Chapter 1: Dynasty
Thought we built a dynasty that heaven couldn't shake
Thought we built a dynasty like nothing ever made
Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break up
__ Dynasty | MIIA __
Dumbledore asked in a voice laced with false caring, “Harry, you and Voldemort, what exactly had happened between you two?”
The raven haired boy in front of him took a deep breath before looking straight into his supervisor’s eyes, “I slept with him.”
For a long moment, Dumbledore just scrutinized the other boy in silence, finally the old man gravely said, “Abort the mission, Harry. You are compromised.”
“Bullshit,” Harry cursed before his brain had time to catch up with his mouth. Living among a bunch of criminals for so long hadn’t provided any help for his self-restraint, instead his bad impulses learnt a numerous amount of bad words. “You guys gave me permission to fake indentities, sell highly sensitive information, torture, kill, and even destroy evidence and cover it up as long as I could keep my cover. But when I slept with the Dark Lord, suddenly I’m compromised?”
"Harry," Dumbledore heaved a long sigh. “Never allow your feelings to interfere in your mission. This is the first and most crucial rule for a spy.” The old man stopped for a bit, “This is all my fault, I shouldn’t have used you in the first place. You’re too trusting, and with all the things Voldemort had done for you, I knew sooner or later, this would happen.”
“The only way out is death,” Harry tried to reason with the man.
“We will arrange everything for you,” Dumbledore gave a soothing smile.
“He won’t believe I’m dead without a body,” Harry still hoped he could prolong the inevitable end, even if it was only for a little while. He didn’t realize he had sunked that deep.
Dumbledore still appeared as calm as ever, “You will get caught, and be killed in prison, by Grindelwald’s men. Your body will get disfigured beyond recognition.”
“You…” Harry choked, immediately realized the police’s real intention, “You want to bait the two biggest gangs of England into a full on war?”
Dumbledore smile softly, blue eyes twinkling, “Only a hypothesis unless you’re saying Tom really would initiate a war in revenge for your death.”
“I can’t do that,” Harry shook his head, “I can’t make him to see my body. I promised,” His voice nearly turned into begging.
Dumbledore furrowed his brows, “Either you accept our terms, or risk blowning your cover. You think we want to force you?” The old man’s gentle voice filled with sympathy, Harry really wanted to punch him. “But have you ever thought of the consequences if He find out who you really are, a spy for the police? Do you really think He would still be as loving and cherishing you as he’d been now? His Death Eaters would still be kind and respectful toward you? You know Tom despises traitors most, Harry.”
Harry didn’t answer, his eyes burnt with unshed tears.
“Even if you don’t worry for yourself, think about your godfather. Have you thought of what Tom would do to your dear Sirius?” Dumbledore casually reminded him.
Threats. This was blantantly threatening! Harry felt he was suffocating under too much despairs.
If only… If only he could go back and undo everything, Harry truly wished he had walked into the Gaunts without any hidden purpose.
If only he could, he would refuse to make that deal with the police, packed up his belongings and run as far away as he could the moment Dumbledore knew of his existence.
If only he could, he would…
If only, but if only didn’t exist in life.
Feelings grown from lying seeds were fated to die prematurely.
He and Tom couldn’t have a fairytale ending, because Tom lived in the real world, and Harry was born in a tragical fantasy. He was always unable to keep anything that he held dear.
Resigned, Harry nodded, hearing the sound of hope shattered, and his quivering heart cried out.
Harry had walked into Tom’s life with his breathtaking beauty, so young and innocent, and had stolen the heart of the most dangerous man in England with his brilliant mind and bravery soul.
His little lover had walked out of his life in handcuffs and with a tainted record. Multiple crime accusations guaranteed Harry a life sentence in a maximum security prison. The Dark Lord was beyond furious.
No matter how many bribes or threats the Dark side attempted; even with the most renowned and competent lawyer in the country, Lucius Malfoy, on this case, they still couldn’t strike against the Order’s determination in bringing down Voldemort’s most precious asset, his right-hand man, his lover.
It was a (figuratively) bloody battle in court. Drawn-out and exhausting.
In the end, there could only be one winner.
And it wasn’t Voldemort.
Harry kissed Tom goodbye like it was their last kiss, desperate and filled with love. It was.
“I will get you out. I promise.” Tom whispered in his ears, frustrated and angry. He didn’t want to let go. He had to.
“I believe you,” Harry breathed, with tearful eyes but still smiling, so sweet and oh so trusting. He actually didn’t.
In only one week, the so-called Light side triumphal sent Harry Evans-Black’s death notification back to the Dark Lord.
And all hell broke loose.
Harry Potter didn’t have a loving childhood. Growing up being bullied and isolated by his own blood relatives, the very people who should have cared for him, Harry learnt how to cook, to garden, to clean the house, and so many other household chores from the time he was five. The boy also had a very intimate relationship with starvation, broken bones, and malnourishment.
At the very tender age of eight, Harry had already started losing hope of ever being rescued from the hellhole he was living in. That was when Sirius Black came, crashing down the front door in all his glorious fury. The silver-grey eyed man was Harry’s first and only savior; even when the man murdered the Dursleys in cold blood with his bare hands, Harry still didn’t feel scared when Sirius held him tight in his chest with bloody arms and tainted shirt. He only felt warm and protected.
Many people would say what Sirius had done was cruel and insane, dragging an innocent boy into the world of criminals and outlaws. But Harry would strongly disagree. He was not innocent, hadn't been for a very long time, he was forced to grow up so fast and painfully. What Sirius had carelessly done right in front of his eyes didn’t fuck up Harry. No, he had been screwed up long before that.
Sirius Black was Harry Potter’s godfather, his father’s best friend and cousin. The undeniably insane and brutal man had held Harry so tenderly and protected the boy like a rabid dog.
Sirius often jokingly called himself his fairy godmother, coming straight out from a fairytale book, to rescue Harry and bring him to the prince.
