I can feel the sunlight beating down on my face signaling I need to get up but, I don't want to. Ryan kept me up until 12 last night. You would think after 3 monthes he would sleep through the night. Ryan is Carter's and I baby boy. I found out I was pregant 2 weeks after we were married. We were thrilled. When I was about 6 monthes along Lucas Taylor, 1of the leader of the Sixers and Commander Taylor's son attacked Terra Nova and killed Carter, at least thats what they told me.They never found his body, just his blood. I thought he killed him because of me since my brother Chris and I escaped the Sixers about 18 monthes ago. And because Carter used to be a Sixer until they kicked him out, but he came to Terra Nova and Taylor allowed him to stay. I've gotton over Carter's death because my new responsibility was Ryan, our 3 month year old son. He looked so much like Carter. I still got up though.
I put on my new work outfit which was black military pants, black t-shirt, black combat boots, and a gun that I holistered to my right hip. Not even a day after I had Ryan Commander Taylor offered me a job working for him. The job was that I was 2nd in command of Terra Nova. Which ment if Taylor died I would take over Terra Nova. I then pulled my hair into a high pony tail and walked to Ryan's bedroom. Thank god he was sleeping. I gave him a quick kiss on his tiny forhead before heading to the kitchen. I knew Maddy Shannon would be over later to babysit him until I got home. I was now 21 and Chris was 17 but he still acted like he was 13. I grabed an apple and some water before sitting at our breakfeast bar. Chris emergerd from his room about 10 minutes later. He barely even looked at me.
"Is it ok if Brooke comes over after you leave?" he asks. I glare at him. He already knows I'm going to say no. "Chris, no. I wish you would stop asking me that question everyday. Rules are rules." I say. I became strict with Chris when I caught him doing things he shouldn't have been doing with Brooke. He sighed. "Your rules are stupid." he complained. "You should have thought about that before you had sex under my roof."I tell him. Chris and I's relationship has gone down hill ever since Carter died and I had Ryan. I sighed and got up and threw away my trash. "Chris, I'm going to work. Maddy should be here at about 9 ok? So stay here until she gets here, please?" I ask him. "Yeah, whatever." I hear him say before shutting his bedroom door. I sigh and walk outside. Its about 7:45am, people are now just getting up. I wave at Dr. Malcolm Wallace, my best friend ever since I got to Terra Nova. He's helped me a lot with Carter's death and with Ryan.
I climb up the stairs to Commander Taylor's office. Standing guard is Tim Curran a guy that came on the 2nd with me. I vaguely remember him though. He stands about 6ft and has Brown hair, tan skin, and gray eyes. He's pretty nice. I give him a slight smile and he allows me in. "Morning Taylor." I say. Commander Taylor looks up at me from his desk and nods. "Morning." he replies. He looks me over once before going back to his desk work. "So, what are we doing today?" I ask. "Nothing really. Border patrol is already out. I was thinking you could just walk around and check things out." Taylor explains. "Ok." I reply. Commander gets up and leans agasint the table. "Whats wrong?" he asks me. Taylor has been like a dad to me since I got to Terra Nova. "Whats not wrong?" I say. Taylor looks at me with his blue eyes and sighs. "Chris and I are aruging all the time. He acts like he hates me and never helps me with Ryan. And Ryan.... I can't take care of him. He's just so much work for one person." I explain.
Taylor hangs onto my every word. He stays silent. "I just really want Carter here." I say. I can feel the tears coming down my face. I quickly wipe them away before Taylor comes over and wraps me in a hug. He lets go and looks at me. "You know, you can always give Ryan up for adoption. There are plenty of couples here who want a baby but can't have one." he explains. I shake my head. "I can't give him up. He's Carter's flesh and blood." I say. Taylor nods. "I'm always here to help. Let me talk to Chris, ok?" he asks. I nod slowly before leaving. As I exit Taylor's office I hear Tim say my name. I turn to face him. "I wasn't eavesdrooping but I happen to overhear your converstation about Chris. I could wip him into shape. Maybe I could put him through a bootcamp?" he asks me. I smile at him. "I would like that. He should be at my Unit now if you want to talk to him." I say. He nods and I turn to walk to the market.
As I walk into the market and I hear 7 year old Zoe Shannon yell my name out. She runs up to me with a big smile. "Hi Zoe." I say squating to her height. Her dad is behind her. "Hi, I made something for Ryan." she says. I smile. "Really! Can I see what it is?" I asked. She nods and hands me one of her play dinosaurs she makes. "Oh thank you! Ryan will love this."I say putting it in one of my side pockets. She smiles and runs off. Jim walks up to me. "She's cute." I say to him. Jim smiles. "Yep. So what is Tayloring making you do?" he asks. "Just walk around. I think he's giving me a break. But I know tomorrow I have to train some of the new cadets." I explain. He nods. "Well, I'll see you around." he says. "Bye." I reply. I check out some of the stands while waving at some people and talking to some of the little kids that come up to me.