Two hands grab his hips and the devil moans, when the second archangel that's trapped with him inside the cage, begins to move again. The touch burns. With his own grace ice cold and Michael's holy fire, physical contact is bound to cause irritation. Lucifer grinds his teeth as the air crackles, because Michael lets the tip of his wings run over Lucifer's body. They feel like a second pair of hands and Lucifer wants to scream how good it feels.
"That's it, little brother," Michael breathes low. "Let me in. You always loved it like this."
He bites into Lucifer's shoulder. Blood trickles down the skin, but the devil doesn't care. They did worse things to each other, in the war and ever since they ended up here.
"Come on. Hurry up." Lucifer wants to scream, tell Michael to take him hard.
But they've done that before, fucking between their fights. Or fought while fucking. This is different. Michael still isn't gentle, yet the usual violence is missing. He isn't seeking to break Lucifer by brute force.
"We have time," Michael growls. The cage rattles as the older Archangel's power shakes the entire construct. "So I'm going to enjoy this."
The cage is just barely capable of containing them. Lucifer's own raging over the last millennia has weakened it and adding Michael into the mix hasn't helped. Their activities, crashing into each other with all their might, caused cracks in the structure. Not enough to get them out of here. But it does grand them a little more freedom.
As result Michael's wings surround them again and Lucifer almost starts trashing when feathers tickle is hard wet cock.
"Fuck Michael," Lucifer curses and his muscles contract around the dick inside him. "Michael, move. Or I'll make you pay for this!"
But Michael, being the older brother and the fucking prick that he always has been, just laughs. Lucifer chaffs under it, but he never gets to voice his protest, because with one deliberate move Michael sinks deeper. He splits Lucifer open with his cock and presses the devil down, for he knows how to work his little brother's body. Centuries of hate and resentment didn't change that. The shameless gasp that Lucifer can't hold back, goes straight into Michael's dick. He jerks his hips again and pants at the sight of Lucifer squirming beneath him.
"Stop... te-asing me!" Another swift thrust wrenches the words from Lucifer's mouth.
He's almost writhing on Michael's cock, would fuck himself on it, if his brother allowed him enough freedom to move. Instead he heaves as the hard length drives deeper, plunges into Lucifer's waiting and far to pliant body. The devil doesn't even care anymore that Michael is holding him down, manhandling him into the position he desires. It's been too long since they did this. Since they were this close.
This is the sweetest form of torture and Lucifer rasps Michael's name, when the archangel begins to fuck him earnest. Hands roam over his body while Michael's wings hold him in place. Lucifer twitches his brother's embrace, desperate, because Michael is the only one capable of dominating him. It was true in heaven and it's true now.
"Look at me," Michael demands and yanks the devil upwards. His mouth crashes onto Lucifer's, claiming it until they're both out of breath. "Look at me, Lucifer. Tell me what you want."
"You," Lucifer moans before he loses the ability to think clearly, because Michael hammers against his prostate. For good reason, Lucifer can't lie like this. "You, Michael. Only you."
Pleasure zings through him as Michael's fingers press against his shoulder blades and Lucifer's own wings come forth. Devil or not, he can't help himself. Lucifer opens his wings wide as invitation and breaks as they slide against Michael's. Everything whites out after that. Lucifer hides his face in the crook of his brother's neck. The only sensation that registers in his mind is how the warmth of Michael's come spreads inside him. It spills out of Lucifer's ass and runs down his thighs. It's a lot and Lucifer sobs, because it means that Michael hasn't touched anyone else ever since the fall separated them.
Lucifer trembles in Michael's arms. The wings protect them from any possible watcher. But not even the thought of the demons witnessing their act could make him move, because Michael's cock is still inside him. Still buried deep and the soft touches of his beloved brother tells Lucifer that it's going to remain this way for a very long time.
The first time they fuck is after Death takes Sam away. And Adam, for good measure. Lucifer's pretty sure that there's nothing left of Adam anyway. If the boy ever existed and wasn't just the hand-grown back-up plan, then he's certainly gone now. Michael is too bright, too powerful to leave anything but ashes in his wake. There's a reason he doesn't come to Earth very often.
Hence why Michael doesn't even truly fight. He just unfurls his wings, stretches them until their tips almost reach the walls of the cage.
Michael stands there, naked and magnificent. His grace burns and shows all the emotion that his face never portrays.
"Shit," Lucifer curses as he takes his brother in. It's been a long, long time since they were like this. Just them, hiding nothing.
Lucifer doesn't look down at himself. He can't. He knows he must look, compared to Michael. Blemished. Tainted. Broken. He spend so long in hell, his wings resemble a dull lightbulb than the light of the morningstar.
"Brother," Michael whispers softly and flies closer.
Since he isn't stuck in Adam anymore, Lucifer can finally hear the emotion in his voice. The vessels always muffle it, especially for someone like Michael, who possesses so much grace that he can barely breath, while he's stuck in a human. Michael is just too big to fit into a moral shell.
Michael's touch is searing hot, when his hand touches Lucifer's face.
"It's been so long," he says. Lucifer tries to jerk back, but Michael refuses to let him go. Heat travels up his body. "How much time has passed ever since we laid eyes on each other?"
"We were just beating the crap out of each other," Lucifer snaps. "Or how would you call that."
A shock wave ripples through the cage and Lucifer fight the urge to answer it. It's just Michael's way of expressing emotions. He never learned it a different way. His older brother was born in a time, when the universe was young. When the planets were still forming and suns burned far brighter than they do today.
"I was trying to get you out of this thing," Michael says, as if it was obvious. "I needed to see you. Not the body you're inhabiting."
"There's nothing to see," Lucifer answers in a bitter voice.
The state of his wings is shameful enough. Let alone the color of his grace. He used to be beautiful. Now he's not more than a beggar. A homeless man in the rain no one wants to look at.
But Michael doesn't raise to the challenge. With the loss of Adam, he gained the ability to breath, to think clearly. Michael's wings stretch wide and engulfs the both of them.
"I missed you," Michael growls and suddenly he's close.
Much, much closer than Lucifer ever thought he'd ever experience again. He cries out, when Michael's grace touches his own, wraps itself around him like two seeking arms. The intend behind it is unmistakable. All layers between Michael and him have fallen, the desire Michael feels for him burns them all away.
Since pleasure is something he had been denied to feel for an incredible long time, Lucifer can't help himself. He bucks into Michael's touch with a sob and clings to his brother.
"Michael," Lucifer cries out, when tendrils travel to the spot, where he feels the most pleasure. "You..."
Lucifer doesn't know what he wants to say. Mostly you haven't forgotten or you still want me. Thankfully the careful and deliberate touch makes any coherent tought impossible. Need burst into his soul from forgotten corners and Lucifer hides himself in the center of Michael's being.
He feels young again, when Michael was the only other being he knew. When Michael protected him from meteors and dying stars. When Michael laid him out in a private, forgotten corner of the universe and made love to him.
"I only ever wanted this," Michael tells with unshakable certainty in his voice.
His hands travel up and down Lucifer's body and learn the differences the time left on him. The sensation is enough to drive the devil half-made. He hasn't forgotten how it used to be. He just never thought he could ever have this again. It makes him eager, more than his pride is comfortable with.
Yet a part of Lucifer is afraid that Michael will change his mind. That this is a trick, a ploy.
Since Michael is already inside of him, such thoughts are meaningless. With Michael's fingers prodding the entrance and holding him open, lying is useless. Michael's mind brushes against his own and Lucifer feels the overwhelming desire, the longing and the loneliness. A vast empty heaven full of face he can't stand.
Lucifer groans, when Michael slides into him. Its all he ever wanted. The deepest desire he couldn't admit to out of pride. But now, with Michael above him, holding him close, while he spreads Lucifer apart until he's fully seated inside, there's no denying what he wants. Craves, with every fibre of his being.
"Michael," Lucifer gasps as his brother climbs above him and shifts deeper.
He had forgotten how big Michael is. How much of Michael exists and how deeply Michael desires to fit into Lucifer.
"Yes?" His brother asks, restless and greedy. "What do you want, Lucifer? Tell me what you want."
"More," Lucifer moans and finally, finally Michael moves.
Crosses the last distance his sex, his grace, his dick is so deeply nestled inside Lucifer that the morningstar doubts it will ever get out again. How, when he has so much of Michael inside him? When Michael's hot pulsing grace fills him out, heats up every frozen corner of his heart and makes him desperate.
"You're still mine," Michael says. He sounds so sure, so confident despite the fact that Lucifer tightens around him.
Refusing to let his little brother get away, Michael uses his wings to grab Lucifer. The feathers brush over the naked chest, tickle the nipples and that alone is enough to make Lucifer cry out. The hands stay on Lucifer's hips in a firm hold until Lucifer's is sitting on Michael's lap. There's no getting away, not with Michael impaling him like this.
Lucifer lets himself fall back, uses Michael as support, because he can't hold himself upright anymore. It's just too much.
"We're going to stay like this," Michael says and it sounds like a promise. "I'll come inside you over and over again, until you've forgotten all your doubts. Until you've forgotten what is like not to be filled up."
"Yes," Lucifer moans and only feels relief, despite the knowledge how long and how rough their coupling can last. "Please, Michael. It's been so long."
"I won't ever let you go again," Michael answer Lucifer's hidden prayer. "I promise you, I won't leave this place. Not without you."
The words are enough to make Lucifer come, for the first in many, many times.
Due to the requests, I wrote another piece. Since I'm so much in love with the pairing, I marked this as a WIP now. I'll be back with more.
Chapter 3: Chapter 3
I've seen the silent approval and I'm estatic. This is ship is one of my favourite ones and I see the kudos/bookmarks as encouragement to continue. Trust me, I'll. Though this fic will consist only of porn, angst and feelings.
The first time after they've sex, Lucifer just hates himself. For centuries he plotted, carved his back to the surface in revenge against God. He had been prepared to take Michael down, fight against his older brother no matter if his death would've utterly destroyed him. Failing and ending up here again is a set back, but seeing Michael trapped in the cage as well makes it bearable. Yet Lucifer hadn't counted in the deep longing he feels in his heart.
He used to hate Michael. Fantasize about his brother bleeding out beneath him, about hurting him with swords, fists and spells.
Ever since he got trapped in here, Lucifer sustained himself with what he'd to, if he met Michael again and had him at his mercy. What just happened is the complete opposite. No Michael crying out in pain, begging for him to stop. No laughing devil either. As much as Lucifer wants to loose himself in those fantasies again, his backside is tingling with a pleasant burn, his thighs are covered in drying come and his body aches in the best way. Michael did a good number on him.
Yet his brother had almost been ... gentle. Careful in a way he rarely was, even before the war. Back then they were wrapped up in each other, never apart for long and Michael still liked to play rough.
Lucifer turns and studies the other Archangel from a safe distance. Since his grace is so might, vast and powerful Michael seems to fill out the entire cage, though the dimension is endless. It's nothing more than a secluded reality, something God never touched when he started around playing the benevolent creator. The cage therefore big enough to hold two angry archangels, with their power they can even shape to their wishes, but it's impossible to leave.
If he put his mind to it, Lucifer can make sure he never has to see Michael again, even in here. But he'd always know, always feel the old familiar presence in his heart and the sharp gaze resting on him.
"I won't come crawling back to you," Lucifer hisses, not caring whenever Michael hears him or not. "Once was enough, for old times shake."
The devil recedes into a corner and sulks.
Of course it doesn't last. Far too quickly Lucifer is driven insane by Michael being there and not doing anything. He's aware that Michael has ever been a patient person, plays the long game like no one else. Hell, if humans knew that the attributes like 'God has a plan' and 'Everything happens for a reason' are actually Michael's, they'd be a appealed. For Michael isn't a nice person. He's playful at best and manipulative at his worst.
Lucifer can feel how Michael is following his steps with his eyes. As big as the cage is, the time apart makes him attuned to his brother's grace. Thousands of years without him, missing him against his own will with every fibre of his being, makes Michael impossible to ignore.
It doesn't help that Michael is a beacon of fire in a otherwise darkened world.
"You bastard," Lucifer curses as his resolves begins to crumble.
Michael's eyes are fixated on him, on his naked and broken body and Lucifer feels himself getting hard. His brother never cared for property or discretion. He refuses to admit it, but Michael's open lusting after him, turns Lucifer on. How can it not, when it's proof that Michael still wants him? Still desires him, despite all the changes Lucifer went through. Yet the devil refuses to move. He doesn't know how long he spends time away from Michael, hard and aching, but he doesn't yield.
"I won't come to you," Lucifer promises Michael, barely able to tear his eyes off him. "I still have some pride left."
With a devious smile, Michael angles his head as he says, "Then perhaps you'd prefer it I make the first step?"
It's the only warning Lucifer gets. Since Michael is a warrior still it doesn't take him long to fly over. Unable to move, Lucifer lets himself be pinned to the ground and his heart doubles in speed as Michael presses his body against his. A gasp leaves his mouth, because hell Michael is just as hard. His gaze just as hungry as he devours Lucifer with his eyes alone, until a hand wraps itself around Lucifer's erection.
"Yes," Lucifer sobs and his back arches off the ground, fucking into Michael's fist.
How can he deny himself this ... with Michael coming to him? Definitely showing more than just a little interest.
With a ferocious growl Lucifer lunges at Michael, raking his fingers through the dark hair as he pulls him down into a damning kiss. It's almost animalistic and frightening, the way they tear at each other. Michael's expression is dark and soul-destroying. He snatches Lucifer's hips and scoots them up. With his little brother's legs raised high into the air, drawn towards his chest and parted wide, it's the easiest act in the world to plunge into the tight heat.
Steady moans fall from Lucifer's mouth and he rolls his hips, meeting Michael's thrusts. He doesn't care about Michael being rough. He has even forgotten the pride he was clinging to so desperately before, because how can any of this matter when Michael finally acts like the lover he once had been? He used to trust Lucifer, especially with his strength which frightens so many.
What's pride compared to finally conquering the loneliness in his heart? He spend ages alone and actually forgot how good it feels to have Michael ravish him.
"Do you truly think I'd let go just like this?" Michael growls as he turns Lucifer over. Canting his hips up and kneeling on all fours is barely necessary, because Michael is keeping him from falling to his face as he fucks into him again. "Do you believe, you're the only one who suffered? I want to hear you, Lucifer. I've missed hearing you beg for me. I missed having you in my arms, in my bed, at my side."
Lucifer is unable to answer, when Michael changes his pace from fast, desperate thrusts to long, hard and deep jabs. Whining and letting himself be manhandled is all what he can do. It just feels too good to care about anything else. In the end Lucifer comes almost violently and expects Michael to finish soon after, but the older Archangel has other plans. Instead he keeps thrusting as Lucifer pants beneath him, boneless and willing.
The devil makes a small noise as he realizes that his brother isn't going to stop anytime soon. Above him Michael is murmuring nonsense, praise and profanity, yet not changing the pace in the slightest. His moans hitch with every slap of Michael's body against his ass. With Michael no longer keeping his grace in check, it's as if their bodies are on fire, banishing the cold Lucifer carried around for so long.
His muscles contracted with Michael's cock starting to twitch and pulsate inside him and Lucifer falls over the edge again.
"How long are you going to keep doing this?" Lucifer groans as the orgasm subsides. For now at least, because meanwhile there's a searing sensation in his ass, Michael hasn't slowed down in the slightest. Rather it seems that he's attempting to fuck his come deeper into Lucifer.
"Not anytime soon, little brother," Michael says, surprisingly composed. He shifts them until he's more or less above Lucifer, hands planted next to his head until the only connection between them is Michael's hard shaft driving into him. "We've a lot to make to make up for."
After that Lucifer can't tell how much time passes. His entire world is reduced to Michael above him and his cock brushing past his entrance again, again ... and again. Endlessly. It's also impossible to tell how often he comes, how often he ends up crying out Michael's name. The only time he's granted a moment of reprieve is when Michael uses is tongue. Licks over his abused puffy hole, which makes Lucifer scream all over again.
Only after an eternity Michael finally lets go. The older archangel wraps his wings around them, while Lucifer is half asleep against his chest. The devil barely reacts. There's something solid pressing against his entrance again. His hole flutters around the intrusion and Lucifer expects another around. At this point, he's too blissed out to care, but Michael leaves it at that.
"Why?" Lucifer murmurs.
"A reminder," Michael whispers and kisses his brother's forehead. "Because we've been separated for so long."
Lucifer grunts, yet ultimately doesn't care about Michael's reasoning, because for the first time since his father cast him down, it feels like as if he's back in Heaven.
Chapter 4: Chapter 4
Watching Lucifer sleep is a luxury Michael never thought to possess again. Right now his little brother is curled into a ball, pressed against his chest and snoring softly. Their recent round of intense sex wore him out and perhaps Michael should be doing the same, yet he can't let go of the opportunity. He can't remember the last time he was able to enjoy Lucifer's mere presence. After being apart for thousands of years he needs to enjoy very single moment of it. Who knows how long it'll last?
Michael sighs, stroking Lucifer's hair. Others might see the cage as punishment for his failures. In truth he doesn't mind it. Many forget that he helped building the cage, if he truly wanted he could find a way out of here. Yet why should he? Earth is uninteresting for him and Heaven a mess. With their father gone, all the responsibilities fell to him. His brothers needed his guidance, Raphael a therapist, humans a god and the monsters roaming earth a general, who put them into their place.
Sad how true it is that he's nothing more than a loyal, mindless soldier. The good son who carries on the work of an absent father.
