Wow. I can't believe what had happened in the Buffy episode Help in Season 7. My character, seer Cassandra "Cassie" Newton, died of a heart attack. But then again, I think... no, believe... that I portrayed her with such awesomeness, and such insight as well. I hope I did her proud. I secretly knew that she had precognition powers, and could see flashes of what would happen for her and others in the future. It's just... sometimes I wish that I had that kind of power, so I could warn my castmates on Buffy of either good or bad times that lay ahead. But I know I can't do that because I'm not precognitive at all.
Wow. As I sit and look at the final scene of Help, I also wonder "What can one do when one can't help?" It's a question that makes me wonder, even now. For now, I too feel like crying as I look at Sarah's tear-stained face, and wish that a different character had died of a heart attack and that Cassie was still alive so she could give Buffy a comforting hug and tell her that everything was going to be OK. Better yet, sometimes I wish that there was a scene where Buffy makes a confession to Cassie that, when Buffy herself was sixteen, there was a prophecy foretelling Buffy's death. Cassie would be listening intently, and asking her questions such as "What did it feel like? You know, when you had heard those words of you facing this Master vampire and that you would die?" And Buffy, I think, would tell her the answers after thinking over them for a bit.
Well, it's time for me to go. But I'll write in you some more when I get the chance, Diary. And I hope there are some good fanfics out there with my character in them as well, knowing the popularity of fanfiction and the Internet these days.