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    Cynthia had never felt like more of a failure.

    In some ways, she was embarrassed of her son.

    She didn’t tell her friends she had sent Connor to rehab last summer; she’d said he was on a retreat. Everyone knew, of course. It was an open secret, but one that Cynthia refused to own up to.

    When the ambulance had come to her house in September and her concerned neighbors asked what had happened, Cynthia had replied that Connor had an accident but was alright now. She’d told herself, at the time, that it was his news to tell. And to a certain extent, Cynthia still believed that.

    But she was embarrassed. And ashamed. Ashamed that she couldn’t seem to help him, embarrassed that at every turn he seemed to find a new way to get worse and it was her fault.

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    Takes place during the Winter and Spring Epilogues of The Desperate Type.

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    20 Oct 2017

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    She knew that each one of Connor’s tattoos had some sort of meaning behind them, he didn’t want something etched on his body forever unless he wanted to look back on it with regret. He had explained to Zoe the reasons behind his tattoos, so she knew how important each and every one meant to him. He could look down at them and smile, knowing that he came this far and he was thriving, that he could proudly show them off without fear… he wasn’t ashamed at all.

    And Zoe wanted that. She wanted a tattoo that she could wear with pride, but she had no idea what tattoo would bring her that level of fulfillment that she saw in her brother’s. She had been looking on-and-off for a year, but nothing had stood out to her.

    Until she saw it a few nights ago.

    And it was, well, it was perfect.

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    08 Oct 2017

  3. Public Bookmark 13

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    “Connor...attempted to take his own life. He’s in the hospital right now in a medically induced coma.”
    The moment those words were uttered, Evan Hansen’s heart almost stopped.

    Your standard Connor survives AU. What if Evan told the truth? What happens when Connor wakes up? Will Evan still end up making a difference in the Murphy family and his school? Will all of his problems be solved, or will it lead to different ones?

    This is my first fic I've ever had the guts to publish online, which is super nerve-wrecking, and I hope you enjoy it! Stay safe and happy, friends!

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    07 Sep 2017

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    This anniversary was the big one. The one he wouldn’t be able to brush aside. It wasn't the first or the last time; it wasn’t even the closest he had come to actually dying. But it was the big one, the one that hung around like a persistent shadow. It was the tipping point. For him and for Evan.

    Connor knew that Evan was pissed off at him for being a dick the day before, but he couldn’t be that angry, could he? He wouldn’t do something stupid just because he was angry, right? Connor was the one who did that kind of stuff. Connor did the stupid things and Evan visited him in the hospital after.

    Right?

    Connor checked his phone again.

    Nothing.

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    Connor's POV drabble, set during Epilogue Part 4.

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    17 Aug 2017

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    His dad found him.
    Connor doesn’t remember that part.
    He doesn’t remember much but that’s okay, it’s nice, actually. A lot of things have happened, there are always people coming in to check on him and they say things at him and he says things back and his mom and dad are there and sometimes Zoe is too.

    (Or - Connor Murphy didn't die and, for some reason, Evan Hansen is determined to be his friend.)

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    16 Aug 2017