The irony doesn't escape Claudia; she's spent the past three years telling Lisa that one day she'll fall in love again. But now that she's lost Roy, she has no desire to find anyone else.
She knows that her friends are worried about her, so she keeps up a brave face. Only when she's alone does she allow herself to break down.
She refuses to drink more than a glass of wine; she won't let it become a problem. But sometimes, when it's warming her veins, she's able to imagine that it's Roy's hands on her, instead of her own.