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    Dean's been fighting a war within himself, between his thoughts and his emotions, the man he's meant to be and the man he's turned into. He doesn't even recognize himself anymore, doesn't recognize the foreign feelings and longing in his chest whenever he thinks about things he could never have. He's living two separate lives—one for himself, and one for his late father. The lines between those two Deans have always been blurry, but they grow more so every time they look at Cas.

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    Dean's life has never been easy. All the crap he has been through left him more broken than what he likes to admit.
    So it's really not a surprise that he drowns everything in booze and meaningless sex with strangers. Dean doesn't do relationships. Dean is every lady and gentleman's wet dream. He's the perpetual bachelor.
    Enter Castiel, hot painter and sex-on-legs.

     

    This was supposed to be a collection of smutty one-shots, BUT the plot just kinda appeared. I swear I have no control over this. Also, it got dark real quick. Most of the chapters can be read as one-shots, but in the end you'll get the angst.

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    (S8 AU) When Dean and Cas are blown to Purgatory Sam and Meg team up to find them. But their problems don’t stop with the rescue as they will soon realize since the forces of Heaven and Hell are hot on their trail. No slash (Megstiel)

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    Hiatus fic set after the S11 finale. Dean's alive, Sam's alive, they're going to get Cas from wherever he got zapped to, and everything's finally gonna be all right. Dean's on top of the world.

    A little voice in the back of his head is whispering "It's never that easy," but Dean ignores it.

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    Post 11x3 Cas may not be under Rowena’s spell anymore, but Sam and Dean can tell he still isn’t okay. Unfortunately, in trying to help the angel, Dean realizes just how not okay he is in the aftereffects of the Mark’s removal. Sam just wants to get both of his brothers through this. S11 Fix it. No Slash

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    Dean has problems. Cas has problems. Put them together, and you get Cas orchestrating the kidnapping of Dean from the bar Cas works at.

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    The hunt had been a hard one - had it not been for Castiel, Dean & Sam would no doubt have been a nice dinner for the Djinn. Thankfully, their angel swooped in last minute and put the fear of God into their attacker. Cas had a habit of saving them when they needed it the most. Dean thought about Castiel - the angel who had gripped him tight and raised him from perdition....and his thoughts started to wander. Dean was so lost in thought that he failed to hear the low sweeping noise of wings appearing in his room. (I'm truly terrible at summaries)

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    Castiel wants Dean. Dean wants Castiel. Crowley cannot deny Cas anything at all that he wants (and is rather eager to revisit his favourite former hook up).

    Threesome ensues.

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    If one of the brothers were to father an illegitimate kid (well, besides the short-lived one that was a supernatural Amazonian tasked with murdering her dad), Dean would’ve always assumed it would have been him. Even before the vasectomy he got after everything that went down with Ben and then Emma, Dean’s always slept around a hell of a lot more than Sam has—though he supposes that Sam’s stint without a soul may be the only existing exception to that rule, and if Sam was actively failing to use protection whenever he could get away with it for a six-month period—well, consequences like Blossom suddenly make a hell of a lot more sense. Still, it’s hard for Dean to wrap his head around the idea that Sam—his goody-two-shoes prima-donna little brother—could have been the Winchester to mess up badly enough to knock up a girl out of wedlock. That kind of shit has always been Dean’s line, not Sam’s.

    (Or: Sam knocks up the girl from the UFO-sighting camp while soulless, then faces the consequences three and a half years later. Canon-divergent AU of the Season 8 finale.)

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    Sam doesn't bother explaining, just tips his chin to let Dean see the livid bruising where the witch's doll strangled him.

    Dean hisses. "Jesus, Sam." Callused fingertips run down his neck, lingering over the mottled marks and exerting just the tiniest, fluttering bit of pressure before returning to the wheel. When Sam glances over, his brother is staring at the road again, too intent to be casual. "I guess I know why you didn't mention it, but... man, you gotta let me know if you're really hurting. There's a line when it comes to this kind of thing. A little sore throat is on the sure, okay side of the line, and my-throat-is-swelling-closed-'cause-I-got-freakin'-strangled-nearly-to-death is on the tell me right the hell away side."

