''Been up all night
Staring at you
Wondering what’s on your mind
I’ve been this way
With so many before
But this feels like the first time
You want the sunrise
to go back to bed
I want to make you laugh
Mess up my bed with me
Kick of the covers
If you are reading this, then you have woken up and on the road to recovery fully.
I don’t really know where to start to be honest.
For the past two months, I’ve sat and just watched you, hoping that things would turn out for the best that no other harm would come to you like it has, but im not here now for you when you woke up, im just hoping that you weren’t alone.
I know that even if you weren’t that you wouldn’t be afraid because of everything you have seen and done within the Army, but im worried that if you were that someone was there to hold your hand to make you feel safe, that someone could explain things to you if you didn’t understand.
I know that it’s been hard over the past four years, a lot has changed and most of that has been because of my choices in life, I regret that I done it when you were so far away, somewhere where I couldn’t explain myself for the reasons, but my life didn’t seem worth living when you weren’t in it. I admit that I made the mistake of letting you go.
But im just glad that you are back home again,
The day I got the phone call, the officer’s voice on the end asking if I was me, I felt like my world had ended again. I still remember that day so well, the phone call in the morning, I went around to Mia’s and just broke down, I was so scared that you wasn’t going to make it and I felt like it was all my fault that you extended.
But I didn’t think that you would still have my name and number down with your parents, I thought you hated me when the letters stop, I guess that I also stopped writing, this is the first time in years that I have actually writing a letter with a pen and piece of paper which I found here in the hospital.
The first time I walked in to your room, I just wanted to walk out again, seeing you lying there so still and pale, it wasn’t the Adam I remembered. I spent every day just praying that you would wake up, to squeeze my hand to let me know that you were okay and doing fine.
The past four weeks have been so much better for you, the doctors told me that your heart was fine and that you weren’t in danger any more and that we were just waiting for you to wake up on your own. But I think I stopped coming to visit because of that.
I was scared that you would wake up and see me there and demand that I leave you alone, I don’t think I could’ve faced you telling me to get out.
It’s taken me two weeks to write this, each day I’ve spent looking at the empty paper trying to find the words to write to you and each time nothing has come to me, but I write this to you now to tell you that I am sorry.
I still love you
I never stopped loving you Adam.
I know that things cant go back to how there were between us like they were during those first two weeks, the way you saved me from Luke, I can still remember the look on his face when he finally go the point. But I’ve grown up since then Adam, I made it through with the guitar and singing, I remembered when you told me that every one wants to escape sometimes and that’s what I done, I took my guitar and just escaped away for a few days and wrote before going back to the studio, they loved everything I had and I even have a slot in a friends show soon.
I miss you.
Just concentrate on getting better Adam... please.
Four years earlier.
’’Come on Tommy, live a little’’ Mia cried out as she pulled herself up on to the railings of the pier, laughing loudly, I peered over before up at her with a grin.
‘’You’re going to kill yourself one day Mia, and I will meet you back on shore, there’s no way in hell im jumping’’ I told her.
‘’You are such a kill joy babe, but whatever see you back there’’ She laughed out before jumping in with a few of our other friends, shaking my head slightly I turned and started to walk back along the pier with Isaac.
‘’So how are you and that guy doing?’’ Isaac asked and I glanced over at him before shrugging and pushed my hands in to the pocket of my hoody as we walked,
‘’Alright I guess, I think he likes me more than a friend but I don’t want anything other than friendship, he just hasn’t got the point yet’’ I told him with a small sigh as we turned off the pier and headed back down on to the beach again.
‘’Im sure he will understand soon’’ Isaac grinned out before playfully shoving me across the sand. Laughing brightly as we reached the group, I moved and sat back down to Isaac’s girlfriend where I had been before we left.
‘’So you both didn’t jump’’ She asked and I laughed before shaking my head slightly,
‘’No, didn’t fancy killing myself’’ I told her as she shook her head and leaned in to her boyfriends side and I sighed to myself softly before I reached over and grabbed a soda from the cooler.
‘’Well that is good because I don’t want my baby to be without a godfather’’ Sophie spoke out and I choked on my drink slightly before turning to stare at her and Isaac who was grinning at each other and at me.
‘’You’re....’’ I started to say as she laughed and nodded, ‘’Oh my god’’ I laughed out before I leaned over and hugged her tightly. ‘’I can’t believe it...it’s like...whoa’’ I laughed out again.
‘’Told you he would be happy’’ Isaac spoke and I shook my head before I turned and looked towards the water before I noticed Mia being helped back by Dave and another guy, getting to my feet quickly I ran over.
