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    Prompt: Write a fragment of a story that is made up entirely of imperative commands: Do this; do that; contemplate the rear end of the woman who is walking out of your life. This exercise will be a short second-person narration (a you is implied in the imperative).

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    Edward makes his decision in New Moon.

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    The club is Dante's, the room is the Cage, and Dean is only there because he hates himself. He's buzzdrunk from the shots he had at the upstairs bar, and dizzy from the heat. Ugly music thumps his bones, the juddering bassline overlaid with exactly the sort of discordant techno-trash he otherwise wouldn't stomach in a fit. The Cage smells of sweat, sex and spilled beer, the tight space full of half- and near-naked bodies gyrating against each other and – shit, is that guy actually naked? He is, and the two men sandwiching him on the dancefloor look pretty pleased about it. Dean, in his jeans and tee, is practically overdressed, and as he stands there, equal parts aroused and ashamed, he has a brief moment of clarity. Get out. Go home. Stop punishing yourself.

    Almost, he does. But through the din and crush, he suddenly feels eyes on him, and when he finds their owner, he remembers why he came.

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    Chapters:
    11/?
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    198
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    234
    Bookmarks:
    55
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    'Cause I feel so damn lost
    And it comes with a cost of being alone
    Everything is falling down
    We're suffering, helpless thoughts and
    Out we sing, prayers go to the sky
    And if the earth ends up crumbling down to its knees baby
    We just gotta get out

     

    'Ashton let the fog roll over him as he stopped feeling again, because feeling wasn’t necessary for this. Ashton simply became beating heart and electric nerves and outstretched hands.
    It didn’t matter that he was empty inside.’

     

    Or that fic where Ashton is struggling, Luke is hiding, and Michael and Calum just want to make things work.

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    15/?
    Comments:
    58
    Kudos:
    71
    Bookmarks:
    5
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    779
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    Okay so I suck at summary's. So if anything Ray is pretending to be a Beta until the team find's out Ray is Omega and try to make him feel conformable with himself and that everything is going to be okay. So as Ray try's to adjust with expressing himself, he runs into problems here and there and with his past experience, it's not easy. Though with Ryan by his side. he feel's unstoppable.

    GTA Url

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    English
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    2,423
    Chapters:
    3/?
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    39
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    990
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    With Odin asleep and Thor banished, instead of trying to use the Bifrost for his purposes Loki comes up with a somewhat different way of dealing with his Jotun problem…

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    2/2
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    2
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    16
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    215
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    When Steve finally finds Bucky and brings him home to New York, their reunion doesn't go as planned. Bucky disappears into the bowels of the tower, avoiding Steve at all costs.

    Bucky believes himself to be broken beyond repair, unworthy of any contact with Steve Rogers. But having finally gotten a taste of being around Steve again, Bucky can't just leave - he needs Steve. In ways he believes prove he's a monster unfit to live.

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    8,140
    Chapters:
    2/?
    Comments:
    7
    Kudos:
    69
    Bookmarks:
    9
    Hits:
    816
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    Wally keeps spending more and more time at Mt. Justice...

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    Chapters:
    4/?
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    4
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    1
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    Flashes of the time between Determined's end and the prologue of Dedicated...and maybe more?

    A glimpse at Damon's journey as he adjusts to life in the pack that loves him and Derek and Isaac's realization that Stiles has DID and the complications arising around it.

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    Chapters:
    3/?
    Comments:
    77
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    63
    Bookmarks:
    6
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    Dean and Sam Winchester work for Bobby Singer as sea kayak tour guides for whale spotting in Anchorage, Alaska when they are hassled into doing a favor for Benny. What they didn't know is that this favor would subsequently change their lives forever- but is it for the better, or the worse?

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    7,950
    Chapters:
    3/?
    Comments:
    1
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    18
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    176
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    Fernando Torres came from a family of Betas and had been told all his life that being anything else was to be at whim to animal urges and instincts. He had believed it and hadn't prepared to be anything but a Beta.

    Sergio Ramos came from a family of Betas and Alphas and no one expected him to be anything but a Beta or an Alpha.

    This ignorance has both Sergio and Torres at the wrong place and wrong time when they present and succumb to their instincts, creating a residual bond that should have faded away with time, age and distance.

    Except that it doesn't and it leaves them in a limbo where they need each other, but can't be together since Fernando can't easily shake off his family teachings or walk away from the duties he's gotten over the years.

    At least until circumstances force him to act, or lose Sergio permanently.

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    21,418
    Chapters:
    6/6
    Comments:
    30
    Kudos:
    71
    Bookmarks:
    9
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    1313
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    Kurt Hummel can feel there is something wrong with him, he knows there is but why would he admit it and fuel someone else's reasons to hate him, ruin the perfect relationship between him and his perfect Boyfriend, but this thing known as living is getting too troublesome in his eyes. But he has to.