"It's not like as if I had a choice," Michael murmurs and leans down to kiss Lucifer. "How else was I supposed to distract myself?"
Still he can feel the rift inside his soul. Once Lucifer claimed this place, before their connection snapped. He learned to ignore the ache. In fact, Michael ignored most what had to do with actually getting in touch with his emotions. Basing his decisions on logical reasons was better than listening to his heart. That stupid, useless stone brought him in trouble in the first place.
And yet ... somehow he ended up here again, laying next to Lucifer, their wings entangled and the evidence of their last round drying on their skin.
Warmth spread through his body, lighting up his grace as Michael remembers back on how he fucked and fucked Lucifer again and again. Unable to stop himself, one of Michael's wings brushes over Lucifer's ass. Slips between the cheeks and tickle the entrance.
The answer is a soft moan. A sound not even the God's own choirs praising his divine presence can compare to.
"I'll never get enough of this," Michael whispers and presses his forehead against Lucifer's. "I'll treasure every second we can spend together."
For Michael expects that the peace between won't last. Violence will break out again and soon enough they'll be fighting horrendous battles again, aiming to destroy each other completely.
"I can hear you thinking," Lucifer mumbles, still half asleep.
"I can move over, if you want," Michael offers.
Though it's the last thing he wants, but the truth is that they aren't used to each other any more. Annoyance and desire to be left alone for a while is bound to erupt.
Lucifer groans and shifts his body until he's on his back. Now he's able to look up to him, Michael is still propped up on one elbow, the younger archangel says, "What use would it be? Your grace has been acting up the entire time. I can feel that even in my sleep. Are you already horny again?"
Yes, Michael wants to say, but that's not the full answer.
He shrugs, "Hell changed you. It was bound to happen. On the other hand, I was responsible for the host. Without you, father and Gabriel ... let's just say I had far more weight to carry than before."
Lucifer's face twists into something ugly and his grace grows cold again, like always when he gets into his rebellious mood. Although it's the first time that anger isn't directed at him. No, it's just heaven and the host Lucifer is angry with. Michael honestly doesn't know what to do with this, especially when Lucifer takes his face into his hands and drags him down to him. One long kiss later, Michael is breathless and wholly distracted. His grace in no longer violently trashing and Lucifer has that stupid, impish smile on his face that shows, why he's being dubbed the Lightbringer. For one joyous moment of exaltation it's almost as if the war and the pain that followed never happened.
What follows next, Michael can only describe as earthquake in a world that doesn't have ground.
He's in the air before he fully realizes what's happening. Lucifer he's holding with one arm, the other grasps his sword, ready to defend them while his grace transforms into this armor.
"Leave it, Michael," Lucifer tells him and lets go. He barely bothers to summon clothing for himself. "That's not an attack."
"Didn't feel like it," Michael responds, still looking around. He has spend many years on the battlefield to simply trust his eyes.
What causes him to finally relax is Lucifer's indifference. That and the fact they're alone. The cage is empty but for the two of them. Death made sure of that.
"What was this?" Michael finally asks, unable to shake the feeling that disrupted their happy moment. "It was ... dreadful. Horrifying. Not quite a sound and yet a scream nonetheless."
Lucifer's eyes grow sad. Hopelessness returns, where none should be.
"It's the cage," the devil explains and points at the emptiness around them. "It doesn't allow happiness. Any blissful moment will be destroyed, joyous memories just ... fall away until nothing is left, but depression and despair."
Instinct tells him that Lucifer is right. There's no sentient being causing the pressure he's feeling. Yet the sensation of something trying to wear him down, won't leave. Michael knows, it's dangerous. On missions this is the point, where paranoia settles in. Where insanity spreads and destroys the moral.
"I didn't design the cage this way," Michael whispers and lets his sword dissolve. "When I cast you down, I ... followed orders. Your wrath was so strong, your rebellion so incredibly successful that I fear it could only end with your death. I couldn't allow this to happened."
"That's why you locked me away, yes," Lucifer says, but he sounds about it less bitter than Michael expected. They had ... contact before and during the apocalypse, but it's still the first time they talked about past events face to face.
The truth is that Michael prefers this fate to the alternative. Whatever may follow, no matter what the future and the cage holds in store for them, ... he refuses to go back to the days where he had to fear of receiving a kill order from their father. Despite his loyalty to God and the Host, Michael doubts he'd have been capable of carrying out that particular command. Not without destroying himself and as horrible the wars between Heaven and Hell became, he needed Lucifer to life.
To walk free one day. That plan didn't work out the way he wanted, but at least they're together again.
"What can we do?" Michael wants to know. He's asking in a soft and gentle voice, because Lucifer is unfortunately the expert regarding the cage. "Are we to expect unimaginable torment? Do we face punishment the more we try to resist?"
"Not quite. The cage doesn't allow love," Lucifer spats out the word - as if he had to train himself out of the habit in using it at all. Self-loathing colors his voice, when he resumes, "That's we I couldn't help Sam. No matter what I did, the cage had a greater grasp on his mind than I did."
The lost and broken look in Lucifer's eyes is almost too much for Michael. But not knowing if a gentle touch would set the cage of again, he keeps his hands to himself.
Lucifer's next move is a surprise. One moment he's radiating defiance and sorrow and the next he's kneeling in front of Michael. The older angel's breath hitches. It's been a long, long time since this image was reality and not one of his fantasies that got him through the never-ending wars in God's name. Beneath his battle armor Michael grows hard and Lucifer grins at his older brother's reaction. He slips a hand under the armor and wraps it around the shaft.
Michael's breath hitches. Not only, because Lucifer is slowly stroking him or because the devil at his feet is so very tempting, ... it's intimate, getting in touch with each others grace like this.
The question remains what Lucifer's behaviour has to do with their little problem about the cage.
"We're not ordinary beings. The cage reacts to simple matters. Codewords, if you want like to call it," Lucifer answers and runs his mouth over the bulge. One long swipe with his tongue to tease his brother, a promise what he's intending to do.
In a certain kind of tone, Lucifer adds, "We just have to act clever, Sir."
Then he waits, kneeling in front of Heaven's General in perfect obedience and Michael is reminded of very old days. They've played this game before. It's always been part of their dynamic, because it's Michael's nature to dominate and Lucifer's to outsmart his opponents.
Well, why not? It's his idea, Michael thinks. After thousands of years trapped in the cage, Lucifer probably knows countless other way to subvert the rules. But if this is the one he prefers than Michael isn't going to stop him.
"Get to work, Soldier," the Archangel says and makes himself comfortable as Lucifer pulls out his cock and closes his lips around it.
Chapter 5: Chapter 5
Spoilers for Season 11. If you haven't seen it, this won't make any sense to you.
Figuring out how the rules proofed to be more difficult than Michael expected. Not being allowed to feel happiness, always seemed to spur them on to make the other smile. Before Lucifer would've come at him with his fists. With endless cold rage. Now they're playing an extended game of hide and seek, stealing mostly kisses from each other. Only pecks, because the cage did react every time, when one of them emitted too much happiness.
It's a cruel punishment, not being able to smile like an idiot, when he has Lucifer pressed against the wall and is sucking at his brother's neck until he's moaning. Teasing Lucifer had been once of his favourite past times.
Gracing his teeth over Lucifer's naked skin, Michael bites gently into his brother's shoulder.
"Do you remember how this all started?" Michael asks and things back to the day, millennia ago, when they first met.
"Of course I do," Lucifer gasps and grinds his ass against Michael's hips. With little success, since he's only held in place with one wing pushing them together. Since the appendage is one of Michael's outer wings, those he uses as battle armor, he can't get away. Instead it slides between his legs and gentle rubs his crotch. ""You've always been a bastard, even back then."
Michael's response is a chuckle.
In his youth they lived in a place, which is best described as celestial space station. It was big, white and located in a star system, which has long burned out by now. Michael had been one of the first children, who had been created and raised there. If it you could call it as such. Rather God had been a scientist, eager to try out the material in his hands. Beyond the initial stadium of watching life grow and make sure it could exist on its own, God never showed much interest in his work.
Oh, what the host would say if they knew that God never saw them as his children? Michael didn't think that had changed over time. Most likely God was busy in another corner of a universe, creating a new species, a new timeline or a setting that interested him. It wasn't even his fault, he just ... wasn't equipped to have such feelings. Loving his angels is something the Creator never quite managed. There were simply too many of them at one point and hence the task of looking after them had been handed over to Michael. But that had been later, much later.
No, at first Michael had been a new being, who explored the universe on his own while his father was busy.
The one, who actually watched out for him, was the Darkness. She showed him the dangerous corners and how to defend himself against threats. Sometimes Michael missed her, missed the days when life had been simpler. Today neither humans nor angels remembered even her existence. Well, given how she contributed to exactly four sentient beings in the universe, which would later be called Archangel.
God had created the distinction between the other angels, some old enough to vaguely remember the Darkness before the Light had cast her out.
Michael's world had been different from the very start. He remembers how humanity came to, how Terra first began to form and when the first life developed in its waters. It had been a miracle, watching something grow and evolve outside of Heaven, without God's direct influence.
The memory is so clear, because God explained it all to him while he forged the construct, which became Lucifer's egg. White, shining and so very big. Raphael and Gabriel and been like this as well, when they came around later, because back then the Darkness still provided the sheer amount of power God needed for their forms. After the Darkness was banished, Gods power dwindled. His designs became smaller and more detailed, because grand gestures of divinity were no longer possible.
"You were beautiful," Michael whispers in a dark voice and his grip becomes more possessive.
His hands sneak past Lucifer's outer shell, the grace crafted illusion of clothing. Michael digs deeper until his finger find a center of pleasure and wiggle around a little.
Lucifer's answering cry is the only encouragement Michael needs. In their true forms they possess only very few parts, which can't be shifted or transformed through their grace. Their solid and very physical wings, for one. Folding those away while inhabiting a vessel takes time and effort, hence why they've special needs as Archangels. Mostly their wings act as shield and while've fucked, Lucifer hasn't truly let him touch the innermost part of himself.
Where they in human form, they wouldn't have made it past making out on the couch, if Michael had to translate the stage of their relationship.
Again Michael repeated the action, losing himself in Lucifer calling out his name. Apart from trying to stab each other this was the most intimate thing they had done since the last war.
"So very beautiful," Michael growls. "And you were mine."
The Light and the Darkness had both invested a lot of power in order to make Lucifer. Unlike Michael himself, who was born out of dying sun, this new archangel would be created from collected starlight. It's the first time God allowed Michael to watch close up, how the process worked and as result Michael spend a lot of time watching the egg grow. He didn't know what would come of it or how the result would look like. God made strange decisions before as abandoning a newborn creature on a planet or in an empty realm, just see how long it would last or what would happen to it.
Some of these creatures still existed today, knowing nothing of their true origin. Others had only left descendants behind.
On bad days Michael imagines telling those arrogant pagan gods that there's no other creator in this universe than YHWH. The Light and the Darkness, though they bear many other names. Very few outsiders have managed to make something of importance. Or endurable. Not that the pagans need to know the truth. They do a fine job, relieving Michael of some work load. He has better things to do than handling humans and their afterlife. Most souls just get recycled anyway, no matter what religion they believe in.
Michael doesn't care about humans. Doesn't want to, because their souls always remind him Lucifer.
So much light and innocence, like the brother learned to love so long ago.
Talking in measures of time is a little difficult, especially during his days of creation. It was a long process and he's not entirely sure from what point he possessed awareness, but one of the first things Lucifer remembers is fire. Fire like the sun. Red, dangerous and toxic for anyone who comes to close. Necessary to exist, but beautiful only from a certain point of view.
What else Lucifer remembers from that time that Michael was big. Perhaps it's his perception, yet he can't find any other words to describe it.
One day he tumbled out of his egg, little wings still wet and useless. Everything was bringt, dark and different. Cold, as well. Chilly, not warm and comfy as it was in his nest. Lucifer might've wailed, afraid and doubting his decision to break out of his egg. Almost instantly hands were there, scooping him up. Wings protected him from wind and other elements, while he was cradled against a broad chest.
Lightbringer, the being called him. Morningstar.
They touched. Lucifer bringing his little hands and his wings against the other. What struck through him was ... warmth, fire and lightening. Something deep and violent.
WHO ARE YOU? WHO ARE YOU? HOW ARE YOU CALLED? WHAT'S YOUR NAME? YOU ARE YOU?
Lucifer needed to know. He wanted to know.
He had been so cold and now he wasn't anymore. Who was this? This person was warm and Lucifer liked him. He snuggled closer, content where he was.
No need to shout, little one, the other chuckled and cradled the fledgling in his arms. But if you need my attention, call me Mikha'el. Father does.
Who is Father? Lucifer asked the first of many, many questions.
God named the newest addition Heylel, the Lightbearer, and he loved the younger above all other. Mikha'el was used to being ignored by his father, yet worried when the Darkness became irritated. She saw that the Light showered his newest creation with love and became jealous. Often brother and sister would fight, but they did it in private and made up every time. More often than not, it was Mika'el who looked after his little sibling.
Yet the more time they spend together, the stranger their relationship became.
Heylel was still young, smaller than him. Though soon he'd be Mikha'el's equal, unlike the other siblings Father made. Or raised like potted plants. Those fledglings were different. Smaller. Not as bright, clever and intelligent. Heylel was curious and liked exploring. Today they were visiting a dying star.
While Heylel hadn't been able to take his eyes off it at first, he found a different object to admire after a while. By now he was able to fly on his own, but Mikha'el protected them from the radiation with his wings and Heylel noticed how beautiful he looked. How his brother simply absorbed the fire instead of getting burned by it. Everything of Mikha'el is made of fire and Heylel wants to touch it.
He needs to. It's eating him up the longer he stares and looking away is impossible.
"Brother?" The younger angel says. He wished he knew another word, one which fits the description better, but it suffices to get Mikha'el attention.
"Yes, my little morningstar?" Mikha'el uses the name he gifted his brother so long ago, usually in private.
Heylel is a little nervous, a little excited when he asks, "Can I touch you?"
It's an odd request. Touch isn't something that usually happens among angels. Not in the way Heylel wants to. Even God only watches and admires from afar. The Lightbringer doesn't mind, when Father is watching. It's flattering and he flourishes under the attention. Father's praise is hard earned, when there are so many other projects he needs to pay attention to. The two new Archangels for instance, which are both growing quite well in their eggs.
Heylel likes taking care of both, yet he never can get rid over the longing inside his soul. He can't stand being separated from Mikha'el so long.
Suddenly his brother is so close that it takes his breath away. Mikha'el asks in a low, tempting voice, "Where do you want me to touch you?"
The wings brush slightly over the most private parts Heylel possesses. Where he keeps his innermost thoughts ... and his desire for his brother. Just a single touch is enough to make him gasp. His fingers bury themselves in the tough, senseless parts of his brother's wings on his back, uses them as handle in order not to fall into the vast space of the universe, when Mikha'el does it again.
"Please," he says, sobbing. Crying and begging, even if he doesn't know what for. It's the first time anyone has ever touched him like this. "Please, do it again."
Mikha'el does. With a ravenous appetite, which tells the younger angel that he isn't the only one with those desires. It's a little difficult at first, because his body is still smaller than Mikha'el's. Even the exploring fingers feel big in the beginning, but they keep stroking him. Searching with patience what makes Heylel cry out and beg. It just feels so good. Far better than anything else what he ever experienced. It's even better than Father's praise and Heylel didn't think this was possible.
"More?" Heylel demands, voice lilting it into a question. He isn't really sure how far this could go. How much more his brother able to offer.
"Whatever you want," his brother promises. And puts his mouth on Heylel, who arches his body and chokes out Mikha'el's name.
It's warm, it's good and perfect. Doing the thing with Mikha'el is an experience as well, because he can watch how his brother's grace flares and curls around them. If possible, Mikha'el grows bigger, darker. Hotter. His grace is brushing over Heylel's again, asking. The morningstar doesn't know what for, but he grants permission nonetheless. For a moment nothing happens. Until Mikha'el is pushing his grace into Heylel's. Entwining it so close it's impossible where one starts and where the other ends. They melt together and Heylel bucks into his brother.
Mikha'el is enormous and overwhelming, causing his wings to flap and quiver. It burns a little, when Mikha'el shifts around, trying to find the right position. But his only thought is more.
Does it feel good, his brother sends, because either of them is unable to talk. Heylel has been reduced to desperate moans. His older brother is so big, he's filling him out and the contact is maddening. Yet his grace refuses to yield and tries to draw Mikha'el deeper and deeper.
Yes, Heylel finally pants, long after he came down from the high. Mikha'el is still inside him, still big. But at least he can think again. It felt like ... looking into a sun.
"You're the lightbringer, brother," Mikha'el says. He kisses Heylel and sends a little more grace through their connection. Perhaps it's a little too much, since the younger angel howls, but judging from the way he writhes and opens up it's not from pain.
Definitely not pain, Mikha'el concludes as he explores as the way how he can love his morningstar.
We're back to the usual names next chapter, I promise. Regarding the little hint of God/Lucifer ... it's not a sexual love or even a romantic one. God isn't Chuck (yet) and isn't able to grasp whatever he feels. It's admiration, like an artist feels for a work especially well-done. A favourite piece above all other, you might say. But that's creepy enough on it's own.