‘’Don’t you even think about saying it Tommy’’ Mia spoke out to me before I could open my mouth and I grinned slightly.
‘’What I told you so?’’ I asked before she moved her arm away from the other guy and slapped her hand across my head, ‘’But really babe’’ I spoke out with a knowing look as she rolled her eyes slightly.
‘’Well, just be thankful that Dave had the guts to jump with me and this charming guy here happened to be walking past.’’ Mia spoke out as she nodded towards the guy and I smiled at him lightly, his eyes bright in the sunlight.
‘’Don’t worry about it like I said, are you guys going to be okay now?’’ He asked and Mia looked at me before shaking her head.
‘’No way, im not trusting him, he will probably drop me or something’’ She grinned out and I pouted slightly,
‘’you suck Mia’’ I muttered out as I turned and walked back towards the others as they followed.
‘’Mia, are you okay?’’ Sophie asked as she was helped to sit down and she smiled before nodding, a glare towards Isaac who was grinning too.
‘’Dude, I will hit you too if you say it’’ she told him before he looked over at me and I nodded a little as I picked my drink back up again as Dave moved to sit in between me and Sophie, ‘’Adam, why don’t you join us?’’ Mia asked and I glanced up at the other guy again as he looked up the beach before shrugging slightly.
‘’Sure why not’’ He smiled before moving to sit down beside her, moving my eyes away as I saw Mia look over at me with an raised eyebrow I took interest in my drink again before I pushed it down in to the sand.
‘’So what’s the ring about?’’ Dave asked and I looked up at him before over at Adam who he was staring at.
‘’The Army’’ He replied and I moved my eyes down to the ring on his left hand,
‘’so your dads or granddads and what in the army?’’ Dave asked again and I looked over at him, trying to work out why he was questioning Adam all of a sudden.
‘’Actually, it’s mine and Special Forces’’ Hearing his answer I turned back and looked at him again before I picked my drink up.
‘’Oh wow, that’s cool, so are you based here somewhere then?’’ Mia asked and he shook his head.
‘’No, Im based over in Germany, on leave at the moment for two weeks’’ He told her with a small smile as she nodded and handed him a drink.
‘’Tommy’’ Someone called out and I turned to look up the beach before I groaned slightly,
‘’Just great’’ I muttered out as I pushed my can back in to the sand again, ‘’we got anything stronger to drink?’’ I asked as the others laughed slightly.
‘’Go get him Tommy’’ Isaac winked out and I flipped him off before I slowly stood up and started to walk towards Luke, pulling my sleeves over my hands slightly, I crossed them over my chest before I reached him and he smiled and stepped closer as I stepped back.
‘’Don’t I even get a hug now?’’He asked and I shook my head slightly.
‘’What do you want Luke? And how the hell did you know where I was?’’ I asked him and he grinned slightly before shrugging.
‘’Just wanted to come hang out with you guys, its been ages and your mom told me that you would be here’’ He spoke and I sighed a little before I turned and started to walk back again, knowing that it would be no use in trying to get rid of him.
‘’Seriously, do we have anything with booze in?’’ I begged as I sat down and Mia laughed slightly before reaching over and pulled out a small bottle,
‘’Whiskey is all we got at the moment until we go back to mine’’ She spoke out and I reached over and took it from her as Luke sat down beside me and I moved up a little as I undone the lid and took a few mouthfuls.
‘’So you haven’t answered any of my calls’’ I heard Luke say to me and I shrugged a little,
‘’Lost my phone’’ I muttered out as I lent forward and rested against my knees, his arm moving around me and I closed my eyes slightly before breathing out.
‘’You left it at mine’’ Mia spoke out and I turned and looked up at her quickly, pleading her to shut up as she smiled sweetly and innocently over at me.
‘’Thanks a lot Mia’’ I gritted out before I glanced over towards Sophie and Isaac for help before they shrugged their shoulders.
‘’Oh, its okay, I wasn’t ringing for anything important, just wanted to see if you wanted to go out sometime.’’ Luke spoke out beside me and I groaned a little before I turned to face him,
‘’Look, you’re a nice guy, but I only want to be friends with you as I keep saying’’ I told him,
‘’Its okay, we can give it time’’ He tried saying and I breathed out a little as the others laughed and I glared at them,
‘’It wont work out, im with someone already, I only like you as a friend’’ I told him again, his face falling slightly as he nodded before shrugging.
‘’I wont tell if you wont’’ Luke spoke out with a small grin before I felt an arm wrap around my waist,
‘’I would suggest that you hit on someone else who is single maybe and understand that Tommy only wants to be friends and nothing else’’ Adam’s voice spoke out from just behind me as I moved and leaned back in to him, a sight blush on Luke’s cheeks as he looked at him and then looked away again.
