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    AU: Dean and Cas are 19 and 18, respectively, and have been best friends for six years. Cas is a senior in high school, but Dean has dropped out. Over the last few weeks, Cas has noticed a huge change in Dean. When he discovers Dean is using heroin, in addition to dealing with an abusive father and worsening mental illness, he struggles to keep Dean afloat while they try to figure out their relationship. This is the story of their first few years together, trying to figure out adulthood as Dean falls apart and Cas has to put him back together (while maintaining his own sanity).

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    English
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    240,409
    Chapters:
    81/?
    Comments:
    292
    Kudos:
    214
    Bookmarks:
    39
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    "Dean wasn’t certain just where in his life someone decided to put his chess piece next to Cas’ but he was damned grateful. Cas was willing to sacrifice himself for no other purpose than to protect Sam and Dean. Sure, the brothers had each-others backs no matter what, because that’s is what family is supposed to do, but Cas? He stuck around because he wanted to. Dean had never had anything like that in his life before; someone who knew all the skeletons in the closet and still stuck around. No matter the physical and mental cost to himself."

     

    Dean is going through with the plan that Death suggested and it struggling with some feels.

    Song is: This is Gospel - Panic! At The Disco

    Language:
    English
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    854
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    4
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    74
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    Dean went on a hunting trip, and he hasn't been back for a few weeks.

    Dean goes missing like his dad did way back when and Sam keeps an online journal about his experiences trying to find him.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    4,740
    Chapters:
    60/67
    Comments:
    13
    Kudos:
    52
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    830
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    Dean, Cas, baby Sammy, and an adventurous country childhood in small-town Illinois. Scenes from tentative early years to wild teenage ones, and adult ones so real and so sad I cried writing them.

    In which John and his boys buy their first real home, John tries as hard as he can, and eight year old Dean runs into a hick neighbour kid named Cas who shows him the ropes to small-town living.

    Rated M for later chapters, warnings for homophobia, alcoholism, references to past suicide attempts, minor drug use, suicidal thoughts, and a suicide attempt.

    Language:
    English
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    Chapters:
    8/?
    Comments:
    50
    Kudos:
    40
    Bookmarks:
    7
    Hits:
    510
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    He was happy, but that was before.

    Before his life went to shit. Before he lost the will to live.

    Language:
    English
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    1,854
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    23
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    318
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    Dean can't take it anymore. He's broken and too much like his father. All three chapters will be written as letters from Dean.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,108
    Chapters:
    2/?
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    16
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    233
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    Based on season 8 episode 6.

    Dean, Sam and Garth are busy with a case. In the case there is a penny, and if you touch the penny you want to kill the people you hate the most. Dean wants to stop someone who wants to kill someone, bit then he accidentally touch the penny.
    So Dean wants to kill himself, because he hates himself more then anybody else.

    Cas tried to stop him.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    2,237
    Chapters:
    2/4
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    20
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    573
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    Ever since Dean got back, Sam’s been angry and he sneaks away into the night—Dean knows it; Dean hears it. Sam’s found new things to hide. Sam is a man locked from the inside out.

    Language:
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    Words:
    2,535
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    22
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    627
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    They tried. They really did. They put everything they had into fighting it. And they lost. The ABO Virus was released and now unstoppable. Men's bodies changed to accommodate pregnancy, women's to grow a knot if they were Alpha.

     

    I'm on Tumblr too....stop in and say hi if you like :) http://spn-obsession.tumblr.com/

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    30,300
    Chapters:
    12/12
    Comments:
    166
    Kudos:
    306
    Bookmarks:
    31
    Hits:
    7682
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    "Hell is forgetting yourself and Heaven is only remembering, but all Dean needs is to stop. Never to be what he isn’t, but not to be what he is. He just needs to stop."

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,496
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    28
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    234
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    'People who have never been abused often wonder why a person wouldn’t just leave. They don't understand that breaking up can be more complicated than it seems.'

     

    * currently Under construction*

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    165,960
    Chapters:
    60/?
    Comments:
    178
    Kudos:
    213
    Bookmarks:
    33
    Hits:
    11720
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    Felicity finds a car parked on the side of a bridge and goes to help. What she finds is a man about to jump. Things happen, storys are told, and a very sad Gabriel tries to fix everything.

    Or, the Arrow/Supernatural crossover no one asked for, where Sam's in coma and Dean is depressed without his brother. No fluff. Only sadness.

    Language:
    English
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    3,501
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    11
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    239
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    The series started with Dean saying “Goodnight Sam”.

    What if it ended the same way?

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    932
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    17
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    251
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    Dean meets a boy who might help him.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    14,785
    Chapters:
    23/?
    Comments:
    114
    Kudos:
    48
    Bookmarks:
    8
    Hits:
    666
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    Castiel is working at his job as a librarian like every other day when a distraught green eyed man barges in and make his way towards the roof. Cas put two and two together and follows him up, he can't have another death be (in anyway) his fault.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,047
    Chapters:
    1/?
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    14
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    291
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    After Sam tells him in the kitchen that if the roles were reversed and Dean was the one dying Sam wouldn't have done anything. Dean realizes that he really is alone, Sam really doesn't care, and it's to much for Dean to handle.
    Will Sam get to him in time and will be be able to bring Dean back to him?

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,206
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    55
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    1215
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    Just a little rumination on Dean's death leaving Castiel with more unresolved feelings than he can hold.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    292
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    21
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    323
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    Sam is Dead and Dean hasn't seen Cas in months. Liquor isn't numbing him enough any more so he moves onto more self destructive methods of ending his pain

    Please don't read if you're triggered by Cutting and suicide

    Written because I am not a happy bunny

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    226
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    20
    Hits:
    453
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    The heat curled up towards his face as he teetered closer, toes hanging over the edge of the hole he'd dug, looking inside. He had never told anyone this, but sometimes, when he burned a body alone, when he unchained his mind, even briefly, he found it provocative —to lean just the tiniest bit forward and tempt gravity to take him.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    999
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    14
    Kudos:
    71
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    484
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    Alternate Universe;
    The day you wake up as 18 is the day you will find writing on your body. The first words your soul mate will speak to you that day. And the day Dean wakes up on his 18th birthday, he finds his words.

    Suddenly he is cast into a melee of mysteries that all lead back to one person. Will he be able to save them, or will it ruin everything he's ever known?

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    59,072
    Chapters:
    12/12
    Comments:
    13
    Kudos:
    110
    Bookmarks:
    21
    Hits:
    3164

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