Over time heaven grows bigger and life develops some sort of order. Mostly God is still busy creating, while Gabriel and Raphael assist him very often. Lucifer has been tasked to watch the lifeforms, planets or other creations which hold promise to become something more. It's a fascinating task, though Lucifer mourns the fact that Michael can't come with him anymore. For Michael is buried in work, trying to keep Heaven afloat. The Darkness hasn't been seen for a while, but that's nothing unusual. She often vanishes over long periods of time, she's going to return soon enough.
Yet it's the sheer number of angels, which threaten to grow over Michael's head. There're still new ones popping up and they all need to be given a name. A purpose.
Michael robes the other Archangels into helping him the task. Everyone gets a batch of angels under him and it would be nice if they had something to do.
Lucifer is amused how Michael growls and restructures Heaven one day, because the old one doesn't suit is needs anymore.
When they finally have a minute for themselves, Lucifer joins Michael in his bed. While they don't need to sleep, it's nice to get some rest. Especially since there's always someone, who needs Michael's attention in some very urgent matter. Lately they talked about creating ranks. A hierarchy or else their siblings would keep knocking on Michael's door until the universe burned out.
"Michael, it's been a while since we were together like this," Lucifer purrs and crawls on top his brother.
The oldest archangel only raises an eyebrow in quiet amusement. He looks edible like this, laying on his back with his arms folded behind his head. It doesn't help that Michael is barely dressed as well, has forgone the usual robes that hide his magnificence, because he got tired of the admiring looks. What he had with Lucifer was private and Michael refused to share.
Lucifer growls at the sight, hunger and greed spreading fast through his veins.
He leans down to kiss Michael, hot and heavy. His brother chuckles, which only makes Lucifer want him more. Michael is still so much bigger and more confident than him, it dazzles Lucifer sometimes that his brother hasn't grown tired of him yet. Seeing him like this, completely at ease, which no other angel is allowed, draws Lucifer to his older siblings again and again. Brushing away the lower half of his robes, Lucifer grinds down and moans slightly when Michael raises his hips and rubs their groins together.
"It seems that you want something from me," Michael says casually ofand grabs Lucifer by his hips. "So why you don't take care of yourself and let me watch?"
Lucifer moans as he gets what Michael wants. Filled with the desire to finally be with Michael again after such a long time apart, he reaches down and prepares himself with his fingers. It's been a while, so he's tight and it hurts a little when his fingers meet his most sensitive parts. No one but Michael has touched him like this, never. A low groan makes him raise his head and Lucifer meets Michael's heated gaze, which is fixed on the part where his brother's hand vanishes between his legs.
"It was lonely without you," Lucifer pants and he bends back a little, places his free hand on Michael's muscled thigh for support. "I wanted to feel you again."
Lucifer's breath hitches, when Michael holds his gaze as he opens his pants and frees his hard cock. It's just as beautiful as he imagined it, when the mission grew longer and longer. Reminded of their time apart, Lucifer now hurries to finally fulfill the fantasies he haboured. Having Michael under him, waiting and panting, because his brother couldn't keep his eyes away from the spot where his fingers vanished into his own willing body, was the best of all in creation.
Withdrawing his fingers, Lucifer wraps them around Michael's hard shaft and positions himself over it.
"Yes," Lucifer hisses as the end slides into him and Michael's grip becomes bruising. Forces him to take everything at once and Lucifer LPshudders when Michael's hardness fills him out.
"Seven hells, it's been too long," he says and begins to moves not caring about adjusting first to Michael's considerable length.
"Easy, Morningstar," Michael's soothing voice washes over him, keeping the pace slow by fucking slowly in and out of his brother. "We have time. Let me watch."
Despite the intense need to ride Michael fast and hard, Lucifer complies. With a groan he settles on Michael's hips, taking the cock deeper into him. For a moment Lucifer enjoys just the feeling of Michael impaling him, breaching barriers Lucifer doesn't even show anyone else and while his brother might look composed, the hot and pulsating rubbing against his walls tells a different story.
Its proof of how much Michael wants this as well, despite his cool demeanour.
"Oh, I could do this all day," Lucifer says as he moves his hips in small cricles, clenching around the cock inside him. It almost seems as it grows even bigger.
Something flickers over Michael's face and while his hands travel to Lucifer ass to grab the cheeks thight and firm, he doesn't go into his usual wild and impatient mood where he holds Lucifer down and fucks him so hard that his ass burns for an eternity after that.
"You... okay?" Lucifer manages to say while his breathing becomes ragged. Riding Michael like this is glorious, but the lack of participation bothers him a little.
Since Father tasked him with watching over a young blue race at the other side of the universe, he hadn't much time to interact with Michael. Sometimes years go by without them having some time for themselves.
"I got injuried a while ago," Michael finally admits. "I was told to rest and heal up."
"You should have said something," Lucifer tries to snarl, but the moment he chooses to slow down Michael decides to wrap his fingers around the throbbing member they ignored so far.
"Fuck," Lucifer whines and nearly doubles over. When his hands hit Michael's broad chest in an attempt to hold himself upright, he senses the bleeding wound beneath the surface. "Fuck, Michael, why did you say anything?"
"I'm not that fragile," Michael answers and strokes Lucifer's flushed member with his fingers. "Besides it's a good distraction."
From the pain.
Michael doesn't need to say it, Lucifer can guess them anyway. When he concentrates, he can feel the full pain coming from Michael and since they are Archangels, there's little what the healers can do for Heaven's General. They simply possess too much engery and are often forced to heal themselves. Father rarely intervenes to repair them, when they gut hurt. Too much effort, since they are all very complex creatures.
What worries Lucifer is that his lover is still healing, despite the fact that the wound is already months old. What is strong enough to attack Michael, the strongest of them, in such a manner that he actually chose to rest instead of pulling through like he always does.
Perhaps it'd be wiser to stop, but Lucifer is too close to truly consider that as option. Besides he trust his brother to be honest with him, if it gets too much.
"Is this alright?" He asks and chooses a leisure pace, riding on a wave of pleasure and low desperation.
"Perfect," Michael whispers as he pulls Lucifer down, grabs a fist full of his hair and breathes into his mouth.
It makes a angle a little acome bet but Lucifer doesn't stop slowly rotating his hips. Michael is still inside him and that is all what matters. Especially when the fingers scratching his thighs tell him that Michael missed just as badly. In the end it's hard to tell how long they kept doing this, Lucifer riding his brother until they're both high strung with lust.
Finally Lucifer let's himself fall back against Michael's chest, heaving because he ended up showing off his back to Michael, wings spread wide and quivering as the orgsam rules through him.
Michael makes a pleasant sound, rumbling in his chest as he rubs Lucifer's stomach.
There's drying come between his legs, sticking to the sheets and his own stomach his covered in it as well, but Lucifer still doesn't want to move. Being with Michael like this is a state of pure bliss.
The Morningstar sighs when Michael presses a kiss against the bare skin of his neck.
This story is getting out of hand. Hence why there'll be still a few more chapters exploring the pre-Supernatural setting, before we return to the present (which is roughly set in Season10). Heaven is just such a delightful mess.
The bliss ends when Lucifer finally learns how Michael got injured. Although his brother doesn't want to confess, he finally has to when the wound refuses to heal and not even Raphael can do something.
"SHE did this to you?" Lucifer roars with white burning rage, that lights up entire star systems. "How could she? And why haven't you bloody said anything?"
Michael shrugs and stays silent. By now it's obvious that the darkness inflicted the wound on him and a lesser being probably would have perished. Only Michael's relentless determination keeps him upright, feeds the dark with his fire. But it costs him strength and Lucifer is afraid he'll lose the battle.
"She was angry at the Creator," Michael finally says, and only because he can sense God listening in. "I'm not sure if I was the intended target or if I was just a convenient outlet for fury. You know how she is."
The sadness in his brother's voice is what threatens to ripe Lucifer's heart out of his chest. Michael would never say it, but he's the one who is close to The Darkness. At least, they once had a deep connection with each other. Michael's wild fire, fueled by the million suns of the universe gets along with The Darkness' more destructive side. Yet lately they barely talked to each other, Lucifer remembers.
Concerned for his brother, Lucifer breaches the subject next time he's alone with his father. They're working on a new race, something with teeth and closer to the angels, then all other planet bound creatures. God wants something more. Not just an animal, but he has yet to produce a result, which satisfies him. Lucifer can sense his Father watching him as he uses his power and his creativity to shape the first few designs. Michael doesn't like it. Lucifer can't tell why, but Michael never gets truly comfortable while Father is around. Though Lucifer knows that Michael is a private person. He opens up far more, when they're alone together. Perhaps it's similar, when Michael is alone with Father.
Personally he doesn't mind the admiring gaze God sends him, when Lucifer is done. Pride fills him, makes him light up from the inside, when God tells him he'll use this particular design for the final draft. Lucifer smiles, pleased with himself. He has been working a lot with Father lately, who asks for his input more and more often. Since it's an easy and pleasurable task, Lucifer doesn't mind it. Especially not, since he gets lots of praise out of it.
"Well done," the Light praises him and Lucifer can't help but send God a dazzling grin. "My son, you're a marvel. Your abilities in creating something out of nothing might even match mine one day."
"Such kind words for me, Father. You've just taught me well," Lucifer says and can't help the arrogant smirk that appears on his face. "But since I've your undivided attention, may I ask why your dear sister is throwing fits again? Recently she attacked Michael and his wound still hasn't healed yet. He says it's nothing, but I'm afraid that it bothers him to a great deal."
Suddenly God is silent. He rarely takes a physical form, is just a grand presence of light among the stars, but Lucifer can feel the tremors going through him nonetheless. Thanks to their projects together, Lucifer noticed that Father had less and less contact with his sister recently. In fact, they barely talked to each other anymore. The Darkness hasn't shown her face in Heaven in centuries. For her taste, the angels produced too much light. Are too much like their Father and Creator to become truly comfortable around them. Lucifer doesn't know what she has been doing all this time, but it worries him that she attacks the one person she probably loved most.
Lucifer tells God this much and blinks in surprise, when Father trembles in rage and summons Michael in the next breath.
Since God's summon could be hear through the entire galaxy, it's not just Michael who appears. Gabriel and Raphael stand next to him, when God towers above them and demands from Michael to say the truth. Lucifer watches Father and Son argue back and forth. The longer it goes on, the more it looks as if Michael is protecting the darkness.
"Yes, she attacked me," Michael is finally forced to say, after God's wrath washed over the four of them. "But she didn't mean it. It was an accident."
He refuses to say more, but Lucifer is concerned enough that he doesn't stop Father, when he demands from Michael to reveal the wound. They all witness how Michael pulls a face, a rare show of displeasure in public. Lucifer knows it's because Michael thinks himself as the responsible one, who rarely looks after his own needs ever since he acquired to many younger siblings. It doesn't occur to Lucifer that Raphael and Gabriel see this display as an act of misplaced pride.
Yet he doesn't have eyes for the two other archangels anyway. They're all staring at the huge, ugly wound over Michael's grace. Long slashes, like claws that were drenched in poison. It looks painful, it has to be. Lucifer can't tear his eyes away as he stares at his brother, standing naked in the throne room.
"She should pay for this," Lucifer spats and is surprised by his own voice. He sounds bitter, angry and vicious. Large parts are directed at the Darkness. Another part hates Michael, for hiding this from him.
Michael, the perfect image of nonchalance. Michael, who only shrugs. Which makes Lucifer even more angry.
"I'm deeply concerned as well, Lucifer," God says as he reaches out to Michael with his power and heals the wound. Michael flinches under the contact, but he doesn't say anything. "A lesser being might have not fared to well. My sister is powerful and if she harbours a grudge against my children, then we need to take care of this."
It takes thousands of years of course, but for the archangels it seems as if the war between the Creator and the Darkness breaks out over night. Swift, sudden and very violent. Later it's mostly Raphael and Gabriel, who recount the tales since Lucifer is gone and Michael silent on the matter. In fact, Michael hardly says nothing at all. After the first very loud argument between God and the the Darkness, which only Michael was privy to, war broke out. It's the first war the universe ever witnesses and the magnitude of it destroys planets and star systems. Many races die, most simply being too young and too fragile to survive as the balance between Light and Dark starts to shift.
Michael seems to be indifferent to everything. He even invites Lucifer to his bed less and less. When Lucifer brings his concerns to God, the creator looks worried.
"Perhaps she affected him. She had a hand in his creation after all," the Creator muses. "It makes me glad that you're born from mostly my own power."
Lucifer doesn't know what to make of this, but at this point it makes sense. The Darkness has turned to attacking all over them, whenever she can and Lucifer turned out to be the least affected by her presence.
It's only when she invades Heaven and slaughters most of the younger angels, Michael starts fighting back.
Michael is covered in blood. His grace is so hot, that it burns until flames rise up the sky. They're all watching, at least mildly terrified as Michael drives the darkness back. They crafted a cage, a core that will hold the Darkness. An empty rock at will keep her trapped. It's a rather permanent solution, necessary after the Darkness ripped the younger angels apart. There're only very few of them left, but at least the end is nigh.
Lucifer watches from afar how Michael battles the Darkness. They're locked in a dance, beautiful and it seems to last forever. He tells himself it's necessary, when Michael shoves the Darkness over the threshold and Lucifer activates the spell that traps her. If they're exchanging words, then it's too quiet for anyone but Michael and the Darkness to hear it. Lucifer can't even discern the expression on Michael's face, when the doors slams shut and the Darkness is gone. Banished forever.
A key is crafted and God burns it into Lucifer's form, not trusting Michael to do it after it took him so long to throw his entire power into the war. At first Lucifer is proud to bear the mark. If this his task, it means that Michael doesn't have to share the burden with him. Despite their lack of contact recently, Lucifer still loves Michael. Loves him enough than he wants nothing to crawl into Michael's bed and press himself against the warm, burning grace.
Yet when Michael spots the mark on his brother, he turns his eyes away. Something akin to hate and disgust simmers in his eyes and Lucifer's grace turns cold.
It doesn't take long before Lucifer loses his patience with Michael and slams him against the next available surface.
"You're not running away from me," the Morningstar screams and claws into Michael.
They fuck, but it's not the same. It's never going to be the same again.
Sorry for the delay, I needed to figure out where the plot his (slowly) heading. Any particular wishes or kinks you want to see?
Chapter 9: Chapter 9
Sorry for the delay, but there were health issues ... and the pre-series timeline regarding the angels.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
It's not a surprise that they end up fighting again. Between the cage and the memories it dragged up, they were bound to use violence on each other again and it's easy to fall back into old habits. Right now Lucifer is tearing into Michael, throwing all his renewed anger at him. He snarls, uses his fists to make Michael bleed and screams, when his efforts don't have the desired effect.
"I hate you. I hate you so much, Michael," Lucifer roars. "Have you assumed we're alright again, just because you fucked me once or twice? You're still nothing more than a mistake."
Lucifer's fist connects with Michael's face and the older Archangel spat out blood. Yet the words hurt far more than the blow itself. Far more than they should, but after getting a taste of how things used to be, every angry word out of Lucifer's mouth reminds him how they ended up here in the first place.
With a growl, Michael grabs his brother's wrist and hurls him around. He has too much practice to be beaten like that. Lucifer is clever, used to outsmart him, since he knows he can't beat Michael in a fair fight.
"Liar," Michael hisses and his fingers bury themselves in the thick feathers of Lucifer's wings. "This is far from over."
His brother cries out, more out of anger than out of pain, but this isn't the way Michael imagined to get himself reacquainted with the wings of his lover. Grooming each other used to be a sign of trust among angels. Nowadays the habit is frowned upon. They're soldiers, warriors. They don't have to look beautiful while smiting demons. Michael admits that this kind of reasoning partly exists, because he never managed to let anyone do this after Lucifer left.
"M-Michael," Lucifer stutters and goes limb. He could get away with a bit of effort, but Michael touching his wings feels too good.
It's been ages since someone did this for him and Lucifer remembers how pleasurable this can be. Hell, there used to be a time, when he could render Michael into a moaning, sobbing mess just with a few strokes beneath the outer layers. It would be so easy for Michael to do the same. All his brother has to do, is to shove the hard long feathers aside that act as shell and shield in a fight. It'd be a violation, going for that without permission but Lucifer is already getting hard again and certainly wouldn't protest against Michael just taking what used to be his.
Yet the oldest Archangel surprises Lucifer by letting him go.
"Have you gone mad?" Lucifer asks, questioning Michael's sanity by given up such an advantage. "You won't get another chance. If you wanted to humiliate me, this would've been the way to go."
Anger flickers over Michael's face. It's the first in a long time Lucifer sees a crack in his brother's famous armor. Gone is the stone cold face, the empty eyes holding no emotions. Instead Lucifer sees rage, the holy fire that drew him to Michael so long ago... and pain. That is a surprise, kind of. While Lucifer hoped that their war didn't leave Michael unaffected, but until now he hadn't been sure.
Showing emotions long stopped being Michael's thing.
"You deserved to be punished Lucifer," Michael trembles and there's so much power behind his voice that even the cage releases its hold on them for a moment. "The time down here made you callous and cruel. That you expect me to use force on you in such a manner is testament how far you from the person you used to be, but I still believe you can be better than this. That you are better than this."
"Who are you to lecture me?" Lucifer screams back and in the next moment he's launching himself at Michael again.
Perhaps it'd have been tactically better to stay away, calm down and think of a better strategy, but Lucifer just ... can't. Michael's prolonged presence is messing with his head. He dreamed of the past before, when he was alone in the cage. Yet it was never like this. This raw and painful, but since kicking, hitting and screaming doesn't work, because Michael just stands there and takes it ... Lucifer goes back using the only weapon he knows that works.