Breathing out slightly, I picked the small bottle up again and took another mouthful as Dave turned back to Sophie and started to ask her about any names that she and Isaac liked.
‘’So why haven’t I met you before?’’ Luke asked Adam and I glanced over at Mia who bit her lip slightly.
‘’I haven’t been home in a while.’’ Adam told him simply as he nodded.
‘’Why, where have you been’’ Luke asked again and I sighed a little before I felt Adam’s thumb slip under the bottom of my hoody and stroke against my skin slightly.
‘’Germany’’ I watched as Luke frowned slightly and looked Adam over again.
‘’Germany...Why would you be there when you can be here with Tommy instead’’ He asked and Adam chuckled softly.
‘’I would be here with Tommy as much as I could if I wasn’t in the army, you see when you get a tour, you cant pick and choose where you want to be’’ Adam told him, ‘’So while Tommy is here having fun with his friends, im over in different countries saving peoples lives against people who is trying to kill others and take countries over.’’ He finished and Luke stared at him slightly before nodding.
‘’Umm...Mia, shouldn’t we be getting back to yours before everyone else turns up for the barbecue?’’ I asked her before she looked up and then quickly nodded.
‘’Yeah we should actually. So are you coming Luke?’’ She asked him and I stared at her before back at im as he glanced over at us.
‘’Sure why not, im sure I will find things out’’ He smiled at her before they started to pack again.
Standing up, I turned slightly and helped Adam up to his feet before he smiled at me and turned a little to pick his own bag up as I grabbed my towel and pushed it in to my own bag.
‘’Are you going to be okay to walk Mia’’ Adam asked her and she smiled before nodding,
‘’I will be fine, if not I got Dave here to help’’ She smiled as Isaac picked the cooler up and they started to head down the beach.
Waiting until me and Adam was alone a little, everyone else in front I glanced over at him with a small blush, ‘’Thank you for saving me’’ I told him quietly and he looked over at me with a smile.
‘’It’s nothing, I know what its like to have someone hound you like he was doing, I couldn’t sit there and watch any longer’’ He admitted with a shy smile and I grinned slightly and nodded.
‘’You may have to keep the act up a little longer until he leaves’’ I told him before Adam laughed softly and moved a little closer, his hand brushing over mine lightly before I tilted my hand a little and hooked my little finger around his.
‘’I don’t mind’’ He whispered with a smile. ‘’So Tommy, tell me a bit more about you which I should already know since we are dating and all that’’ He grinned out and I glanced up slightly to see Luke turn back around quickly and I let a soft laugh out.
‘’Well im 19, I’ve been playing the guitar since I was 12 and currently trying to make a living out of it’’ I told him as he nodded, ‘’I have a sister called Lisa who’s 26, I tend to get very hugging and kissing when Im drunk, my birthday is October 18th, when it comes to horror films, I pretty much know enough to quote any movie off by heart, I sometimes find it hard to sleep due to insomnia which can be a right bitch at times and most days when we aren’t at college, you can find me at Mia’s, either stealing her tv or food unless we are cuddling and talking’’ I laughed out with a small blush, ‘’What about you?’’ I asked him with a smile as I swung our arms slightly and he laughed.
‘’Well im also 19, I dropped out of school at 17 and joined the Army with a couple of friends and we have just gotten back from a two month tour but we have a two week leave before leaving for a 12 month tour’’ He told me and I looked up at him with a soft expression, ‘’I have a younger brother called Neil, mom and dad are divorced but still talk, dad’s girlfriend seems pretty nice, I’ve only met her the once. My birthday is January 29th and I think im the complete opposite from you, I don’t really like horror films all that much.’’ He spoke out and I nodded softly before I turned back to watch were we were walking. ‘’My favorite band is an English one called Queen’’ I laughed softly and nodded,
‘’I like them’’ I told him and he smiled at me softly. ‘’I would have to say that mine was Depeche Mode’’ I told him
‘’that’s awesome’’ He smiled at me, ‘’so how did we meet?’’ He asked and I grinned slightly.
‘’Was introduced by a mutual friend before you went on tour and we just hit it off’’ I told him as he laughed and nodded.
‘’Sound’s like a good way to meet, so we’ve been dating for three months.’’ Adam spoke and I nodded and looked up again to see that we had reached Mia’s place, everyone else already gone up to the house.
‘’So before we go up, just one question I want to ask you.’’ I spoke out quietly and he nodded to show that I could go on talking, ‘’Are you actually in to guy’s or is this just all for show?’’ I asked and he smiled softly at me.
