She can’t even run on autopilot like she usually does, her mind is moving too fast to grab on to any one single protocol. She takes a deep breath--and then another, and then a third, reassuring herself that she can breathe--and then walks herself through the process the way she would a child.
How do you tell the time? You look at a clock. Is there a clock in here? She looks around, but her vision is blurry for some reason. Maybe a watch. She looks down at her wrist. It looks like there’s something attached to it. She picks it up, mechanically, and holds it at eye level. Yeah, that’s a watch.
It’s been...she doesn’t know. She can’t remember when she came into the room.
Okay. 5:38. That feels like a couple minutes. That feels right. Not right-but-wrong. Just right. Okay. She can figure out time again. Good. Why is her vision blurry? Why is she so lightheaded?
She reaches up to her neck and feels her pulse. Her heart’s beating rapidly; that explains it. If she wasn’t immune to injury, she’d want to see a doctor about it. Honestly, she’s not convinced she shouldn’t anyway, since it’s a day of firsts, and she can’t rule out the possibility that Loki’s powers somehow negated her own existing ones.
She wants to close her eyes, but there’s still a part of her that’s terrified that she’s going to go back into that...place, so she keeps them open instead, staring at the floor as she breathes in and out slowly. She tries to think happy thoughts, things that genuinely relax her. Long showers. Thunderstorms. Train rides. Bodega cats. Really ugly novelty keychains.
Okay. That’s better. She can see again.
When she looks up, she’s suddenly aware of how cold she feels. Her face feels clammy, as if a fever’s just broken.
But she’s aware. She’s lucid. All her faculties are functional.
Well. There’s no instruction manual for what just happened, so she has to proceed as though it didn’t, as though the duplication went as expected. What would she do, if it had? If she’d just taken a gifted’s powers, without knowing what they actually were, in a lab setting (as it were) as opposed to a combat one?
She’d explore. She’d try to figure out what the abilities were, how they worked.
She doesn’t want to do that now, but she has to know. Not just because it’s her job. Whatever these powers are, whatever this thing is, it’s inside her now. If she lets go of them without understanding them first, she’ll just have to take them again, which she emphatically does not want to do. But she sure as hell can’t keep them without understanding them, either.
So she reaches out. Tries to decipher the changes these powers have made to her. Tries to figure out what she’s now capable of. It’s like reaching inside herself with a microscope, trying to find anything foreign--
There. Strange. It feels like it...clashes. Not with her other powers. With itself. Like two genetic elements sloppily stitched together by a high school home ec student. They don’t match, they don’t quite fit .
Let’s see….what does she know about Loki’s abilities already? Sometimes pattern matching helps. General enhanced abilities--stamina, speed, agility, etc. Illusions...there they are. They feel slightly off-kilter, like they weigh lighter or heavier than they should, but they’re there. Something...cold. Cryo? Maybe. Then something that feels...sort of slippery, in the same venue of the illusions--
Wait, what the fuck ??
There’s that something else again, the other half of the powerset, the one that was grafted on, and she can’t get a read on it, but it feels unsettlingly foreign.
She sighs, stands up, and slips the blood vial back into her pocket. Back to the lab. Well, a lab.
She’s almost to the door when one of the techs from the corner calls out “You okay?”
She turns her head. The one who spoke seems innocent enough; his buddy seems amused. For some reason, it makes her blood boil, and were she not in such a hurry, she might press the issue.
“Talk to me again and I’ll use that card to slit your throat,” she says instead, and walks out.
The helicarrier holds more than one lab. There’s three that Leila knows of, although she wouldn’t be surprised to learn about a fourth. The one currently occupied by Banner and Stark is the smallest one, which is presumably why Fury put them there. No fewer resources to hinder their work, just less floor space.
No. There’s another lab on the port side, larger and probably busier, which is why Leila didn’t go there to duplicate Loki’s powers. But it’s the one she seeks out now, because it’ll require less explanation as to what she’s doing.
Sure enough, the lab is busier than usual, with several handfuls of scientists in identical white lab coats gathered in clusters around...whatever. Leila scans the room, zeroes in on one she recognizes, and grabs him by the arm.
Dr. Jahan Shirazi seems reluctant to turn around from whatever nerd shit he’s looking at, but does so anyway, his eyes widening slightly when he sees her. Leila never comes into the lab unless explicitly asked. Until now.