He doesn't want to, he knows how destructive this is, but he can't help himself as he jumps Michael to kiss him. It's all teeth, tongue and biting each other, but oh fuck it's good. Lucifer moans when Michael's teeth break through his skin and blood trickles down his neck. Hands settle on his ass, grab it tight to draw him back in again and again.
"I should hold you down and spank you until you confess your sins," Michael growls as Lucifer keeps humping his leg, hard and intend to get off. Perhaps he can't deny the attraction between them, but no one said Lucifer had to be gentle about it. Yet Michael's words go straight to his gut and make his cock twitch. Lucifer tries and fails to suppress the whine that escapes his mouth, when Michael wraps his hand around his hard shaft. It's wet, leaking pre-come. "But it seems you'd just find a way to enjoy it, if I tried to discipline you."
For some reason, the words make his face burn and Lucifer kisses Michael again, hard and desperate, to hide his embarrassment. He does his best to appear angry, scratches lines into Michael's skin with his fingers until his brother bleeds, because he doesn't want him to know how much this prospect appeals to him. Lucifer would never apologize and bow his head before his father again, but Michael is so much better.
Michael is worthy of being worshipped. There was a time, when Lucifer freely admitted this.
It's frightening that he'd do it again in a heartbeat, no matter how much time has passed since then.
There must be something in his expression that betrays his thoughts, because Michael inhales sharply. It's not a surprise that the next kiss is slow and torturous, while Michael tugs at Lucifer's hair and claims his mouth. The devil follows the lead, because ... why not? Breaking away would just delay the inevitable. Besides if he does this right and enjoys himself, than Michael is going to completely miss the point in trying to punish him.
"I know what you're thinking." Lucifer shudders as Michael murmurs against his skin and squeezes his ass on purpose. "Let's see if I can make you beg like you used to. Or have you forgotten that's not the first time of me having to discipline you?"
"No, I've not," Lucifer smirks falls, when he thinks back.
What the period what the lesser angels called The Fall didn't hold exactly the most pleasant memories for Lucifer, but it hadn't been all bad.
It had been worse.
I want you thank you all. It's amazing how many people seem to enjoy the story.
"I should flog you for your disrespecting behavior," Michael hollers and Lucifer knows his brother isn't speaking about the fun version, they include in their games from time to time.
Well, not so much, anymore. Ever since the Darkness has been locked away, Michael drew away from him. There was a time, when Michael would've bend Lucifer over his desk to vent his anger and afterwards they've talked it out. But no, as Lucifer studies his lover, beautiful as ever despite the rage behind his eyes, it's unlikely to happen. They haven't shared a bed in a long, long time. Since Michael isn't offering an explanation, Lucifer guesses it's his fault.
He balls his hands to fists and fights the urge to spread his wings, asking his brother what's wrong with him that he isn't worth looking at anymore.
"I bet, you'd enjoy having more blood on your hands," Lucifer can't help, but taunt his brother.
Michael bares his teeth, growls and though they've taken a more humanoid form in order not to scare father's new creations, it's wise to remember that they aren't human. Michael least of all, because his teeth are sharp and his hands bend into claws for a moment, while he lights up inside. They leave scratch marks on the desk and Lucifer enjoys the sight of seeing Michael like this. It means, he still gets under his skin, despite the fact they're drifting apart. He doesn't have to like it, Michael's temper is always a sign of how stressed he is, but Lucifer can't care about it.
Not, when anger is the only kind of attention Michael believes Lucifer is still worthy off.
"Lucifer, I'm not happy with the Creator's new experiments either," Michael finally says, sighing and looking tired. "I know that these humans aren't like us, but he'll get over it soon enough. Can't you just ignore them instead of making such a ruckus about it?"
"I don't even know what you're talking about," Lucifer hisses and steps closer. He wants Michael to feel how angry he's. First Michael stops looking at him and now Father discards him as well. "All I did was talk a bit to the woman. It's not my fault that she grew a spine after that. Besides she accused Adam of forcing himself on her. Should I have just let it go?"
"Of course not, though I find it difficult to believe that Lilith knew exactly what she was talking about. That's something you put into her head, the humans are little more than animals, procreation is something all races have to do in order to survive and it's not always nice and gentle. They don't know what love is."
True enough, Lilith hadn't known what happened between her and the male human before. At first Lucifer just intended to sate his curiosity, but he found the female surprisingly intelligent. Self-aware even and when she asked if it's normal for Adam to come to her bed, whenever she wanted his attention or not, Lucifer gave her a word to these feelings. Perhaps it had overdone it a bit, but he wanted to see if she and Adam would talk it out.
Yet in the end, there still little more than pets. Father had intervened, when Lilith proved herself unwilling and banished her to a nearby planet. from Heaven. Lucifer had taken her back to planet, where God had picked up the hairless apes in the first place, and granted her enough power to survive on her own.
Perhaps he'd go back soon, check up on Lilith to see how she fared alone.
But of course, Michael isn't happy about it. To Lucifer's surprise Michael actually agreed with Father for once, something he rarely does.
The Mark throbs as he bends forwards, bringing his and Michael's face together until the warm breath of his lover ghosts over his skin. Even if Michael pulls away, it's more than Lucifer had in the entire last decade.
"Have you forgotten, Michael? Love is a lie. If Father can't figure it out, if Father can banish and live without his own fucking Sister, than what hope do we have?" Lucifer buries his fingers in Michael's dark hair, tugs at it until it has to hurt, but his brother barely makes a sound. The younger Archangel hisses quietly, "We're angels, Michael. We can't have children, so what excuse do you have for all the hours we spend together? Don't tell me, it's because of some gentle feelings in your black, stone-cold heart."
It's mostly anger that pours from Lucifer's lips. Pain, because Michael ignored him ever since he took on the Mark. Father is far too preoccupied with his new pets, and claims they're his best invention so far. That everyone should love these humans. Lucifer hates them. Best would be to get rid of them, but now there's a fucking guard in front of the gate. Father is intend on protecting his precious little human, probably already on it in making more.
But that doesn't matter, when Michael snaps and pushes Lucifer to the ground. Apparently bending him over the desk isn't enough, but Lucifer isn't picky at this point. He'll take whatever he can get. Even if he hates himself a little for the moan that escapes him, when Michael opens his pants carefully. Almost gentle and fuck that's not what Lucifer wants right now.
Michael doesn't have the right to make love to him, after they haven't shared a bed in decades.
"Come on, brother. You've done far worse to me in the past," Lucifer snarls and spreads his legs, knowing far too well how to get Michael desperate. "Show me that we're better than these animals. Show me what nice and gentle truly looks like, since you're apparently the expert."
His words are contradicting, but Lucifer doesn't know what he want for himself. Truth is that Michael is never gentle and Lucifer would rip out his wings, if he starts now. Michael is far too though, too strong and too powerful to feel anything, if violence isn't a part of their coupling. Lucifer wants to feel it, especially now. He wants it to last, to experience the burn for days after. Unfortunately this is the one time, where Michael refuses to give him what he wants.
Lucifer expects many thing, but not for Michael to crawl on top of him, reaching for his brother's hard shaft and guiding the tip inside himself.
"No, no, I want you to fuck me. No the other way around," Lucifer moans and arches his back, trying to get away, but ends up only sinking deeper into Michael.
"Too bad that I'm not giving you a choice," Michael murmurs, while he starts riding Lucifer. Who quickly notices that Michael still has all the control.
His brother's grace is binding him to the floor, keeping him down until it's impossible to move, impossible to cant up his hips even a little and Michael ... decides to take his time. Of all days, when Lucifer just wants it rough, fast and violent, Michael does it slow. For a while he just sits there, lets gravity do it's work, while his mouth keeps sucking marks on Lucifer's skin. Though Lucifer is riding waves of pleasure, being completely at Michael's mercy in a entirely different way, he notices that Michael doesn't touch the mark. Not even once, though the brand is huge and visible enough.
It's good, it's insane and perfect.
It still feels like a betrayal, when Lucifer is finally allowed to come, sobbing Michael's name while giving up a part of himself. It feels final, the way Michael kisses him, long and breathtaking.
Perhaps it's the fact that Michael remains quiet afterwards. Just gets up and dresses himself, while Lucifer lays naked on the ground, panting. There's a moment, when they look at each other. A moment, where Michael's eyes aren't dark and empty. A moment, where Lucifer forgets that things have changed between them and he still believes that they can salvage this.
"I need to speak to Raphael," Michael finally says and walks out of the door. "It's important. I'll see you later."
No word of their fight earlier and after Michael is gone, Lucifer realizes that his brother thinks that he can't change his mind anyway. Michael believes, it isn't worth trying.
If Lucifer wants to curl himself into a ball, hiding inside his wings to shed a few tears, then there's no one around to decipher the expression on his face. Though after a while the pain turns into anger anyway, leaving Lucifer furious and humiliated.
I'll get better one day, I swear. This story is far from finished :)
Michael is tense, when he finally meets up with Raphael. Since Lilith was banished, the Creator had been busy making a new wife for Adam and both of them had watched closely how she was brought into shape. More so, than with the male human Adam, since Eve would possess the ability to bear children. It hadn't been easy, earning the Creator's trust in order to be able to watch every single experiment. Whether it be a failure or a success. It had been tiring, feigning interest for a single species for so long. By now Michael knew a lot about humans and father's glorious plans for them, but Michael lacked the actual excitement, when would've made the entire endeavour worthwhile.
Right now Gabriel seems to be the only one, who's honestly interested. Well, good for Michael. He has other things to worry about.
Lucifer creating unrest among the angels, being one of them.
The Archangel sighs, wishes he had the time to take properly take care of his lover. Of course he noticed the distance between them and Michael misses him every single day. Every minute he could not spend at his side, wrapped up in his grace, was agony. Even the bond they once shared, had fallen quiet. Instead of using it, Lucifer used every opportunity coming his way to get Michael's attention. Probably hoping his lover would come running sooner or later, he created a mess, which was large enough for only Michael be able to deal with.
"Have you talked to Lucifer?" Raphael asks, when he entered the room. "Did you two sorted it out? It's a hassle, watching Lucifer mope like that."
Michael shrugs, "Not really. As much as I want to, I'm not sure how much influence the mark has over him."
"I can't say that I've spend enough time with him recently in order to judge that fairly," Raphael comments and raises an eyebrow, when Michael scratches his stomach. Again. He has done this at least three times already in the last five minutes. "It's difficult to say if the mark is changing him or just boosting what's already there."
"The latter probably," Michael answers honestly.
He's not so blind that he can claim that Lucifer would never act like does recently. His little brother has always been a little shit and Michael usually enjoys putting him back into place. But with their lack of communication he doesn't know, if Lucifer will listen to him. Or remain in long place long enough for Michael to get out, what he has to say.
Even it's just an apology. Lucifer deserves that much.
"Damned, this itches," Michael mumbles under his breath and scratches his stomach again.
His wings shuffle around a little, while he tries to settle again. Get comfortable, but it doesn't really want to work. There's the stinging feeling in his grace, like it's trying to make space for something. Usually Michael only experiences this, when he has been wounded and his grace works on getting rid of any contaminant.
Since Raphael has fallen silent, Michael lifts his head in order to ask what's the matter with him. Raphael's wide eyes and his shocked expression indicate that something is wrong.
"Did it work?" Raphael whispers, as if he's afraid that someone could overhear them. "Michael, did it truly work?"
For a moment Michael doesn't get, what his brother means until he follows the finger pointing to his stomach.
Then he remembers the plan he and Raphael once discussed, when the Creator started to focus more and more on the humans. Leaving the angel to fend for themselves, reaching the point, where Michael worried for the future of their race. Most angel see God at their father, as the powerful being that created them and the universe. They don't get that God never had much interest in them. Without the Darkness at his side, God is bound to get distracted. One day he'll just get up and leave, not bothering to check what happens his former creations.
For God, Angels are too focused and too universal to keep his interest. They make good soldiers, because they're resilent, have a various set of abilities and live long. They're the perfect messengers, since they can model their bodies after what ever species they're charged to observe. But that's it. Outside of it, God never held much interest in caring for them.
So Michael asked Raphael if it were possible for angels to make more members of their race. In whatever form it had to happen, it'd be likely that they'd need the knowledge one day.
"Oh," the oldest Archangel makes a small noise and puts a hand on his stomach. "That actually explains a lot."
They had talked about the theory behind, while observing Lilith how she got pregnant and gave birth. They calculated, what a angel would need, how the young had to be build in order to survive. Both of them had raised enough of God's creations, little angels among them, to have a good grasp on how to create a new life. Of course, they had to do it quietly. The Creator guarded the secrets of his work fiercely and would punish both of them, if he ever learned of their plans.
The main reason, why Michael had drawn away from Lucifer. His lover was too fiery, too possessive and too passionate to remain quiet about this. No matter if he accepted the child or refused to acknowledge his existence, because he didn't want to share Michael's attention with anyone else. Not to mention that the news would spread fast, create rumors and unrest. Raise questions. Sooner of later the Creator would learn about the child and Michael couldn't let that happen.
"Michael, are you crying?" Raphael's voice cuts through the storm of his turbulent thoughts.
Taking a shaky breath, Michael tries to focus on the present, while trying to let go of the pain that he could never tell Lucifer about this. Not anytime soon, if ever.
"We need to keep this a secret," Michael says quietly. "This needs to stay between us, Raphael."
"Of course," his brother answers with a huff. "Let's meet later so that I can take a proper look at you."
After Raphael has left, Michael reaches inside of himself. After a little careful prodding, he can feel the little spark. Bright and intelligent. The little one is currently tugging at Michael's grace, trying to build a nest of some sort, where it feels protected. It's a small part of Lucifer, which Michael took so de
This may come as a surprise to you, but I planned this from the very beginning. One reason why I go through the mess that is the Fall in the first place. But everyone who figures out, who the little fledgling is, gets a cookie. Those, who're worried about mpreg, which I'm not really found of myself, angels are genderless in general. Besides the whole affair won't contain anything too graphic.
Chapter 12: Chapter 12
Though Raphael regularly checked his condition, Michael mostly keeps to himself. He's paranoid about the life inside him. The Creator always jealously guarded his secrets and it wasn't easy for Michael to figure out how to do it on his own. Of course he could've managed to make the fledgling outside of his body, but the growing process is a delicate one. Angels are tough creatures, the Creator crafted them to be durable and adaptable, but until they reached the point where they can survive on their own, the little ones are especially vulnerable.
Michael can't remember his own childhood, if he ever had one, but the little one inside him is not allowed to come to harm.
It's already very smart, Michael quickly realizes. The little one is barely present as long as Michael has company. It hides deep in his grace, untrackable as long as other angels are around. When Michael stand before the Creator he even forgets that the child exists.
Only when they're alone, it comes to live. It kicks and tugs, wants attention until Michael gives in and stops whatever he's doing in order to please his offspring. But that's an easy task. Michael pours his entire love into the hours he spends with the little one. He gives him strength and knowledge, makes him durable in case he ever gets into trouble.
The only downside of this wonder is that he has to avoid Lucifer. In part, because he can trust no one until the little one is born and grown up. God's wrath would be terrible, if he ever finds out and Michael can't stand the idea of loosing the little one. Best, he keeps it a secret. Even from Lucifer.
Especially from Lucifer, since his brother has become jealous and angry. He creates more and more trouble within Heaven, has already angered God by tempting Adam and Eve until they were cast out. Michael likes to think it's the mark, he wants to blame it and its influence. He can't explain the changes in Lucifer otherwise.
One late evening, after another short but horrible fight with Lucifer, Michael realizes it's going to end soon. He can't even look at Lucifer anymore without getting angry. He's not the person he used to be and the sight alone makes Michael furious. At Lucifer, for changing and not being able to resist the mark. At God, for doing nothing. At the Darkness, for causing the dilemma in the first place.
"I hoped you could meet your father before you're born," Michael whispers to the little one.
Right now he doubts if he can ever tell Lucifer about their child. In the state Lucifer is in, Michael can't predict what he's going to do. Attack him? Attack heaven? He has done both already. It wouldn't take much to push Lucifer over the edge. And Michael can't fight in this state. Not anymore. He can't protect himself and the little one. It would take too much power, escpecially against Lucifer.
Michael is alone among the stars, waiting and standing in darkness. A tiny part of him hopes that Lucifer is going to come. He's not exactly hiding. His power is too obvious, too vast to be ignored. But Lucifer doesn't come. Michael waits and waits.
Until it's too late. The child has to be born and he has to do it alone.
"Well, perhaps it's for the best that no one is going to witness this," Michael tells himself, before he places his hands on the stomach.
There's no handbook to go by, no rules to read up. All Michael has is countless hours of watching animals give birth. That and his confidence.
A scream echos through the universe, when he plungs his hands into himself. Angels aren't made to procrate. Getting the child inside was difficult enough. Letting it grow as well, though that part is familiar at least. Archangels are almost immortal. When they die, their grace explodes, but it doesn't vanish. Over the thousands of years each of them had to start at the beginning once or twice. Put themselves back together.
Adapting the process for a grace made up from his own and Lucifer's was simple enough.
What Michael hadn't thought about, was getting the child out.
Later, much later, Michael has blood on his hands. On his wings as well. He must look horrible. He's exhausted and very, very tired. The suns around him burn, their storms and flares pass through him and light up his wings as they absorb the power. For a long time, Michael just sits in space, hoarse from screaming because he had to cut himself open in order to get the child out unharmed. As much as he wants to go to sleep and never wake up again, the sight of the fledgling in his hands stops him.