‘’Nope Im pretty sure I like guys 120%’’ He grinned to me and I nodded slightly before he leaned down and kissed my cheek softly before he moved so his lips were beside my ear. ‘’Hope you don’t mind, but the guy was watching us’’ He whispered, lips brushing against my ear slightly as I bit me lip and nodded slightly with a smile.
‘’Come on’’ I grinned out before I let my hand slide in to his fully and I turned to pull him up the small slope to Mia’s back yard.
‘’Tommy, come play for us’’ Someone yelled out and I glanced around before shaking my head,
‘’Not yet, I want a drink first’’ I called back before I laughed and pulled Adam through everyone and in to the house where I headed towards the stairs. ‘’We can leave our stuff in her room, I always do’’ I grinned out to Adam before he nodded and followed me up. Letting his hand go at last, I pushed the door open and walked across to Mia’s bed which I jumped on and put my bag on the other side before pushing it under slightly and sat up to see Adam staring at me. ‘’No one looks for it there’’ I told him before holding my hand out for his, watching as he pulled a hoody out, I took his bag and moved it with mine before I stood again.
‘’Im going to use the bathroom, so meet you back downstairs’’ Adam told me before he smiled and kissed my cheek lightly again.
‘’Third door on the right’’ I called out after him, hearing him laugh I smiled and headed back downstairs and grabbed a beer before heading back out in to the yard.
‘’Babe’’ I turned slightly as I heard Mia’s voice and walked towards her before she pulled me to the side and away from everyone. ‘’So…what is going on with you and Adam’’ She asked and I laughed slightly.
‘’He’s saving me from Luke’’ I whispered to her as she nodded before giving me a knownin look, ‘’and okay he’s cute’’ I shrugged out with a smile as I took a mouthful of my beer.
‘’What do you say?’’ She asked and I laughed slightly before kissing her cheek.
‘’Thank you for proving me wrong and bringing a cute boy near me Mia’’ I told her before I winked and headed away to where someone was sat with a guitar beside them.
‘’So what are we playing?’’ I asked as I sat down and the guitar was pushed towards me.
‘’How about one of your knew songs’’ Dave spoke out as he looked over and I laughed slightly before I looked down and started to tune the strings. Starting to play, I couldn’t help but grin to myself slightly as I thought about the walk from the beach to here with Adam, the way we seemed to click near enough straight away, shaking my thoughts away, I carried on playing as someone started to sing, adding their own words, pausing slightly I leant down and picked my beer up and took another mouthful before I glanced up and found myself looking for Adam before I saw him talking to Mia, smiling softly I looked back down again as I kept playing.
Changing to a different song, I bounced my foot slightly to the beat as I laughed with the other people playing an instrument, glancing up again, I found myself meeting Adam’s eyes and I smiled at him which he returned and raised his drink up a little, laughing to myself I shook my head slightly and looked back down as I kept playing.
‘’Alright guys, that’s it for me tonight, im going to go have some fun’’ I laughed out as I stood and placed the guitar back against the log as a few of the others tried to get me to keep playing, ‘’Not tonight’’ I grinned out as I headed back inside and grabbed another drink, walking back out, I looked around slightly before I felt an arm slide around my waist and I laughed slightly before turning, my smile fading as I saw Luke, pushing his arm away, I breathed out a little and stared at him.
‘’Why are you lying about being that guy?’’ He asked me and I laughed a little,
‘’Im not lying, why would I lie about dating someone Luke, Im happy with Adam’’ I told him before I glanced around for him,
‘’So why haven’t you kissed him then? I’ve seen you and him and you haven’t even kissed yet’’ Luke spoke out and I laughed slightly before stepping back and turned.
‘’Hey have you seen Adam?’’ I asked Dave and he looked up before shaking his head slightly,
‘’No sorry dude, maybe ask Sophie and Isaac’’ He told me and I nodded slightly before I finished off my second drink and placed the empty bottle down on a table as I moved through the group.
‘’Tommy, just the person I was looking for’’ Turning I laughed slightly as I saw Isaac,
‘’Actually I was just looking for you too I told him as he shook his head and pressed another beer in to my hand which I grinned at.
‘’Well, me first, Adam told me to tell you once you had finished playing to meet him on the beach.’’ He told me and I nodded slightly, ‘’Well actually he told Luke first just to actually see if he would tell you but then he told me to tell you and yeah im going to go find my girlfriend’’ he laughed and I shook my head before I turned and started to walk towards the end of the yard where it led down to the beach, passing Luke, I moved my eyes away before I headed down and swept my eyes across the sand before I saw a figure stood near the water slightly.
