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    It's funny how things go from known but unimportant to - well, not mattering, but having more meaning than they used to. Steve's never not known that Bucky's gorgeous, but the knowledge ran from a "the sky is blue, the grass is green" kind of knowing to, at most, a kind of wistful envy.

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    For once, here and now, there's no room for the contempt, the disgust or anything else that so often comes with this, with crawling back to clinging to Steve like a rock in the middle of a flood, sound and smell and touch and everything the good kind of familiar, known. Everything he so often has to ignore, like he's a fucking kid covering his ears and singing to drown out someone's voice, is all gone.

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    "You know when the last time I heard this song was?"

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    Except when Steve blinks his eyes all the way open it's not his mom sitting on the chair beside the bed, it's Bucky, sitting watching Steve with his arms around his bent knees and his sock feet braced on the edge of the chair's seat.

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    "Shut up, Steve," Bucky says, comfortably, which is as good as admitting defeat. It isn't admitting defeat - if Steve ever brings up the argument again, Bucky'll be just as stubborn - but it's as good as.

    Steve pulls the blanket down from the back of the couch, listens to the reader's voice, and traces abstract patterns across the middle of Bucky's back until, a couple hours later, Bucky's phone reminds them they should eat.

    (or: two points of view on the days after the previous fic)

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    Steve'd thought about it for a minute. You're saying Bucky had the equivalent of multiple abusive childhoods, one after the other.

    Sam rubbed his forehead. Pretty much. And that shit leaves a lot of marks - I mean, it literally shapes the brain. He might remember when you were kids? Sam grimaced. But the other stuff might basically be mapped in deeper, because it happened so many times over. So much more.

    Carved in, Steve said, and Sam'd winced.

    He's thought about that a lot, since then.

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    Or it's more like things shoved in a closet or stuck on a pile out of the way, actually. And maybe you're not even thinking about dealing with them later. Maybe you can't think why you'd have to. They just . . .go there. You need stuff out of the way, so you open the door and put something on a shelf. In a box. Put the box on the pile. Shift the pile into a corner.

    You don't pay attention as the pile gets too high or the closet gets too full and then everything - every single God-damn thing - falls on your head all at once.

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    It's one of those things, one of those times, where if Steve could be objective and detached he'd probably acknowledge right from the start that the progress (and sometimes he hates that word) is visible, is marked.

    That it's a marked change, and for the better, that when whatever it is goes wrong, when whatever it is hits the trigger line inside his mind, Bucky goes still and expressionless and then says, very quietly, "I need not to be here." And then, before Steve can make his head shift languages enough to form the thought, Bucky says, "No. You stay."

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    "Steve, I can't tell the difference between what I actually remember and what you've told me by now, and that makes this as pointless as the rest," he says, and he says it light and casual and quick, like Steve's going to somehow miss what that sentence says if Bucky dances over it quick enough.

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    Mercedes is limping and sucking at her right pinkie-finger when she makes it back to the front door of the building at the same time the white lady with red hair shows up for the first time, wearing high-tops and skinny-jeans, a hoodie and a coat overtop.

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    Steve's putting some of the knives he tidied away when Mercedes was coming up back where they live when he looks up because the balcony door opens and shuts again, leaves Bucky on the mat in front of it. He's obviously been out in the rain; he rakes his hair back from his face with one hand and then meets Steve's eyes, briefly, with a grimace before he leans down to undo his boots and get rid of them.

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    On Wednesday, she fails a math test and her brother has to go to the hospital because he manages to fall down and crack his head and has to get stitches, and Mercedes tweets worst day *ever* because she figures she's allowed to exaggerate.

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    It's funny, in a not at all funny way, how some things don't change, or at least haven't yet. One of them is that Bucky still has difficulty asking for things.

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    Sheena recognizes him the first time he comes in. She makes him a caramel mocha with sprinkles, smiles brightly and then gets Carlos to take till for a second so she can go into the back, hide her face in her shirt and do a little dance to a muffled eeeeeeholyfuckeeeeee because she just made a caramel mocha with sprinkles for Captain fucking America, who'd given her a dazzling smile and dropped a bunch of coins in the tip jar.

    [takes place during the break between your blue-eyed boys: part one and part two]

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    Bruce didn't actually expect Barnes to ever seek him out.

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    He comes across The Velveteen Rabbit by accident and reads it once.

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    Scars are complicated; Bucky's are even more so, given he doesn't remember how he got half of them; and this one's the most, because he does, almost every agonizing minute of it. It might not be a minefield to quite the same extent as it was before, but Steve hasn’t been about to push it, hasn’t thought it worth it at all.

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    Steve takes a minute to get rid of the bags in his hands, tossing sketchbook and new pencils on the dining-room table and putting the two replacement drinking glasses away in the cupboard. Then he pours himself a cup of coffee, microwaves it, stirs his sugar in, and then goes out around the corner and pays enough attention to see the little circle of orange fur curled up to one side of Bucky's chest.

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    Waking up into [a flashback] means he doesn't get to make himself do anything.

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    Years and years and decades, to grind the collar in, to put the cage inside his head and rip everything else out.

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