"You're beautiful," Michael whispers, unable to stop the tears in his eyes. "Like your father. You're so bright."
He truly is. The little one is barely more than a ball of light in his palms, but he's there. And he's perfect.
Michael knows he has never loved something so much. The day he met Lucifer is the only thing that compares. They looked the same. Bright, a mix of white and blue. Like Lucifer back then, the little fledgling stares at him with awe and wonder. Tries to reach for Michael, who bends his wings until the little fledgling is cradled between them. He's safe. Nothing can harm him here and Michael contemplates of staying here. Running away from heaven with nothing more than the child in his arms.
Too bad it won't work. He can't hide. Not from God. Not from Lucifer. They will find him, sooner or later.
And they would blame Castiel. Both of them.
Michael repeats the name. It sounds right. It's strong. Connected to all living creatures, all those that move. Michael knows that his child will be assigned to a specific task, day or star. It's the way of the angels to keep track of each other. With a bit of caution, Michael gazes into the future. Castiel's position isn't going to be grand, but it's dependable. Secure.
His child is going to be safe.
Michael has to fight the tears that threaten to overwhelm him. His little one is craddled in his arms, so bright and innocent. But it's the only time he'll be able to hold him.
I can't keep you, Michael thinks and his wings quiver with pain. Suns react to his anguish, but there's nothing he can do. There's nothing anyone can do. No one is allowed to know, what I did. God would destroy you. So would Lucifer. Your siblings would hate you. You would be alone.
The future flashes in front of him. Michael sees Castiel at his side, proud and arrogant. Alone, because his agemates are too jealous to connect with him. Lucifer swings between hate and love, hurt by the fact that Michael kept this from him. Claims sometimes that Michael did this without his consent and uses the fact as leverage. The future isn't written in stone, but this way isn't the solution to all of Michael's problems. If he reveals Castiel's parentage too early, the Creator is going to turn on him. On them.
God would kill Castiel, branding him as abnomination. Followed by Michael, because he rebelled. Lucifer too, because the Morningstar no longer has the Creator's favor and acted out too often in the past.
Raphael and Gabriel would suffer as well. Smote, because they're the oldest Archangels after Michael and Lucifer. There're others, of course. But those four were the oldest, the strongest and the most important. Without them, Heaven has no future. It would crumble quickly.
"I can't," Michael chokes as he presses Castiel against his chest, ready to say goodbye. "I'm sorry, my son. But I can't keep you. I can't even love you the way you deserve. This has to be my secret. You're never going to know, what kind of power you possess. You'll never know, how kind and loving Lucifer can be. And you're possibibly never going to see me again."
At least not personally. Not up close. Castiel would grow up as a soldier, because it's the safest place to be right now.
Michael will have to stay away. Delegate the army of Heaven more than he did in the past. But there's a war brewing in the horizon anyway. Lucifer has been pushing his limits and God is losing his patience.
This could've been the happiest day in his long, eternal life, yet Michael only sees that he's powerless what is about to come.
There's nothing, what he can do.
Chapter 13: Chapter 13
I wish there was an official timeline for the stuff that happened in Heaven. It's just confusing!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
The way back seems to be the hardest thing Michael has ever done. He carefully avoids Lucifer and is actually glad that he doesn't run into him. How can he explain the state he's in, while being in company of a very young angel? Lucifer would draw his own conclusions and Michael can't have that. Not while they're all in danger.
He doesn't trust God. Michael never dared to voice the thought, not even to himself. All he had was a feeling. A sense of dread and fear, something he never has been able to explain. Yet now the circumstances have changed. He can longer afford to hesitate.
Michael looks down at the tiny being in his hands. Castiel is safe, deeply buried in his grace and protected by Michael's wings. There's nothing left in this universe, which is capable of harming the little one. Michael is going to make sure, that is never going to change. Forging a connection between him and his child might be dangerous, but Michael has so much grace at his disposal that one is going to notice it, if he donates a small share to his child.
Not too much, not so much that it's going to make other angels suspicious, but what Michael can do is make Castiel though. Difficult to kill. Michael smiles as he creates a tiny mark, a tracking spell and wraps it into the fledgling's grace, near his wings. No one is going to look there and over time Castiel's own grace is going to grow over it.
"I'm sorry that this is necessary, little one," Michael whispers and presses his son against his chest. He's so small and Michael doesn't want to let him go.
And yet ... he doesn't have a choice.
Not with God still around. Not with the Creator growing mad from loneliness.
Michael sighes. He knows the Creator better than anyone else. Banshing the Darkness helped no one in the end, but he isn't strong enough to get rid of his father. Perhsps he could've risked it, had he his brothers at his side with Lucifer at full strength. But even then it would be a close call.
Little Castiel makes a sound. His eyes flutter and he stares up at Michael. He can't talk yet. He's an infant, but he possesses enough awareness to recognize Michael as another angel. As family even, given how much time they spend together.
Wrapping his grace around his son in a protective embrace, giving Castiel warmth and love, is all what Michael can do. It's the last gift. The last time, because Heaven is approaching fast on the horizon.
Castiel chirps, for the lack of a better term and Michael knows he has to do what's necessary. Fast, or else Castiel is going to remember him, however faint and it's something he can't risk. God is already looking at everyone with suspicion, punishes those who dare to voice their opinion. After Lucifer's antics, after all the uproar he caused, being a silent and obedient soldier is the safest path right now.
Michael trembles with hate and anger every time the Creator punishes one of his siblings, but there's nothing what he can do. Not, with Lucifer not trusting him. Not with Lucifer still being under the influence of the mark. Not with Lucifer changing so fast that Michael barely recognizes him anymore.
With a deep breath, Michael flies to the Garden. Joshua is in charge and they exchange a few friendly words. Long enough that Joshua doesn't notice how one of Michael's wings drops Castiel into one of the nests. There're so many fledglings around that Joshua won't notice the difference.
It breaks Michael's heart, when he sees Castiel tumble into the nest, small wings fluttering helplessly but the impact doesn't harm him. The nest is soft and well protected. The other fledlings inside quickly draw him in, make space for a cuddle session as they sleep and feed at the same time.
One last glance is all what Michael gets, before he retreats and severs the connection.
Leaving the Garden is the hardest, what he's ever done. But it's necessary. Already Michael can feel God summoning him. The pressure of God's demanding presence reaches him, swift and fast like a blow.
Their father is angry. As usual.
Michael takes a deep breath and starts walking. As steady as possible, for there enough other angels in the corridors. A few wish to talk to him, but with practice ease, Michael ignores them. Tells them that God has summoned him and their worries have to wait. It's wrong, he knows that. God is capable of taking care of himself and his siblings shouldn't be brushed aside, but ...
... there's nothing what Michael can do.
And he hates himself for it.
He steps inside the throne room, a corner of the universe where the Creator doesn't bother to hide his true face. It feels like as if he standing inside a sun. The light hurts, now more than ever.
God rages, once again, because of something Lucifer has done. Yet Michael is barely listening. Sweat runs down his forehead and his hands tremble. His grace twists and churns, rearranging itself now after Castiel is gone. Michael realizes that he needs to rest. Take a break, but according to God he just had one.
God assumes that he's at full strength.
"Enough," God finally hollers. "Something must be done about Lucifer. He has fallen under the influence of my sister. He corrupted Lilith, seduces my loyal soldiers to fight for him and now he has approached Eve. DO SOMETHING, MIK'HAIL. I TASK YOU TO REIGN LUCIFER IN."
Michael keeps his face straight and shows no emotions as he says, "Yes, father."
He wants to hurl, crawl into a small corner and go to sleep. Forget the universe, Lucifer and his siblings for a moment. But he has to act. He's too weak to stand a chance against God right now. Not, when he's being torn apart. Not with Lucifer raging through their connection and Castiel crying in distress through another.
"I can't," Michael whispers and drags himself into his office. He's cold and empty. Tears run down his face, because nothing turned out the way he wanted. "I can't do this any longer."
He hasn't seen Lucifer in ages, though he knows that his brother still comes back to Heaven from time to time. Sneaking in, because Lucifer is one step away from being banished and Michael doesn't know if he can survive it. He barely survived losing the Darkness, as troubling her actions had been.
Michael tries to remember the last time he was happy. Content. But he can't. He can't even tell, when Lucifer craddled in his arms the last time. It must've been ages ago. Right now Michael wants to nothing more than fall asleep and have Lucifer's wings wrapped around him. With Castiel placed on Lucifer's chest, who would make stupid cooing noises. It'd be perfect. Lucifer would smile again, like he used to.
"Perhaps having Castiel was a mistake," Michael tells himself, burying his face in his hands.
His hope was that Castiel would bring them together, that they would bond over the child. Instead they're falling apart and thinking about the little fledgling just reminds Michael what he can't have. Can never have again, if he understood the Creator correctly.
Michael is alone in his office and no one sees his tears, when he starts sobbing, cursing his life and his existence.
I swears it's going to get better. One day.
Chapter 14: Chapter 14
"I hate it to be the messenger of bad news, but you look awful brother," Gabriel says, when he sees Michael the next time.
"Shut up," the oldest Archangel hisses, which makes Gabriel jerk back a little.
It's not often that Michael looses his temper, he used to be the patient and the understanding one. Lately the oldest angel had been on edge and if weren't for his truly bad condition, Gabriel would've backed out immediately. The sweat on Michael's forehead stops him. His oldest brother looks tired and his hands tremble, when he steps closer in order to drag Michael away from his work place.
"Michael, you need to rest," Gabriel insists. "Let me call Raphael. Or Father. You don't look good and should get help. Isn't that what you're preaching all the time?"
"Don't call Father," Michael rasps and his condition is bad enough that his voice breaks over it. Gabriel thinks he sounds a bit panicked, but doesn't argue with the explanation Michael offers. "Don't bother him with this. I'll be fine. It will be over soon. Just... don't tell anyone. I can't effort to look weak now."
Gabriel pulls a face and looks like as if he wants to argue, but this time he keeps his mouth shut. When he gently guides Michael away, they pass a series of huge windows. Michael likes this place, being able to watch the universe with it's stars, suns and planets calms him, he says. Gabriel prefers to stay on the planets itself, he has an eye for detail. He likes the oceans, the animals and watches whatever semi-intelligent race is currently developing on it. Humans are specialised interesting and though God banished them from Heaven, he doesn't keep Gabriel from visiting from time to time.
"Are you going to tell me what's wrong with you?" Gabriel wants to know, pushing aside his personal issues.
Truth is that always got better along with Lucifer. They worked side by side, just like Michael and Raphael did. They joked, they had fun and Gabriel was forced to witness first hand how much the Morningstar changed after the war. Gabriel was never able to put his finger on it, how or if Lucifer transformed into someone else after he took the Mark. Perhaps it was just the fact that Michael and Lucifer grew apart. Became cold and distant until the point, where everyone but them realized that no one benefits from this kind of war.
Okay, not everyone. Just Gabriel. Just him, who realized that his brothers and sisters are tearing each other apart.
His greatest fear was that they already past the point, where the wounds within their family can be healed.
Michael and Lucifer weren't even talking to each other anymore. Lucifer formed his own group, spoke out more and more against their Father while Michael stayed back. Remained silent and just watched from the sidelines.
"Mikey?" Gabriel whispers, as his brother leans against him, because he barely can keep himself upright. His looks sick and pale. Small. Not like the huge, radiant figure Gabriel grew up with and admires so much. "Mikey, are you alright?"
As answer Gabriel gets a hollow laugh. A hand wraps itself around his waist and the younger archangel freezes. That's not an innocent touch and the mouth trailing over his bare neck doesn't help. Given that he doesn't have a steady and permanent partner for such activities, Gabriel desperately tries not to react to any of this. That is soul screams for some warmth and contact after so many nights spend alone, almost makes him give in.
"Brother, you're a mess," Gabriel protests. "I know, you're out of your mind, because otherwise you would never even think about cheating on Lucifer. You love him far too much to seriously consider this."
Michael mumbles something incomprehensible, but given how his grace twists and throbs as if it's trying to reach for something that isn't there, Gabriel knows he's right. At least this is a constant, Michael's and Lucifer's love for each other, no matter how ugly it might turn out to be.
"I gave it up. I had to give him up, I couldn't keep it." Michael finally says as Gabriel drags down the corridor.
"What are you talking about?" Gabriel feels bad for prodding, but Michael is delirious and probably injured.
Even though Gabriel can't see any wounds, there's something wrong with Michael. His eyes are distant, as if he's looking at something far away. Lucifer perhaps? The younger archangel doesn't get why Michael just doesn't talk to his lover. Lucifer is better at hiding it, but he's suffering as well.
Apparently Michael isn't convinced, because he whispers to his younger brother, "It's too dangerous. He can't know, Gabriel. He can't ever know. He can't ever know."
It's the only thing Michael keeps saying until they've reached Raphael. Nothing of it makes sense apart from the fact that Michael looks like a shadow of his former self. Gabriel watches how Raphael tries to hide his worry, when she shoves Michael inside a room and throws everyone out. Leaving Gabriel guessing, what happened. For Raphael didn't look surprised. Just very concerned.
They're lying to you, Gabriel thinks and a wave of resentment crashes over him.
He has done everything to keep this family together, to find a possible solution to this mess. But he's tired. It's always him, who gets stuck in the middle. Obviously neither Michael nor Raphael are trusting him, probably declaring him as too young and too irresponsible to be let in on the big and important secrets.
Angry with himself, Gabriel turns around and leaves his two older siblings fend for themselves, not noticing that a few angels have seen him and Michael together.
"You lying bastard," Lucifer screams at Gabriel and throws him across the room. "I thought I could trust you and then I find out that you've been sleeping with Michael behind my back."
"What are you fucking talking about?" Gabriel growls as he picks himself up from the floor.
Lucifer makes a terrifying sight and most angels have long fled, even those loyal his brother. But Gabriel doesn't care. He might be afraid as well, but he refuses to give ground. Not when Lucifer throws such empty accusation at his face.
Here I thought at least Lucifer is able to be reasoned with, Gabriel thinks, trying not to look at the disappointment spreading through his entire being like an untreated sickness.
"You were seen together," Lucifer hurls all his anger at Gabriel. He's bright, sharp and uncaring. Cold. "I fucking saw you. Michael doesn't get clingy. Or are trying to tell me he's suddenly the hugging type?"
"He needed help, you moron. All I did was drag his sorry ass to Raphael." Gabriel's chest is tight. He wants to cry and scream, but it would be useless. Lucifer isn't even truly seeing him. Just a twisted version of what happened.
"Liar," Lucifer growls and goes after Gabriel again.
This is time, the younger archangel is fast enough to get away. But crumbling wall behind him underlines the seriousness of the situation.
"Fuck, if you don't believe me, even though I've been on your side the entire time, than perhaps they were right," Gabriel almost screams, unable to shake the sinking feeling of desperation that his family is truly through and done for. "Perhaps the mark did corrupt you, if you're aren't able to tell friend from foe."
"That's not true," Lucifer roars back, but makes a hasty retreat by opening is wings and flying away as fast as he can.
Gabriel watches his brother leave, left alone and with no one to turn to.
Deep down Lucifer knows that Gabriel is right. Michael would never touch anyone else. He tries to believe it, but he can't escape his doubts. The whispering voice that tells him that Michael found someone better. Brighter and more beautiful, because Lucifer is ugly. He can't deny it as he flies over the ocean and stares at his reflection. He doesn't recognize himself, how can he expect Michael to remain true if the lover he once knew is gone?
Lucifer sheds the illusion of a humanoid body and turns back to his true form. Nothing, but a powerful force of light.
And if weren't for the ugly twisted thing in his heart, the black dark brand, he could almost believe it. Yet watching the mark, studying it, reveals that he isn't the same person he once was. His grace around the mark is numb and darkness seeps in like ink into a clear glass of water.
His reflection is proof or what Lucifer has been afraid of for a long time now.
He's tarnished. Corrupted.
"I don't want this anymore," Lucifer confesses to himself. Perhaps he should be crying, raging. Pleading for help. Yet all he feels the cold. A cold that spreads and numbs his feelings.
All what remains is anger and hate. When he thinks of hitting Michael until he's bruised and bleeding, then he feels something. A familiar fire that burns everything it touches. That burned him and yet he always went back for more. Unfortunately Lucifer can't even summon a single memory how it felt to have Michael in his arms. To writhe under his touch until he was begging, until Michael's eyes were blazing with love and obsession.
I've almost forgotten how that feels like, Lucifer thinks and wonders if keeping the mark is worth forgetting Michael.
Once he had been proud to be Father's advisor. To bear the mark had been a sign of trust and Lucifer had felt important. Right now, he hates the Creator far more than ever. He's raging, destroying and tears apart everything God tries to make.
He hates humanity. Small, fragile beings that receive more attention than him. Michael and Father both have been wrapped up in this little project and Lucifer doesn't get what makes this species better than the rest. They have build sentient beings before and compared to them humans are dump and ugly.
Well, perhaps there's something to them. Perhaps he should find out, what humanity has to offer.
Not much, turns out. Humanity is still in the transitional stage. No civilisation, nothing. They're barely more than animals. Though they've already lost the hair the had the last time. After Adam and Eve had been banished from the Garden, they had to be integrated into the planets eco system. Lucifer wonders if God allowed Adam to keep his memories.
Eve will choose another path soon. Just like Lilith already has.
