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    AU: Dean and Cas are 19 and 18, respectively, and have been best friends for six years. Cas is a senior in high school, but Dean has dropped out. Over the last few weeks, Cas has noticed a huge change in Dean. When he discovers Dean is using heroin, in addition to dealing with an abusive father and worsening mental illness, he struggles to keep Dean afloat while they try to figure out their relationship. This is the story of their first few years together, trying to figure out adulthood as Dean falls apart and Cas has to put him back together (while maintaining his own sanity).

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    64/?
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    Based on season 8 episode 6.

    Dean, Sam and Garth are busy with a case. In the case there is a penny, and if you touch the penny you want to kill the people you hate the most. Dean wants to stop someone who wants to kill someone, bit then he accidentally touch the penny.
    So Dean wants to kill himself, because he hates himself more then anybody else.

    Cas tried to stop him.

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    2/4
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    10
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    1
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    Ever since Dean got back, Sam’s been angry and he sneaks away into the night—Dean knows it; Dean hears it. Sam’s found new things to hide. Sam is a man locked from the inside out.

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    4
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    17
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    They tried. They really did. They put everything they had into fighting it. And they lost. The ABO Virus was released and now unstoppable. Men's bodies changed to accommodate pregnancy, women's to grow a knot if they were Alpha.

     

    I'm on Tumblr too....stop in and say hi if you like :) http://spn-obsession.tumblr.com/

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    12/12
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    31
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    Dean, Cas, baby Sammy, and an adventurous country childhood in small-town Illinois. Scenes from tentative early years to wild teenage ones, and adult ones so real and so sad I cried writing them.

    In which John and his boys buy their first real home, John tries as hard as he can, and eight year old Dean runs into a hick neighbour kid named Cas who shows him the ropes to small-town living.

    Rated M for later chapters, warnings for homophobia, alcoholism, references to past suicide attempts, minor drug use, suicidal thoughts, and a suicide attempt.

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    Chapters:
    6/?
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    27
    Kudos:
    29
    Bookmarks:
    6
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    350
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    "Hell is forgetting yourself and Heaven is only remembering, but all Dean needs is to stop. Never to be what he isn’t, but not to be what he is. He just needs to stop."

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1
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    15
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    2
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    Dean went on a hunting trip, and he hasn't been back for a few weeks.

    Dean goes missing like his dad did way back when and Sam keeps an online journal about his experiences trying to find him.

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    Chapters:
    40/67
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    39
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    1
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    'People who have never been abused often wonder why a person wouldn’t just leave. They don't understand that breaking up can be more complicated than it seems.'

     

    * currently Under construction*

    !!looking for a beta reader to help with this fic. Please comment if interested:)

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    Chapters:
    60/?
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    174
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    208
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    33
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    11293
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    Felicity finds a car parked on the side of a bridge and goes to help. What she finds is a man about to jump. Things happen, storys are told, and a very sad Gabriel tries to fix everything.

    Or, the Arrow/Supernatural crossover no one asked for, where Sam's in coma and Dean is depressed without his brother. No fluff. Only sadness.

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    2
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    1
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    The series started with Dean saying “Goodnight Sam”.

    What if it ended the same way?

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    Castiel is working at his job as a librarian like every other day when a distraught green eyed man barges in and make his way towards the roof. Cas put two and two together and follows him up, he can't have another death be (in anyway) his fault.

    Series
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    Chapters:
    1/?
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    1
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    After Sam tells him in the kitchen that if the roles were reversed and Dean was the one dying Sam wouldn't have done anything. Dean realizes that he really is alone, Sam really doesn't care, and it's to much for Dean to handle.
    Will Sam get to him in time and will be be able to bring Dean back to him?

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    English
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    1,206
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
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    43
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    768
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    Just a little rumination on Dean's death leaving Castiel with more unresolved feelings than he can hold.

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    292
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    20
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    261
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    Sam is Dead and Dean hasn't seen Cas in months. Liquor isn't numbing him enough any more so he moves onto more self destructive methods of ending his pain

    Please don't read if you're triggered by Cutting and suicide

    Written because I am not a happy bunny

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    226
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    16
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    321
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    The heat curled up towards his face as he teetered closer, toes hanging over the edge of the hole he'd dug, looking inside. He had never told anyone this, but sometimes, when he burned a body alone, when he unchained his mind, even briefly, he found it provocative —to lean just the tiniest bit forward and tempt gravity to take him.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    14
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    66
    Bookmarks:
    4
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    428
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    Alternate Universe;
    The day you wake up as 18 is the day you will find writing on your body. The first words your soul mate will speak to you that day. And the day Dean wakes up on his 18th birthday, he finds his words.

    Suddenly he is cast into a melee of mysteries that all lead back to one person. Will he be able to save them, or will it ruin everything he's ever known?

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    Comments:
    13
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    109
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    Life is a beautiful thing, something that is given and taken every single day, the beginning of one is a miracle while the end is a tragedy.
    That's something I learned when I met Castiel. He came to me like a guardian, a guardian angel. He was there a long time, ever since Mom died. Cas was also there for the aftermath of John’s drinking. He was just….there. Without him I feel that I would have crumbled, stupidly ending my life prematurely as I thought about many times. Sammy didn't know about this, I always had to have the façade that I was fine. For him.

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    2,892
    Chapters:
    4/?
    Comments:
    5
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    12
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    231
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    Without his family, there just isn't anything left to fight for and Dean's ready to give up.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1
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    13
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    1
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    Castiel can sense somethings wrong.

    But can he get to Dean in time?

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    440
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    31
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    1
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    644
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    Dean stood in the middle of the bunker’s kitchen, staring in the direction of Cas’s room, still not quite at terms with what had happened. Yes, they had Cas back...but at what cost? Sam now bore the Mark of Cain, and Cas seemed to be nothing but an empty shell.

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    1
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