Harry silently called the man his avenging angel. Sirius was the one who taught Harry all of his fighting skills, helped him learn how to survive in the underworld. Life with Sirius wasn’t filled with sunshine and rainbows, it was crimson red and constant running and hiding from the cops.
But it was far better than the Dursleys. It was perfect, even. Sirius was Harry’s anchor to sanity as much as he was to the man’s.
Sirius Black had been Harry Potter's home.
Harry stood behind the one-way mirror, silently watching as the Dark Lord, the most feared criminal in England, slowly crumbled down in front of his eyes. He could see the tiny cracks in Voldemort’s impassive mask when he silently listened to the debriefing on Harry Evans-Black’s fatal accident from a smirking cop.
At the end of the mocking tone detailing Harry’s current body state, Lucius couldn’t help laying a hand on Voldemort’s shoulder, to offer comfort or to remind his Lord, Harry didn’t know.
The glass before his eyes suddenly turned foggy, startled the green eyed man. Harry didn’t realized he had been unconsciously leaning against the mirror, when the intense silence from Tom got too unbearable. His heart yearned to break through this bulletproof crystal separating him and Tom; his soul cried to be united with its other half.
But he couldn’t. He couldn’t. There was no way back for him now.
It turned out Lucius’ worries had been in vain, when his Lord just calmly asked to see Harry’s body. At that point, Harry turned his head and walked away, clenching his fists so hard blood started dripping down between his fingers. He didn’t want to see Tom’s face when the man saw his gift on the dead body.
The Slytherin locket, Tom’s first present to Harry. The locket that Harry had sworn to never take off. Harry desperately wished he could have hidden it from Dumbledore’s plotting and machinations. It was the only thing Tom’s mother had left for him, damn it.
Too late anyway. His locket was now being used against its past owner, to prove Harry’s undeniable death.
At least he was able to keep it intact from Dumbledore’s plan. He had unashamedly guilt-tripped that old man into making up some bullshit excuses to have the locket undamaged, despite his body being maimed beyond recognization.
The locket was back to where it belonged, and Harry should get as far away from all this as possible.
Harry had killed the foolish fairytale dreamer kid inside him years ago, yet only now did he truly feel that child’s death. With the boy’s last breath, Harry also let go of his tragic love and the name Evans-Black.
Potter was dead.
Evans-Black was gone.
There was only Harry left, with broken dreams and a bleeding heart.
The title of this chapter was taken from a song with the same name by Raign, and it's great to listen to it while reading :'<
Harry Potter’s home had been Sirius Black, and that home was torn down on the day of his godfather’s arrest. Several accusations of murders and a kidnapping of an underage child shouldn’t have been enough for a death penalty, if they had had enough money or a decent lawyer. They didn’t have any.
When the judge gave a final verdict, death penalty as predicted, Harry felt like dying. Then the boy started plotting to break into Sirius’ holding cell and set the man free — willing to sacrifice his life in the process just for one more chance of having Sirius back in his life.
Regulus Black happened to intervene in Harry’s dangerous plan just in time. The man was Sirius’ younger brother, the only person Sirius trusted enough to protect his godson, from the boy’s stupid plan to rescue him, really, Sirius understood Harry too well — and also from the cruel fate of being tossed around in the foster care system.
Harry was legally adopted into the Black family through many illegal means, as the disowned eldest heir’s bastard son, with a new last name, Evans-Black.
Each day passed and Harry grew more despairing the nearer the date of Sirius’ execution. That was when an old man with twinkling blue eyes came and offered Harry a deal he couldn’t turn down.
A reduced punishment, life sentence in Azkaban for Sirius, and Harry would have to work as an undercover agent of the police for the price.
Many would describe Albus Dumbledore as a kind-hearted and merciful man, for saving his fallen old student from a death penalty. The old man explained it was because he couldn’t bring himself to see his beloved late protégé’s best friend facing death for saving his son. How… lovely of him.
Harry could see right through the grandfather’s façade of that old man in an instant; he wasn’t naïve or stupid like Dumbledore’s ignorant lambs.
Harry dearly wished he could tell the whole world how their respectable beacon wanted to use a merely fifteen-years-old boy as his secret weapon. Harry wanted to scream how that same man had neglectfully left his late protégé’s only son in an abusive home, never thought of checking on him even once. And Harry also knew now with certainty why Regulus’ relentlessly attempts to plead for a lesser punishment for Sirius had been fallen on deaf ears. It was all because of this fucking manipulative old coot. Hell, even the death penalty could have been a part of his own scheming, just so he could have enough leverage to trap Harry in his webs.
And Harry didn’t believe for one second that a life sentence in Azkaban was merciful; even death would be much more preferable than spending the rest of your life in that hellhole.
But Sirius would live, and Harry could see him again, even if he couldn’t have his godfather’s arms holding him close once more.
Harry Potter was a selfish boy; he didn’t have many, Sirius was his whole world. Of course Harry Evans-Black wouldn’t be any different. They couldn’t let Padfoot go, no matter what.
So with the knowledge that he was jumping right into Dumbledore’s clutches, Harry pulled up his best innocent mask and pretended to tentatively ask some naïve questions, just to appear stupid and vulnerable enough. Then the boy eagerly accepted working for Dumbledore with hopeful eyes and a grateful smile, as though he truly believed he owned that old coot for saving his Sirius.
Hell, Sirius would throw a fit if he knew Harry was playing tricks with this man, not that the boy intended to tell him.
Better not, never preferably.
The title of this chapter was taken from a song with the same name by Hidden Citizens, oh my I love it so ỌAỌ
Chapter 4: Devil's Playground
The title of this chapter was taken from a song with the same name by The Rigs :3
Harry Potter was a stubborn dreamer, that boy who was almost killed at eight years old. Sirius Black had been able to heal the boy, although he wasn't wholy sane anymore, he was still alive. But Harry Potter could only live in the strong and unyielding arms of his Padfoot, protected him from all harms and cruel reality.
