he leaves sand and stardust in his wake
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015), Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars Legends: Jedi Apprentice Series - Jude Watson & Dave Wolverton, Star Wars Original Trilogy
22 Feb 2016
The Master is solemn beside him, gimerstick thudding against the floor with every step. “One of the better days this is, for young Obi-Wan. With him now, his friends most likely are. Heading to Ilum tomorrow, they are, to continue their Initiate Trials. Young Obi-Wan will not be among them and grieve, they do.”
Qui-Gon frowns. “Was the Initiate supposed to go originally?”
Yoda’s sigh is heavy. “Promising, the youngling is. Had many hopes, I did. But with his mind in turmoil, go to Ilum to choose a crystal, he cannot. Not when the Force twists from his grasp and settles so violently about him.”
Qui-Gon cannot lift his foot for the next step. He seems rooted to the ground, an ache deep in his chest, a fear he tries to release into the Force building in his throat. “Master Yoda—”
“Like Xanatos, he is not.” The Master has stopped, too. His gaze burrows into him, deep and unforgiving and a touch sad.
“How do you know?” Qui-Gon’s voice tears his throat, too harsh for the healing halls.
“You will see.”
In which Obi-Wan Kenobi has lived his life. Has died. And lives again.
- Part 1 of he leaves sand and stardust in his wake
Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types
27 Feb 2016
Obi-Wan finds that he cannot help but love.
He has loved and lost more than he can count (as so many have), and still he does not know whether it would have been better if he had never loved at all.
Obi-Wan thinks loss starts with love. And maybe sometimes love starts with loss, too.
- Part 2 of he leaves sand and stardust in his wake
Fandoms: Star Wars: The Wrath of Darth Maul - Ryder Windham, Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Legends: Jedi Apprentice Series - Jude Watson & Dave Wolverton, Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace
12 May 2017
“Young Bant Eerin is having…difficulties.”
Feemor frowns. “Master, we have no way of knowing what she is truly seeing. It could be past, present or future— and we do not even know if the future she sees will come to pass.”
Even so, Bant’s visions are troubling, full of shadow and violence. At the centre of it all is one person. Sometimes man. Sometimes boy. Sometimes something else entirely. But it is always Kenobi, there is no denying that. His essence is the same, no matter how it twists and warps and crumbles.
“If we could only find him—” Qui-Gon interrupts himself, gaze far-off. “In another life, maybe, he could have been my- my padawan, but now…”
Feemor worries for his former Master. And for this strange youngling he's never even met, and likely never will.
In which Obi-Wan acts in the only way he knows how after a lifetime of regret and self-sacrifice.
But the thing with that is this: Obi-Wan has thought himself to be alone for far, far too long. And he is not the only player on the field.
- Part 3 of he leaves sand and stardust in his wake