    He has to keep breathing.

    Trigger warnings, Self harm, depression, Anxiety, self hate, set season 3 before the first time. Past Klaine.

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    2,320
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    2/?
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    1
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    What if the memories Cas took from Sam are more than memories?
    What if Cas said "yes" when Dean asked him to get out of purgatory with him?

    There's only one true answer to both of those questions and that is that Dean doesn't have enough alcohol in his blood right now to deal with this.

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    English
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    15,482
    Chapters:
    15/?
    Comments:
    2
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    11
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    2
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    A collection of drabbles in the voices of Carolyn, Arthur, Douglas and Martin. Listen to the tags as this work may be bordering on mature and I don't with to trigger or offend anyone.

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    1,611
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    21
    Kudos:
    13
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    132
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    'The boy behind him looked around his age, maybe a little older, with a slicked up quiff gelled just the right way, striking blue eyes, multiple ear piercings, a little silver lip ring and a long leather trench coat on with muddy timberlands at his feet.

     

     

    "Close your mouth, Dean." The boy laughed.

     

    "Huh?" Dean was genuinely confused at the boy's words.

     

    "Oh my god, are you being serious?" The boy chuckled and walked around the back of the chair, placing himself beside him. He ran his tongue over the little ring at the right hand corner of his mouth and Dean was still speechless, who the hell was he?

     

    "Damnit Dean, it's me, Cas." And the boy turned round fully, covering up his lip ring with two fingers to see if Dean recognised him any better without it.'

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    10,700
    Chapters:
    7/?
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    31
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    113
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    19
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    After the tragic death of both of their parents as well as their sister the dysfunctional Novaks decide it's time to move for a fresh start. But a fresh start means a new school with new people and new problems. Castiel is the youngest of the five brothers and is also blind. He has never felt accepted by anyone but his siblings until he meets Dean Winchester and that all changes.

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    7,036
    Chapters:
    4/?
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    9
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    40
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    8
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    510
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    Louis Tomlinson, twenty two, is admitted to a Mental Health Institution after he attempted suicide a little less than a month ago. Harry, his boyfriend, visits him everyday, without fail. But as time goes on it becomes more clear that maybe Louis isn't the one with the problem.

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    13,430
    Chapters:
    9/?
    Comments:
    29
    Kudos:
    125
    Bookmarks:
    16
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    Brief fic of Kaworu's past reincarnations and being in love with Shinji despite knowing he is an abuser. Asuka discovers she has more in common with Rei than she thought. This fic centers on Kaworu and Asuka's aftermath as they try to make sense of everything that has happened to them.

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    English
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    3,703
    Chapters:
    9/10
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    11
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    612
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    Pete is so wrapped up in self-loathing and the belief that his bandmates (and pretty much everyone) is better off without him, he resorts to cutting himself to shut the voices up inside his head and punish himself for being the horrible creature he believes himself to be. The only one who can help him is the one person Pete most wants to protect from the burden: Patrick.

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    English
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    6,006
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    16
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    123
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    Gerard Way is just a nobody. No one cares about the chubby black haired boy. People made fun of him for liking comic books and D&D. The Vice Principal is more liked than Gerard Way. He’s fed up and sick of this place he calls his school. He decides to take matters into his own hands.

    Frank Iero isn’t popular, but he isn’t unpopular. Everyone knows him as the music guy who’s in a band and people think it’s cool that he plays guitar. He’s possibly the most laid back guy you’ll ever meet. Frank is a happy dude who enjoys the small things in life and is very blessed with everything he has.

     

    Warnings of violence, school shootings, depression and suicide attempts.

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    English
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    17,501
    Chapters:
    7/?
    Comments:
    35
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    23
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    1
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    399
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    When Ashton finally reached his home, limping, bruised and crying silently, the door flew open before he had the chance to reach for the knob and his father looked at him with such fury and hatred in his eyes that Ashton cringed involuntarily. Ashton just awkwardly stood on his own lawn as his father looked him up and down, nose crinkling in disgust as he saw the multiple bruises on his son’s face. Eventually he grabbed Ashton’s collar and dragged him into the house. Ashton yelped in pain when he stumbled over the threshold and fell to the floor, his ribs throbbing painfully. His father walked around him in circles, shaking his head disapprovingly, his face distorted from anger. He was like a predator, teasing its wounded prey, enjoying the moment before ending its life. Ashton watched the man he called his father anxiously from where he was situated on the floor, curling up into a ball, trying to make himself as small as possible, despite the stinging and throbbing and bleeding of his body.
    And eventually, the predator attacked.
     

    Or a soulmate au where everyone gets their soulmate’s injuries on their own body and Michael is worried sick about his.

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    English
    Words:
    4,279
    Chapters:
    5/6
    Comments:
    22
    Kudos:
    77
    Bookmarks:
    7
    Hits:
    1300

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