Shirazi glances behind her at the door, as if looking for someone else who can explain her sudden presence, before turning back to her. “I--sorry, did Fury send you down here? He didn’t--”
“No,” she cuts him off. She releases his arm, now confident that she has his attention. “I came here myself. I need you to get me into the Janus System.”
“You’re not cleared for that.”
“I know that, hence my asking you to get me in.” She narrows her eyes at him. “It’s an emergency.”
She reaches out, grabs his arm again, and pulls him away from the crowd, then hisses “I copied Loki’s powers” through gritted teeth, digging her nails into him for good measure.
Shirazi’s eyes go wide, and then narrow, finally understanding.
“Okay,” he says. “That’s an emergency.”
Leila watches with arms crossed, bouncing her heel impatiently as Shirazi logs into the system. Part of her feels like it’s stupid that she doesn’t have clearance to do it herself, given that the program was written around her, specifically--but then again, she can’t fault SHIELD for wanting to limit her access whenever possible. It’s not like she’s standing there out of some righteous conviction in their mission, or whatever.
Shirazi steps aside when the opening interface pops up, and Leila steps up to the screen. There’s a life-size outline of a hand in the center of it, sort of like the lines around where the body was at a crime scene. She lays her hand on the outline, matching it carefully.
A light moves down the screen as it scans, and then the words “SNOW WHITE: IDENTITY CONFIRMED” appear above her hand. A moment later, in smaller text, the words “please do not remove hand from screen” come up. This is also stupid--she knows what to do, none of them are going to forget--but she ignores that, too.
It scans her several more times, in different colors, looking at different data sets, and then tells her to remove her hand. She does so, and steps back.
A small rectangle pops out of the side of a machine, the same way a disk drive would--still attached, but ejected. There’s a hole in the center. She slips her finger into it, and there’s a sharp prick before the screen tells her to remove her finger. She does that, too, watching idly as the small wound heals, while the machine scrubs her current DNA against prior samples--the first one they took when she joined SHIELD, one they took after forcing her to let go of all her abilities during the preliminary tests after the academy, and various others taken while holding different power sets.
It’s a way to try to gauge what abilities might be hiding. They usually do it as a matter of course when she takes new powers--she reports to this room after every debriefing for every mission, sometimes even when nothing about her powers have changed, just out of thoroughness--but it’s rarely been necessary to her using or understanding them practically.
She and Shirazi lean over the screen in unison, waiting for the system to tell them anything. It seems to sit on “Analyzing…” for ages.
Finally, the words “Analysis Complete” flash briefly on the screen before several data sets pop up--some boxes with text, a few diagrams. Most of the screen is taken up by an enlarged image of a strand of DNA.
Leila steps back, letting Shirazi handle it from there. He steps forward, using the touchscreen to manipulate the diagram, turning it this way and that. He brings up various dialogs, reading whatever jargon they have for him. It seems to take forever, but then, finally, he steps back and looks at her.
“I don’t know,” he says. “I’ve never seen anything like it.”
“You’ve seen Asgardian DNA, right? In New Mexico.”
“Yeah. Whatever you took, it’s not a match. It’s...there’s a strain of something mildly similar, but then there’s something else--”
“Like two power sets spliced together?”
Well. That’s vindicating, if a cold comfort.
Leila drags a hand through her hair and glances at Shirazi again. Despite his calm, professional tone, he’s looking at her like she’s a bomb about to go off. He’s not literally holding his hands up and backing away slowly, but his facial expression tells her he’s thinking about it.
She can’t blame him, frankly. She has no idea what this, this thing is inside her, but whenever she stops to think about it, it feels wrong, it feels like sandpaper on the inside of her skin, she wants to tear herself open to get it out of her.
“Sorry I couldn’t be more help, kid,” Shirazi says, and he sounds sincere, although she doubts that regret is out of altruistic concern for her well-being.
She slams her eyes shut.
“I’m gonna go talk to Fury.”
- This chapter was originally longer, but I decided to split into two parts. The second part should be up after a day or so.
- Tbh I'm kind of...guessing at the timeline here when it comes what time it is. The battle in Stuttgart took place at night in Germany. We don't know what timezone the helicarrier is in, but I'm assuming it took a few hours for the quinjet to get back to it. And in the Avengers script, the argument in the lab right before Clint's attack takes place in the morning, and we can assume it's mid-to-late morning because the sun is up outside when we see Clint arrive outside and in the scenes immediately after the argument. So I put Leila's actions here at earlier morning, when the sun's still coming up.
