It was a beautiful, sunny day outside; yet Mikey Way was indoors playing Modern Warfare 3 with his brother. And he was winning.
“Damn you! DIE! DIE!” Gerard yelled, frustrated.
“LOL! You suck bro!” Mikey pushed one button and his side won.
“Wha…?! Damn it!” Gerard chucked the controller at the wall but failed.
Mikey was laughing his ass off.
“Rematch!” Gerard yelled angrily. Mikey shook his head. That added fuel to the fire.
Gerard was WAY too competitive with video games. He tackled Mikey and they started play fighting. Mikey wasn’t as strong as his older brother so he lost pretty quickly. Gerard grabbed his wrists and pressed his weight onto him. Their faces were inches away from each other and Mikey found himself blushing. Before anything happened, the phone rang making Gerard stand up. Mikey breathed out, suddenly relaxed.
‘There was a look in Gerard’s eyes…a longing. He wasn’t going…no’ Mikey sat there thinking.
He was engrossed in thinking so much that he didn’t hear Gerard behind him.
“SHIT! Dude, don’t do that” Mikey jumped up like half a foot.
“Sorry. Anyway, Pete called. He said that he wanted to discuss something with us”
“Oh… okay” Mikey stood up and they left, taking Gerard’s car.
“Sup Gerard and Mikey” Pete greeted them at the door.
“Hey Pete” Gerard and Mikey said at the exact same time.
“Ha! Jinx! You owe me a soda little bro” Gerard ruffled Mikey’s hair.
“What did you want to talk about Pete?” Gerard asked when they sat at a table.
“Well…um, it’s…um” Pete stuttered.
“Spit it out Pete. You can trust us” Gerard grabbed Pete’s hand comfortingly.
Mikey burned with envy slightly.
“I’m…gay” Pete finally said it.
It was silent for a few moments, letting the Way brothers soak it in.
“…Is that it? Pete, you realize that we’ll still be friends with you through anything right? Don’t worry” Mikey smiled and patted Pete’s other hand.
Pete’s tense frame relaxed and they ordered food. The conversation was light and calm; no tempers flared or arguments occurred.
‘I’m just going to the bathroom guys” Mikey stood up and left the table. But one thing he noticed before he left was that Pete looked at Gerard weirdly. A way that wasn’t right… for a guy. He walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror.
“No… you can’t love your own brother like that… you can’t…” Mikey muttered at his reflection, trying to convince himself. He sighed and did his business. Walking out of the bathroom, he caught a sight that made tears come to his eyes. His brain scrambled his own thoughts. Pete. Gerard. Making out. Heart. Shattered. Mikey ran out of the restaurant, sobs building in his chest. He doubted that the two backstabbers would notice. Sadly, he was right.
“Mikey? Are you home?” Gerard opened the door. The lights flickered on at a twist of his wrist. Little did Gerard know that Mikey was only upstairs, under his dinosaur bed covers. He was still heartbroken.
“Mikey?” Gerard had walked upstairs and was now opening Mikey’s bedroom door.
“Go away” Mikey’s voice was muffled by the bed spread.
“Are you okay? You left without me”
“I… I didn’t feel well. Food poisoning” Mikey made up a lame excuse.
“Oh… okay. Feel better soon mini bro” Gerard patted the lump that was supposedly Mikey on the bed. When he closed the door, Mikey sat up.
“God damn it, I’m in love with my own brother!” he muttered to himself. He flipped onto his back, heels of his hands digging into his eye sockets. Moments later, he was asleep.
When Mikey awoke, he heard 2 voices. He recognized both. 1. Gerard 2. Pete.
‘Oh god, they better not do anything kinky when I’m around’ he thought, climbing out of bed and changing. He walked downstairs, feet clomping to warn the others of his presence.
“Oh! Good morning Mikey! Do you feel better?” Gerard poured a cup of coffee for him.
“Yeah. Just got to be aware of what I eat” Mikey fake chuckled.
“Hello Mikey” Pete appeared from the living room.
“Pete,” Mikey nodded a greeting, “what’s the occasion?”
“Ummm… just visiting” Pete smiled. Mikey could tell it was fake. He also noticed the look Gerard and Pete shared.
“I’m just going to go watch the news” Mikey grabbed his mug and started walking away.
“Can you close the door on your way out? Thanks” Gerard told Mikey as he walked out. Mikey sat on the couch and instead of turning on the television, listened to his brother’s conversation with his boyfriend.
“When are you going to tell him?”
“I don’t know. Soon probably”
“Well, why not now?”
“He might… take it badly”
“You know that’s bullshit, love. Just tell him”
“Fine. Is it okay if you go home? I need it to be just him and me”
“Sure. Anything for you babe”
Mikey turned on the television and seconds later, Pete walked out of the kitchen.