Sirius gave Harry Potter seven years to be a child, to care for nothing, to want for nothing, because Padfoot would give Prongslet everything he asked for. But Harry only asked for Sirius, because Padfoot was his world. And outside of Sirius' warm embrace, Harry Potter couldn't survive.
The boy who dreamed of princes and fairies was buried alive by Harry Evans-Black when he was fifteen.
Evans-Black was a jaded warrior, a survivor. Keeping himself alive to protect the brightest star of that dead child inside his heart. He had been survived just fine, until he caught the attention of that Dark Lord.
Even up to this day, Harry still couldn't figure out which part of his "Fuck off, you perverted old man, I'm not interested," insult appealed to Voldemort. Harry bet his well aimed knee-strike to the man's groin later wouldn't be considered a nice impression, unforgettable maybe, to anyone else, except that fucker apparently. He swore Voldemort must have some lowkey masochistic desires hidden deep inside his dark heart.
Of course Harry didn't know the man looking like sex walked on two legs, who offered a fucking Death In The Afternoon to an underage kid with lustful eyes was the most fearsome Voldemort when he lashed out. How could he, the lowest little shit in the food-chain, have known the Dark Lord's supposed looks?
Harry spent a whole week regretting his hot temper and cursing his stupid bad luck to hell and back inside a dark cell at god-knew-where. At least he was given food and water occasionally; otherwise Harry wouldn't have enough strength to realise his mistake. After that fiasco, Harry was offered, threatened until he accepted, a job at Voldemort's side.
“Like his Lord’s fucking personal maid. Not assistant, not even close.” Ron made sure to tell him so, and then Regulus detailed the whole scandalous story to Sirius with delight at Harry's expense. Hermione laughed for two hours straight. Those cute monsters, really.
At least the man paid well; he just had to endure that man's persistent invasion of his personal space. If not for the money, Harry bet he would have snapped and murdered Voldemort, or died trying, before the frustrated tension between them had enough time to turn into sexual tension.
Harry yielded and gave his sweet sixteen virginity to Voldemort after holding out for nearly half a year. After all, if you were gonna lose your V-card sooner or later, why not lose it to an experienced man who also happened to be hot as hell?
And oh god, sex with Voldemort was truly exquisite, raw and brutal with burning passion. It was blinding pleasure and pain rolled into many uncontrollable orgasms without an ounce of gentleness, not that Harry had expected the Dark Lord to be a gentle partner. And Harry knew deep down he wouldn't be satisfied with leisurely slow sex anyway.
Harry Evans-Black was a formidable storm; he needed a raging hurricane to be able to keep up and force him to submit.
But no matter how great sex with Voldemort was, Harry truly had thought there wouldn't be another time. The boy had heard the rumours about the Dark Lord's past bedwarmers, or one night stands, whatever, and no one had successfully graced the man's bed for the second time. Not that there was anyone brave, or stupid, enough to repeatedly deny the man's advances like him, but still.
He had hoped, prayed, when he woke up sated and sore the next morning (afternoon actually, god the Dark Lord's stamina was inhuman), that Voldemort would leave him alone now. After all, the man had gotten what he wanted, right?
He was sorely mistaken.
Chapter 5: Strange Love
The title of this chapter was taken from a song with the same name by Halsey, damn I'm gonna use up all the favorite songs in my playlist :>
Harry Evans-Black was a name known by everyone in the Dark side. Not as an Inner Circle member, or a Death Eater. No, he was neither.
He was so much more.
He was the only one who dared to stay in the same room when the Dark Lord was having one of his epic explosive outbursts, and was able to walk out in one piece.
He was the only one who had the guts to interrupt an important meeting and dragged the Dark Lord out just because he felt there was something wrong. And not getting shot for doing so.
(But the room exploding just a few minutes later had effectively shut up anyone's complains.)
He was the only one who had jumped in front of a gun to shield the Dark Lord from a near death encounter, and got an explicit command from the man himself to "never pull that stupid move again" — which Harry promptly ignored ("Try me"), stating he couldn't control his subconscious instinct to protect whom he loved. That got him locked up inside Voldemort's bedroom for a whole week of tortures, for disobeying a direct order. But the Inner Circle members would grumpily argued that Harry's screams and begging were more of pleasure than anything.
(Harry officially become Voldemort's lover after that.)
He was the only one who had permission to wrap his arms around the older man whenever he wanted a hug, or suddenly pulled the Dark Lord down for a heated kiss, even jumped the man's bones just because he was horny.
Harry Evans-Black was the Dark Lord's heart. His soul. His love. (Though the man would never admit it out loud.)
Yet there was one thing no one knew. Harry Evans-Black was always destined to be Voldemort's downfall.
Chapter 6: Phoenix
The title of this chapter was taken from a song with the same name by Molly Sandén <3
“You said I wouldn’t have to see the like of you again. You said my mission completed the moment I died in Azkaban! Tell me why the fuck you’re here again?” Harry nearly screamed in frustration.
“Please Harry, you have to understand, we really don’t have any other choice.” Dumbledore calmly explained. “We greatly appreciate what you had done to help our cause, and with you out of the picture, Tom has become reckless. But it still took us great efforts and sacrifices to catch him.”
Harry was tempted to ask what kind of sacrifice, but he held it in; this wasn’t the time for sarcasm, yet. “That has nothing to do with me. I’ve done my job, the rest is all yours.”
Dumbledore sighed and Harry mentally shuddered. That sigh always signaled for bad things coming, “We were able to catch him, but there aren’t enough proofs to put Tom behind the bars. We need a key witness, Harry.”
‘See?!! I knew it, I fucking knew it!’ Harry screeched inside his head, “I’m not doing that,” he cut in bluntly.
“Please, my boy…” Dumbledore began. But Harry cut him off before the man could start his for the Greater Good speech.
“I said no. Voldemort will skin me alive if he sees me on that stand, and you know it.” Harry coldly said.