- Someone pointed out that taking Loki's powers is complicated by the fact that a lot of them are due to magic, not inborn abilities. But I still wanted her to be able to replicate his illusions because I wanted her to have something that is 1. relatively unique to Loki and 2. that she knows he has, to use as a reference marker for her confusion at what comes next.
- So my going theory on that right now is that using Asgardian magic for long enough (say, a thousand years give or take) changes you fundamentally, not in any hugely noticeable way, but the magic sort of settles into your cells, causing a change in your DNA that is replicable by Leila.
Anyways!!! This is off-topic, but since it's technically Christmas (where I live, anyway), I will add: to people who celebrate Christmas, I hope it's a good one! To people who don't, I hope you have a good day anyway!
Chapter 8: Chapter Eight
Leila tries to pick a fight with a God. Again.
Hill doesn’t answer when Leila pages her to ask where Fury is. When she pages Fury directly--which she’s really not supposed to do, but she feels like the situation merits an exception--he doesn’t answer, either. Which is more annoying that she thought it’d be. So she heads to the bridge, figuring that as the most likely place to find the Director, or someone who knows where he is, and therefore the best place to start looking.
She keeps paging them along the way. Hill, Fury, Hill, Fury. Every time the page doesn’t go through it makes her more and more annoyed until she finally hits angry and then gets almost to infuriated. It’s good that she reaches the bridge when she does; she might’ve broken her pager otherwise.
When she arrives, the first thing she sees is Thor talking to Coulson, and she balls her hands into fists. “Infuriated” has been reached. For some reason, it feels natural to push some of the blame for this onto Thor’s shoulders, maybe because he’s the nearest thing to Loki she can find at that moment, but also because he has to know something about this, right? He has to. Someone has to.
She hasn’t even made it to the catwalk yet when Fury steps out of the shadows to join the conversation, and she tries to listen to what they’re saying--the more information she has, the better--but her anger is drumming in her ears and it’s all she can do not to explode right then and there.
She finally catches herself, finds herself back to earth when she’s near enough to talk to them.
“Loki is a prisoner,” Thor is saying.
“Then why,” Fury says, “do I feel like he’s the only person on this boat that wants to be here?”
“Because he is,” Leila says before she can stop herself. The three men turn in unison to look at her. All of them had to know she was there--Coulson and Fury are spies and Thor was facing in her direction--but they seem surprised all the same, maybe because of how pissed she assumes she must look.
Although her comment is in response to Fury, her eyes are locked on Thor as she approaches him.
“Your brother is hands-down the most powerful being I’ve ever come into contact with,” she says, barely managing to keep her voice low. “I have his powers inside me right now, and I still don’t know what he’s capable of, so I want to know right now--what are you hiding?”
Thor looks genuinely confused, albeit defensive. “I’ve hidden nothing. Why would I?”
“I dunno, you tell me. Tell me why your DNA doesn’t match his, for example.”
“You were there when I told you, he’s adopted--”
“From where? From where, Thor?” A feral smile creeps onto her face. “His DNA doesn’t just not match yours, it’s not Asgardian, it’s not even--” She clenches her jaw. She’s too angry to put the whole “spliced DNA or something” situation into words.
“It’s frost giant,” Thor says, sounding annoyed now. “Loki is of Jotenheim.”
“Not good enough,” she snaps. “Your brother is holding a bomb inside of him. I know, because I’m holding the same one, and I don’t know anything about it, so I’m gonna ask you again--” and here she steps up, shoving his chest to make her point--”what aren’t you telling us about him?”
She feels a hand on her shoulder, she’s not sure whose and she doesn’t care. Thor’s squaring his shoulders, trying to intimidate, ready to fight if she pushes it that far, and oh, she’s tempted--
“Whittaker,” she hears suddenly, and she gets the sense from the tone of voice that it’s been said a few times. It’s Fury’s voice, and she whirls around to face him, ready to tear into him too, for what reason she hasn’t decided--
“Let go,” he says sternly. “Let go of Loki’s powers. That’s an order.”
She doesn’t think through the logic of his instruction just then. She doesn’t realize until then that it really is her best option--there’s no understanding Loki’s abilities, at least not via her holding onto them, and it’s obviously having a detrimental effect on her. Really, she should’ve dropped them as soon as the lab results came back, but she’s so angry, she wasn’t thinking.