‘’Hey’’ I spoke out quietly as I got to him and I watched as Adam turned and smiled at me,
‘’Hey’’ He answered back before he turned to face me as I walked closer, his eyes glancing down at the drink in my hand before he smiled a little. ‘’you sounded fantastic by the way, and you wrote the songs?’’ He asked and I nodded slightly.
‘’Yeah, its hard to write sometimes when there’s nothing around to help’’ I shrugged out and he smiled before moving closer, his arm wrapping around my shoulders as I leaned in to his side, my own arm wrapping around his waist.
‘’You just need to escape’’ He told me and I looked up at him confused slightly.
‘’How do you mean’’ I asked and chuckled softly.
‘’Well everyone needs to escape sometimes, so just when ever you need something to inspire you to write, just take your guitar and escape somewhere just you and your music’’ he told me quietly as he ran his fingertips over the side of my neck softly and I smiled as I turned in to him more.
‘’That’s the best advice that someone has ever given to me.’’ I told him and he let a soft laugh out as he nodded and smiled at me.
‘’So how many drinks does it normally take you to get all hugging and kissing everyone?’’ He asked and I blushed slightly as I buried my face in to his hoody slightly,
‘’Not many, but I’ve also been drinking whiskey most of the day so I would say not long, so three or four beers at the most’’ I told him as he nodded slightly.
‘’And what number’s that?’’ He asked as he nodded down to the beer in my hand,
‘’Umm…third’’ I grinned out as I took a sip before I looked up at him slightly, ‘’Why wanting to know when I will be coming around to kiss the hell out of you?’’ I asked with a slight grin as he laughed softly.
‘’Actually no, but I was wondering if I could maybe kiss you before you got drunk.’’ He asked me as he moved his hand up and brushed my hair out my eyes slightly, biting my lip slightly, I moved a little closer to him as I smiled up.
‘’If you wanted to kiss me, why haven’t you already’’ I whispered up to him as he laughed softly and curled his hand around my jaw a little.
‘’Because I didn’t want you to think that I was making a move on you just to be on show in front of the other guy’’ Adam whispered lightly before he leaned down and pressed his lips against mine softly. Curling my arm around his neck gently, I pulled him closer to me as I felt him lightly trace his tongue over my lips which I parted slightly before he pulled away with a soft smile as he rested his forehead against mine. ‘’Could I take you out tomorrow night’’ he asked me and I laughed softly before I nodded.
‘’If you kiss like that, of course you can’’ I told him as he shook his head slightly and pulled me in against his body as I hugged my arms around him and rested my head against his shoulder lightly, his arms felt perfect around me and I found myself not wanting to ever let go of Adam again until I had to. ‘’So only two weeks and then you leave again’’ I whispered as he sighed, his hand running through my hair as I looked up at him, my chin on his chest as he smiled at me sadly.
‘’Afraid so, two weeks off and then a year tour over in Europe’’ He told me quietly as I nodded,
‘’Is it strange that I feel like that im going to miss you even though we have only known each other for a few hours?’’ I asked as he laughed and pressed a soft kiss to my lips again.
‘’No, I think I would miss you, I mean you are the prettiest boy I’ve seen in a long time’’ He whispered and I blushed slightly before burring my face in to his chest again. ‘’So I forgot to ask…you and Mia…your not I mean…’’ He started to ask and I laughed softly.
‘’No…god no, she’s my best friend, sister almost, we tried dating once, ended badly’’ I grinned at him as he nodded with smile.
‘’That’s good then, wouldn’t want to piss her off’’ He whispered with a grin.
‘’Hey lover boy’s get out the honeymoon faze already and get your asses back up here’’ turning to look back up the slope, we both laughed as we saw Mia stood there before she turned and walked away.
‘’Well, better do what she say’s before she does kick our asses’’ I grinned out at him before I turned and started to walk back before I felt his hand wrap around mine and pull me back.
‘’One last thing’’ He grinned before pressing his lips back against mine again, laughing slightly I kissed him back again before pulling away. Taking his hand, I started to walk back up the slope again before we walked past Luke and I smirked a little before Mia walked towards us with a smirk.
‘’Nice of you to stop kissing long enough to actually remember us up here’’ Mia grinned out and I laughed slightly before I buried myself in to Adam’s side, his arm wrapping around me tightly,
‘’Sorry, that was kinder my fault, been away from him too long I guess’’ He spoke out and I moved to look up at him with a soft smile.
‘’Well im just glad that you got to see each other’’ Mia told us with a small wink before she kissed Adam’s cheek and then mine, ‘’It’s nice to see you happy’’ She whispered in to my ear and I blushed deeply before I kissed her lightly and quickly.