Lucifer is proud of that one. Both woman don't want anything to do with God. Though they're still young. Let's see what they're going to do with humanity. They're both going to be mother figures, the origin. Together with Adam and the other, less important humans since you can't create an entire race from just two people. As far as Lucifer knows, they're a couple of hundred. Maybe less.
It takes a while, but one day Lucifer stumbles over a small family.
One woman, Eve. Still loyal to her husband, though Lucifer can see it in her heart that she's sick of being blamed for the banishment. One man, Adam. Unchanged as ever. Lucifer can see the light of Heaven in his eyes. So he remembers.
There're also two boys. Brothers.
Lucifer hates them from the first moment. They're laughing, trusting and loving each other. As if nothing can ripe them apart. He's going to change that.
His laughter echoes over the earth and Adam can't find any sleep that night, but Heaven remains unaware.
"You're beautiful," Abel breathes. He has said it countless times, but Lucifer likes hearing it.
As it turns out, angels visiting the family isn't that uncommon and Abel didn't question the beautiful being that wants his company. The angel is curious about everything he does. How he hunts, how he lives and how he views life and the universe. The angel talks as well, tells wonderful stories about the stars and the things he has seen.
"Can I touch you?" The angel asks and touches Abel's face.
The young human breathes heavily. He has been with women before. He has a wife and children. He hadn't thought that angels could feel like this as well, but recently the angel visited him in a body. Made out of earth and dust, he says. But Abel doesn't care.
Instead he says, "Yes."
It's most wonderful night in his life.
It's also his last.
Blood drips onto the earth. The previous unmarked skin is slashed open and Abel is gasping for breath, staring at his brother with wide eyes. They reflect horror and incomprehension. Why? That is the question that runs through is mind, though Abel's thoughts are getting darker and darker. He's dying.
They know that. Cain is crying, cradling Abel in his arms and stroking his head, promising that it will be over soon.
Lucifer is leaning against a tree, delighted. He never thought it would work. Seducing Abel was easy, the boy was born in the Garden, yet can't remember much of it. Unlike his brother, who recognized Lucifer. Yet, as bright as Cain was, he couldn't see through the trap Lucifer laid out.
Cain is sobbing, still clutching the First Blade in one hand that is buried in Abel's chest, unable to let go.
"You're a monster," Cain screams at Lucifer.
But the archangel only laughs, "It was your choice, Cain. I didn't force you to kill your brother. That was all you."
Truth is that Cain had been jealous. Abel told is brother about the night he spend with the angel and Cain's buried feeling, 'cause they were wrong and sick and against God's degree, couldn't allow such sin to continue. Lucifer hadn't thought that Cain was capable of such a thing.
Murder. Fratricide .
"What did you do?" Adam screams, having finally discovered the absence of his sons. He looks distraught.
He too, recognizes Lucifer. Apparently God allowed the first family to keep their memories of Heaven. Adam looks at Lucifer, eyes full of sadness and rage. Unable to understand why they're being punished.
Yet all the Archangel sees is how much Adam looks like Michael. Dark hair, deep eyes and a bright soul.
Lucifer's mouth twitches. He's beyond care right now, the air is thick with darkness and it already seeps into the souls of the people around them. The mark throbs, aching and suddenly Lucifer knows, what he has to do.
"You can save your son, Adam," Lucifer bends down to the man, smiling. "Take his soul to Heaven. Tell the guards how his brother murdered an innocent boy and they'll let him in. He may not be able to return to Earth, but at least his soul will be safe. Who knows what happens if it stays here?"
Lucifer kisses Adam. It's a promise. An exchange of power and the mark burns bright.
Adam hesitates for a moment, unsure what he should do, but Lucifer can see the path ahead of him. In the end, Adam does as he's told. Afraid that the taint that has already taken Cain will infect Abel as well, he takes his son and leaves. The First Blade remains in Cain's hand, who's still crying.
"Don't be sad," Lucifer says, wrapping an arm around Cain. "You did well, your brother is safe."
Another kiss, for Cain this time and the mark burns again. With delight Lucifer discovers that he has passed it on. The Darkness had latched onto the Father of Murderer.
He's free of it.
Lucifer laughs and flees from Earth, watching from afar how Adam turns up at Heaven's Gate. Desperate. Crying out to God to safe is son. Heaven trembles under God's Wrath. Angel's are in uproar, because of what happened and news travel quickly, who's responsible for it. There's talk about war, about vengeance and that something must be done.
Angel's are send out to find Cain, yet the boy is gone.
Lucifer is delighted to find out that Adam's return to Heaven isn't without consequences. Since he has already done it once, God curses him to do it again. For every single human who dies, Adam will come and deliver is soul to Heaven. If he does well, he's allowed to visit his son in the meantime.
Death is born.
And Lucifer can't stop laughing.
I had the idea for a long time. Death being Adam. Given that me have met Eve and Lilith, I wondered who Adam might be. With the issues of Cain and Abel, I made Death into someone who has indeed known God for a long time. It also explains how a) Lucifer got rid of the mark in the first place b) how the darkness was freed by Dean killing Death.
Chapter 16: Chapter 16
It's been raging for ages, mostly because Lucifer is a master of getting away. After the debacle with Abel, Cain joined Lucifer's side. God said it was willingly, but Michael had his doubts. Pitting one inexperienced human against an archangel is unfair, but over the years Cain damned himself by using the First Blade against angels and other humans. Since the tension in Heaven has been running high over the last centuries, the first battle was just a matter of time. What surprised even God, was how many angels joined Lucifer's side. They were eager to fight and to kill.
Whenever Michael meets one on the battlefield their ferocity is a marvel and sometimes they look even beautiful. Though their wings go dark and they eyes change colour, because the only place where the army refuses to treat is hell, they remain his siblings.
Michael remembers their names, though God has ordered not to use them anymore.
Father dubbed them the Fallen and demands loyalty from everyone else. Earth grows into a place that is divided by light and darkness, a contrast so strong that Michael retreats deep into other corners of the universe sometimes in order to remind himself that there are other colors between white and black.
He desperately tries not to get involved, but in the end God insists. Besides, Gabriel returns one day from having clashed with Lucifer.
"You look horrible, little brother," Michael comments, when Gabriel returns all bloody. Most of his armor is destroyed, he looks tired and there's blood on his wings.
"You're such a ray of sunshine," Gabriel croaks, but doesn't fight his brother off, when Michael gentle drags him into a quiet corner.
The younger archangel quivers, when Michael begins to clean him. Gets the blood and the taint off his wings, heals his wounds and holds him tight, when Gabriel finally breaks.
"Why?" Gabriel cries and hides his face in Michael's neck, glad that the huge wings surrounding them hide his shameful reaction. He has fought thousands of battles, has ended lives before. Destroyed planets, but fighting Lucifer is different. "Why, Michael? I can't understand why he's doing this?"
"Neither can I," Michael sighs. "Neither can I."
Truth is he hasn't seen Lucifer in decades. Perhaps they've been evading each other, perhaps it's God, who keeps them apart, because the next meeting is going to end in a disaster.
Michael looks down, where Gabriel has finally fallen asleep in his lap. Out of all archangels, Gabriel is still the most innocent. Raphael has become cold and unmoving. They barely talk to each other anymore, at least not outside the war councils.
You should leave, Michael sends his brother an idea, plants it into his head. Run away. Far away and hide. There're better places than Heaven. It's not home anymore.
It's a good idea. Michael gets up and leave, after brushing over Gabriel's wings with own for one last time. He doesn't expect to see him again. But it takes a while for him to finally turn away, because the sight of Gabriel, battered and broken, makes him realize that he can't kill Lucifer. Not matter what happens, no matter how long this war will continue or how many of siblings die.
Killing Lucifer is something he isn't capable of. How, when Lucifer is the only one who was with him from the start? The only one he has ever let close?
"I've to think of something," Michael says to himself. "There has to be something I can do."
Though he probably doesn't deserve the outcome he's hoping for. Too long he has been telling himself that he's powerless. That he can't defy his father, because that's a fight he'd lose. He has given up his child, his siblings and his lover. Everything he has loved, slipped through his hands.
Looking out the window, hoping to miraculously seeing Lucifer just on the other side, Michael says, when all he gets is a wonderful view on the stars, "I don't deserve you, my love. But I can't lose you. So I'm sorry for what I'm about to do to you."
"Father, we need to look Lucifer away," Michael finally proposes with a heavy heart.
He has wrecked his brain and searched the entire library for a solution, but the chaos keeps getting worse and with every day that passes he fears that the Creator is going to loose his patience one day. Lucifer has been playing with humanity, tempting them has he has tempted Cain and Abel. His followers follow his example. They enjoy seducing men and women, until they're destined for hell as well.
"IS THAT YOUR SOLUTION, MIK'HAIL " God asks and like always his wrath rolls of him in waves. There's nothing left of the excited young being, who loved everything that was new in the universe once. All God still cares about is his authority "WHAT IF I ORDER YOU TO FINALLY KILL HIM? YOU'VE HELD BACK LONG ENOUGH."
"My Lord, I don't think that is wise. Lucifer still bears the mark and killing him, could set your sister free," Michael explains and hopes his father will never learn of the lie he just told. Yet the danger hardly exists, God never leaves heaven and barely interacts with anyone besides a few handful selected angels anymore. He doesn't know that most of the mark has been passed onto Cain and Adam.
It's a good solution. Michael helped Adam adapting to his new position, after God cursed him for bringing Death into Heaven. Since Cain and his father blame themselves for what happened to Abel, they would never make a move against the other. Michael made sure of that, extracting an biding oath from both. Now they're both bound, forever trapped in these forms. Nearly immortal as well and powerful enough to defend themselves against whatever threats Eve or Lilith cook up.
A smile escapes Michael. God will never know what he did. Too long God has been delegating such tasks to Michael, content to let his eldest son handle such things.
Locking Lucifer away isn't ideal, but preferable to God finding out that Lucifer's death wouldn't have horrible consequences for anyone involved.
"THAT IS A RISK WE CANNOT TAKE!" God decides. "BUT LUCIFER CANNOT REMAIN FREE ANY LONGER. I WISH YOU TO BUILD A CAGE! A PRISON AND ONCE IT'S DONE AND LUCIFER LOCKED INSIDE, YOU'LL THROW IT INTO THE DEEPEST BOWELS OF HELL."
"Yes, Father," Michael says and bows his head.
To his left Raphael looks horrified. Either by God's verdict or Michael's willingness to see it throw, that's difficult to tell. But just like many times before, Raphael doesn't protest, when they finally draft up plans.
"Make sure to add a backdoor " Raphael says one evening, when they're categorizing spells and possible seals. Imprisoning an Archangel is not easy and Lucifer has always been creative.
Michael raises an eyebrow at his sister.
Raphael shrugs. "If we seal him away and something happens, I'd like to know we can get him out. Even if it's just to kill him. Imagine what happens, if the Darkness breaks free and corrupts the cage from inside and we have no way of knowing."
His heart flutters with hope. Michael isn't sure if Raphael means the words the way he understands it, but he grateful nonetheless.
"You're right, sister," Michael says and offers her smile. He has the feeling that he hasn't done so in a long time.
With Gabriel being around less and less, Michael is thankful if he doesn't have to watch what is going to happen next, Raphael is the one of the last honest friends he has. There're other Archangels, younger then them and almost as powerful, but they've never quite managed to bridge the gap that still lays between them. Gabriel and Raphael they treat like friends, but Michael remains a figure of awe. Someone they look up to. Someone they expect to have answers, since God isn't talking to anyone.
"One question remains," Raphael muses, when the spell for the cage is nearly finished and her wings shuffle behind her back. She seems uncomfortable. "How do we get Lucifer to play along? He's not going to come willingly."
"Leave that to me," Michael says and hates himself that he can speak about committing such horror in such a casual way.
He wants to ripe out his heart for what is about to happen, but it has to be done. Between the alternative of having God kill the person he loves most, he rather has Lucifer locked up. Though it will look like a betrayal. It has to. Lucifer has to hate him in order to survive the cage.
Michael can't allow Lucifer to succumb to the temptations of hell.
He leaves the room and is glad that Raphael doesn't follow him. His sister has always been observant and she must know how much Lucifer still means to him. Though she knows better than to ask, after Michael hinted at her that he lost the child and isn't ready to dig up the project again. It's not that he doesn't trust his sister, but Castiel's parentage has to remain a secret. Especially with God still around and Michael can't quite tell how deep Raphael's loyalty towards their father truly runs.
"At least it will be over soon," Michael mummers when he throws a glance at the half-finished cage. "I can't wait for the day it's finally going to be over. I can't do this anymore. I can't go on like this."
Correction. He doesn't want to go on like this.
"No, no, no, please, Michael, no," Lucifer pleads. He's not thinking straight, transformed into a mass of pain and grief - and all he can do is hang on to his brother. "Please, I can't live through this again."
A shuddering breath goes through both of them, because the brothers are so closely inter-vined that they can't tell where one begins and where the other ends. All Lucifer is aware of that he's clinging to Michael with his head buried in his neck while tears are freely running down his cheeks. He's gasping, trembling and it takes a while to realize that most of the agony isn't his own. It's Michael's, though it barely matters giving how close they've bonded.
Lucifer manages to raise his head and look Michael in the eyes, sees the same kind of anguish reflected in them. The aftershocks of the most recent attack still haven't let them go yet, the cage still has them firmly in its grasp. At least Lucifer is able to tell again, which is memory and which is reality. Given the empty gaze and the horrified expression, Michael isn't quite there yet. His older brother is still at the mercy of his worst memories and Lucifer's heart almost bursts, when Michael tilts his head back and screams. The sound is not human and Lucifer can't stand it.
Reliving the early days, the war that brought him here in the first place, should've made him cold and bitter again. Logic demands that he should enjoy Michael's punishment, but even without feeling his lover's anguish as keenly as his own Lucifer wouldn't be able to stand it. Every second Michael cries, begs and screams, trapped in the moment where the cage closed around his brother and the cage sunk into the deepest bowels of hell, is a moment too long.
"Michael, stop," Lucifer says in a hurried voice and cradles his brother's face in his quivering hands. "Please hear me, it's not real anymore. Brother, I beg you, it's over. It's a memory. It's just a memory."
But Michael doesn't seem to hear him and perhaps he's truly back there. With an Archangel's power to meddle with time and the cage's properties to hold one, it might be enough to bend the fabric of reality. Whatever Lucifer is supposed to feel, pain and resentment perhaps, all what matters is that deep down he doesn't want to see Michael getting hurt. His heart throbs, when he makes out the loneliness in Michael's voice. Thousands of years spend alone, on the verge of self-destruction, because of the nerve-wracking nightmares. Lucifer's sees the years after the war rush by, is witness to Michael's isolation in heaven. Watches with him how Gabriel goes missing soon after the war, how Raphael changes from kind to cruel and hopeless Michael's feels in the wake of the changes.
All while the old, severed connection burns, the only kind of fire Michael can't deal with.
Lucifer bends down, carefully kissing Michael. It may be the only way to pull his brother out of his memories, before the cage does its work and repeats the cycle.
"Mikha'el," Lucifer whispers and kisses him again. He's already straddling his lap, it being the most comfortable position while clinging to each other. "My love. My light and my fire. Please. Come back. Mikha'el..."
That finally gets Lucifer a reaction. When Michael stops screaming, breathing hard and empty eyes flickering left and right as if he's thousands of years and leagues away, but still wants to know where the voice is coming from. Hoping to reach his brother, Lucifer keeps murmuring endearments, runs his fingers through Michael's hair and holds him close. Whatever anger he felt at his lover, it pales against the suffering Michael is going through. Back when he first fell into the cage, Lucifer had something to focus on at least. Hate, revenge, the goal of getting out and tearing heaving apart. Working on a steady connection to get in touch with Azazel and the rest of his fallen siblings. Thwarting Heaven's plans, prying open the cage bit by bit and learning it's tricks.
Soul and mind bared open like this, it's easy to read that Michael had it almost worse than him. Earlier Lucifer would've never believed it. But even before rediscovering his love for Michael, he had known it's impossible to continue as nothing had happened. Yet Lucifer senses how God's verdicts after the war had forced his lover to pretend. Talk, as if Lucifer has always been evil. As if he had been born corrupted, being the source of all suffering. Turning into a scapegoat, for Heaven and Humanity alike.
Time passes on like this and Lucifer holds Michael close until the pain stops pouring out of his soul.
He can't tell how much time passes, but Lucifer sobs in relief when Michael blinks and recognition returns into his eyes.
"LLyh," Michael says in the language of the old days, back when the universe was young. It's a pure sound, made from love and never shared with anyone else. It's first and oldest of Lucifer's names. A gift from his older brother upon their first meeting.
Michael loved him. Even back then. Still does apparently, if he can utter the word with so much longing and affection.
The word vibrates in Lucifer's chest and the younger Archangels wraps his wings around them. Has his own brushing against Michael's, because his grace carries so much more feelings than spoken words can ever portray.
"Yes," Lucifer answers and kisses Michael again. "Call me whatever you want, I don't care. Please, brother. I can't lose your love again. Once was unbearable. A second time would shatter me and I'm willing to work past whatever issues we have as long you're not leaving me again."
Michael just nods, wordless, because his throat isn't properly working yet, too hoarse from screaming. But he finally wraps his wraps around Lucifer and pulls him in, bathes in the feeling love that goes beyond any physical expression.