She doesn’t think about any of that until later. In the moment, all she thinks is Oh thank God , there’s an out, she doesn’t have to carry this...whatever is, anymore.
She closes her eyes for a moment, breathes in and out slowly--it’s hard to focus with that white-hot rage in her, and even when she does, these abilities seem to stick to her for a moment, unwilling to let her go, but unlike taking them, it doesn’t take much effort to shake them off. She opens her eyes, and there’s that split second of white light before the world comes back into focus.
Not just visually. Emotionally. Psychologically. The rage and frustration and fear that had built up since first taking the powers simmers down.
She takes a few deep breaths. She’s not sure what to say now. She feels the vague need to apologize, but it’s not really in her character.
“You seeing clearly now?” Fury asks her, giving her a stern look.
She nods. “Yeah. I--yeah.”
She glances over at Coulson and Thor. Coulson looks openly concerned. Thor looks confused--albeit still a little defensive, but mostly confused. She’s not sure which one is worse.
She nods in their direction, hoping to convey “I’m fine, also sorry I guess. Not that sorry, but like, baseline level of sorry necessary to exist as a functional member of semi-polite society. But that’s it.”
Then she turns back to Fury. “Where’s Romanoff?”
Fury has Leila make the call to Natasha herself. She thinks maybe he just wants to make sure she really is sane again, which is reasonable.
It’s normal for Natasha to answer comms almost immediately, so it’s no surprise when she does it this time.
“It’s Whittaker. I--” she clears her throat. “Fury needs you to talk to Loki. He’s hiding something. He’s…”
“Very much so. He shouldn’t have let us take him. We need you to get in his head. See what he’s planning.”
“On it. I’ll get back to you ASAP.”
She hangs up, and glances back at Fury, as if to say see? I’m fine. Fury nods in response. She is, for the moment, dismissed.
She decides to go find a vending machine. Sharing candy is, in her experience, a decent replacement for verbal apologies, casual enough to not be misconstrued as actual remorse. More of a “we good?” gesture. She’s not sure what kind of candy Asgardians have. She doubts SHIELD’s vending machines carry them.
Maybe Thor likes gummy bears. Can’t hurt to find out.
Me: Yeah I have the next chapter already done I’ll have it up in a couple days!
Me: *doesn’t update for a month and a half*
Sorry lmao. I noticed a plot hole that needed patching up before I published, and I’ve been dealing with some kinda heavy shit IRL that’s kept me from doing said patching.
I wanna be like “luckily, the next chapter is almost already done” but uh, that’s...what I said last time and...welp. Anyways I WILL try to get that one up soon, hopefully within the next week and super hopefully within the next month.
Love u guys, thanks for your patience, also thank you to everyone who reviewed, you guys are the true MVPs and I hope you guys have an amazing hair day or a really good meal or something.
Chapter 9: Chapter Nine
A lot of verbal fights are rudely interrupted by the beginning of a completely unrelated physical fight.
(In other words: everyone is a dick and then an engine explodes.)
Thor likes gummy bears.
At least, he says he does. Leila's not completely convinced. She thinks he probably just, like, tolerates them, going by his body language. But that's a good sign. He's making an effort to like candy she has offered him. It means he's accepting her white flag, apparently having picked up on the fact that it's as much as he's going to get.
Besides which, there are very few things that Leila would describe as "delightful," but watching Thor hold tiny little candies in his enormous beanstalk-giant hands is definitely one of them.
He's standing awkwardly by the wall in the bridge next to her. She's leaning against the wall, like a normal person. Which is a wild dichotomy, because...sure, Thor isn't normal by human standards, but she gets the sense that he's a good example of normal where he comes from. Your garden variety Asgardian. Aside from being royalty, but maybe that just means he's more normal, because maybe royalty is what decides what is and is normal. Like how presidents and first ladies define the fashion of their respective genders during their tenures.
Meanwhile, Leila, compared to your garden variety human…well.
"So," she says, gesturing to the room, covered with touchscreens running programs at top speed. "Do they have stuff like this on Asgard?"
"Not for generations," he says. "We outgrew your technology before I was born."
"Huh." Not the answer she expected. Given the clothing, she expected Asgard to have the same level of technological advancement as a Renaissance Fair.