“Not if he was in jail, my boy,” Dumbledore argued.
Harry laughed humorlessly, “Stop thinking I’m a fool, Albus. We passed that state. Even if Voldemort was put away, he still has his Death Eaters roaming free. Those bloodthirsty killers would hunt me down and murder me in the most creative way, if they knew their Lord’s lover was the one who betrayed them all.”
“My boy, you’ll be given the highest security as the key witness, during and after the trial. No need to worry,” Dumbledore tried to reassure him.
“Oh, but I'm worried plenty,” Harry deadpanned, “seeing how efficiently you people had protected the other witnesses before the trial, with Voldemort in custody, and they still disappeared or suddenly had a change of heart overnight.”
‘Damn it,’ Harry silently cursed hearing Dumbledore heaved a long sigh again, “We could clear all charges had been accused against your godfather, in exchange for your cooperation in this emergency matter, my boy.”
Harry stopped breathing for a moment, “What?”
“Sirius Black could be a free man again, my boy.” Dumbledore helpfully elaborated.
Harry wanted to laugh. What kind of crazy world he was living in, for the supposed good guys to be this fucked up? Offering freedom to a convicted mass murderer just to catch another criminal? Not that Harry didn’t get their point, Voldemort was millions of times more dangerous than Sirius could ever hope to be. But Harry was sure this kind of bribe had to be illegal. If the Light side were so willing to bend the laws they had vowed to uphold, then what was left to separate them from the Dark?
“Then I want a public announcement confirming all the miscarriages of justice against Sirius Black, payment of compensation for falsely incarceration, and a long-term subsidy for therapy to remove any harmful effects of confinement on both mental and physical aspects. Moreover, free of charge for his prison break and running from the law for the last seven months. And lastly,” Harry listed with wicked delight then stopped for dramatic effect before he added, “All of them have to be done before I give my testimony.”
If he was going to risk his neck doing this, then sure as hell he would make it fucking worth all the troubles. He wasn’t about to leave any loophole for this scheming man to use him like a tool again, even if he was pretty sure he wouldn’t survive Tom’s wrathful revenge after this.
Regulus and Hermione would be so proud. Ron would probably freak out, though. And Sirius, oh Sirius... Harry nearly winced, better not wandering into that guilty land now.
"But my boy, you have to understand," Dumbledore argued, frowning. “We don't have much time left before the trial begins."
"For the last time, I'm not your boy," Harry snarled, "And I don't need to understand, I only know you need my help, so either you accept my terms or you walk out of that door with no witness."
While Dumbledore contemplated for a long stretched silence, Harry decided to poke the old coot some more, "Or you can always use your secret spy, you know?" Dumbledore was clearly surprised, and Harry continued on, "You really believed I have been isolated from the world since my death, did you?" He smirked.
“Harry, you know why Severus couldn’t be a witness,” Dumbledore said in a voice that implied a clear warning and disappointment.
Of course Harry knew why, “Do I, sir?” He still couldn’t stop himself pouring more salt onto a raw wound; this was so much fun.
Unlike Harry, Severus Snape was a real cop. His secret badge would be enough for Lucius to claim that two-faced man was compromised, therefore unfit to testify against Voldemort. Bullshit excuse, but Lucius was good at his job like that.
Besides, while Severus Snape might have thought he had successfully fooled the Dark Lord, Harry had already warned his lover to never completely trust a spy. Working inside your enemy’s lair could easily mess you up, and Harry knew those feelings too well. He made sure Tom understood, too.
Seriously, who would have guessed the huge downside of having a psychopath as his lover wasn't Tom being so cold or evil, but how the man constantly underestimated the power of genuinely feelings (or god forbid, love), and how they could easily destroy any loyalty built up on fear.
But Tom was smart, so no matter how stubborn the man was, Harry knew his brilliant brain could see reasons given enough time. Harry was absolutely sure there must be no proof that Snape's association with the Dark side still existed. There was no way the Order could bring a clean cop to court to testify against Voldemort.
In short, Severus Snape couldn't be used. That left only Harry.
Or Harry Evans-Black, the Dark Lord's closet subordinate and prized asset that everyone knew about.
"Do we have a deal?" Harry asked, blissfully watching the old coot’s failed attempts to keep his amiable façades.
In the end, Dumbledore reluctantly gave a heavy nod.
Chapter 7: Gingerbread Man
The title of this chapter was taken from a song with the same name by Melanie Martinez, there's no word that can describe just how obsessed I am with her album QAQ
Falling in love wasn’t in the plan, which actually didn’t exist. Planning wasn’t his forte; Harry was pretty much similar to Sirius in that regard: diving head-first into dangerous situations carelessly and then just going with the flow if there were obstacles.
That was also the reason after that first night with Voldemort, when the first thing the man said to him was “You’re mine now” with absolute conviction, Harry just rolled his eyes and went along with it. It wasn’t like his forced mission would be affected (much) just because he was sleeping with the Dark Lord. Besides, Harry was sure a man as great in bed as Voldemort would be hard to come by.
If only Harry had known then how traitorous his heart could be.
Sirius did warn him though. His godson always loved a challenge, and had a knack for attracting dangerous and dark things. The Dark Lord was nothing if not a mix-up of magnetic and charismatic vibes, exactly Harry’s type. He didn’t listen to Padfoot’s rare words of wisdom, though. Since when did Harry have a taste for narcissistic bastards? Ridiculous!
Voldemort was too much possessive, and really obsessed with dominating and owning Harry completely. He was also sadistic and heartless, despite his charming facade. And every time Voldemort held him, it was always so tight it felt like he was trying to choke Harry to death.
But riling the man up and annoying him never ceased to please Harry; Voldemort’s tolerance for his impertinent attitude was astounding, honestly. And he was really cuddly, especially after sex, though the older man would forever deny it. He was protective of Harry, and sometimes he could act like he cared, and it was touching that Voldemort valued Harry enough to try showing some emotions...