‘’Thank you Mia and goodbye Mia’’ I spoke out to her as she laughed and nodded slightly, feeling Adam pull me closer again, I smiled and turned back to look at him as he pressed a light kiss to the top of my head.
‘’Let’s go get some food’’ I mumbled out as I unwrapped myself from him and took his hand in mine again as I led him towards the kitchen and away from everyone else who was still outside.
Putting my drink down on the side, I walked over to the fridge and pulled it open as I ran my eyes over everything in there and I frowned slightly, lips pushing out in to a pout before I reached in and grabbed some of the chicken she had in there before placing it on the side and went searching for some other things when I felt Adam’s arm slide around my waist.
‘’Go spend some time with your friends Tommy and let me make us some food.’’ He whispered in to my ear and I couldn’t help but smile before I turned and looked at him.
‘’Are you sure?’’ I asked as he smiled and nodded.
‘’Im sure, now go’’ He told me before kissing my cheek and pushed me towards the doors, ‘’Come back in an hour’’ He smiled towards me as I nodded and picked my beer up before wondering back out in to the yard.
‘’Where’s the boyfriend Tommy?’’ Dave called out and I laughed slightly before flipping him off and walked over to join him and Mia by the small fire, sitting down I looked across to see Luke still here and I sighed a little before I finished my beer off and picked the guitar up again and rested it on my knee as I ran my fingers over the strings.
‘’Actually, he’s kicked me out the kitchen, sorry Mia we went looking for food and yeah’’ I laughed out as she shrugged,
‘’Hell I might just steal him for myself’’ She grinned out and I laughed slightly.
‘’Sorry babe, im not giving him up’’ I grinned over at her. ‘’I’ve only got him for two weeks and im going to make the most of it.’’ I smiled out before I looked back up at to see her smiling towards me.
‘’Shoot me now, you’re as bad as Sophie and Isaac’’ Dave gagged out and I laughed slightly.
‘’Where are they anyway?’’ I asked as I glanced around.
‘’Isaac took Sophie home as she was feeling tired, so he probably wont be back’’ Mia spoke out and I nodded slightly before frowning.
‘’Well…they could’ve said goodbye’’ I chuckled out before I shook my head and started to play a random tune on the guitar.
Slowly the party died down to just the five of us before footsteps appeared and Adam sat down beside me on the bench before he held a plate out to me, putting the guitar down behind me, I took it with a smile, ‘’Thanks’’ I whispered out as I took the fork which he offered.
‘’Oh wow, that looks so good.’’ I heard Mia say before I shook my head.
‘’There’s plenty left in the fridge, I wasn’t sure so I just made enough, im used to making meals for large groups not two people’’ Adam spoke out and I laughed as I watched as Mia nodded and then quickly got up and ran towards the house.
‘’Oh my god, Tommy, im sorry but im stealing him forever’’ Mia spoke out as she came walking back with a plate of food and I grinned before I moved closer to Adams side and rested my head on his shoulder.
‘’But how can you tare me away from my love when we only have such little time together’’ I asked as I tried to fake a sad voice before breaking in to laughter.
‘’Oh Christ, you guys make me sick’’ Dave muttered out and I flipped him off before I started to eat.
‘’So Adam, your going on tour again when you got back?’’ Luke’s voice rang out and I glanced up towards him before Adam placed his empty plate behind him on the table.
‘’Yeah, not sure where bout’s we are going to be stationed this time, just know that it’s somewhere in Europe’’ He spoke out as I turned back and moved a piece of chicken around my plate.
‘’Oh that sounds like fun, nice and hot then in places’’ Luke’s voice held a hint of sarcasm in and I breathed out a little before I stood and picked the dishes up.
‘’Actually, it’s hell sometimes, wearing the full uniform, combat boots, plus your kit which includes food packets, water and first aid kits for minor injuries, then you have to be carrying your weapon at all times plus extra ammo…’’ Adam’s voice trailed off as I walked further away and in to the house again before walking over to the sink to put the plates in.
‘’Hey, are you okay?’’ I turned and looked over at Dave with a smile before I nodded,
‘’Yeah, just brought the plates in before we forgot and wanted to grab another drink’’ I told him as he looked me over and then glanced back out through the open doors and back again.
‘’You like him already don’t you’’ he asked and I stared at him before shrugging.
‘’I don’t know what you are on about’’ I told him as I walked over to the fridge and pulled out two beers again,
‘’Yes you do Tommy, you like Adam’’ He spoke again and I shook my head,
‘’Still don’t know what you are talking about Dave’’ I grinned out to him as I past him and started to walk back towards the other three.
