17 Works in Depressed Sam Winchester

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    Dean's been having these...weird dreams since he became a werewolf...

    They are like bits and pieces of imagery and Dean doesn't understand them one bit, always startling him awake. Being the first of his kind he calls Omegas, the first changed human. It's not like he can go around asking anyone if this is normal. Maybe he is overthinking this.

    Dreams are just Dreams.

    Though when his dreams start to show visions of the future, Dean wonders if they are really just dreams or something much more.

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    Castiel knew this was a stupid idea. But, he never had a chance to be a big brother before. And Sam was just begging for the comfort of an older sibling. Dean wasn't doing his job, so Castiel stepped up to the plate.

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    8/?
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    After a successful hunt, the two usually cracked open a couple of beers. It was their way of celebrating, but Sam had taken it to a whole new level. There was a tremendous difference between having a couple of drinks and downing the entire supply; a huge contrast between obtaining a buzz and getting hammered.

    Sam wasn’t ignorant. He knew what would happen if he drank and drank and drank, which could only mean one thing.

    Sam had wanted to get drunk.

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    Or the one where Dean finds a drunk Sam suffering over the barely explained Tuesday time-loop and finally learns the truth.

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    This is a sequel to A Season In Hell: Wanted Dead or Alive. Heavy Spoilers for Season 3 and Season 4. This takes place during the summer between "No Rest for the Wicked" and "Lazarus Rising" as Sam tries to save Dean from Hell and spirals out of control as a result of his failure. He copes with his grief in various ways, like alcohol and sex, and comes around to the idea of getting revenge on Lilith. The story will cover the events described in the Season 4 episode, "I Know What You Did Last Summer."

    Note: This story was previously published but I did a complete rewrite of the existing chapters and now plan to continue where I left off.

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    5/?
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    So Dean's met the new guy at work, and he's feeling a little mixed up about the whole thing. Naturally, he goes to his little brother for advice.

    Alternatively called;

    5 times Dean went to Sam for advice + the one time Sam went to him

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    Sam walks out after a fight with John, only to encounter an aggressive group of alphas. After he beats them soundly in a fight, they turn the tables and force him through a barbaric "bitching" ritual to turn him omega. John and Dean must now find a way to get Sam to behave like a "proper" omega, under the threat that Sam could be taken away, publicly humiliated and/or assigned to some other alpha. Sam resists, because he's still the same competent hunter he always was and he doesn't see why he should be treated differently. It all comes down to a painful-drawn out battle of wills between John and Sam against a ticking clock that will bring ramifications none of them expect. The Winchester family dynamics will have to shatter and be rebuilt from the ground up if the three of them are to come through this crisis intact.

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    21/?
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    Sam didn't know what to write. Suicide notes were tricky

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    No one could have guessed what would happen to Dean. Not even Sam, the one who was supposed to watch his back. All that matters now is finding a way to get him back.

    Before it's too late...

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    Dean reminds himself that he has to stop this, it’s damn selfish is what it is, if he’s going to take Sam’s food then he at least shouldn’t waste the money and calories like this. It’s just that Dean gets so sick with a belly full of food that isn’t his, not when they’re so fast running out and Sammy’s fast getting taller, growing up, going to be fourteen soon, if you can believe that.

    (Title from the Soundgarden song. Works as a standalone, but works even better in conjunction with series prequel "Have You Seen Me Lately.")

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    “O how he loves you, darling boy. Oh how, like always, he invents the monsters underneath the bed to get you to sleep next to him, chest to chest or chest to back, the covers drawn around you in an act of faith against the night.”
    Richard Siken

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    Chapters:
    1/1
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    1
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    22
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    “I’m offering you and your brother a way out of here. All you have to do is say yes. There’s the teensy little price of your soul, but I promise I’ll take better care of it than those idiots up there.”

    “Yes,” Adam said, the word strange and foreign in his ears, and the universe shattered.

    Aka the one where Adam sells his soul to the fairy folk in return for getting him and Sam out of the Cage. The time travel is an unexpected bonus.

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    6/?
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    23
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    He just needs a minute to himself, just needs to splash some water on his face and wake himself up. He’s just wound up from staying up all night; as soon as he can get three or four hours of sleep, he’ll calm down and know how to save Sammy, and he won’t feel like… like…

    Dean clenches his hands onto the ceramic edges of the sink and tentatively tilts his head up to the dusty mirror. There must be something in his eye, both his eyes, but it’ll flush out with water, and the whites are only bloodshot because he’s so tired, and as he twists on the cold water, he has a fleeting, hysterical urge to call Nancy and tell her—what, exactly? That Dean let his kid brother turn suicidal on his watch and he didn’t even notice?

    (Or: Thirteen-year-old Sam attempts suicide. Dean handles it, or at least tries to. Title from the Counting Crows song.)

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    The one where Sam makes a phone call.

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    1/1
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    2
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    91
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    5
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    Dean and Benny are best friends. Sam is Dean’s wheelchair using little brother, and he has a huge crush on Benny. Pity Dean hates him now.

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    Sam Winchester is finally at Stanford and out of hunting. Only now he's unable to drown out the things he's been hiding for so long

    Language:
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    1/1
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    2
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    58
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    3
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    It had the power to drown people, to let them die in peace, wiping away their memories of life, and taking away the threat of Hell or Heaven. If you died in the river Lethe, you would truly die in peace, never to feel the sting of your soul moving on.

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    For the spn kink meme.

    Original prompt:
    "I would love to read a fic where Sam hears some song on the radio (doesn't matter which one, author's choice!) and gets ridiculously mushy over it because it reminds him of someone (Jess? Dean? someone else?). If it's in front of Dean, I'd adore an awkward, stilted conversation between the two as Sam gets all teary-eyed."

    http://spnkink-meme.livejournal.com/82267.html?thread=30550619#t30550619

    Title is (adapted) from a Fall Out Boy song.

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