Okay fine, that man was truly his type, damn it. Who wouldn’t fall for that perfect face and fine body? Harry bet his own ass he couldn’t be the only one!
But being attracted to him was fine, why did he have to go and fall in love with the man?
Harry’s mission was really vague at first, just blending in the underworld and sometimes reporting back the needed information to the police. It was also fine if Harry failed to gain the required data, Dumbledore had said Harry’s safety was more important. Like hell it was. The boy knew that old man was just waiting for the bigger fish. So when Harry fell into bed with Voldemort, he had tried his hardest to keep it a secret from the Light side. Betray anyone else and he still had a chance at making it out alive, but stabbing Voldemort’s back? Hell, he would be lucky if that man allowed him death!
But as hard as he tried, word still got out and soon Dumbledore had caught wind of Harry’s association with the Dark Lord. It was lucky that damn opportunistic man didn’t know the complete truth of his relationship with Voldemort. But it was still enough for him to start pressuring Harry into risking his neck to acquire more highly sensitive datas, and failure wasn’t even an option anymore.
It escalated to the point Harry started finding ways to get back at Dumbledore for forcing his hand, by going behind the old man’s back to ruin his plans as much as possible. Then the more feelings Harry developed for Voldemort, the more he blatantly hampered any schemes of Dumbledore’s that he could possibly get away with. Finally, Dumbledore started to question Harry’s loyalty (like that shit existed) after he dared to interrupt an important meeting between Voldemort and Grindelwald, to drag the older man out before the bomb implanted in the room exploded.
Harry suspected that other than him, Dumbledore still had another rat hiding in the Dark side, a high rank Death Eater, or even an Inner Circle member at that, because Harry’s involvement in that attempted assassination was ordered to be kept secret from the Dark Lord himself, but Dumbledore somehow still knew of it. Harry’s gullible mask in front of Dumbledore had started to crack since then.
Yet only when Harry jumped in front of a gun to push Voldemort out of the shooting range, did he realize he had fucked up. Risking his life to save the man made Harry accept that he had fallen in love, irrevocably so. Harry guessed that was also the changing point for the older man.
The week spent getting fucked so hard he forgot his own name in Voldemort’s bedroom, they began to open up to each other. And when Harry was carried out of the room in the man’s arms with a golden locket around his neck, Harry’s heart was filled with love and so much dread.
Harry got Ron to help him unveil who was the rat in the Dark side; he suspected Pettigrew but that despicable man was so cowardly Harry doubted he would have the guts to betray Voldemort. As it turned out, his instinct was right, the true traitor was a much more respected Inner Circle. Ron’s hacking skills were one of a kind; Harry didn’t think anyone else except his best mate could unbury the file on Severus Snape in the Order’s highly secure database. Finally, Harry got a great leverage to bargain with Dumbledore, yet he didn’t got a chance to act on it.
Tom, his stupid emotional Tom, because detached Voldemort wouldn’t do something so reckless, after knowing how precious Sirius was to Harry, had wasted a great deal to break his godfather out of Azkaban. The moment Harry was held in Sirius’ arms again, and breathed in the scene of longing and finally home, he broke down. He believed both Tom and Sirius must have assumed Harry’s uncontrollable sobs were because he had missed his Padfoot too much for so long. While that was true, it was not the whole reason.
Harry had cried nonstop because he knew, deep down he knew, his time was running out. Since Sirius was free, as an escapee but still out of Dumbledore’s clutches, that old man would strike for the last time in desperation. And Harry didn’t think he would make it out unscathed.
Harry intentionally turned down all of Dumbledore’s requests to talk, and savored every moment he had left with Tom, carving his lover’s images into his memory and his heart. He also blatantly warned Voldemort about Severus Snape, and got the man to erase all evidence of Snape’s association with the Dark side. It was the last thing Harry could do to protect Tom.
Dumbledore finally managed to have a talk with Harry; he just didn’t think that old coot would do it by ambushing him in the broad daylight. He didn’t even got a chance to buy some more time before he was thrown in Azkaban (hah, the irony!) and then was secretly brought out after only one week. It seemed Albus was really desperate to finish this game.
Harry guessed in the end, he was truly selfish. He did have enough time to come clean with Voldemort after Sirius’ breakout, but Harry hadn’t once considered it. It wasn’t because he was scared of what Voldemort could do to him or Sirius; he was more terrified of losing Tom. It wasn’t an easy feat to have Voldemort open up to him, the man didn’t even trust Lucius with personal information. Yet he had gifted Harry his locket and his true name, which in turn could equal an ‘I love you’ from that psychopath. Voldemort didn’t say the word, neither would Tom, but his love for Harry was so obvious for anyone who had eyes.
It was there in the gentle caress in the morning. It was there in his crushing embraces and hungry kisses in the night. It was there in the way he looked at Harry, in his every touch.
It was there in the air around them.
It was always there.
And Harry didn’t think he could breathe if he had to watch that fierce love died in Tom’s eyes. If he wasn’t the only exception in Voldemort’s heart anymore.
That was why he had chosen to run from the man in the cruelest way, death. He preferred to die as a lover not a traitor, and be remembered as a beautiful fire not a whimpering mess. So that every memory they had shared wouldn’t be tainted with betrayals and lies.
See, Harry was just as heartless and calculating as his lover; maybe that was why they were so perfect for each other.
He had almost managed that, but Dumbledore just had to seek him out and ruin it all, again.
Harry dejectedly sighed; it wouldn’t help dwelling on the past too much. Now that he had secured Sirius’ safety from that old coot, there were only a few things left to do. Harry dialed one of the numbers he had remembered by heart and patiently waited.
“Hermione dear,” Harry started sweetly when his best friend finally picked up, “I need your help.”
It was a loooong nerve wrecking silence, before an ear-deafening scream was shouted from the other line, “Harry.Fucking.Potter!!! You Asshole!!”