‘’Oh come on Tommy, just admit it already’’ He laughed out and I glanced over my shoulder before breaking in to a run as I saw him turn and start running after me, laughing, I dropped the drinks down next to Mia before I ran down the slope and on to the beach where I felt Dave tackle me before pinning me down, his finger pressed in to my chest as I laughed. ‘’Admit it’’ He spoke out heavily and I shook my head.
‘’Never’’ I grinned out as I rocked slightly and pushed him off me, turning over on to my front, I pushed myself up before I glanced up to see Mia and Adam stood watching us, Luke stood just to the side before I glanced back at Dave again to see him walking towards me.
‘’I will drown you Thomas Josepha Ratliff’’ He warned out and I cringed slightly before I stepped backwards again.
‘’Really, full names now, dude come on and give me a break please?’’ I asked as he laughed and shook his head.
‘’Okay, okay I admit it okay’’ I laughed out as I held my hands up towards him as he kept walking closer.
‘’All of it Tommy’’ He told me and I glanced up before back again,
‘’Dude…come on, I just said I admitted it, leave it at that’’ I warned him as he looked up and then back again and stood closer to me.
‘’Whisper it then’’ He grinned at me and I shook my head slightly with a grin.
‘’Okay I admit, I like him, I like Adam quite a lot’’ I told him quietly before he threw his fist up in to the air in triumph, laughing slightly I pushed him over before I ran back up and hid behind Adam’s body slightly with a laugh.
‘’Mia please control your guest’s, its not nice being beaten up’’ I told her out of breath slightly before I felt Adam move and his hand rest on the back of my neck again, thumb softly rubbing in to my skin as she laughed and patted my arm softly.
‘’Well I don’t know what you four are going to do, but you are welcomed to stay but im going to go to bed cause im tired as heck’’ Mia spoke out about an hour and half later and I looked up from where I was tucked against Adam’s side.
‘’Im staying, no point in going home just to come back again tomorrow’’ I told her as she smiled and walked over, standing I hugged her tightly as she kissed my cheek and pulled away with a smile as she stared at me.
‘’Are you going to steal my bed with me or the guest room tonight’’ She asked with a knowing look and I blushed slightly before shrugging. ‘’Goodnight boys’’ she grinned out before giving a little wave and headed back in to the house as I moved and sat back down before Adam moved and placed his legs either side of me before his arms moved around my waist again.
‘’It must be scary out there’’ Luke asked Adam again and I breathed out slightly, a little tense before I felt his hands sooth over my side lightly.
‘’Not really, mainly just boring, long stretches of boring and flashes of scary sometimes’’ Adam told him as I felt his fingers slide up under my hoody before the whole of his palm rested against my stomach.
‘’So if you don’t mind me asking Adam, what made you join up?’’ Dave asked and I moved a little and tilted my head up to look at him.
‘’Yeah, you never did tell me why’’ I smiled up at him as he chuckled softly and gave me a squeeze.
‘’You never asked’’ Adam smiled at me before he looked up towards Dave again, ‘’Actually, I was in college and a brother of my best friend was killed in action, I saw how it affected everyone and when he was brought home, I went to the service to look after my friend, moral support really you could say.’’ Adam spoke out as he nodded. ‘’And all his army friends were there including his best friend, who he saved from the shoot out, sadly that’s what killed her brother. But really I guess that after spending the day talking to them and seeing how people respected them for what they were doing for our country, it just made me want to do something right with my life so I joined up.’’ He finished and Dave smiled softly as I leaned back in to Adam’s arms further.
‘’That’s pretty remarkable, I don’t think I would be able to do what you do day in and day out without missing home’’
‘’It can be tough sometimes, but the main thing which gets you through the heat and the long walks over there is the thought of what’s waiting for you at home. It helps you sleep at night knowing that you are fighting for your country to keep your love ones safe.’’ Adam told him as I felt him rest his chin on the top of my head.
Feeling a droplet, I glanced up before laughing as more rain started to fall and we got to our feet quickly before running inside the house.
‘’I’ll be back, just going to call home’’ Adam whispered in to me ear as I nodded and quickly pressed a light kiss to the corner of his mouth before I watched him walk out in to the hallway, turning back I walked over to Mia’s fireplace and put some of the wood in before lighting it and stood back up again as I stared at the flames. Turning I walked over to the couch and curled up in the corner as Dave and Luke took the armchairs.
‘’So what have you got planned for the rest of spring break Tommy?’’ Luke asked and I looked up at him before I shrugged slightly.