"Love. Love you," Michael croaks, desperate to get the words out, despite the state he's in. He's laying beneath Lucifer, wrecked, weak and vulnerable, but for once Lucifer doesn't care about exploiting possible advantages. Not, when Michael's words make him light up inside. Make him feel in a way, he hasn't for in a very long time.
"Say it again," Lucifer begs and rests his head on Michael's chest. "Please."
Michael does. He says the words, over and over again, barely able to grasp that he has Lucifer in his arms again.
I'm sorry for the delay, but tend to write the chapters in batches. Updates should be more regular now, especially since we hit a new Arc. No more flashbacks, unless I write about Michael's and Castiel's time in Heaven.
Despite their intentions to heal, rest and talk things out first, it's not much of a surprise that neither of them could resist for long. It starts with Michael trailing down kisses on Lucifer's bare neck, enjoying every single shiver he causes. He goes slow, but since they shifted into true forms during the memory attack from the cage, they're both naked now and Lucifer is unable to deny how much a simple touch from Michael works him up. A moan rips through Lucifer's chest when Michael's hands travel down to his thighs, touching and teasing him until Lucifer goes half mad, because he wants them so badly squeezing his ass.
"Michael, I want you closer than this," Lucifer groans, pressing down to find some kind of friction.
In the end he has to put Michael's hands on his buttocks himself, since his brother insists on going slow. Keeps kissing until they're both breathless and while they're not even an inch apart, it's still not enough. Their emotions are still running wild and years of separation out weighting the reasons behind them.
"How do you want it?" Michael asks and holy fuck, Lucifer almost doesn't know what to do with the offer.
Just yesterday he'd have throughly exploited this, making Michael writhe beneath his fingers. Make him beg, scream and pay, but suddenly that's not what Lucifer wants anymore. How, when he already has his brother beneath his, their wings shielding them from the outside world and anything the cage tries to throw at them? At the same time, it's almost too much. Lucifer has so much to chose from and when Michael spreads his legs until Lucifer is settled between them, because the older Archangel thinks he missed the content of the offer, his heart skips a beat.
"Not like this." Lucifer shakes his head as the head of his cock presses against Michael's entrance.
It reminds him too much of the last time and he isn't ready to deal with the memory or its consequences. Lucifer wants to shove that part of Michael's history far, far away from him. Denying that it happened it all. Castiel is a concept and so much out of reach that Lucifer can't deal with it right now.
Michael is what matters and Lucifer knows his brother well enough that the subject isn't easily discussed with him either. After the war, Lucifer hasn't caught a single glimpse of Michael's thoughts regarding Castiel. Maybe he even suppressed the memory, forced himself to forget it and right now Lucifer is more than fine with it.
"Okay then," Michael says in a somber voice, as if he's reading Lucifer's thoughts. For a moment he looks uncomfortable before it turns into relief and the reason behind is not difficult to guess. "Do you want to ride me instead?"
He's thinking he violated me. That he forced himself on me, Lucifer realizes. True, the memory wasn't exactly gentle, but their love-making rarely is. It's not who they are nor what they truly enjoy. Sensual touches never last long.
"I want you to do everything," Lucifer hisses and teases Michael by rubbing his ass against his brother's hard erection. With the suspicion in mind that the circumstances around Castiel's birth and his conception traumatised Michael far more than Lucifer himself, he aims for a wilder, more bloodier round than he first anticipated.
Anything to make Michael comfortable in his own skin again.
That also explains his restraint during the apocalypse. I truly wondered, why he didn't search for me the minute I got out of the cage, Lucifer thinks and teases Michael a bit more. Wraps a hand around his own throbbing member, stroking it in slow deliberate motions until he sees the fire return to his lover's eyes.
Now in hindsight it would make sense if it was Michael, who removed the Winchester's from the chapel, delaying the fight instead of meeting it straight on.
"What you want, Lucifer," Michael almost growls, his hands digging into his brother's hips so hard they're going to leave bruises. "I need you to tell me. You've never been shy before, so use your words."
It takes all of Lucifer's remaining strength to hold back or else he'd have just grabbed Michael's dick by now and guided it towards his entrance. As much as he wants to sink down on it, having Michael lose control would be far more satisfying. Biting his lip and holding Michael's gaze, Lucifer grins as stops stroking himself and reaches between his legs. He can't help but moan a little as his fingertips brush over his entrance and his eyes flutter shut, when he starts preparing himself.
"I want you to fuck me, Michael," Lucifer says, breathing fast and swallow as he raises his hips to make sure that his brother is watching how his fingers disappear inside his hole. Tendrils are reaching out to him, even though Michael's hands aren't moving, holding upright and brushing against his wings as Lucifer keeps going. It speaks volumes on how close Lucifer is to shattering his brother's self control. "I need you to burn, use me as you fill me up with everything you have, just as you did the first time we came together. You were so big back then, a comet among the stars and you made sure everyone in the galaxy knew to whom I belong?"
Lucifer witnesses how Michael's eyes go dark with desire and he freely admits that this was the best part of the memory stunt they were forced through. Remembering how it truly was in the early days, when Lucifer was still young and Michael had yet to learn the concept of restraint. When they made love among the stars and destroyed planets in their wake of chasing each other's pleasure.
"Michael," Lucifer breathes as his fingers go deeper than he expected, calling out to his brother and perhaps it's the sight of his lover coming apart that makes Michael finally snap.
Heaven's General surges up, raiding Lucifer's mouth with a strength and a ferocity that makes the devil moan. Michael is hard against his thigh and Lucifer has yet to remove his fingers, yet it clear where this going to head. Soon, because Michael is suddenly moving Lucifer's wrist, forcing his brother fuck himself.
"You're still mine," Michael moans, but it sounds like a question. Like he's unsure if he's welcome. Like he wants to repent for his sins.
"Yes, dammit!" Lucifer sobs. He's still not there where he wants to be. Michael isn't where he's supposed to be. "Always. Michael, please. I don't care what happened between us. Your absence was more punishment than the cage. I've lived with the thought that I disgusted you after I took on the Mark and even that was easier to bear than the nothing I had, while being trapped in here."
It's not a secret that Michael isn't always in touch with his emotions. Lucifer blames the fact that Michael comes from a time, before emotions were a thing. Blames the fact that the Creator and the Darkness aren't role models regarding affection, healthy behavior or self-care. Strange what you can learn from corrupted human souls, but Lucifer believes that he has a good grasp on what Michael is working through. There's either feeling nothing or feeling everything, and Lucifer aims for the latter.
"One last time," Michael grumbles as he fondles Lucifer's balls until his brother almost weeps in frustration, because it's still only his own fingers and he's not allowed to remove them in order to replace them with something else. Something bigger. "What do you want?"
Lucifer howls as grace touches him down there, rubs his sensitive flesh and he bites down on Michael's shoulder. Blood fills his mouth, but the devil hardly cares. Not when, it finally draws a reaction out of Michael, who turns him around until they're both kneeling on the floor and enters him from behind.
"You." Lucifer whimpers as Michael slides into him, the head of his cock parting his flesh until he can't get deeper.
It feels so good, Lucifer almost forgets that there was a time where he couldn't have this. Impossible that he ever entertained the notion of giving this up. As he clenches around the dick inside him, while his head is resting against Michael's shoulder, giving his brother the opportunity to return the bite from before, Lucifer realizes that he could never replace his brother with someone else.
It's not possible.
Not with Michael grinding minutely drawing desperate moans from the very depth of his soul, teasing him and demanding obedience at the same time.
"Yes," Lucifer hisses, having missed the feeling of having Michael inside him.
His brother echoes the word, panting just as hard as Lucifer does and hells, Lucifer hadn't thought that someone else's pleasure could get him off that much. He turns his head to kiss Michael again and given the eagerness Michael welcomes him with, he's not the only one thinking that world starts to make sense again.
Back to the porn, finally! Also, Season 13 has started and I'm incredibly exicted. I didn't expect the beginning to be this good. But I'll (probably) stick to the plot I've laid out and write a Canon!Lucifer with a MirrorVerse!Michael story next year. I might throw in a Castiel Arc, either as Interlude or I'll make a series out of it. Preferences?
Chapter 19: Chapter 19
Of course they couldn't remain gentle with each other. Despite Michael's best efforts, their relationship always came down to Lucifer pushing Michael a bit too far. Who enjoyed putting his little brother in place in return. This time, though, Lucifer is the opinion that Michael is overreacting.
"M-michael that was literally ages ago," Lucifer breathes and struggles against his brother's hold. But the older Archangel has him pinned, using his wings to keep Lucifer down.
With the amount of practice Michael has as Heaven's General, Lucifer isn't going anywhere without truly harming Michael and the Devil admits that they're well past that point. Before the memories came crashing down upon them, he'd have struggled, kicked and aimed to bruise Michael at least. That has changed, at least a little. What use has hurting his brother if Michael is very capable of punishing himself just fine? Besides that, they both suffered from greatest of all punishments: loneliness.
And they had too much of that. Lucifer is willing to do anything to banish the painful hours he spend trapped in the cage, thinking that he longer mattered to Michael.
"I can still be angry about it," Michael murmurs against his skin, biting down and sucks until a bright red mark appears on Lucifer's skin. He moves further south and relishes in watching Lucifer squirm. "Abel still resides in Heaven and every time I come across him, I've to face the fact that you were intimate with him."
Hot breath ghosts over Lucifer's naked skin and he struggles against the restraints, but Michael's grace has him pinned to the ground better than any chains could. With his wrists bound together and Michael's wings brushing against his own, there's nothing what he can do except for slowly going insane.
"It's hardly the same, sleeping with a human," Lucifer tries to defend himself. But his breath hitches, transforms into a keen as Michael makes use of his tongue and licks over his hard, weeping cock.
Michael growls and his eyes flash with a dark desire to keep Lucifer right here, cornered and wriggling.
"I don't care," the older Archangel says and makes sure that his hot breath ghosts over Lucifer's skin. Not touching, where his little brother so desperately wants to be touched, yet remaining close enough to remind him what could happen.
Could being the most important word, since Michael has established early on in this game, who is holding the reigns.
Bending down again, Michael mouthes Lucifer's dick. Licks up a beat of sweat rolling down his brother's hip and relishes in the sound that follows. A high-pitched moan that escapes from Lucifer's lips despite his best efforts to hold them back.
Michael chuckles and is aware how close his mouth is to Lucifer's throbbing erection. Yet it's not enough for his little brother to get what he wants, no matter how much he jerks his hips.
"All you have to do is apologize, little brother," Michael teases and underlines his words with his fingers, shoves them under Lucifer's body until he can squeeze his ass just the way he likes it.
The response is a stubborn, agitated sob.
"Fuck you," Lucifer curses, lust and desire rippling through him. He doesn't care how close he's and that every moment Michael is just laying there waiting for him to submit, is pure torment. "I'm not going to confess every sin I've commit since we parted."
"Not every single one, just your stunt with Abel," Michael hums and rubs his fingers over Lucifer's hole, pleased by the reactions he gets out of it.
They both know this is a game Lucifer is going to lose, but so far his pride is still holding him back and Michael won't deny that he enjoys taking his little brother apart. Having the time to do so is a marvel in and itself. Even before the war, they rarely had the opportunity to spend time with each other without having to fear being disturbed by a noisy sibling.
In order to remind his brother what he's missing out, Michael briefly takes Lucifer's dick into his mouth, sucking at the head and waits for the deep-throated moan before pulls back again.
"You damned beautiful bastard," Lucifer almost wails, jerking his hips but meets nothing but air. Michael spots tears in the corner of Lucifer's eyes, his expression being a pitiful mix of frustation and undisclosed desire.
Need and want is written into Lucifer's features, but Michael refuses to yield just yet. No, he wants to see how far he can go in making Lucifer truly desperate.
"Maybe," Michael sends Lucifer a sharp grin. "But you know what I want to hear."
Whatever sarcastic answer Lucifer was about to give, the words die on his lips as Michael plunges two fingers into his brother. Due to Lucifer's trapped legs the entrance is warm and tight, and the flesh trembles around Michael's fingers as he drives them deeper. The way Lucifer arches his back beneath him, is dangerously beautiful. Marvelous and Michael swears to himself that he's never going to forget the sight of his beloved little brother heaving as he's easily worked open. Again, because he's still wet and loose from before.
"M-michael," Lucifer gasps, ready to fuck himself on his brother's fingers, hadn't his range of freedom been restricted to an extremly limited space. It doesn't help that Michael is still hover above him. Waiting with an intense look in his eyes, face otherwise expressionless, but Lucifer feels the carnal desire radiating, vibrating between them.
Seeing such greed in the eyes of the most powerful angel in the universe should frighten even the devil, yet this is exactly what Lucifer has been waiting for. Wretched desire paired with a carnal animalistic need that promises to forge a connection that can never be broken again.
Lucifer tilts his head back as another finger joins the first three.
"Michael, please," he begs, ready to surrender and shoves his ass towards his brother, wanting nothing more than for Michael to finally give a little. "I'll do anything, but this is unbearable."
Without warning Michael withdraws his fingers and ignores Lucifer's shocked gasp as he replaces it with his own dick, sliding in fast and deep. So sudden that the Devil has barely any time to adjust to the feeling. The pace that Michael is setting is brutal and the thrusts going so deep that each stab is punching the breath out of Lucifer.
"Say it," the older Archangel growls as he repositions them until Lucifer's legs are resting on his shoulders. Michael bends down, nearly bends Lucifer in half with his knees pressed against his chest, as he repeats. "Say it, Lucifer. Or I'm going to keep going without letting you come. Just imagine it, months and years could go by before even your body surrenders. The cage would echo your cries, your pleas for mercy."
As tempting as the offer is, Lucifer gets the feeling that the entire episode is more for Michael's benefit than his own. Not that he minds. Not when Michael's movements are frantic, desperate. As if he can't get deep enough, wants to take up permanent residence inside his brother. A lovely thought, Lucifer wonders how long they could stay connected, Michael's cock in his ass before they get tired of each other.
But that's not what Michael wants.
"There's never been anyone else," Lucifer finally says, face far more serious than he should be able to, given how Michael has found a fast and steady pace that makes has him trembling and gasping. "I never loved anyone else."
Now it's Michael's turn to sob, as if he couldn't believe to hear the words. As if he doubted the truth behind it, because he spend so much time alone with only regret and guilt as company. The weight on his wrist shifts and Lucifer wriggles out of tendrils that kept his wrist tied together.
"I only ever loved you," Lucifer says as he wraps his arms around his brother and swipes a single tear away that runs down Michael's face. "As if someone else could ever even matter to me, when I finally have you."
Chapter 20: Chapter 20
No Spoilers for Season 13, please. I've just seen the first episode.
"Can I ask you a question?"
Lucifer is panting, still out of breath after their latest round. They had been at it like touched starved horny seraphs, who had to figure out what lust is after inhabiting a vessel for the first time in their life. Well, the second part is a lie, but neither could deny that it had been a long time since they were able just to enjoy themselves. The cage still rattled from time to time, but it never caught them off guard again.
"You just did," Michael says, content and humming under his breath. His lips twitch, when Lucifer hits him and leaves a red mark on his bare chest.
They hadn't bothered crafting clothing from themselves. It always just ended up torn away as soon as one of them lost patience and demanded another tumble. Besides nudity never bothered them before and Lucifer is the first to admit that it's more than just a little bit distracting, when Michael spreads his wings. For him, since there's on one else around.
"What happened to God?" Lucifer wants to know.
Much of what happened between them, gets ignored. Most actions against each other was nothing more than hurting the other, forcing one to feel the pain they suffered themselves. It wasn't easy, but in the end a new beginning matters more than digging up battle plans, which were always influenced by outside forces. Despite having been adversaries for so long, Heaven and Hell were the driving forces behind the Apocalypse.
Above him, Michael goes stiff and Lucifer immediately regrets the decision.
God is still a touchy subject, but he deemed it a safer one than asking about Castiel. Since the little angel can wait, Lucifer finally decided to demand some answers, since on this he has to rely on Michael for answers.
"Can you just accept that He's not going to bother us anytime soon?" Michael wants to know, a little sullen.
It tells volumes that he pulls out of Lucifer, stretches his legs and flops down beside his brother. A little torn how to proceed, mostly out of fear to startle Michael or ruin the good mood entirely, Lucifer decides to press where it hurts in the end.
"I've a right to know," he tells Michael, propping himself up on one elbow, while Michael is laying on his stomach next to him. Showing him is bare back, wings retracted, which is in part a defensive reaction. "For centuries I believed that you wanted to punish me, that you liked seeing me cast down and humiliated."
"Never," Michael growls and turns around so fast in a way only a trained warrior can. He brings up one hand to grab his brother's neck and press their foreheads together. It doesn't escape the devil how tense Michael is, as he repeats, "Never, Lucifer. I never took joy in the knowledge that you're trapped down here. Alone, cast out and so far away from me."
Softly, Lucifer says, "Then tell me, what did you do to get rid of him. He never interfered during the Apocalypse though me breaking free should've caught his attention at least. You can't blame me for wanting to know why the bastard that wanted me locked away forever never said a peep in the last thousand years."
Michael is silent for a very long time, staring into the distance as if he doesn't know what to say. Lucifer waits, he's good at that and he takes it as a positive sign that Michael is leaning against his shoulder, slowly breathing in and out until his hands aren't balled to fists anymore.
Finally, Michael says, "I told Dean Winchester that free will is a lie."
"You argued against it in order to make him fight for it," Lucifer nods.