Chapter 8: King and Queen and Vagabond
The title of this chapter was taken from a song with the same name by Ellem :">
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Being cursed to hell and back by Ron, then getting slapped by a tearful Hermione, was Harry’s welcome back from his best friends. Considering how gruesome his fake death was, Harry thought he truly deserved it. His friends even had the right to abandon him for doing such a cruel thing to them. But since they were children, trying to survive in the dark corners of London, they had vowed to always stick together. Both of them weren’t about to turn their backs on Harry now that they had just gotten him back.
They were the infamous Golden Trio, they were the poisoned youth of this cruel world, they would always be each other’s priority. But even with that knowledge, being swallowed in their familiar group hug once more, Harry still couldn’t stop crying.
After that, Harry sought out the Wolf, formerly known as Remus Lupin, the man who had been sent in Azkaban by Voldemort to help in Sirius Black’s breakout seven months ago. The Wolf was notorious for his ferocious combat skills and absolute untamable wild nature. He wasn’t one of Voldemort’s Death Eaters; the man had only agreed to help as a payback for a favor he owned the Dark Lord.
Harry knew with certainty that the man wasn’t loyal to the Dark Lord, so he could try asking for his help, to keep Sirius safe from Voldemort’s wrath when he discovered Harry’s betrayal. Harry believed convincing the man wouldn’t be so hard, considering what he had noticed the last time he saw his Padfoot. The feral Wolf was so gone over Sirius, and Harry could see that his godfather harbored just as much feeling for the forest-green-eyed man.
As Harry had predicted, after hearing his explanation, the older man immediately promised on his life he would protect Sirius at all costs, even offering Harry his protection from Voldemort's revenge if the boy ever needed it, which Harry kindly refused. It was already too dangerous for the man to go against Voldemort's command to save Sirius, and Harry couldn't ask for more.
Besides, Harry thought he did deserve all the punishments Voldemort could unleash on him. After all, the most dangerous man in England had loved Harry enough to give him the tiny piece of a heart he still had left, only for it to be thrown away like rubbish. As if that precious treasure meant nothing to Harry.
Thinking back on what he had done made his heart wail in so much regret and despair. But Harry couldn't afford to be weak now, he needed all of his courage to pull himself and his loved ones through this last battle.
Harry thought he had taken enough precautions, that he had done all he could to eliminate all possible collateral damages, so he had nothing to fear. He was dead wrong.
Because nothing could have been enough to prepare him for the moment he had to face his ex-lover in court. His infallible brave mask immediately shattered when he saw Voldemort sitting so calmly across the room.
Unlike Harry, the man's face betrayed nothing to the world when he saw his supposed dead lover being called on the stand.
However, Harry knew Voldemort so intimately to see nothing. He so wished he didn't in that moment. A flash of joy and relief passed through the older man's eyes that made Harry feel so much worse, yet those emotions were gone so fast Harry nearly thought it was only his imagination, to be replaced by raw fury.
Voldemort's unique maroon eyes turned blood red momentarily, locking Harry's emerald orbs in a storm of deep hatred and promise of pain. A sea of agony, if possible.
The Golden Trio has three members: The Brain - Hermione, The Eye - Ronald, and The Heart - Harry. They were all orphans, Harry was raised by Sirius since he was eight, then he made friend with Ron on the street a year later. After a while, Ron was invited in Sirius' home and started to live with them. Later on Ron was sent to school for a real education when they discovered his talent in computer, Ron's tuition fees were paid by Harry despite Ron's vehemently protest.
(The Weasley family, let's say that they're alive, but for some reason had lost Ron. They think him dead, but actually he has been struggle to survive all alone without any memory of his family.)
Ron met Hermione in school, they hated each other at first, but eventually fell deeply in love. Hermione lived in an orphanage and her education come from government funding for gifted students.
After Sirius' incarceration, they were all living inside the Black family's house with Regulus, and started to make a name for themself by taking commissions under an anonymous code name, the Golden Trio.
That's all, I'm not sure if anyone want to know this side story, though...
Chapter 9: Heaven or Hell
The title of this chapter was taken from a song with the same name by Digital Daggers Ọ__Ọ
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
It all started as a game.
When word got to him that the old coot had just successfully fooled another lamb in the underworld to spy on the Dark, he hadn’t paid it much thought at first. If that loony was stupid enough to trust Dumbledore of all people, surely he would be dead within a week.
Voldemort was wrong. The stupid brat survived for half a year, managed to disrupt multiple evil plans in the Dark side, and did it so sneakily that no one could trace it back to him. Impressive. But the most curious thing was, he had never once infiltrated the Death Eaters. It was as if the rat actively avoided his path, because the spying had been going on long enough for it not to be only coincidences. Voldemort just couldn’t be sure if it was his minions’ competency hindered the rat, or he actually had enough brain to know not to mess with the Dark Lord.
Didn’t matter, because finally Voldemort was interested.
His slight curiosity changed into surprise when the rat turned out so be so young. He knew the brat was young but he hadn’t thought it would be this young! Dumbledore dared to use a kid, a barely fifteen years old child, to do this deadly dangerous and dirty job for him? Voldemort was reminded he still had much to learn from his old teacher, especially on how to be properly heartless, right at that moment.
It was just his luck the brat was so beautiful, delectable. He would enjoy defiling this innocent little thing before drilling him dry for information, then getting rid of the threat this boy had been posing for far too long.
At least, that was the original plan, when lust had been clouding his brain. He completely forgot how impressed he had felt for this child's surviving skills and cunning mind just a few days ago. The Dark Lord was tricked by the naive appearance of the boy, lost deep inside his striking emerald eyes. Until the minx opened his pretty mouth to curse him, the most dangerous man in England, then lashed out at him like a wild animal.
Voldemort was kicked to awareness, literally.
He imprisoned the boy for a whole week in a dark cell for his impertinence, totally ignored the fact that he was the one who intended to get an underage drunk and statutory raped him.
