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    Mystery wasn't fond of having to make others forget. He only ever did it twice, once to make Arthur forget he even killed Lewis. He didn't want to have to do it again. But with Arthur's pleading look, his desperation to escape the truth, Mystery couldn't find it in himself to object.

    "Please, Mystery!" Arthur cried. "I don't want to remember! Make me forget about him!"

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    He didn't posses romantic feelings towards Phil. He'd dated girls before, he knew that liking someone constituted thinking about them day in day out, wanting to be by their side 24/7, wanting to make that person smile no matter what.

    Dan didn't think about wanting to make Phil smile all the time. He just didn't want to see Phil upset. That was different right? It's natural not to want to see your best friend upset. So no, he at least knew that he wasn't romantically attracted to Phil. He ruled out having a crush on Phil. The only problem now was, he couldn't figure out what was causing his emotional turmoil.

    This is a story in the lives of Dan and Phil, and how Dan realises the true meaning of having an existential crisis. Life isn't worth living without Phil.

    Lots of angst, but I promise lots of fluff too. Prepare yourself for an emotional roller-coaster. Let's begin.

    New chapters out every Saturday :) Please leave a like or comment for me to improve, thank you! :)

    Note: All videos mentioned are credited to Dan Howell and Phil Lester

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    Your name is Karkat Vantas, and you are a mutant, a freak of nature with red blood, which is frowned upon. You have been safe for many sweeps, but now your eyes have betrayed your eye color and you have beem practically exiled onto an alien planet. It's a suicidal mission that only your superiors know about, and not one of your friends do.

    You are captured and taken into captivity, where you are tortured for information and studied like a caged animal because your species is alien to these...To these humans. These awful humans with their needles and weapons of torture, trying to hear you scream and decipher a language out of it, to see how you react to blood of animals.

    Eventually one of your friends hears of your capture and gathers a rescue team, but you have fallen for one of the humans there.

    Now your friends don't trust you either. You have affiliated yourself with the humans who have tortured you, and they don't know if you are a friend or an enemy. Everything is so mixed up and screwed that you feel like vomiting your own blood.

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    After his betrayal by Igmund Ulfric, still not recovered from the war and his captivity, wakes to find himself imprisoned once more; this time deep beneath Markarth, a city he has come to loathe almost as much as its corrupt, sycophantic ruler.
    He does not expect anything good to come out of that cesspit of a place, but surprisingly it does, in the form of the only company he has.

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    He continued climbing up until he reached the topmost branch that would allow him to sit, and placed himself right against the trunk, looking out over his childhood kingdom. For now, he would pick at the pine needles or the bark, in the hopes to rest his fidgety hands while he recollected the conversation from breakfast that morning.

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    Alec doesn't deserve the love and adoration that Magnus bestows upon him. He doesn't deserve the kindness and understanding his friend's and sister give him. And most of all, he doesn't deserve to be happy. So what happens when he can't take it anymore?

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    So I have a prompt list. Several actually. And every day I write a short story based off my prompt word/phrase of the day.

    All of them are Silmarillion-related (dips into The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings here and there).

    Expect everything ranging from utterly cliche romance to mildly explicit gore and horror. No one ever said Arda was a nice place.

    But do note that I won't be posting any smut here. Prompts are meaningful snapshots, and unless the sex is really important, I'll be skipping it to get to the point.

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    John Watson asks God to save him while wounded in the desert. When God does he figures he'd better pay him back. After two years as a vicar at a large parish he finally gets to move to a small town and have a parish of his own.

    Sherlock Holmes asks God to save him, while deep in depression. He receives no answer. Some people, it seems, have to make their own redemption.

    A man of God and an all out heretic, the only thing joining them being their thinly veiled self loathing. Well, that and the fact that they are swiftly, and with little mercy, falling in love.

    Hebrews 4:16-

    King James Version (KJV)
    Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

    Titus 3: 5-

    he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit

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    Bruce has no idea what is going on in the apartment above him but it needs to stop, ever since he moved in there has been nothing but shouting and stomping around. He is a no confrontational guy so it is not as if he wants to go up and make it worse. In addition, if the weight of those footsteps he keeps hearing is anything to go then he does not want to tangle with the guy up there.
    Everything changes when Bruce finally catches sight of his illusive neighbor, a tall thin man with long black hair. Who is currently shouting obscenities at a bearded blond, chucking high heels and. Was that a bra? Out the window at the man in question. Lovers quarrel. Who knows, but Bruce is just glad things are quiet. However, quiet is not always good and Bruce starts to notice things about his neighbor that send up red flags. Something is not right and as much as the young doctor wants to ignore it, he just cannot. There maybe more that meets the eye to the man upstairs.

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    The old bookstore wasn't your home anymore, you finally realized.
    It was with them.

    It was with him.

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    The trolls and humans go to a high school together on earth. All the trolls/humans going there have their own problems, but are some worse than others?

     

    // Gamzee has addiction problems and a personality disorder and he's trying his best to get better for Tavros, and help him. But what happens when he changes his personality and wants to hurt himself and Tavros instead. Drama promised. Fluff promised. Feels promised.//

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    Hinata's gay, and has a crush on Kageyama . He gets bullied and abused for it outside of school, especially by his father, and tries to hide it from everyone. He becomes depressed, and pushes himself away from everyone. How will his volleyball family, including other teams, help him get through this mess? (Also, little does he know, a certain someone likes him back. )A KageHina fic.

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    The man known as Dorian Pavus never made it south. In fact, he never even made it out of Tevinter before being taken by Qunari raiders.

    Three years later however, a Bas Saarebas bearing a remarkable resemblance to Dorian is rescued by the Inquisitor and taken to Skyhold, where the man insists that dying is his only option. Unwilling to accept that, the Inquisitor enlists Bull's help to find out if this dangerous thing can be saved.

     

    This is the cross-posting for a prompt I am currently filling on DAKM.
    The entire prompt can be found at: http://dragonage-kink.livejournal.com/15866.html?thread=60919546#t60919546

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    Prompt me any song and any Marvel pairing and I'll write a short drabble.

    Send your prompts to my tumblr ask box Prompts are CLOSED, keep those plot bunnies to yourself!

    The first chapter is the table of contents.

    Chapters with an asterisk (*) beside the title contain smut. ;)

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    A look into your life with Dean throughout the years. Starting when you meet him at the bar you work at, when he isn’t having the best night. There's some strange connection between you and the ex-soldier and you bond over the fact that you both have your fair share of problems.

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    ((MUST READ THE FIRST TWO WORKS IN THIS SERIES OR THIS WON'T MAKE SENSE))

    Hinata's perspective during his six months in America and returning home.

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    It all started with a fluff ... but just as with all pretty things, darkness lurks below.

    WARNING: contains depressive thoughts, self harm etc. More specific warnings with each chapter.

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    Just a short prequel one-off for Dorian that I've had laying around forever and never got around to posting. Set in the world of Andraste's Asta, it's the story of how Dorian left the Imperium, and what happened afterward.

    Super angsty, lots of self-loathing to start. Seriously, don't read it without noting the tags.

    People who have read my stuff before will recognize that I start out dark, and it gets better. This work is no exception.

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    I am not your dog. I am not your whore. I am not an Agent of Ren. I am not Kylo the Knightslayer. I am the child of heroes. I am the son of the sky.

     

     

    Kylo Ren: Before & After. (Spoilers for TFA)

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    They managed to win the game somehow. He's not really sure of the details, but it's not all it's cracked up to be. He's stuck in an unfamiliar body with a thirteen year old little brother who's terrified of him.

    Somehow, he is sure this is his fault.

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