“Jay! Could you come here for a sec?”, Jared heard Jensen call from upstairs and immediately went to see what was up.
He found Jensen in his room sitting behind his computer. As he heard Jared, he turned. “You have to hear this!”
Jared leaned over Jensen’s shoulder and saw he was looking at a youtube-video. It was a song called “Jensen and Jared are in love”. As Jensen klicked on play, Jared’s stomach turned. Nevertheless, he had to smile. The song was kind of… sweet. If you knew none of it was ever going to happen. And Jared knew that. And of course, he wasn’t wishing it was different. At least, that was what he told himself.
The video came to the “candle in the wind” – part and Jared smiled and hugged Jensen from behind. “I love your singing voice!”
“Thanks!” Jensen leaned in on him and by that time, Jared remembered what being so near did to his heart, and so he got up again.
“Wait, the best part is yet to come!”, Jensen told him und Jared had to grin involuntarily. The singer said something about Chad marrying an underage girl. “That is kind of mean!”
Jensen turned and Jared saw he grinned himself. “Yep. But funny. And probably true.”
Jared just smiled and shook his head. At least, it was truer than that song ever would be. The thought made Jared’s stomach do funny things again so he tried to think of something else.
Later that day, Jared was in the kitchen trying to cook when he heard Jensen singing absent-mindedly in the living room.
“Jen, what are you doing?”, he called and in the answer he kind of heard Jensen smiled. “Sorry, seems like the song is stuck in my head!”
Oh great. “Could you stop?”
“Why?” Jensen leaned in the doorway now. “I thought you liked my singing?”
“I do. It’s more… the song…”, Jared told him slowly and Jensen grinned. “What, are you afraid it might be true?”
Jared sighed. “No, more like wishing”, he said in a low voice and immediately stopped dead. God, head he just said that aloud? He hoped Jensen either hadn’t heard it or would take it for one of his jokes.
“Jared? Did you just say that?” Great. Way too serious for a joke. So much for the hope. Jared closed his eyes and refused to turn around.
He saw everything he had lost in front of his closed eyes. Jensen would never touch him again and of course, he would move out. He would never ever fool around with him like they used to to entertain the fans. Jared could feel lucky if Jensen would talk to him on set.
Because Jared still hadn’t said anything and wasn’t willing to turn around, Jensen went to him and carefully started caressing his cheek. Jared squeezed his eyes shut even more and Jensen sighed. “Jared? Are you? Are you wishing it was true?” His voice was soft and warm and Jared couldn’t hear the slightest hint of anger or disgust in it. But he didn’t want to get his hopes up.
He kept his eyes closed and breathed “Yes”. All was lost anyways.
Jensen smiled, and because Jared still refused to look at him, he took his chance and placed his lips on Jared’s.
Now, that made him open his eyes. He stared at Jensen in disbelief and absolutely missed his opportunity to enjoy this.
Jensen pulled back, still smiling. “You see, I am, too.”
“You are?” Jared could not believe it. He wasn’t alone with this?
Jensen’s smile got a little brighter and he stepped just a little forward and that was enough for Jared to answer with his own breathtaking smile, before pulling Jensen in for their real first kiss.
And for the first time, he was absolutely blissed that sometimes, a song just sticks in your head.