The Winchesters are never going to realize how far the manipulations go. Heaven and Hell wanted the Apocalypse they got that much. What they don't know is that Michael had his hand in the final outcome as well. Something Lucifer himself hadn't known until the cage closed behind them.
You helped Sam, Lucifer thinks, more proud than bitter now, since he gained a lover in return for his freedom. You jumped and made it look like as if had been the work of humanities finest all along.
Pleasing God, in case he's watching. Fooling Heaven and robbing the Angels their General. Their very own needle pointing at north, for without Michael they were horribly lost.
"I lied to everyone," Michael admits, snuggling closer and Lucifer is glad that his brother doesn't resist, when he wraps a wing around their naked bodies. "Everyone, Lucifer. Heaven thought I'd bring paradise. Raphael believed it as well and that might be the greatest sin. Humanity will never know the difference, but I let down a friend."
"Raphael is a big boy. He can take care of himself. " Lucifer argues and pokes his older brother. "But you haven't answered my question yet. I know that some of our siblings worked directly with demons, but when Azazel and Lilith started whispering about freeing me from the cage centuries ago, I assumed they figured out some kind of loophole."
Michael tilts his head and raises an eyebrow.
"Do you really think, they were bright enough to figure out Heaven's plan all by themselves?"
Lucifer stares for a minute, before he starts laughing, connecting the dots only when Michael's wry humor surfaces.
"That was you? I remember how they talked about a source, an angel who was fed up with Heaven. Who said that Lucifer was right all along and that humanity never deserved Eden in the first place" The devil smirks, amused on behalf of his stupid, faithful underlings. "How come that they never recognized you?"
"I introduced the concept of taking vessels in order to keep track of our agents on Earth," Michael says as it explains everything. "Many have simply forgotten that we used to walk freely, without needing the help of humans. They believe that taking a vessel more efficient and haven't simply realized that it's just a matter of self-control."
When Lucifer looks down, Michael has the look of an immensely satisfied cat. Of a warrior, who knows better than to talk about his plans or to show off for the shake of pride. No, it was persistence that won out in the end. It's Michael's strength. Patience, something he taught Lucifer a long time ago, who passed it down to Gabriel. But the truth is that no one defeats the master in his own game. Not with all the resources Michael had at his disposal as Heaven's General.
Especially, if God is truly ... gone.
He has to be, Lucifer concludes, if Michael had this much freedom in staging the Apocalypse.
In hindsight, the entire thing is a perfect example of how Michael plans his battles. Like the fact that the Winchester, who prayed and had faith ended up with the demon blood in his veins. Or that said discarded boy with the demon blood saved the world, when all hope rested on the praised older brother. Who is a guilt ridden, overworked alcoholic with daddy issues.
"Well played, Michael. Well played," Lucifer says, voice dripping with sarcasm and can't resist the urge to clap. "Aside from the fact that I feel like an idiot, because me of all people should've known better than to fall for your machinations, I still don't know what happened to father."
Though it told Lucifer a lot how utterly removed God had to be. The Creator always liked meddling with humanity. They were his experiments. Not that Lucifer wants to accuse God of feeling affection for humanity, but he does know that God hates it if something messes with his tests. Thwarting or manipulating the outcome of a fight on this scale, humanity against all the forces of Heaven and Hell, would've made Him angry.
Angry enough to intervene. Or to stop Michael at least, but after revealing the depths of his machinations, it's clear that God either didn't have a clue or was too powerless to stop his eldest child.
A shiver of excitement runs through Lucifer as he grasps the true extent of Michael's message.
Giddy, Lucifer leans down to kiss his brother.
"He's gone, isn't he?" Lucifer smiles, bright and unstoppable. It feels like a gift. Like an apology. Fuck it, if he had to put the pieces together after picking up some of them from Michael's mind, laid open just for him. "I heard rumors that our dear father isn't just absent. Some claim he's dead. Is that true, Michael?"
"As good as," the oldest angel admits with a shrug. But Lucifer can read through the nonchalant appearance. This matters to Michael.
Either because he not quite done with his battle or because he's afraid how Lucifer is going to react.
Lucifer rakes with his fingernails across Michael's naked chest and his expression is proof enough that he's still the devil. Still your typical Archangel, powerful and above moral.
Voice saddled with lust and anticipation, Lucifer whispers with a manic smile on his face, "Tell me more."
"It started long before Father finally left," Michael begins to explain. Lucifer listens patiently, for he's more familiar with the backstabbing inside Hell than the politics in Heaven, though he has attempted to stay out of both in the past. Michael resumes, "For a long time, God left Humanity to fend for themselves. He focused on the small tribe that believed in him and ignored those, who build their own religions."
"I can't say that I like the pagans," Lucifer scoffs. "In the end, they're all younger than us and no matter how much wish to deny it, they origins go back to Eden as well."
Though much of the pagans existence can be laid down at Eve's feed. She was the one, who gave birth to the first monsters. To strange people with great powers that are now heralded as Allfathers, Creator of Worlds or Holy Gods.
"Of course, I just believe it's easier to let them be," Michael says. "Besides Gabriel has been keeping them in check for the last five thousand years. I haven't let him run around masquerading as Loki for nothing."
The comment about Gabriel causes Lucifer to flinch and he's glad that Michael proposed wing-grooming while handling the rather delicate subject of their father. Otherwise he might've lashed out, but instead he can only hold still as Michael's fingers run through his wings, straighten feather's all while his grace repairs those that have been damaged. It's a welcome, pleasant feeling, because wing grooming is something he had to do alone while trapped in the cage. No way that he would trust a demon anywhere near them.
Even if with as Michael his enemy, Lucifer could trust him not to go after the heart of what makes him an angel. In the end, they still belonged the same race and perhaps it's a sign in and itself that Lucifer never feared that Michael would main him by cutting his wings off. No matter how much easier the war could've been won that way.
The downside of having Michael groom him, is of course that Lucifer can't hide his emotions. Not with his lover's grace caressing his own, rubbing and soothing all the little hurts he acquired over the last thousands years.
"You know that Gabriel is dead?" Lucifer asks and cranks his neck in order to look Michael in the eyes. He didn't enjoy ending Gabriel, but his little brother deserved that much.
That Michael only sighs is a surprise. Despite their efforts to work past their differences, Lucifer expected anger. Or disappointment at least. Not ... understanding and sadness?
"He'll be back," Michael responses to Lucifer's raised eyebrow. "I kept an eye on him, despite his best efforts to stay hidden. Last time I saw him, he was a mess of conflicted loyalties. A little time for himself will give him the opportunity to find out what he wants."
"True." Lucifer hums in agreement.
Archangels are incredibly difficult to kill, since Death doesn't bother with them. In fact, an Archangel is the only being that is able to command Death. Lucifer is just the most famous one for doing so. For a while neither of them says a word, both morning their brother. Just because Gabriel isn't dead, it doesn't automatically mean that he'll return to the flock anytime soon. He's most likely angry with them, both of them, given how he refused to chose a side during the botched Apocalypse.
Of course, there's the question how Gabriel learned about the Horsemen Rings, but in the end Lucifer lets it slide. Michael already confessed that he orchestrated the whole Doomsday scenario. Lucifer doesn't need to know every single little detail, when there're greater concerns to worry about.
"Has Gabriel his own opinion about Father's absence?" Lucifer finally asks to break the uncomfortable silence.
"Raphael believes he's dead," Michael answers, carefully considering his words. "And while Father not might be gone completely, he has lost a lot of power. Which I might add, is also due to Gabriel. All three of us noticed how his power waned over time, how he relied on us to carry out his orders more and more often."
Lucifer notices how Michael's fingers are less steady than before. They tremble as they remove a few tarnished feathers and the Devil holds completely still, does everything in order not to agitate his brother any further.
"I didn't agree with Him during the war, but I didn't know what to do. Back then I still feared what he might to do us or what would become of our siblings if I acted openly against him." Michael finally whispers. "Yet he let humanity feel his wrath at every single opportunity like the flood or the plagues."
On of their greatest strength is to read each other's thoughts, mental connection or not and suddenly Lucifer gets what finally pushed Michael over. Despite all humanities misgivings, Michael still sees himself as their protector. He's the older brother and if they misbehave, it's because he didn't teach them better. Of course, hell always tries to make deals and tempt souls into the pit, yet it's wrong to punish entire nations for the failings of a few weak and corrupted souls.
"Did you kill him?" Lucifer wants to know and turns around to look at his older brother, not knowing how he's supposed to feel.
Either answer doesn't sit right with him. In part, because he wanted to do the deed himself and have his revenge. And yet, Michael deserves it as much as he does.
"I attacked him," Michael corrects and his expression goes dark. "I couldn't stop the Host, when He directly ordered for all Nephilim to be wiped out. No matter how much I grieved the loss of the young children, who could've been family had we just treated them right. I get that they were too powerful to remain on Earth, but we could've found a solution."
"Gabriel agreed with you," Lucifer realizes as he compares his own knowledge with what Michael just told him. Largely he had to rely on the demon's reports and figure how Heaven's agenda by backtracking their steps.
But a few pieces have always been missing, things like what caused Gabriel finally to break with the Host completely.
"Yeah." Michael lowers his head. "The slaughter broke Raphael. She was never the same after God forced us to act. After we returned, all three of us decided that we couldn't take it anymore."
"Now that's something I'd have liked to see," Lucifer whispers and barely contain his awe.
In the war it was just Michael, who came after him. Hence why he never acted against Raphael and Gabriel, at least until the latter started interfering. But the sight of the three most powerful Archangels going after the Creator would've been stuff for legends. Lucifer hopes that the fight had witnesses. Some of the minor, lesser known Archangels maybe, who content themselves to stay away from Heaven to roam remote corners of the universe.
Yet Lucifer can understand why Michael did in secret. Why a quick and silent assassination, draining the Creator of his power and channeling it into the Host, was the smarter choice.
"He's still around," Michael reminds his brother, when he spots the adoration in Lucifer's eyes. "He's greatly diminished because humanity doesn't believe in Him as they used to. Often he's hitching a ride with the prophets and we let him be, since it's easier to keep track of him this way."
"You're a genius, brother." Lucifer purrs and climbs on Michael's lap, wing grooming forgotten for the moment. "You need to be rewarded."
Lucifer pulls Michael in a hard kiss, burying his fingers into the wings on his back, mumbling to himself, "Oh, I always knew that there's a reason why I love you so much."
Of course, they've still a lot to discuss. Though Lucifer isn't going to argue with the turn of events. His three favourite brothers banding up against the Creator, effectively saying that Lucifer was right all along with the opinion he acquired during the war, is almost as good as the sex that follows now. Almost, because Lucifer has Michael panting and pleading his name within minutes.
As I said, we don't basically nothing about pre-historic SPN canon. How did GOD ended up as Chuck? Why did he leave in the first place, rebellious Archangels aside? Canonically he should've been able to face Amara, yet he's weaker than his sister. So I assumes that God being gone or "dead" as Raphael tried to convince us had a reason.
As nice as their reunion is, Lucifer is getting fed up by being trapped in the cage. Until now the cage had been more or less an ideal place to sort out their differences. Fighting - or even better: fucking - on Earth while in vessels nontheless would've proofed to be a disaster ... and traumatisied countless younger siblings. Chances are pretty high that most of them aren't even aware that sex is a possibility for them.
Oh, how these little buggers are missing out!
Lucifer stretches his limbs, lets out a sigh of utter content and buries himself in Michael's grace again. For Michael is warm. Michael is burning, always. His grace flickers around like a forest fire in a tornado and while Lucifer heals too fast to be truly harmed by the scorching heat, he'd take the burns anytime over the cold, frosty cage. After so many years his grace feels like winter itself, heavy and dangerous, and Lucifer can't tell if it's always been this way. Probably not, it's not possible to take on the Mark, be thrown into a cage at the bottom of the Seven Hells and come out on the other side entirely unchanged.
"It's a wonder I'm sane," Lucifer says to himself.
He freezes when Michael reaches up and ruffles his hair. Or the equivalent of it, since they're floating around in their true forms. Which makes the touch even more enjoyable, because Michael tampers his grace and rubs the spot between Lucifer's wings.
"I thought we're taking a break. I'm far too sore for another round," Lucifer grouses, ready to swat Michael away in case his older brother has plans that involve getting up.
Thankfully Michael doesn't even open his eyes, instead he keeps massaging Lucifer's tense back and says, "Just wanted to let you know that I'd have you no matter your mental state."
No. No. And ... no.
Lucifer does his best to hold back the tears that threaten to break free and hadn't he been so throughly fucked before that he's now in a state of extreme limberness, he might have succeeded But Michael had combined his soul-destroying appetite with nimble fingers, coaxing equally famished and neglected needs out of his younger brother until they were both bathing in hair-rising and corrupted desire for each other. Finding themselves in a dance of lewd compulsion and voracious ecstasy, going so far that they are now bruised and bloody. Aching, since neither had held back, ignoring pleads for mercy, because touching, biting and kissing never appeared to be enough.
It had taken them a long time before the last spark of wanton frenzy had been put out.
"You can't say such things, when I'm in a state like this," Lucifer whispers, trying to fight down the sobs that threaten to break free.
Not that he didn't like feeling slashed and flayed, smeared with blood which is drying on his skin and could stay there for the rest of all time, because it's his and Michael's in equal amounts. Finally, so Lucifer had though as they were finished, his outside appearance matched his insides. Weathered and ugly, because his character remained rotten and unethical, while Michael still cared about innocent lives.
At least far more than Lucifer does.
It's a flaw and Lucifer recognizes it as such. Michael shouldn't love him for it.
"But I do. I've no reason not to," Michael says, because they can't lie to each other with their grace entangled like this. This, together with the soothing touches, is the only reason why Lucifer doesn't fall apart right then and here. "Besides I can see the appeal of not caring about anything but yourself. Running Heaven is exhausting and an incredible thankless job."
The embrace that follows grounds Lucifer, makes him forget that they're still in the cage. Which is evidence how much damage they did to each other. No matter if God and the Darkness influenced their actions, regardless if they didn't now any better at the time, they wanted to destroy their love for pride, pain and prejudge hindered them at looking beneath the surface.
"Do you want to go back?" Lucifer finally asks, but refuses to look at Michael.
The question was bound to come up at some point. As wonderful it is to have Michael just to himself, at some point they would get bored. The cage limits their freedom. In truth, it's almost too small for both of them. Michael, in his true and glorious form, somehow manages to bump his wings and his head occasionally against the edges.
Besides, neither of them manages to remain idle for long and staying down here would mean letting God win.
They're going to get out of here. Michael would grow insane in the cage, frustrated Despite his eternal patience he can't stand it if someone - or a something in that case - has power over him. No wonder, since he's the oldest Archangel and equal to God and his Sister? He manages to reign himself in for those he cares about, namely Lucifer. He'd have never let his little brother pin him to the ground and ride him into oblivion otherwise, but if he's restricted too long Michael starts to rebel Gets frantic and panicked in a way that makes Lucifer wonder sometimes. What God did when Michael was still an only child. If there's indeed a trauma to be found or if it's just the Creator not knowing better, neglecting the first angel since he didn't know how to love it?
"Only if we remain together," Michael says and opens his eyes for the first time. Looks as Lucifer and the devil nearly caves, when he sees his own endless love reflected in his older brother's face. "The Host needs to figure out that there's more to our race than stoic duty. Right now they don't have the capacity to understand what drives us. That we need love just like every other creature in the universe."
Something about the wording makes Lucifer suspicious.
"It sounds as if you already have a plan."
It's not reassuring to see Michael shrug. Back when they fought wars for their Father, Michael always tended to be a bit too reckless. Part of his leadership always had been to dive in with endless determination, especially if situations became a little heated. While everyone else panicked and or screamed for Michael to lay down you stupid chicken, his brother had once just kept proceeding at cutting one of his wings of.
'It's infested.' He had said, remaining calm and bleeding all over the floor. 'It'll grow back.'
No, compromise is a word that cannot be found in Michael's mental dictionary. Sadly he tended to forget that not everyone has a backbone at the size of a tree and enough will-power to tear worlds apart. Lucifer was more careful than that, but he also can't deny that it's exactly this kind of behavior which turns him on so much.
"I might've planted a few ideas into Metatron's head the last time I checked up on him."
Lucifer can't help himself. He groans as Michael confesses, who he included in his plans.
"The Scribe?" Lucifer moans. "Oh, please fuck me. He's an overblown coward, a glorified secretary. What possible use he could be for you?"
Michael smirks. "Our siblings need a few lessons how to survive on their own. I didn't like the way most referred to humans as mud monkeys during a Apocalypse. Humanity is well past that point, so I thought it might be good if our brothers and sisters spend a bit time among them."
Lucifer picks up his brother's thoughts. Sees himself as Michael, diving down to Earth to send Metatron visions. Rewrite or outright replacing the Angel tablets. Creating a few precautions and guardians in order to protect Heaven from crumbling, while the majority of the Host is trapped on Earth.
"And humans say that I'm the evil one," Lucifer complains and makes a show of crossing his arms over his chest.
Though trying to pout like a toddler doesn't work, because Michael only laughs and kisses him.
Short Notice, the fic is taking a small break. Christmas is insane in my business and my boss owns my soul until mid-december. I WILL be back in January. But I think this is better than letting your starve for irregular updates. I'll work on the plot and the (hypothetical?) end. Which is still far, far away, have no fear. I've still so many unresolved issues to go through.
If you have requests (porn, plot, kink, other ideas), out with it. This is the time for me to figure out how to include them.