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    After the tragic death of both of their parents as well as their sister the dysfunctional Novaks decide it's time to move for a fresh start. But a fresh start means a new school with new people and new problems. Castiel is the youngest of the five brothers and is also blind. He has never felt accepted by anyone but his siblings until he meets Dean Winchester and that all changes.

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    'Cause I feel so damn lost
    And it comes with a cost of being alone
    Everything is falling down
    We're suffering, helpless thoughts and
    Out we sing, prayers go to the sky
    And if the earth ends up crumbling down to its knees baby
    We just gotta get out

     

    'Ashton let the fog roll over him as he stopped feeling again, because feeling wasn’t necessary for this. Ashton simply became beating heart and electric nerves and outstretched hands.
    It didn’t matter that he was empty inside.’

     

    Or that fic where Ashton is struggling, Luke is hiding, and Michael and Calum just want to make things work.

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    14/?
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    Brief fic of Kaworu's past reincarnations and being in love with Shinji despite knowing he is an abuser. Asuka discovers she has more in common with Rei than she thought. This fic centers on Kaworu and Asuka's aftermath as they try to make sense of everything that has happened to them.

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    When Steve finally finds Bucky and brings him home to New York, their reunion doesn't go as planned. Bucky disappears into the bowels of the tower, avoiding Steve at all costs.

    Bucky believes himself to be broken beyond repair, unworthy of any contact with Steve Rogers. But having finally gotten a taste of being around Steve again, Bucky can't just leave - he needs Steve. In ways he believes prove he's a monster unfit to live.

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    1/?
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    'The boy behind him looked around his age, maybe a little older, with a slicked up quiff gelled just the right way, striking blue eyes, multiple ear piercings, a little silver lip ring and a long leather trench coat on with muddy timberlands at his feet.

     

     

    "Close your mouth, Dean." The boy laughed.

     

    "Huh?" Dean was genuinely confused at the boy's words.

     

    "Oh my god, are you being serious?" The boy chuckled and walked around the back of the chair, placing himself beside him. He ran his tongue over the little ring at the right hand corner of his mouth and Dean was still speechless, who the hell was he?

     

    "Damnit Dean, it's me, Cas." And the boy turned round fully, covering up his lip ring with two fingers to see if Dean recognised him any better without it.'

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    Pete is so wrapped up in self-loathing and the belief that his bandmates (and pretty much everyone) is better off without him, he resorts to cutting himself to shut the voices up inside his head and punish himself for being the horrible creature he believes himself to be. The only one who can help him is the one person Pete most wants to protect from the burden: Patrick.

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    Dean and Sam Winchester work for Bobby Singer as sea kayak tour guides for whale spotting in Anchorage, Alaska when they are hassled into doing a favor for Benny. What they didn't know is that this favor would subsequently change their lives forever- but is it for the better, or the worse?

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    Gerard Way is just a nobody. No one cares about the chubby black haired boy. People made fun of him for liking comic books and D&D. The Vice Principal is more liked than Gerard Way. He’s fed up and sick of this place he calls his school. He decides to take matters into his own hands.

    Frank Iero isn’t popular, but he isn’t unpopular. Everyone knows him as the music guy who’s in a band and people think it’s cool that he plays guitar. He’s possibly the most laid back guy you’ll ever meet. Frank is a happy dude who enjoys the small things in life and is very blessed with everything he has.

     

    Warnings of violence, school shootings, depression and suicide attempts.

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    7/?
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    When Ashton finally reached his home, limping, bruised and crying silently, the door flew open before he had the chance to reach for the knob and his father looked at him with such fury and hatred in his eyes that Ashton cringed involuntarily. Ashton just awkwardly stood on his own lawn as his father looked him up and down, nose crinkling in disgust as he saw the multiple bruises on his son’s face. Eventually he grabbed Ashton’s collar and dragged him into the house. Ashton yelped in pain when he stumbled over the threshold and fell to the floor, his ribs throbbing painfully. His father walked around him in circles, shaking his head disapprovingly, his face distorted from anger. He was like a predator, teasing its wounded prey, enjoying the moment before ending its life. Ashton watched the man he called his father anxiously from where he was situated on the floor, curling up into a ball, trying to make himself as small as possible, despite the stinging and throbbing and bleeding of his body.
    And eventually, the predator attacked.
     