‘’Not sure really, I mean we still have a week and half to go yet’’ I spoke out before I yawned slightly and pulled my hoody closer to me as I moved down a little and rested my head on one of the cushions.
‘’What about you Dave’’ Luke turned and asked as I felt the cushions move and I glanced up to see Adam sitting down, smiling I moved a little and turned before laying back down again, my head in his lap as I felt his fingers lightly move through my hair slowly as his other hand rested on my side.
‘’Actually im working a few days but other than that im just going to chill out before we start school again’’ He spoke out and I turned on to my back, Adam’s fingers sliding around to brush over the side of my neck before he moved his hand around on to the front and let his thumb stroke lightly over my skin.
‘’Work really, wow tough to be you really’’ Luke muttered out as Dave laughed and nodded slightly before they started to talk about other things. I tried to listen to what Dave and Luke was talking about before I turned and faced towards the back of the couch and rested my forehead against Adam’s stomach lightly as I let myself fall in to a soft sleep.
‘’They look kinder cute together’’ A hushed voice spoke out as I felt Adam’s arms move around me tighter again and I buried myself in to his chest, my hands tangling around his top slightly as he moved and kissed the top of my head, his nose lightly butting against it as he stilled again.
‘’They are, its kinder sickening really but its nice to see him smiling again like that’’ Another voice hushed out from behind us somewhere.
‘’Fuck off’’ I muttered out to whoever it was before I buried my face in to Adam’s chest more again as a few laughs ran out.
‘’Good morning to you too Tommy’’ Breathing out slightly, I turned a little and winched in the brightness of the room before I worked a hand free and rubbed at my eyes before I blinked and looked across to see Mia and Dave sat at the breakfast bar between the living room and kitchen, Luke walking in from the hallway.
‘’Got any coffee left?’’ I asked before Mia nodded and got up. Feeing arms tighten around me again, I smiled a little as I felt lips press against my neck and I turned back slightly as blue eyes opened to stare at me.
‘’Morning’’ Adam mumbled out as I smiled softly at him and turned back to lie facing him fully.
‘’Morning to you’’ I whispered to him as I moved my arm up and curled it around his neck slightly as he smiled,
‘’Do you always look this gorgeous in the mornings?’’ Adam asked, blushing slightly I laughed before I felt his lips against mine softly. Kissing him back just as soft, I breathed out and smiled slightly before I pulled away and rested my forehead against his.
‘’Coffee darling’s, please don’t fuck on my couch’’ Mia’s voice called out loudly and I found myself blushing deeply as I buried myself back in to his neck again.
‘’So I will come round about 6 to pick you up’’ Adam told me quietly and I smiled at him, my hands against his chest softly before I trailed them down to his stomach,
‘’Yeah’’ I whispered softly before I felt his hands move up around my neck, thumbs pressing lightly against my jaw as he leaned down and pressed his lips against mine.
‘’I’ll see you soon then’’ He whispered as he finally pulled away and I nodded softly,
‘’See you soon then.’’ I whispered back, the taste of him still on my lips and tongue as he stepped away, wrapping my arms around myself slightly, I leaned against the door frame and watched him as he walked away.
‘’So he seems like an alright kinder guy’’ I turned and looked towards Luke and I sighed slightly as I pushed the door closed and walked back out to the backyard where Mia was,
‘’He is’’ I told him with a slight smile before I pushed myself down in to the seat and curled up against Mia’s side.
‘’You know, last night, he was just laid watching you for ages’’ Luke told me and I looked up at him slightly, ‘’It was like he was trying to figure out what you were dreaming about or something, but the look on his face was nothing but adoration towards you’’ He finished up and I blushed a little.
‘’I think I would’ve done the same to him’’ I admitted with a small shrug as Mia laughed softly and wrapped her arms around me.
‘’And that children is what we call romance’’ She grinned out and I shook my head slightly as I looked up at her with a soft smile.
‘’How’s your ankle today any way?’’ I asked with a slight grin.
‘’Oh you know…nothing you can’t thank me for’’ She winked out and I laughed brightly as I leant up and kissed her cheek.
‘’Whatever you say babe’’ I grinned at her.
‘’Okay, that just didn’t make sense’’ Luke spoke out and we both turned to look at him before laughing,
‘’Don’t worry about it, im sure you wouldn’t understand it anyway’’ Mia told him, her voice the tone she normally used to tell someone to butt out of her business when it didn’t concern them in the slightest. Hugging in to Mia’s side, again I breathed out deeply, I just wanted today to go by quickly again so I could see Adam again.
He stirred something inside of me, and I liked the way I felt when I was around him