He contemplated what to do with his prisoner later on, when he wasn’t having a hard libido. The Dark Lord admitted he was intrigued to know how Dumbledore had managed to persuade a Black to risk his life for the righteous cause. The boy was Sirius Black’s bastard son, even though his father was disowned and in prison now; Regulus had ignored his mother’s last wish and taken his brother’s son in. Which meant the child couldn’t have done it for money, the Black family’s wealth was second only to the Malfoys.
The child also wasn’t stupid or gullible as he had first assumed, he was headstrong and brave, stupidly so. What could Dumbledore possibly offer for his service?
As the saying goes, keep your friends close and your enemies closer; Voldemort decided to employ the brat.
That was his first step down the rabbit hole.
It all started as a game; both of them had played mind tricks on the other, danced around lies and deceits, woven in between gunpowder and blood.
Things got out of hand the second they allowed their emotions to be a part of the game.
For Voldemort, the first feeling he developed was possessiveness, and that was why he hadn’t realized he was in danger right then, because possessiveness was a familiar feeling for him, he had known it since he was a child. Harry was a mesmerising creature, beautiful and dangerous; it was no wonder he would want to own the boy. And the notion that Harry had never truly been his made the boy even more of an appealing challenge.
The Dark Lord wasn’t one to back down from challenges; if anything, they would only get him more obsessed.
Voldemort knew his fucking skills would only get him so far. He could see the damn minx after spending a whole day in the Dark Lord’s bed for his first time (and yes, he was very pleased to find out the boy was a virgin); the first thing the imp hoped for was he would lose interest. As if! He clenched his teeth and declared his claim on the brat out loud, only for Harry to give him a bored look that clearly said, ‘What did you just say? Oh, I don’t give a fuck.’ The nerve of this boy!
Voldemort decided to change his tactics. He still fucked the brat regularly, there would be no change in that.
The Dark Lord hated being weak, and showing emotions was weak. But he had learned how people like Harry functioned, especially someone as deprived of affection as his Harry. He just needed to show the boy that he could care, or pretend as much as he could. And wasn't the brat so pathetic that despite his brilliant observation skills that could pick up on him not being genuine, Harry still slowly fell for him?
Harry had been tracing inside information from his base to the old coot after he started sleeping with the Dark Lord. Yet his conscience led the boy to cause just as much, if not even more, troubles and damages to the Light side. That was Harry's way of compensation for stabbing someone who cared for him in the back.
Voldemort noticed all these little things like that, and it filled him with wicked satisfaction.
Too caught up in his cruel manipulation, the heartless Dark Lord hadn’t realized his acting wasn't wholly an act anymore. He hadn't noticed that his forced tolerance for Harry had changed to fond exasperation at the boy's antics, that his eyes fucking turned soft whenever he looked into Harry's soulful green orbs.
And so many more tiny warning signs, he hadn't realized anything before it was too late.
The starling truth slapped him in the face the moment Harry jumped in front a gun to save him. His supposed dead heart actually stopped beating for a moment in horror. The Dark Lord was scared, for the life of another, and the undeniable truth hit him hard.
Later, while Voldemort’s mind was reeling on trying to find a way out of his emotional awakening, the brat just had to choose that exact moment to blurt out he was in love with the Dark Lord.
Oh how he held so much resentment over that ridiculous novelty notion.
Yet, when that particular word escaped Harry's lips, Voldemort only felt immensely satisfied. Euphoric, actually.
And an unbearable amount of anxiety.
He locked Harry up inside his bedroom for a week, desperated slamming hard inside the boy and trying to dissipate his irrational fears.
It all started as a game, until the player had gotten attached to one particular chess piece.
My Lord, remember the old saying "The fire starters always get the burns"? (n˘v˘•)¬
Chapter 10: Scars
The title of this chapter was taken from a song with the same name by Boy Epic, this artist's music is fantastic guys Ọ__Ọ
Harry opened up to him about his past, his true past, in the dead silence of the night, after one long fucking session, when the boy was sheltered in his lover's arms.
And Voldemort realized just how blind he had been. The missing piece was always right in front of his eyes. Dumbledore hadn't bribed Harry with anything. It was emotional threat that man had used. The old coot had threatened Harry, or more likely, offered the boy a deal he couldn't refuse, all the while acting like he was doing Harry a favor.
Sirius Black. Harry's godfather. The savior who had rescued him from his nightmare of a childhood. That man was Harry's weakness.
He should have known, Harry only worked for Dumbledore after Black’s incarceration. Of course that man had to play a part in the meddling professor’s ploy.
In retrospect, he understood why he hadn't figured it out sooner. He hadn't known how truly precious Black was to Harry. He assumed the boy was kind of having a cold relationship with the man, just like himself, what with them both being the bastard sons. He had gathered the wrong information, and Regulus Black must have a hand in this, so he was misled.
The other reason was completely his own, how his contempt for feelings causing him to never once consider that maybe, Harry had someone he wanted to protect. He didn't think someone as cunning and devious as Harry was capable of sacrificing his own life for another. But hadn't Harry done just that for Voldemort?
It all started as a game, which had turned dangerous when the King desired a pawn in the opposing force, and wished to turn him into a Queen. His Queen.
The Dark Lord gifted his official lover his mother's locket and his true name. The locket was a promise to protect and a mark that Harry was his. The name Tom meant he had given the tiny piece of a dead heart, that was resurrected because of Harry, to the boy and hoped Harry would love and keep the last piece of his heart safe.
Voldemort wasn't in love with Evans-Black, but Tom Riddle was so close to loving Harry Potter. Never quite love because the Dark Lord just wasn’t equipped for that selfless and sacrificial sentiment.
He wanted to own the boy: body, mind, and soul. He wanted all of Harry to belong to him and him only.
The first step to achieve that would be freeing Harry from Dumbledore’s clutches, which meant breaking the Blacks’ disgrace out of the highest security prison in England.
