It was gradual; it must have been for I cannot pinpoint a moment or a word where the realization struck me with especial force. He can be so sincere, he is so fierce and so proud and it confuses me that I feel the same love for him that I did at the beginning.
There is another side to him, a jealous, grasping side and I wonder that he ever thought to bring me into their lives. Did he think I would not feel anything? For him? For my beloved Louis? I am no doll
I do not trust him.