    In other words... Placed after the end of 12.20, when Sam doesn't wake up to Dean frantically calling his name. Sam isn't okay, Dean isn't okay, and there's a laundry list a mile long of reasons why. Sam talks. Dean listens. Actual meaningful conversation happens. Sam might sleep in Dean's bed. There was too much pain and too little casual affection and care this episode, honestly. Needless to say, spoilers abound. Proceed with caution.

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    When Sam and Dean are hunting a witch, she notices something and decides to help Dean out...in her own way.

    NOTE: This fic is complete

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    Post Hell, Dean's body betrays him. His coping mechanisms are less than ideal.

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    Dean knew some lines shouldn't be crossed.
    There really shouldn't have been a reason why Dean was so angry over Castiel's sexual activities - yet he was.
    Dean shook with rage as he sulked on the floor of his cabin, imagining all the things that were going on in Castiel's cabin at the very moment. It was no secret that today was one of Castiel's scheduled orgies. Hell, the whole camp knew and any woman not currently in any sort of emotional attachment was probably there (and a few of the males in the camp as well).

    A shiver of rage ran down Dean's spine as he mulled that over for a bit. After Castiel's grace had left him, he had declared his interest in experimenting with sex. Shortly after, Castiel had announced that he had no preference when it came to gender. That revelation wasn't exactly a shocker, but it HAD made Dean quake in his boots. It was no doubt that he pined for the angel constantly. Even now, with his grace gone and being a burnout stoner, Castiel was hands down the most beautiful creature Dean had ever seen.

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    How old must Ben be by now, anyway—seventeen, eighteen? Sam can’t be sure, especially since Ben looks at least a few years older than his age, crazed grief carved deep into the sunken lines of his dirty face. How long’s it been since his last shower? They know nothing about his current living situation—whether he even has a stable one—because Ben, understandably, doesn’t seem too keen on providing any more detailed an account of his life than the vague and sweeping assault he made against Dean after first tracking the two of them to the outside entrance to the bunker.

    “You thought you were protecting them by leaving them alone,” Sam offers.

    “Alone and helpless. I thought I was doing them a favor. I told myself… but I don’t know, Sammy. This wasn’t for them. This was for me, my peace of mind.”

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    Dean reminds himself that he has to stop this, it’s damn selfish is what it is, if he’s going to take Sam’s food then he at least shouldn’t waste the money and calories like this. It’s just that Dean gets so sick with a belly full of food that isn’t his, not when they’re so fast running out and Sammy’s fast getting taller, growing up, going to be fourteen soon, if you can believe that.

    (Title from the Soundgarden song. Works as a standalone, but works even better in conjunction with series prequel "Have You Seen Me Lately.")

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    It was Valentine's Day.

    That right there should have been enough warning for them. Especially since they were hunting a witch that made people do really weird shit for love. The people they hexed had all said they did what they’d wanted to do but hadn’t been able to for whatever reason.

    The night went well enough. Sam and Dean both found someone to go home with.

    Gift for At_the_moment. Was supposed to be for their birthday but I'm horrible at remembering things. Enjoy ATMo!

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    Dean wears Castiel's trench coat and it leads to Cas asking questions and Dean trying to dodge them.
    This started out as a funny fic then the feels train hit me out of nowhere.

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    It had been three full weeks since they had rescued Castiel from the clutches of the worst parts of humanity. Dean had known Castiel was vulnerable and human yet he had STILL kicked his best friend out of the bunker anyway. The regret had set in instantly. After 6 weeks of Sam and Dean desperately searching up and down, they had finally found their former angel. He had clearly seen some shit and was no longer the rock of an angel they knew him to be. He was jumpy and skittish and quieter than usual.
    Homeless life had not been kind to Castiel and he was clearly still feeling the effects of humanity's cruelty.
    Sam and Dean had to fix Castiel.

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    Written for spnrarepair creation. Prompt: You know, there's a thousand bars. How unlucky am I that you came to mine?

    Post purgatory, when Dean ends up in Benny's bar after a bad hunt.

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