"So tell me this," she says. "How did your Apple advance and your Chanel didn't? Did you take all the energy we put into textiles and apply that to tech? Or are you guys just in the middle of some kind of 800's revival?"
Thor glances at her, as if trying to parse at least a single word of what she just said, and her lips turn up in a half-smirk. Before he can answer, though, Leila hears comms click on and turns away, touching a hand to her ear to indicate the situation to Thor.
"Loki means to unleash the hulk," Natasha says without preamble. "You guys keep Banner in the lab, I'm on my way. Send Thor as well."
Leila looks up to see Fury storming over. She watches him pass wordlessly through the entryway to the hall next to them. Then looks back at Thor and jerks her head in Fury's direction before trailing after him.
Thor follows, shooting a quizzical glance in her direction, an eyebrow raised.
"Loki's planning on getting Banner to hulk out," she says by way of explanation. She assumes he's been briefed on the Hulk situation, and his nod of understanding confirms it.
"Let me be clear," Fury says without turning to face them or breaking pace at all. "Under no circumstances can we allow Banner to turn."
"Yes, sir," Leila says, and she really can't be assed to be sarcastic about it. Her mind is too busy racing. Okay, that play makes sense, she supposes. Divide and conquer. But how does Loki plan on doing it? Banner doesn't seem like an edge case; if anything, he's the most chill guy on the helicarrier. It's not like Loki can harass him from his glass cage.
Maybe that's why he was going so hard on him through the camera, she thinks. She knew they were watching; maybe that was attempt #1.
So what's attempt #2?
She shakes her head. She has to assume Nat has more information that she gave on comms.
When the three of them arrive at the lab, Fury pauses after entering, which is unusual. She's never known him to be easily surprised-
Tony and Bruce have congregated around Loki's scepter, clearly focused on it instead of the tesseract.
Right. She never did tell Fury about their detour. To be fair, she's not actually sure how the scepter comes into play with that, so she can't really feel that bad about Fury being caught off guard.
"What are you doing, Mr. Stark?" Fury demands. Yeah. Anger sounds more like him.
"Uh...kinda been wondering the same thing about you," Tony says.
"You're supposed to be locating the tesseract."
"We are," Banner pipes up. "The model's locked and we're sweeping for the signature now. When we get a hit, we'll have the location within half a mile."
"And you'll get your cube back," Tony adds. "No muss, no fuss. Hey, what's Phase 2?"
There's a clanging sound, and everyone turns to see Steve dropping an enormous assault rifle onto one of the tables, looking murderous.
"Phase 2 is, SHIELD uses the cube to make weapons."
Well. That's news to her.
"Sorry," Steve adds, obviously not sorry at all. "The computer was moving a little slow."
Fury goes on the defense. "Rogers, we gathered everything related to the tesseract. This does not mean that we're-"
"I'm sorry, Nick," Tony interrupts, turning a screen around to face them. It's covered in a bunch of weapon designs; the biggest one on the screen matches the one Steve just dropped on their metaphorical laps. "What were you lying?"
Leila snorts and ignores the annoyed look Fury shoots her.
"I was wrong, Director," Steve says. "The world hasn't changed a bit." His eyes shift from Fury to Leila, and she holds up her hands.
"I didn't know about this," she says, feeling defensive for no real reason.
"Oh, yeah. And would you have cared if you did? Since you're 'a spy not a soldier' and all."
She narrows her eyes, but Natasha walks in before she can respond. Banner turns his gaze on her.
"Did you know about this?"
Natasha dodges the question. "You wanna think about removing yourself from this environment, doctor?"
"Not a bad idea," Leila says, trying to get a grip on herself. For some reason, she can feel anger building in her again, like it did when she copied Loki's abilities-not to the same extent, but it's a similar feeling.
"Shut up, Whittaker," Banner snaps, before turning back to Natasha. "I was in Kolkata. I was pretty well removed."
"Loki's manipulating you-"
"And you've been doing what, exactly?"
"You didn't come here because I bat my eyelashes."
"Yeah, and I'm not leaving just because suddenly you get a little twitchy." He gestures to the screen, almost...dramatically. It's an interesting side to him. Or it would be, if she wasn't worried about turning into a rage monster, metaphorically. Or, more pressingly, Banner himself turning into a rage monster, literally. "I'd like to know why SHIELD is using the Tesseract to build weapons of mass destruction."