That place was hell on Earth, where they put away the most insane and maniacal criminals from all over the world. It was believed to be impossible to break out of Azkaban, which meant breaking in would be just as unfeasible. He needed someone with a bloody record and an unstable mind, enough to earn a cell in Azkaban without raising any suspicion. But all the Death Eaters suited for this mission were known by the Light as the Dark Lord’s best minions, and he couldn’t use his own people unless he wanted Dumbledore to take notice.
Fortunately, he had just the right person for this job, the notorious Wolf. With the Wolf’s insane and vicious nature, it wouldn’t be a problem to arrange him a place in Azkaban. In fact, the police had been dying to capture the Wolf, so Voldemort wouldn’t need to lift a finger to get what he wanted.
When he successfully gave back to Harry his dear godfather, instead of happiness like he had expected, Harry cried as though an essential part of the boy was dying. Tom was missing something in the whole picture, again. And as hard as he tried, he still couldn’t figure out what.
Harry held on to Tom so tight and let him be fucked with desperation each night after that, as though the boy anticipated some ominous winds were coming their way. The boy even went so far as to bluntly give Voldemort hints that one of his best Inner Circle members was a traitor. It was like Harry was afraid he didn’t have much time left with Tom.
Ridiculous, Tom had thought, there was no way he would allow anyone a chance to take Harry away.
Then suddenly his lover got captured by Dumbledore. The old coot with his Order of flaming chickens was vicious, struck down any proofs of innocence Lucius could claim on Harry’s behalf. For the first time in his unfailing career as an attorney, Lucius had lost a case. Harry Evans-Black's case.
Voldemort silently listened, burning up with fury inside, when the judge announced a life sentence in Azkaban for the crimes Evans-Black had committed. The Dark Lord could taste the blatant mocking from the Order in that verdict, and he vowed to get Harry out of that hell. He had done it once, he could do it again.
He didn't have that chance.
Tom Riddle had always thought his mother was weak, dying from emotional pain of an unrequited love. He couldn't fathom it, just how much hurt had she felt for her to give up on life and abandon him?
He understood on the day they told him Harry was dead.
Tom didn't love the boy, or not as much as Merope had loved Tom Riddle Sr. And still, he could feel like his soul had been ripped apart, swallowed in an immense amount of pain, so that even breathing hurt too much.
The feeling of loss was unbearable, to think he would never get another chance to touch his lover's warm body, to look deep into Harry's blazing soul through those emerald eyes. His shredded soul would never feel the same contentment and gratification of being loved so freely and fiercely by someone as loyal and brave as his Harry.
Tom didn't love Harry, and he had already felt like wishing for death to end the pain. How could his mother have endured all this until she gave birth to Tom, when she had already lost herself in loving his father and losing that man? Tom only endured losing Harry for a moment and he was terrified.
Then the smirking cop reported the attacker responsible for Harry's death was Grindelwald's men, and Voldemort's rational instincts immediately took over his brain.
Then he got his hands on the intact golden locket despite its owner's destroyed body, and Voldemort knew with certainty that this was a fucking trap from Dumbledore.
The old coot was baiting for a war between Voldemort and Grindelwald, and Harry was his sacrificial lamb.
The wrath boiled up when he recognized Dumbledore's plan had also cleared off the pain that had clouded his brain.
The Dark Lord knew his lover; Harry was sneaky and clever. The brat had worked for the old coot for years; he had to know many dirty secrets and trickeries Dumbledore liked to use, and had already planned out multiple escape routes in case the old fool wanted to sacrifice him. There was no way Dumbledore would be able, or dared, to eliminate Harry that easily.
But why did Harry agree to participate in the old man's scheme this time? The boy had said he loved Tom, hadn't he? Didn't loving someone mean that you would never do them harm?
Dumbledore didn't have Black in his hands to threaten Harry anymore; why did Harry allow his capture and fake his own death?
Maybe the brat didn't love you, somewhere deep and dark inside his core a vicious voice whispered. Maybe now that the brat's precious godfather was finally free, he would also want to escape from the Dark Lord's possessive hold.
No, Tom screamed inside his head. Even though he didn’t know love, Tom still believed Harry's affections for him were genuine. Or he wanted to believe so.
All of these speculations and doubts would lead him nowhere; his Harry wasn't here for him to demand an answer. He needed the boy back, but how?
It all started as a game, until he realized it was no longer just a harmless game.
Voldemort pretended to fall right into Dumbledore's trap, letting Severus, the traitor, leak much highly sensitive information back to the Light side and leaving behind his crimes as many loopholes as possible.
The Dark Lord let himself get caught, but the police would later realize all their proofs and witnesses were useless. The Light would see a chance like this was too rare to waste, and Dumbledore would seek out Harry's help again.
This was the most dangerous and foolish thing Voldemort had ever done, because Harry was probably the only one who could bring Voldemort down with his privy knowledge of the Dark Lord's crimes.
What would Harry choose? Would the boy run back to him and confess everything, not wanting to betray him once more?
Or would the boy take this chance to destroy him? Proving Tom meant nothing to the boy, and his love had never been true.
It all started as a game, until one day he had realized he wasn't the powerful player. He was just another chess piece even if he was the King, and could do nothing but wait for his fate.
Voldemort had patiently waited, and waited. For Harry to come back. To choose him. He even got scared, thinking what if Harry was truly dead. He didn’t want to consider that option, but the other one was just as agonizing to contemplate.
The Dark Lord got his answer on the day of the trial.
Harry had chosen to be the key witness.
Apparently love meant nothing, it wasn't all powerful and invincible as they had said. It seemed love would always be his downfall, Tom whimpered, despairing and wounded.
That assumed the brat did love you, which I do not believe, Voldemort cruelly reminded his other self. Pathetic, he bitterly added.
It all started as a game; he hadn't known the consequence would be this real and devastating.
Oh wow, look, I managed to break my Lord's heart. In all of my other stories, I couldn't do this; his cold characteristics make it nearly impossible to hurt him emotionally... ಥ‿ಥ