    Or a soulmate au where everyone gets their soulmate’s injuries on their own body and Michael is worried sick about his.

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    After Stile's mother died Stiles turned to a less than healthy coping strategy. Cutting and restricting food has been his way of coping for several years and sees no end to it in sight. Enter Derek Hale. After seeing the mysterious and brooding Derek, Stiles becomes love struck but the voices in his head tell him that Derek will never return his affections. When Stiles falls prey to his old habits, something is different this time, he's not sure that he wants to ever stop. Cue Derek to save Stiles from himself.

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    5/?
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    10
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    "I'll make it out alive."

    "I'll never forget about you."

    Two broken promises.
    Two broken hearts.
    But no one is left to pick up
    Their broken parts.

    Eren's mother is dead.
    His father beats him.
    Sister oblivious to the real reason that he's dying inside.
    He deserves this. For it's all his fault, it's all the oncoming effects of his mother's death that he's blamed himself for. But, he'll live through it. And yet he won't. He won't live, just endure.

    Eren tries to distance himself from everyone else, but ultimately fails. Mikasa is forcing friends upon him, and he's finding it hard to find reasons not to like them. The blonde boy with the big blue eyes weasels his way into Eren's life, and soon develops a friendship. He has a fateful encounter with someone he feels that he knows, yet he doesn't.

    Eren finds that his self put up walls are slowly crumbling down into rubble beneath him.
    But is it for the better, or worse?

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    4/?
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    29
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    Post Avengers, non- Cap 2 and non- Dark World compliant.
    When Loki breaks into the Triskelion in search of the sceptre he'd left behind, he encounters trouble in the form of Steve Rogers and ends up in a SHIELD holding cell, while the good Captain attempts to figure out what to do with him.

    Rating will change and tags and characters will be added as they become relevant. This story will be Explicit at a later date.

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    8/?
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    A lot of things happen. Some good, other less so.

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    10/?
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    What if the memories Cas took from Sam are more than memories?
    What if Cas said "yes" when Dean asked him to get out of purgatory with him?

    There's only one true answer to both of those questions and that is that Dean doesn't have enough alcohol in his blood right now to deal with this.

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    14/?
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    Some things cannot be fixed no matter how much you want it.

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    The club is Dante's, the room is the Cage, and Dean is only there because he hates himself. He's buzzdrunk from the shots he had at the upstairs bar, and dizzy from the heat. Ugly music thumps his bones, the juddering bassline overlaid with exactly the sort of discordant techno-trash he otherwise wouldn't stomach in a fit. The Cage smells of sweat, sex and spilled beer, the tight space full of half- and near-naked bodies gyrating against each other and – shit, is that guy actually naked? He is, and the two men sandwiching him on the dancefloor look pretty pleased about it. Dean, in his jeans and tee, is practically overdressed, and as he stands there, equal parts aroused and ashamed, he has a brief moment of clarity. Get out. Go home. Stop punishing yourself.

    Almost, he does. But through the din and crush, he suddenly feels eyes on him, and when he finds their owner, he remembers why he came.

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    10/?
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    Patrick & Pete attend a party and Patrick's mind plays tricks on him and events unfold that either of them were not ready for. If you've read Pete's GREY Book, this can be relatable to it. It gets into a very meaningful story and I hope I replicated it within this well in later chapter. [Peterick]

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    7/?
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    He no longer sees himself when standing in front of a mirror.

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    "I've always been painfully aware of his presence; as soon as I walk into a room, my eyes automatically search for that swath of shiny black, picking him out in a crowd as if it was second nature.

    I don't remember when exactly I first started this, I just know that the first time I looked into those stormy grey eyes, I saw something that I guess I liked, because I've been pining after them ever since."

    --Eren's never been well-liked - or liked at all for that matter. All he wants, all he needs, is for Levi to notice him. Just a simple conversation would be enough, but he wasn't expecting... this.

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    10/?
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    CAN DISABILITY AND SUPERABILITY GO HAND IN HAND?

    Something that should happen and something that shouldn't exchange places by chance, and nobody wakes up quite the same. Great powers and great responsibilities send five patients and a doctor on a journey through a therapeutic process no medical equipment can recapture.

    A Superhero!AU. Work in progress; will likely be a work in progress for quite some time.

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    English
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    Chapters:
    16/?
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    11
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    2
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