“Bye Way brothers!” he yelled to the both of them.
“Cya!” Mikey and Gerard called back. Gerard then proceeded into the living room.
“Look Mikey, I’ve got something to tell you”
“WHAT?! NO!!!” Gerard shouted, fully shocked.
“Then what?!” Mikey turned off the television and looked into his brother’s brown eyes.
“Gay, I know” Mikey decided to get it off his chest.
“WAIT!!! WHAT?!” Gerard looked so shocked that it looked like he had a heart attack.
“I saw you and Pete making out last night” Mikey looked away, blushing.
“Oh, right” Gerard had calmed down.
“Yeah and I’m cool with it so relax, okay?” Mikey smiled slightly, since he wanted Gerard to be gay… with him, not Pete though.
“Really? Thanks bro! You’re the best!” The pair man hugged and Gerard went to call Pete. Mikey, who sat on the couch clutching his cold coffee, had shed a tear into the cup. The surface rippled and he saw Gerard and him lying in bed, asleep in each other’s arms. The tears wouldn’t shut off now.
It’s been 2 months since Pete and Gerard got together. They’ve managed to avoid the paps from knowing about their gayness. Mikey always smiled and supported his brother but on the inside he was dying. Dying from longing; dying from the pain of not knowing and dying…from love. Love that is practically forbidden. Some days, he didn’t want to get out of bed but he knew he had to do it for Gerard’s sake.
This particular morning, Mikey felt really crappy. He rested his head on the counter, half asleep. He had realized that Gerard had not come home but he didn’t care about the crazy antics he did with Pete fucking Wentz. He decided to yell at Gerard about how shitty he felt because of him. And it just so happens, Gerard walked in wearing the clothes from yesterday. Perfect.
“Gerard Arthur Way… you are a self absorbed ASSHOLE!” Mikey stood up and got in his brother’s face.
“What did you say Mikey?” Gerard seemed more shocked than pissed.
“You don’t care what about what others think or feel! You just do whatever the fuck you want!” Tears filled Mikey’s eyes.
“No! It is! Stop deluding yourself! The world doesn’t revolve around you, you know that? You have to notice others and their feelings and…” Mikey started sobbing.
“What brought this on?” Gerard actually looked hurt.
“It’s because I…” Mikey ran away before he could finish. His chest felt compressed.
“MIKEY!!” Gerard’s anguished cry filled the house as Mikey ran outside and found the secret hiding spot. Gerard and him had built a tree house a couple years back and it doubled as a hiding spot. He climbed the ladder and sat down in the corner furthers from it. Gerard wasn’t stupid; he would find his brother eventually. Less than 2 minutes later, it started raining. The roof leaked, making Mikey wet in moments.
“Why do I love my brother like this?! WHY?!” Mikey yelled at the sky.
“Maybe because he’s good looking, talented, smart... the list goes on and on honey” Gerard’s head popped up in the doorway.
“What do you want?” Mikey mumbled, looking down.
“To comfort my brother and to tell him a secret” Gerard got into the tree house and cosied up next to Mikey. They were both soaking wet and cold.
“Well? What’s the secret?” Mikey was curious.
“I… I never liked Pete as a boyfriend. I’ve treated him like a BFF even when we were dating”
“I broke up with him this morning. Too clingy”
Mikey sighed in relief but Gerard wasn’t done.
“Also, I like someone else” Gerard gulped. Mikey felt pain in his chest.
“Who?” Mikey managed to choke out.
“Someone I shouldn’t love; it’s wrong yet right and I’ve known them forever. I can’t refuse them either,” Gerard looked sad, “and…and he’ll probably never like me back. That’s the sad thing” Tears started coming down Gerard’s face.
Mikey couldn’t help it. He hugged his brother… and not manly. They stayed like that for a while since Gerard clinged onto Mikey like a life preserver. But then, Gerard pulled back, startling Mikey.
“You haven’t realized, have you? The guy I like… is you” Gerard whispered lovingly. Mikey felt the tears come back and he did the unthinkable. He kissed Gerard. Yep, his own brother. The funny thing was, Gerard like it a lot. The brothers pulled apart and decided to head inside.
“You seem tired honey. Sleep” Gerard pulled Mikey towards his room. Mikey pulled off his wet clothes, sliding under the covers in only his boxers. Gerard kissed his forehead and was about to leave but he heard a whisper.
Gerard chuckled under his breath and removed his clothes, sliding next to Mikey. They snuggled into each other and drifted to sleep. Mikey’s last thought before he slept was: ‘The image is now complete. Finally’