There's a beat. Frankly, Leila would like to know the answer to that too, if only out of mild curiosity. Finally:
"Because of him." Fury waves an arm in Thor's direction.
"Me?" Thor asks, at the same time Leila says "Him?" She understands Thor posing a potential threat, but not WMD-level. He's powerful in theory, sure, but in practice...after spending two minutes with him, she feels that he poses about as much of a threat to Earth as the gummy bears he held in those enormous fucking yeti hands did.
"Last year, Earth had a visitor from another planet who had a grudge match that leveled a small town. We learned that not only are we not alone, but that we are hopelessly, hilariously outgunned."
"Oh, okay," Leila says. "That's fair."
She can see Steve open his mouth to argue out of the corner of her eye, but Thor speaks before he can.
"Is it? My people want nothing but peace with your planet."
"I mean, that's pretty obviously not true at this point," she mutters.
"Adopted, I know. He might be the exception to the rule, but he's a hell of an exception."
Fury waves a hand in her direction, as if to say 'see?' "You're not the only people out there. And you're not the only threat."
"And you don't seem to care to warn us about other threats…" Leila mutters.
Fury continues, ignoring her. "The world's filling up with people that can't be matched, they can't be controlled."
"Like you controlled the cube?" Steve scoffs.
"Your work with the Tesseract is what drew Loki to it, and his allies," Thor says defensively. "It is a signal to all the realms that the earth is ready for a higher form of war."
"A higher form?" Steve mutters.
"You forced our hand. We had to come up with something."
"Nuclear deterrent," Stark says. "Cause that always calms everything down."
"That's also fair," Leila says.
"I'm sorry, Whittaker, can you stop treating this like a debate?" Steve snaps at her. "Lives are at stake here."
"Lives are always at stake, Cap. That's why he makes the big decisions and I don't."
"Oh, that's why? Or is it because you just don't care?"
She glares at him, pushing herself off the wall. "Oh, and I'm supposed to believe you do? How many people did you kill in Europe, Rogers?"
He tenses. She's hit a nerve, she can tell. "That was different. We were at war."
Leila can hear other arguments going on in the room, but she tunes them out. "And so are we, apparently."
"Yeah, now. SHIELD didn't put this together in a day."
"It was for a rainy day."
"That you didn't know would come."
"BUT IT DID! You can't call someone paranoid if they were right." God. It's not even that she's passionate about defending SHIELD's honor or anything. It's just Rogers'...smugness, his sense of self-righteousness, his absolute confidence that he's the only one who's right that's getting under her skin for some reason. She wants to see him broken.
"I thought humans were more evolved than this," Thor says. Leila glares at him.
"Feel free to keep your people off our planet then," she snaps. "Nobody invited you here."
"Did you always give your champions such distrust?"
"Are you all really that naive?" Natasha jumps in. "SHIELD monitors potential threats."
"Wait, you're on that list?" Tony gestures to Steve, sparking up a new argument between them, and suddenly there are about five different conversations going on that Leila's too angry to even try to follow.
"You speak of control, yet you court chaos," Thor says.
"Chaos would be showing up on our door no matter what," she snaps. "That's the whole point of SHIELD, to contain that chaos."
"Chaos," Banner repeats, before Thor can respond. "It's his M.O., isn't it? I mean, what are we, a-a team?"
"Nobody said we're a team," Leila snaps, but Banner doesn't seem to hear her.
"No, no, no, we're a chemical mixture that makes chaos. We're...we're a timebomb."
"You need to step away," Fury says lowly, to which Stark responds by slinging one arm around Steve and the other around Leila.
"Why shouldn't the guy let off a little steam?"
Steve shoves Tony off of him, sending him stumbling into Leila, who ducks out from under his arm, dodging the sudden weight. She balls her fists, glaring daggers at each man in turn.
"You know damn well why!" Steve snaps. "Back off!"
Tony's caught his balance now, and he steps closer to Steve. "Oh, I'm starting to want you to make me."
"Big man in a suit of armor. Take that off, what are you?"
"Genius, billionaire, playboy, philanthropist."
"I know guys with none of that worth ten of you. Yeah, I've seen the footage."
Leila rolls her eyes. "We can't all be the Howling Commandos."
"Howling commandos?" Thor asks.
"His team from 70 years ago," Leila snaps at him, for no real reason.
"Ah. Well, I can say, I've fought many a battle and I've never seen a team behave as such." He gestures to the room."
"NOBODY SAID WE WERE A TEAM!" Leila snaps, at the same time she hears Steve threaten Tony with "let's go a few rounds."
Thor glances between Leila and the bickering men behind her and then laughs.
"You people are so petty," he says, an insufferable smile on his face. "And tiny."
"Oh, we're petty? Your psychopath brother is playing intergalactic risk because he found out he was adopted. You know what humans do when they find out they're adopted?"
"NOT FUCKING THAT."
Thor glowers. "Tread carefully, my lady. These humans may call you princess, but Loki is my family, and true royalty."
Leila steps closer to him, unwilling to be intimidated. "Maybe in Asgard," she says softly. "On Earth, he's nothing but a killer. Make your peace with that now, your highness, because if it comes down to me and him again? I won't hesitate."
Thor looks ready to fight, and Leila tenses to dodge whatever blow she's sure is coming, but then-
"In case you needed to kill me, but you can't. I know, I've tried."
She and Thor lock eyes for another second and then turn to Banner in unison. It takes Leila a moment to process the words, make sure she heard what she thinks she heard. In the end, it's Banner's uncomfortable expression under the attention he's attracted that sells her on it. Uneasy and embarrassed and a little defensive, and painfully familiar to her.
"I got low," Banner says finally. "I didn't see an end, so I put a bullet in my mouth and the other guy spit it out. So I moved on. I focused on helping other people. I was good, until you dragged me back into this freakshow and put everyone here at risk!"
Banner's attention is directed at Natasha again, but he's got one hand reaching for the scepter. Leila reaches for the pistol on her hip, her mind running through possibilities. Shooting him is mostly useless, as he's just explained, but a well-aimed shot at his hand could stun him into dropping the scepter, at least. That could make him turn, though, and that's what she's there to prevent. Or was. "Under no circumstances," Nick had said, but he hadn't known Loki's scepter was there when he did.
Pick your poison, but do it fast.
"You wanna know my secret, Agent Romanoff? You wanna know how I stay calm?"
"Doctor Banner," Steve says slowly. "Put down the scepter."
Banner glances down and looks distinctly stunned to find his own hand wrapped around the scepter. He lets it go immediately, as though it's burned his hand.
A few thoughts click together in her mind suddenly. Loki's powers. The scepter. This sudden, irrational anger. Before she can start to think through that connection, though-before Banner can say anything-a computer behind him beeps loudly.
"Got it," Tony mutters before he heads over to join Banner. Leila files away the thought for future examination.
"Sorry, kids. You don't get to see my little party trick after all."
"Located the tesseract?" Thor asks, as if it's not completely obvious. Leila rolls her eyes.
"I can get there faster," Stark says, sounding like a child proposing a foot race.
"Look, all of us-"
"The tesseract belongs on Asgard," Thor interrupts Steve. "No human is a match for it."
"Oh, I'm sure," Leila snaps.
Tony turns to leave, almost to the door when Steve grabs his arm.
"You're not going alone."
"You gonna stop me?"
"Put on the suit, let's find out..."
Leila watches them as she briefly reconsiders Thor's statement about humans being petty.
"I'm not afraid to hit an old man," Tony threatens.
"Put on the suit."
Their argument is interrupted by a loud "Oh, my God!" from Banner. Before Leila can even fully turn to look at him, there's the sound of an explosion and the room pitches, throwing everyone across the room.
She's not sure if it makes her lucky or not, but Leila's the only one that gets thrown out the door. She doesn't see it happen; her feet leave the ground and then she slams into a wall and crumples and when she looks up she's out in the corridor.
She gets to her feet quickly. This has never happened on the helicarrier, but she knows the feeling from missions on quinjets that went south. Someone or something's blown out one of the engines-given the direction of the shift, probably engine three, although with how high up they are she can't be sure.
"Put on the suit," she hears from inside the lab. Steve's voice sounds less aggressive and more...professional now. Worried, but clear-headed. The voice she imagines he used while giving orders to the Commandos. She's vaguely impressed at how quickly he can shift gears, how he moves from "fight me" to "follow me" in the course of a few seconds.
"Yep," she hears Stark say, and the two of them head out of the lab, pausing when they see her.
"Whittaker, you're with them," Fury shouts to her, but it doesn't matter. She's already fallen into step beside them.
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